好痛。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFioKeI1onH
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好痛，卻哭不出來。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRTGqWDiTb
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眼淚會讓人迷路。自從爸爸離家後，媽媽總是會對我這麼說。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3H83dtxdq
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或許是因為如此，我才會忘了怎麼哭泣。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj8N7rTdDxe
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但，即使哭不出來，國一的那堂體育課，我的膝蓋仍綻開了血淋淋的傷口；而那位名叫艾瑪的同班同學，才會向呆坐在地上的我搭話。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3obcZbeo8k
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『你現在在哪裡？』236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQIVW3WmIK
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說出這句令人摸不著頭緒的話語的，是因為孤僻的個性而在班上被欺負過幾次的陰森少女。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoeITOgIn7N
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雖然不受歡迎，卻長得很漂亮。墨水似的柔軟黑色長髮、洋娃娃一樣的細緻五官、怕被發現一般的淡淡薰衣草香。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvjJ4q7zdth
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她微微掀起裙角，露出左腳的膝蓋。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvBQD9aEmq9
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一塊紗布包裹著那裡。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZOXaNpEe1w
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『我們都在這裡呢，露娜。』她向我微笑。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVARZPJB2Z2
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如此怪異的說話方式，或許就是她會被欺負的原因吧。但我並不介意，因為我想我們在班上都一樣格格不入。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd22qsIwTik
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後來，她陪我一起到保健室。看見我沒有像其他同學一樣把她趕走，她似乎很開心。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS6Mj9vHI7o
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從此以後，她變得只黏在我身邊。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL2rxFUXuzS
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我發現我們有許多相似之處。除了都很安靜以外，我們還喜歡看書，也喜歡畫畫。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfXNU0VtqT5
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她買了一本筆記本，與我在上課時互傳、輪流塗鴉。我很喜歡艾瑪的塗鴉，她會畫她養的短毛貓高斯，以及她跟姐姐、媽媽——是的，我們都沒有爸爸。高斯這個名字是她姐姐取的，她的姐姐似乎很聰明，在鎮上的大學裡做大腦相關的研究。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnY2T4Cll0e
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轉眼間，我們就迎來國一升國二的暑假。放假後，我跟艾瑪常去不同地方玩，有時去逛書店，有時去看電影。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk959Qt5f98
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一次，我們去參觀科博館。那天艾瑪的話突然變得很多，到處向我介紹姐姐告訴過她的知識。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3PDO0rmQby
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我記得她站在科博館二樓的大腦模型前面，平時暗沉沉的眼睛閃閃發光。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFZbyhV4Gkw
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『露娜，你現在在哪裡？』她這麼問我。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01c5aQZrlz
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又是這個奇怪的問題。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhnYfQ8wXmi
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她逕自接著說道，人們在某個時刻的思緒和感受，好比位在一張巨大地圖上的一個點；而那張地圖，解釋了我們從何而來，可以往哪裡去。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6NjFJALZin
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可惜，那張地圖不是平的，而是立體的，或4、5，甚至更高次元的，所以科學家暫時還找不到它。若是找到了，人們就能知道怎麼從這件事想到那件事，怎麼從高興走到難過，怎麼從憂鬱走到康復。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnkdtIlwvRm
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這些都是她姐姐告訴她的。當然，我一點也不知道她在說什麼。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWKoGyJJvr
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開學後，我們又度過了數週平平無奇的學校生活。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYP4cl2c38X
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上課、塗鴉、放學時一起回家，一切都看似毫無異狀。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDsK4FAEYFp
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然而，隨著國二的尾聲到來，那件事情發生了。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcjQJbJY0J
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高斯死了。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJFGh7VhGt
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這是在艾瑪因為難過而兩個禮拜都沒來學校後，才從她口中得知的事情。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCXXN3OgM4j
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『就因為這樣？』236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhFDKbedRz
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那節下課，站在艾瑪的座位前，我脫口而出這句話。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFWsAuMifV
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我只是覺得她不因該讓自己那麼傷心。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcaTmpusdhh
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因為，眼淚會讓人迷路。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrqfDoxVRJc
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然而，艾瑪似乎無法理解我的意思。直到我看見她的臉垮下來，眼眶裡有淚水在打轉，我才知道我搞砸了。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPAt4IYXSyl
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後來，直到放暑假，她都沒有再來學校。我想了想，決定傳訊息向她道歉，但她只回了一次「沒關係」，就再也沒有回過我之後的訊息了。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnYfSk3KOI5
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暑假過後，三年級的開學日，我再次遇見艾瑪。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGqlJDZRXa
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她的樣子變得古怪。她的眼神更加沒有生氣、更不愛說話，沒人知道她發生了什麼事。大家都避開她，而我也一直找不到機會跟她搭話，只能默默的觀察著她。那本筆記本上再也沒有新的塗鴉。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEb27l992VB
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畢業後，我們又恰巧進入同一所高中。她就在我隔壁班。每次我經過，都會看見她一次比一次消瘦。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrTLUPaqQPe
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不久後，他們班的傳聞就傳到我們班上，說她得了癌症、她被家人虐待、她被附身了。有一次，我在辦公室聽到老師們聊到艾瑪，說她好像去了奇怪的教會。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhgWzV8OyHl
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高二接近尾聲的一日放學，我經過他們班，看到裡面空空如也。在她的座位上，我看見有幾束鮮花和燒過的蠟燭擺在那。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDeCG6M71w2
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艾瑪去世了。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFi5HlpLMg
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她是DMT中毒致死的，DMT是一種毒品的樣子，鎮上的報導是這麼說的。我不知道艾瑪為什麼會吸毒，也不知道她從哪裡弄來這種毒藥。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerfc2YLXQA
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然而，我告訴自己不能哭，不能迷路。大家都得在自己的路上繼續前進。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyRGziYrvhQ
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上課、作業、考試，一成不變的生活因此繼續運轉著，隔壁班似乎也一下子就忘了她。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGioa4ayppZ
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但，就在放假前一週的生物課上，老師跟我們分享了一個科學上的新發現。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGFuGQE3GYe
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他說科學家發現了一個多達數千億維的空間。這個空間記錄了人類大腦任何可能的思想狀態。科學家稱這個空間「意識宇宙」。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj88Kmn7Uwt
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當下，我想起了去科博館玩的那次，艾瑪所說的那張巨大地圖，還有怎麼從高興走到難過、怎麼從憂鬱走到康復。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bQhPQIRCb
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我感到一陣反胃。在以內急當藉口離開教室後，我跑向廁所。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ17a8xi5aDc
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跑著跑著，跟艾瑪有關的回憶不斷湧現。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNHR9f3NzT
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首先，是我與艾瑪的最後一次對話。那時的我只是希望艾瑪不要因為難過而迷失了，但我現在卻隱約明白，有什麼注定讓艾瑪流淚。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1kH2Ctgvf
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接著，是我們經歷過的種種。艾瑪和我暑假時常去的書店，艾瑪在筆記本上的塗鴉，還有艾瑪在那堂體育課向我說的那句話。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNndZQX8Yi
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我頓時恍然大悟。艾瑪讓我看她膝蓋的傷，並不是想說我們受傷的地方一樣——236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIxNBuHicR
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而是想告訴我，在那張以數億個維度所描繪的地圖上，我們在同一個地方。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs3yiL0DFFV
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我們一樣痛。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE8brbRGEZI
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——我現在在哪裡？236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVrAmT0pzMV
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好痛。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnvWOyfO8SE
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好痛，卻哭不出來。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84DgnOTqaT
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胸口就像膝蓋那時的傷口一樣刺痛；我停步在走廊上，難受的蹲下。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Zte4DXsM7
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我好希望當我抬頭時，能看見艾瑪對我微笑。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ786JBvq8IO
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但，倘若她還活著，或許只會回我一句「就因為這樣」。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFrZ9yALm43
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好痛，好憤怒。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD9evxCNJqd
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艾瑪迷失時，我拋棄了她。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGaRlYrqdJ
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我就這樣放手了，導致了這場悲劇。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZBjFANOh2R
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艾瑪死後，我仍假裝自己沒有迷路。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWYIOqBmsE
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假裝不珍惜她，作為我曾經最好的朋友。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4wlKiIbV32
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突然，彷彿不留給我任何喘息的餘地一般，我的手機傳來震動。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYj5LuwyBgx
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我懺抖著從口袋中拿出手機，將恍惚的目光投向螢幕。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRZH4DloIy
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我看見通知欄顯示的屬名和訊息內容。一時之間，我所有的思緒都停滯了。236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYSbkWEWCzk
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『艾瑪：』236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaAFge87Bmf
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『來地圖上找我。』236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4wmzSpffB
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