我呆咗一陣，指著自己，道：「妳細妹講嘅話，係真嘅嗎？真係因為我？」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jvXmR0Qnz
蔣美玲道：「呢件事係我自己決定㗎，完全唔關你事。」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNHB6XtB5p
我道：「但係點解……」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOw9xEGdCL
蔣美玲插口道：「我唔係講過俾你聽嗎？就算即刻做切除手術，都只有零點幾嘅比率能成功，而且也唔一定醫好，甚至可能變成植物人。我真係唔想變成植物人呀，要佗累屋企人照顧我下半世，咁樣好咩？」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPbcyL8BIur
我道：「我也可以照顧妳㗎。」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhWQaIMU0N
蔣美玲道：「咪傻啦，一世都係植物人呀，我唔可以咁樣過㗎，我接受唔到像個廢人咁俾人照顧。」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWVXWQL5sZ
我道：「但係……」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypDsU8K8y7
蔣美玲插口道：「唔好但係啦，請你尊重我嘅決定，如果你唔得嘅，你就現在即刻離開，當我哋無開始過，成為陌路人啦。」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8juFqPQgvJ
我道：「好啦，我尊重妳嘅決定。咁妳屋企人知道妳呢個決定未？」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfb3QQVXrIR
蔣美玲道：「知道啦，雖然阿爸阿媽都唔捨得，但係聽完我嘅解釋後，都接受了。就只係麗玲，總係唔明嘅。」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIiIEwo9cnL
我道：「哦，佢都係錫妳，關心妳啫。放心啦，我去開導下佢。」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYz1GdnS8gT
蔣美玲道：「你？麗玲好自我㗎，你一定會碰釘子。」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhYwHle6B3F
我笑著道：「唔緊要啦，我就去講講。我夜晚再來睇妳。」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBvbmpzrSz9
蔣美玲說了一聲「好」，我就離開病房了。316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJfRWHa1CO
我搭升降機下了樓，才發覺有一個問題，究竟蔣麗玲走了去哪？還在醫院裡？還是離開了醫院？316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgoZxCT1oNv
我心裡想：「先在醫院找找，找唔到才出去再找。」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2b0Npdyv5b
於是靠著我那不可靠的直覺，在醫院裡的每一個角落尋找蔣麗玲的蹤影。316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4AeUEfwySJ
我找了半小時有多，在醫院的隱蔽小花園裡聽到一把女仔哭泣的聲音，我就行了入去，便看見蔣麗玲背著我，坐在花槽邊。316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJkCxUAizNo
我慢慢地行到蔣麗玲身邊，坐在她的右邊，偷偷地看了一下她哭的樣子，然後從褲袋裡拿了一包已打開蓋的紙巾，遞給她，道：「眼淚鼻涕一面都係，很醜怪呢，來抹一抹吧。」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojrNv6Kdms
蔣麗玲一手拿了張紙巾，抹了抹眼淚和鼻涕，道：「唔好以為遞了張紙巾來，我就要承認你係家姐嘅男朋友呢。」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0jwM0UwqS5
我收了包紙巾，道：「其實係唔係男朋友都唔緊要啦，最重要係可以喺美玲餘下嘅日子陪住佢。」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTrmAK8yCO
蔣麗玲道：「連你也贊同家姐嘅做法嗎？」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPRnAu9cPd
我道：「如果妳成世人都係郁唔到嘅植物人，妳會點？」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Y4yuuwm5k
蔣麗玲道：「我都有諗過，如果係我，我也會有家姐嘅想法。」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ9DoABxbeD
我道：「咁就係啦，我哋應該尊重佢嘅想法。」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHYEwGGTw0
蔣麗玲哭著道：「家姐係我嘅親人，無咗佢，我以後嘅日子都唔知點過，我唔捨得呀。」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGoiWpewwjb
我道：「我都唔捨得呢，但我認了，命運係咁樣，都無法，唯有喺佢短暫嘅生命裡面陪伴佢，令佢開心地過埋餘下嘅日子。」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG9sSQpE5GM
蔣麗玲的頭挨到我的膊頭上，不停地哭，我的左手搭著她的膊頭，慢慢地輕拍著。316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGgTSyNfi6
我道：「依家就哭飽佢，但回到美玲身邊，妳就要笑了，唔好俾佢擔憂妳，為佢最後嘅生命留點美好嘅回憶。」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt8Iz12Dpc1
蔣麗玲點了點頭，又繼續哭下去。316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdPhzt8nqDh
哭了很久很久，她的眼淚都流乾了，心情開始平和一點。316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj5GhMFRUFE
她感到肚子餓，於是我哋去了醫院的餐廳大樓吃個午餐，順便一起談論怎樣令蔣美玲快樂地過埋餘下的日子。316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVdNTdP0MD
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就是這樣，每日中午和晚上的兩更探病時間，我和蔣麗玲都會來陪蔣美玲。316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJsrvSnxBz
除了陪蔣美玲吃飯外，我哋還會一邊睇電視，一邊討論劇集的內容。316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYgyklwUXJ
有時我哋會輪流讀小說給蔣美玲聽，有時還會一起看漫畫，吵吵鬧鬧又一天。316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapYFDZ9lsB
日子一天一天的過去，蔣美玲身體也日漸變差，漸漸地連進食、呼吸也困難，開始插喉吊鹽水，要用醫療儀器輔助，然後又過了一段日子就昏迷不醒。316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ9A1x7Bq79
醫生說蔣美玲差不多捱不住了，問她的父母，會不會考慮一下幫她做手術。316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0CaXCv0q72
開始的時候，因為蔣美玲之前的意願，而令她的父母也拿不定主意，我和蔣麗玲也不能提議什麼，最後她的阿爸決定了，不理任何風險，就簽了醫療文件讓醫生做手術。316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn7BF8LMsTH
但可惜命運總是達不到人願，蔣美玲未到手術室前，呼吸和心跳相繼停止了，結果醫生宣告她正式死亡。316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQ6e67WbWd
蔣美玲的阿媽哭得一塌糊塗，她的阿爸忍痛地攬著她的阿媽來安慰，我也借了個膊頭給蔣麗玲哭泣。316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbq0igaqymm
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又過了一星期，蔣美玲的死亡證一辦理好後，就在殯儀館舉辦喪禮，有好多親朋戚友來送殯，也包括我和王希兒、高志軒。316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhD0cdnOJoF
我哋來到蔣美玲的靈堂前，一躹躬、再躹躬、三躹躬，家屬謝禮，然後和她的家人安慰了幾句，就坐埋一邊聊聊近況。316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUdB3Y8K9P
王希兒道：「樂仔，你心情還好嗎？」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZqTJhtyD4c
我道：「起初就會匿埋自己喺床上憂傷，但隔咗一排，諗通了，心情就放寬啦。」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLl6e7pJ6g
王希兒道：「咁就好了，我哋之前還擔心你呢。」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcj8o3gvslf
我微笑道：「妳唔係講過嗎，我係好堅強㗎，咩難關都能過，放心吧。」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3n2dIoUsB3
王希兒道：「咁我哋就放心了，既然你無事，有件事要告訴你。」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIbzVxgK4dD
我好奇地道：「咩事？」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOapiOhlBC2
王希兒道：「有次我和志軒經過某某商場嘅後樓梯，見到一地都是玻璃酒樽，好奇望咗一望，你估我哋見到邊個？」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡomhPfwtcf9
我好奇地道：「邊個？」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZrlQZORg9J
王希兒道：「正方呀，佢居然學人飲酒，仲要係飲好多。」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3rEfsANsyo
高志軒道：「係囉，都唔知佢發生咗咩事而咁樣。」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvS0sWoXACt
我皺了眉頭，道：「唔，完咗呢面嘅事，我就去了解正方嘅事了。」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkVclORpYcY
王希兒和高志軒異口同聲地說了一聲「好」。316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zaMGGRxNO
待靈堂一切儀式完成後，王希兒和高志軒先行離開，而我就隨同蔣麗玲和她的家人乘車去火葬場。316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbxKIUd8bA5
把蔣美玲的遺體火化，並經過處理後，便拿著她的骨灰去沙田萬佛寺安放在龕位裡。316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGCBDemSLST
當要點香拜祭時，我有意無意之間看到不遠處的龕位上寫著一個很熟悉的名字「郭芯柔」。316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3hPP2eyv2
我摸著頸項的玩具戒指，走上前再看清一些，上面的一幅相是個十幾歲的少女，樣子有點像小時候的玩伴郭芯柔（請讀者自行翻查《樂仔幼傳》第一部）。316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfkysbvlNE3
我心想：「真係佢嗎？」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Erv4TByR8
蔣麗玲睇見我沉默地看著一幅相，也走了過來，問道：「識嘅嗎？」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUW5cw4dmFc
我茫然地道：「好似係，又好似唔係……」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLQS5mD3AB
蔣麗玲拉著我的手臂，道：「哦，既然唔肯定，就唔好諗。來，裝炷香俾家姐先。」316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4VVY4EHgLj
學她所說，這可能是我多心了，我唯有跟著她行去蔣美玲的龕位前上香。316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6D9Tl6pHjG
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雖然我在朋友面前，表現得無什麼事，但心裡仍是會有點憂傷。316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVg5Fk4FcSu
希望日子一天一天的過去，心裡的憂傷會慢慢退去。316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnG0TmT1L4H
過多幾天就是開學日，我又要為學業打拼了，為自己打氣吧，努力加油！316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6P7y2jELYA
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