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No Plagiarism!AfgVLcowj7xxeIKq8cqKposted on PENANA 「唔應我係咪即係咩都好過我呀?」我失落地問。8964 copyright protection118PENANAy6572fEaC9 維尼
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我故意地逼迫他回答,因為我需要一個殘忍得足夠令我死心離開的答案。8964 copyright protection118PENANAKgQIOQqr6n 維尼
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Andus聽後停下腳步,回頭望向我。8964 copyright protection118PENANAQdxRDoXhhl 維尼
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「唔係好過你,你好佢好多。唔會發我脾氣,又好關心我,好獨立⋯⋯又好識嗲我。」他温柔地說。8964 copyright protection118PENANA34Qrr6Cq7R 維尼
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Andus 的手放在我的頭上,一下一下地輕輕的撫摸着我的頭髮。8964 copyright protection118PENANAKb7EUMZauJ 維尼
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我不是想你給我個比昨晚還要殘忍的答案嗎?為何到了這刻才又用上一字一句的温柔去挽留我呢?8964 copyright protection118PENANA2kkyYaXR0U 維尼
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「咁⋯⋯到底係點解呀?」我失落地問。8964 copyright protection118PENANAebcTyNsbyn 維尼
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Andus 深呼吸了一口。8964 copyright protection118PENANAaABnt3oQKg 維尼
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「我⋯⋯係佢第一次⋯⋯」他說。8964 copyright protection118PENANAPqx7ZwZNve 維尼
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「哈!原來係因為我唔係第一次呀。」我呆了兩秒後低聲地恥笑自己。8964 copyright protection118PENANAsWR3nbMuvh 維尼
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那一句話,就好像在寺廟內敲響那個祈福的大鐘一樣,清澈地在我腦袋中迴響。每一字一句都深深地刻在我的血肉內。8964 copyright protection118PENANAhJ0IuIq0xQ 維尼
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原來我一直執着想知道,令Andus對我卻步的原因,就只是因為我不是處女。8964 copyright protection118PENANASlSUDPunQc 維尼
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我因為Norman是第一次所以放棄他,可笑地我卻因為不是第一次,而被Andus所放棄。8964 copyright protection118PENANATjohdEYXem 維尼
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「你去揾佢啦,我未想翻屋企住。」我故作平靜地說。8964 copyright protection118PENANA9y8KqfeCfD 維尼
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我沉默了一會之後,努力忍着已經在眼眶打轉的淚水繼續說話。8964 copyright protection118PENANAxmEKiXwGaf 維尼
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「又做咩呀?」他不耐煩地說。8964 copyright protection118PENANARWR4zKNJKb 維尼
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「咁你揾佢食lunch,我都要去食lunch嘅啫。」我說。8964 copyright protection118PENANALsJGu2ykh7 維尼
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「咁你自己小心啲喇。」他摸着我的頭髮,温柔地說。8964 copyright protection118PENANAjSpc0Mb4Qg 維尼
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「得啦~大個女~你走先啦~我想望住你走。」我說。8964 copyright protection118PENANAKYBihS2a8u 維尼
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「你唔好咁啦。」他無奈地說。8964 copyright protection118PENANAJO6yfLNPKa 維尼
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我沒有回應,直接伸手拉着他西裝的衣領,把他往我身邊拉過來,踮起腳尖温柔地吻住他的雙唇。8964 copyright protection118PENANATiM0h6EOTw 維尼
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「做咩事呀~」Andus伸手温柔地抱着我。8964 copyright protection118PENANA12DcUj49CY 維尼
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「無呀~生日快樂呀。」我努力擠出笑容地對着他說。8964 copyright protection118PENANA8aHhtpZWnV 維尼
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「你記住你應承過我,每日都會揾我㗎!我之後就唔主動whatsapp你喇。」我說。8964 copyright protection118PENANAHGNnjGYqCw 維尼
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我強忍着快要溢出眼眶的淚水,把他拉到我面前跟我臉貼臉的,着他看到我此刻的模樣,好讓我的臉龐刻在他的腦海中。8964 copyright protection118PENANAj7UwJxTp0H 維尼
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因為身高差的關係,我永遠只能抬頭仰視,看着Andus龐大的身軀。就跟我與他的關係一樣,他永遠是操控一切的掌舵人,我就只能在背後乖乖地聽他發號施令,聽從他所有的指令。8964 copyright protection118PENANA6YC5ALQRob 維尼
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其實到最後我還有最後一句始終沒有說出口,就是⋯⋯8964 copyright protection118PENANAVoup2Acp4Q 維尼
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『當你無再揾我嘅時候,我就知你決定唔要我㗎喇。』我心想。8964 copyright protection118PENANAvhMxMEnB4t 維尼
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「係喇~你翻去都小心啲啦~我哋一齊分開行啦,你望住我走好似好怪咁。」他說。8964 copyright protection118PENANAv1aRpK4XvW 維尼
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「好啦。」我說。8964 copyright protection118PENANAj3uQfGpe7L 維尼
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Andus 低頭沉沉地吻了我一下,之後就搭着我的肩膀,把我整個人轉到背對着他。8964 copyright protection118PENANAmhNFKwdC0A 維尼
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「咁我走喇~我食完飯再揾你啦~」他蹲着身子在我耳邊低聲地說。8964 copyright protection118PENANAZcUKU1rqwu 維尼
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我感覺到Andus 在我臉上親了一口,摸了摸我的頭轉身離開。我大概停下五秒以後便回頭眺望Andus的背影。8964 copyright protection118PENANAYf63fea87z 維尼
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望着那個已經走遠的背影,我知道。其實我永遠也無法跟他一輩子走在一起,我或者是他路途上其中一個女人,但永遠不可能是最後的一個女人。8964 copyright protection118PENANAWon602rH7A 維尼
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直到無法再看到Andus的身影後,我便徐徐走到尖沙咀碼頭,坐上了前往長洲的渡輪。8964 copyright protection118PENANATbstZm9W76 維尼
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我不知道為甚麼會選擇到長洲,我只知道我實在不想就這麼大白天便回到家中喝悶酒。坐在輪船上,我回想着與Andus認識以後的種種一切,我終於忍不住痛哭起來。8964 copyright protection118PENANA5NyWCsPIQj 維尼
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豆大的淚珠一滴滴地從我臉上滴在我面前的地下,我不知道身旁的乘客會否發現我在痛哭,我也不太在意,因為就算發現,我也止不住早已翻湧多時的淚水。8964 copyright protection118PENANAZOAC8FWpvO 維尼
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我努力從手袋翻找紙巾,抹掉已經被我哭花的妝容,忍住涰泣的聲線,希望盡量不要影響到旁邊的乘客。8964 copyright protection118PENANAY4lf2Sn5g6 維尼
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渡輪靠岸後,我頹廢地走出碼頭,幻想着腳下的每一步都是早前Andus跟小女友走過的足跡。8964 copyright protection118PENANA1JyEqNPBeq 維尼
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由於假日長州特別多人,我走了好一段時間,好不容易才在泳灘的角落找到個位置。我坐在泳灘旁邊的石牆上,拿出那盒被Andus不屑一顧的Tiramisu ,一口一口地挖了出來,塞到自己口中。8964 copyright protection118PENANA4TppJai26q 維尼
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其實這盒Tiramisu並不甜,反而我加了雙倍的咖啡粉去取代大部分的可可粉,另外還加了雙倍的RUM酒去製成,所以吃起來應該偏濃,甚至帶甘苦。不過,應該總不會夠我現在的心情苦澀。8964 copyright protection118PENANAAFhH8tcGiT 維尼
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現實中的我因為天生「黑面」,只要不把笑容掛在臉上,就總會被身邊的人覺得我在發脾氣。8964 copyright protection118PENANA19XITph558 維尼
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亦因為不善交際,所以我有一個習慣,在心情極為低落時,總喜歡一個人坐在海邊,打開電話的錄音或者錄影模式與自己聊天。8964 copyright protection118PENANAEvqRQ1TgXJ 維尼
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總感覺只要將當天的心情錄製下來,就能把心中一切的不悅好好封存,到我他日已經將情感放下時再翻看,總希望我能笑着面對一切一切。8964 copyright protection118PENANAKDryw1wXg0 維尼
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我在海邊坐了良久,身後已經有一對對的男女,一群群的年輕人在旁邊往渡假屋的路上經過。8964 copyright protection118PENANAEWzCWj5PtU 維尼
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當我準備站起身離開回家時,我發現我終於收到Andus的Whatsapp訊息。8964 copyright protection118PENANAKlCzUK6uYy 維尼
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『我食完喇。 05:54 PM』Andus的第一個訊息。8964 copyright protection118PENANA3XO4uMGA2L 維尼
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『其實我真係唔想你唔開心㗎。 06:00 PM』Andus的第二個訊息。8964 copyright protection118PENANAlaxzRUsFrk 維尼
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『我真係無嘢呀~ 06:01 PM』我回覆他。8964 copyright protection118PENANA6C8xMmrj9e 維尼
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我默默Mute & Archive了跟Andus只有這三句的Whatsapp對話紀錄。8964 copyright protection118PENANAfMd3ftVD8y 維尼
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因為我想賭最後一次,看他能否看穿我的「無嘢」其實是希望得到他的關懷和珍惜。8964 copyright protection118PENANAHl5CCrVv3a 維尼
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