回到曦原的隔天,沈渝只讓自己休息了二十四小時。
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沒有過度放空,也沒有特別放縱,只是讓身體徹底沉進床墊、讓腦袋短暫空白,然後,重新開機。
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星期一一早,他準時走進辦公室,穿著一貫的俐落黑西裝、素面白T、髮絲整齊,和平時沒什麼不同。
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他打開筆電,熟練地篩信、標記、回覆,切換專案資料夾、安排內部會議流程。出差前後的落差他早已習慣,那些被延後的簡報與代辦清單也如預期地推山倒海而來。
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但今天的沈渝,其實不太一樣。
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因為他心裡藏著一個還沒說出口的決定。
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午休前,他敲了段如菱的門。
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「我想排個時間,跟你談一下未來的工作規劃。」他語氣一如往常平穩。
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段如菱抬頭看他,眉頭微挑:「要離職?」
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沈渝搖頭,笑了一下:「不是,是想申請留職停薪。……一年。」
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那一秒空氣安靜了下來。
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他沒解釋太多,也沒舉出一堆理由。因為那晚與白湛的對話,他終於承認——自己不是撐不住,是不想再一直撐了。
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「我想休息一陣子,真正地,休息。」
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不是轉職,不是請假,而是一次主動退出日常循環的選擇。
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不是逃避,而是沈渝第一次允許自己——不當那個什麼都能解決的人。
段如菱沉默了幾秒,低頭翻了翻沈渝的工作排程。22Please respect copyright.PENANALdm5V6bBSJ
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「你是真的需要休息,這我看得出來。」她語氣難得放軟。22Please respect copyright.PENANAN1E8OwV1MP
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但下一句還是帶著難以割捨的無奈:「只是……有些案子,真的沒有人能替你處理。」22Please respect copyright.PENANApzhq9sriEL
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沈渝早有準備,平靜地點頭:「我知道。那幾個客戶如果有變動,我會線上支援。簡報、技術資料或進度會議也都可以線上參與,其他的部分我會交接清楚。」22Please respect copyright.PENANAZDdanfDmjI
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段如菱抬頭看他,眉頭仍皺著。22Please respect copyright.PENANAjQd4SgYftk
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「這種『放一半』的假,對你來說會不會根本休息不了?」22Please respect copyright.PENANApKbSSkDDyJ
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沈渝微笑:「我會自己拿捏底線。但如果不先讓自己停下來,我可能永遠不會有機會停。」22Please respect copyright.PENANAVjNdqJmMgy
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房間一陣靜默,最後,段如菱點了點頭。22Please respect copyright.PENANAXQhTm9Fjdf
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「給你一個月時間交接,休假從下個月開始。」22Please respect copyright.PENANASzMRRUPHho
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沈渝微微一笑,語氣誠懇:22Please respect copyright.PENANAeMn9U5iELd
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「謝謝你。」
夜深,城市安靜下來。22Please respect copyright.PENANAcAmFGONmIq
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視訊那頭的沈渝披著一件薄毯,背景是他熟悉的公寓沙發,還能看見桌上的底片罐與一盞半熄的檯燈。22Please respect copyright.PENANAfAMxsanMVC
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「我主管今天批准了留職停薪。」沈渝開場的語氣雲淡風輕,像說著某個會議結果,「一個月後,我會有一整年的假期。」22Please respect copyright.PENANAs3RzynFbPM
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白湛在片場休息室裡,靠著牆坐著,還穿著戲服,臉上有未卸的妝,但笑意真實。22Please respect copyright.PENANA1Re7d4uA9n
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「哇……直接消失一年啊?」他半調侃地說。22Please respect copyright.PENANAf9y0UelYUu
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「不是真的消失啦,只是……想做一些一直拖著沒做的事。」沈渝笑了笑,語氣第一次沒有職場銳氣,而是某種孩子氣的憧憬。22Please respect copyright.PENANAjlXLCnqReN
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「像是把我堆積三年的底片洗出來、掃進電腦……」22Please respect copyright.PENANAOBz0epXsgV
「也想一個人去旅行……環遊世界那種……雖然太理想化。」22Please respect copyright.PENANAzTkt8a5tpj
「我還想走一次朝聖之路,從法國那邊走過去。」22Please respect copyright.PENANAFPLoQOVybn
「也想去學衝浪。說不定會被浪打爛,但想試試。」22Please respect copyright.PENANAgOapYPrDcM
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他一邊說,一邊低頭翻著筆記,像是在讀自己的夢給他聽。22Please respect copyright.PENANAAjNcKJa0z9
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而另一端的白湛,雖然整天拍戲累得不行,卻沒打斷,只是靜靜聽著,眼神柔得不像螢幕裡的人。22Please respect copyright.PENANAbuXP2I56Rp
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「你這些……我都想聽你一個一個實現。」他輕聲說。22Please respect copyright.PENANArps0sIlNJO
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沈渝停下來,看著螢幕,眼神帶一點困意,又有點笑意。22Please respect copyright.PENANAoBasoaoQgj
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「等我開始行動時,再一個個報告給你。」22Please respect copyright.PENANANVxmWjgY9M
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白湛點頭,嘴角一抹微不可察的笑:22Please respect copyright.PENANApyM1M9BeUI
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「那我也要趕快拍完,才能有時間當你的聽眾。」
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沈渝說完他的計畫,語氣慢慢平靜下來。22Please respect copyright.PENANAKZ94qA8Zi8
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他望著螢幕裡還在笑的白湛,忽然換了個姿勢,靠得更近了一點,語氣像是隨口一問,但眼神是認真的:22Please respect copyright.PENANABkikOla390
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「那你呢?」22Please respect copyright.PENANAZRlgDl68Ye
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白湛一愣,似乎沒想到沈渝會問得這麼直接。22Please respect copyright.PENANAUtZppcGWTO
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「你不是說戲拍完有半年假期?那你打算做什麼?」22Please respect copyright.PENANAoZgMeesmJS
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白湛低頭笑了笑,手指在咖啡杯邊緣轉了一圈,像是在想該怎麼說——22Please respect copyright.PENANAP4p2InrULg
該說「休息」嗎?該說「想見你」嗎?還是該說「其實我還沒想好」?22Please respect copyright.PENANAVsORxDmoy0
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最後,他抬起眼看著沈渝,語氣輕得像風:22Please respect copyright.PENANAVpgLJUZcnF
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「我原本沒有什麼特別的計劃。」22Please respect copyright.PENANAopW76j6Osf
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「但現在……」他頓了一下,笑著補了一句:22Please respect copyright.PENANAkHNzuJZmu6
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「好像開始想看看你說的那些地方長什麼樣子了。」
沈渝聽完白湛那句「想看看你說的地方」,嘴角勾起一抹玩味的笑。
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他撐著臉,語氣漫不經心地說:
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「那你要好好規劃一下喔,畢竟我可是打算環遊世界的人。」
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他頓了頓,眼神閃了下,像是順手點燃一根語言的火柴:
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「說不定在某個海邊會遇到個高富帥的潛水教練喔。」
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白湛皺眉:「你這樣對一個還在趕通告的人說這種話,不覺得太殘忍嗎?」
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「只是先提醒你有競爭者的風險。」沈渝攤手,一臉無辜。
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白湛瞇眼笑了,語氣帶著咬牙切齒的寵溺:
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「那我只能先請導演幫我把戲提早殺青了。」
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兩人隔著螢幕笑起來,語言的針鋒相對裡,藏著某種真實的牽掛。
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夜裡,片場燈光依舊明亮,工作人員忙進忙出,白湛坐在一個角落裡,化完第二次妝,手邊放著冷掉的咖啡。
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螢幕那頭的沈渝還開著鏡頭。
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「你現在要拍夜戲了吧?我陪你一下。」
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沈渝靠著沙發,聲音有些倦,但眼神還清醒。他一邊說,一邊拉了拉毯子,把手機擺在桌角對著自己。
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「沒關係,你去睡吧。」白湛低聲說。
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「我不睏……」
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話還沒說完,對面的人已經開始長時間沒出聲。
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白湛看著畫面裡那張漸漸沉靜下來的臉,眼神柔了下來。
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沈渝睡著了。
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那種毫無防備的睡,讓他有些不習慣,也有些感動。螢幕微亮,映在白湛的臉上像一道不敢碰碎的光。
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他沒有掛斷視訊,只是將手機稍微靠近,像是能離他更近一點。
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然後,他終於打開了手機備忘錄。
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輸入幾個字:
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「曦原。朝聖之路。潛水教練。」
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他笑了笑,低聲說:
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「你先睡吧……我慢慢想你,也慢慢想我的假期該怎麼排。」