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天陰雨冷，我套上短褲波鞋前往戶外運動場。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOWlDwf7oA5
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如我所料，跑道無人。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZu3ez7h8LY
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我淺淺一笑，在場邊開始熱身操。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYvG8ct7GK
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運動向來予人熱血激昂、活力澎湃印象，與壞天氣格格不入，但我偏偏更喜歡在如此晦暗不明的環境下慢跑。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIv9G4SqPA
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踏，行，走，跑。步速漸快，呼吸漸促，身體漸暖。身體的熱，風雨的冷，對比強烈。正好——寒冷反襯出溫熱的舒適，壞天氣反襯出好天氣的可愛。壞天氣其實不是絕對的壞，對吧？245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3M3Maiyupb
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首圈，身體在冷與熱、繃緊與舒張之間來回探索、調整與適應。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjd3GH7FBMy
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次圈，呼吸已然找到合適節奏，大腿肌肉的輕微抽筋狀態亦已退去。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPurM6357BN
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第三圈，精神開始失焦游離，在路面情況、身體狀態、生活瑣事、放空境界之間不停切換流轉。這種狀態持續至第六圈開始。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWAZHf9WJmi
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第六圈，精神狀態不得不回歸現實——我的身體狀況正處於極限邊緣，務必倍加留意。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUYO8mzB9F6
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聽說，只消比自身極限多跑一步，極限就會多加一步。換言之，我每次的盡力與堅持均能將我的極限越臻極至。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwOh21dBR2B
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多麼令人興奮的一回事！245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpPp56XKnSp
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但問題是：我的極限處於甚麼程度？245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNeB3buqGR7
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如果低估自身極限，我就難以推高真正的極限。如果高估自身極限，等如將自己置於危險當中，隨時丟命……245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9EEykYcBaa
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驀地，她的臉在我腦海掠過。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzC5iiZR36
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心神一亂，結果立見。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZbqz0ay8L
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跑，走，行，踏，踏踏踏踏。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGtyW7fUuTx
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理智告訴我，無論多累多喘多痠，亦要給予身體適應變化的時間與空間，萬萬不能馬上完全停步。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpDtvPsn8EE
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理智告訴我，她與我結伴慢跑多年，不會不明白這道理。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQRVuuL7sJw
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理智的我不明白，為何她會選擇馬上停下來？245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzOUBcYo4S
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毫無頭緒。但我渴求答案。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXjHd6th1A
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不應深究已成定局的往事。但我愛她。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡof6JgftAzO
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天人交戰，在我這木訥的表情下，在這風雨橫飛的運動場上。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJVC17CmYlt
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我斷然放下水樽，重回跑道上。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4gmOn12Bo2
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踏，行，走，跑，嘗試遠離一切胡思亂想。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdaeGdzKytR
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耳邊倏忽傳來腳步聲。那節奏、那力道、那速度，統統讓我聯想起那早已離世的她……245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTP7IU5zCHT
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工作上，她高估自身極限，對自己施加巨大壓力，結果承受不來。向來予人熱血激昂、活力澎湃印象的她彷彿成了另一個人，經常默默啜泣，面容陰冷。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYoBiRhjWIZ
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我開解說人生路漫長，難免遇上困境，要給予自身適應變化的時間與空間，萬萬不能輕言放棄。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdHLq8K1KA
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她問我是否愛她。我說我愛她。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwOsEZyawqM
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她問我能否理解她的選擇。我說我能，因為我們結伴多年。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8Qg3ykXuQ
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她報以淺淺一笑。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX6lF5lqUBo
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某個陰冷雨天，她獨個兒在無人的運動場上跑步，猝死……245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8JrkvrR0H5
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天色依然陰暗，雨水依然冰冷，耳邊依然響起不存在的腳步聲，我依然跑著。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8W30sIb8T
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她在耳邊問我是否愛她。我哭訴我愛她。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSRP3loc3v2
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她在耳邊問我能否理解她的選擇。我喊嚷我不能，即便我們結伴多年。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5t0NNSH5AB
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她在耳邊提示說，既然沒能理解，精神狀態就要回歸現實——我的身體狀況正處於極限邊緣，務必倍加留意。亦要給予身體適應變化的時間與空間，萬萬不能馬上完全停步。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZAz9F5AzQ3
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跑，走，行，踏，踏踏踏踏。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOAOtfOgtm
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我沒有馬上完全停步，給予自身適應變化的時間與空間。無論多累多喘多痠，我誓要好好完成整段人生路。245Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvPsrt8bwe
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