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「我想她一定會原諒你的。」
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那人佇足原地，思緒被稱不上朋友的同學單單一句善意話語給侵佔，久久不能自己。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEEGMBEFSWi
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白雪輕降，灑落一片冰涼，覆蓋在排列整齊的墓碑上、少年輕眨的睫毛上、已無溫度的心頭上。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzyRxOlgq3P
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即使安高愛已經祭拜完離去多時，獨人仍跪在墓前。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL2B398bGRO
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「茉紅梨，妳願意原諒我嗎……」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQTo61gqWp6
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呢喃中摻有些許哽咽以及沙啞，這是時流獨人這輩子第一次如此向人示弱。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡff6uqkm1ig
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……卻得不到任何回應。
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這一天可真漫長，他感覺渡過了數日，天色卻僅僅只是由亮白轉為暗橘。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3etFlWFb9q
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「獨人？」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGoKOq3fns
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqIjnUC2EoU
又是他，是只要來此處便能遇見的那人。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHArUbEcoj
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伊堂春菅，一名低調過了頭的英雄，無法排解喪妻之痛而長期駐守墓園。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTODJgppDV
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「真少見，竟然在傍晚看到你。」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlznNRgojBf
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5idxxLnB6g
「我出獄了。」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykR3j2Sgii
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春菅愣了一瞬，眼前這名少年太常出沒了，導致他根本就沒有散發受刑人的氣質，而且一般也不可能如此自由。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ARFBZMphw
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rDcKz8FaQ
不過殺人可是重罪，身為英雄、親自將多名敵人送入監獄的春菅對這點觀念還是有的。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxAknVeY8n5
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXoPc5XUBVs
恢復了平靜眼神，本想道聲恭喜的，卻馬上意識到他們兩人身於何處，而少年又是為了何事才入獄又出獄。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdXoy38IVqn
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡckEE2r7rOX
想到這，春菅就吞回原本的祝賀，改成沒什麼起伏的回應，「這樣啊。」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfsJ9i0YRMD
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9DsqdSf9x
兩人呼著白色霧氣，吸入相同的冰冷，位於此處的他們有著相同的孤寂。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8EdQTYv1B
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5dOSSK3ecR
沈默維持著，明明見過數次面卻沒話可聊，但春菅也不是會為此感到尷尬的人，他就是生性活潑健談。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD5pmXlbMFq
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhW2GnoOJ4j
在只剩彼此鼻息的無語寧靜中細細思考，該開什麼話題才好呢？71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPp0NKQF1Nz
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL2Z4MOzeBK
思念之人？不，對獨人來說這可是禁忌話題。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFjzaKY3th
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlUpBR7Y63G
仔細想想他還真是對獨人一無所知，那談談經歷吧？嗯……還是算了，對過去最後悔莫及的人肯定非獨人莫屬了。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDadRDvqc1V
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJElGGQJnx
最後，春菅無奈輕笑，嘆了一口白煙。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9VkbKybHu2
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzdIS34Rq3
「獨人，你未來想做什麼？」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4H8lKktUFE
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTInTDJZ7QV
原來他最終也只能問這種大人的制式問題，春菅不禁覺得想笑。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD0YM7SNtfY
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「……未來？」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2USqrNL4d
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VxZcQj5aY
「對啊，既然順利出獄了，得到重啟人生的機會，那更應該想清楚未來的出路吧？」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFMVDnJP1Qk
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7UzDnz6JvJ
獨人瞪大了眼，像是腦袋當機般發愣著。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMHtxZIjVF
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1rIZqDcjrX
他從未思考過未來。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCoBjwmxE4p
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因為他眼裡只有回到過去的路。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEm2lbrNJ8j
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQnmGYepT4
說來可笑，費盡心思博取他人的敬重，嘔心瀝血才換來了「天才」的稱號，獨人卻從未想過自己究竟想做什麼。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfu2iqLLZGV
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrFL92LsC6
國小作文課在全班面前發表的題目——我的夢想——當時寫了什麼？他似乎不記得了，反正肯定是寫了個會讓眾人羨慕的職業吧。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLAljeEO2tG
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那此刻的他呢？71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGkUbRMYy0
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbnEq69L9C
腦袋一片空白，他想不出任何答案，而且越是努力探索內心，腦海越會深刻浮現出茉紅梨不諒解的面容。
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「我已經沒有未來了，你憑什麼有呢？」
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喉頭發出吞嚥口水的聲音，獨人沒有任何回應。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5GPRQ4m3Pk
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwtGAsN3ZrB
春菅無法靠這片沈默理解對方內心，於是繼續道，「那你的個性呢？」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mfktUY1Jt
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「……」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnAaEqcn7kt
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「如果沒有想做的工作，也可以找跟自己個性相關的來考慮。」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKtV17A9Smm
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIG9MMHZ5Xw
「一般人要取得英雄執照才能對他人使用個性，這是常識，對吧？但很多時候如果個性可以運用在工作上，也能由公司去申請許可證。其實電力公司裡面一堆電氣系個性的人，真羨慕那些傢伙，哈哈！」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnHt0oqJId
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQrA87wR9U
雖然知道自己講這些很像愛管閒事的老人，但這也正是成年人的諫言，春菅希望這名已經悔過的少年，能夠光明磊落走完剩下的人生。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvG5zFPH4pW
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「……我沒有個性。」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFLUk1Tcc5
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9nNou7RiR
只是他完全沒有料到會得到這樣的回應。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡleE0fYGn3N
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmX1jKHN1y
「這、這樣啊，不過沒關係啦，大部分的人個性也沒有運用在工作上。就像我要是做一般工作，這個性大概頂多也只能讓我睡過頭也不會遲到吧。」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOw51lBPlU1
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4QmRQoZRu
春菅平常就看得出來性格隨和多話，只是今天明顯是拼命在找話題，這反而讓獨人不太能理解。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qvHIwYAaE
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaluTDkaGqg
他們又不是什麼朋友，安慰自己對春菅可沒有好處。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwoUZMpagB
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡma866P0ZcB
剛剛對未來的提問已經讓獨人煩心，現在已經完全沒心力理會春菅了。他沒有回話，甚至將頭轉回，繼續凝視茉紅梨的墓碑。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmO4T6svN3
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr0k64tzK6W
「唉，不過，我最羨慕的果然還是『回到過去』的個性呀。」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3vqDqfw31U
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「……？」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbETkVJuj4
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頭皮瞬間發麻，獨人像是卡榫生鏽的機械一頓一頓地看向春菅，他已經在妻子的墓前盤腿坐好，為彼此各倒一杯酒，握起小酒杯搖動，瞧著在容器內泛起漣漪的透明液體。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxfAo1VCocs
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「要是能回到過去，我肯定會想盡辦法阻止我妻子的悲劇。」春菅將酒杯高舉至眼前，無高光的暗綠雙眸將所有期望寄託於杯中反射的光芒，「就算犧牲這條命也在所不惜。」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvWM6mldiM
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vPPeB6iRi
最後那句話甚至刺進獨人心底深處，嘲笑著他只顧著反悔，卻沒有一點覺悟的窩囊樣。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIG9es2jMO
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPSn1gVIin
欲言又止了一番，獨人最終鼓起勇氣啟動雙唇，「伊堂先生你……難道不會害怕嗎？」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Hshc2wAE2
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbq28ZIsY8S
「害怕？為什麼？」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1IuKFkCgeR
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOua6IgecXL
「害怕回到過去之後，你妻子怪罪你為什麼沒來得及救她……」獨人越說越沒自信，音量逐漸減小。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ30yN73HfFu
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfeRDo6HAVk
「都回到她還沒出事的時候了怎麼可能會怪我啦？」春菅笑道，一口飲盡小酒杯裡的清酒，「不過倒可能怪我馬桶蓋又沒放下來就是了。」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Gqz97YCMz
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoo3gMKrpOU
幽默緩頰沒有奏效，獨人仍被困在自我怪罪的循環裡，微弱卻快速地喘著氣。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcChZJ4DfHd
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「我也想回去，一直都想……是真的真的很想回到過去……」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU9Zyrw1EsI
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3r0AddaPT
聲音哽咽著難以發出，摻雜些許啜泣，語氣裡盡是懊悔。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3AB9n3xoDn
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獨人因為劇烈心痛不自覺緊抓胸口，就算衣襟擠出深深皺摺仍得不到緩解，眼角堆積淚水，不用兩秒便溢出。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvGQU5AfT4
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp532eW0bec
「我想回到她還活著的時候……！」哽咽使他聲音變得尖銳，卻莫名令人心痛。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxaVBLR5iZx
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5JNdo8LKaA
春菅已經沒有剛才開玩笑時的笑容了，被獨人的悲傷渲染著他根本笑不出來，而且就算沒有提及也知道那個「她」指的是誰。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOdV59KHIWv
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡONIefk4uzw
「可是，就算回到過去，就算她還活著，我犯下的那些過錯也已經無法改變了。」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtI4wR6FGAt
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMnRKZy4bp
十幾年來的言語霸凌是何等程度的罪孽，心智早已成年的獨人再清楚不過了。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB5zxWZe5gu
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6mfOEF2RKD
他已經不討厭茉紅梨了，甚至想要補償她，但這只是獨人自己單方面的想法。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCH1GZSgNk
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9SfhZlxXr
茉紅梨肯定很討厭自己，獨人打從心底畏懼，如果妹妹看著自己的眼神充滿憎恨，他真不敢面對。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7g8wgbtUGu
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Bj4Q83LJ6
其實也有想過如果回到更早呢？如果再次回到四歲，自己所做的一切就會歸零，那些罪孽就不存在了呀。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5pLR7Ny5d
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然後這數年來的「獨人」也將不復存在，所有努力白費只剩下空蕩蕩的軀殼，一切從頭來過，自己仍然什麼都不是，而茉紅梨依然被眾人擁戴。
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他感覺自己會再壞掉一次。
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「我希望茉紅梨能活著……但我害怕她的存——」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLhogLaEkQY
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM9ncnkm6Hp
「我不知道你們過去發生了什麼，不好隨便做評論啦。」春菅以他成熟的磁性嗓音打斷，隨後嘆了一口氣，「不過，會害怕是因為你承認自己的錯誤了吧？」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Xi7A63cBC
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9FLGEmMLRb
他慢悠悠地將給妻子的酒一口乾掉，隨後把兩個清酒杯酌滿，收回盤起的腿起身，拎著酒杯將其中之一放到茉紅梨墓前，「吭啷」的敲擊聲有些突兀。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77NbkeoQna
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY08Fo9pEgh
春菅蹲下，這樣便能與跪在墓前的獨人平視。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMRPL9wskCR
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLObGmrdKe
「既然承認做錯事了，後續再害怕都要勇敢面對，要當個負責任的男人嘛。」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2nefeYytFR
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感受到手中傳來溫熱卻冰冷的觸感，獨人才發現春菅正把另一杯酒塞到自己手中。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCH0zvLZFkt
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMpdIChnAbn
春菅的手有些粗糙，壓緊獨人握杯的掌後連帶抬高，乍看之下獨人像在與茉紅梨敬酒。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72KVGgFMQ1
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「茉紅梨她……在最後一定比你更害怕，是吧？」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWleLqNRbff
71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWxbl61guVw
春菅的手一脫離，缺少了支撐，獨人握著杯的手便瘋狂顫抖，清酒隨著晃動不斷沿著杯口滲出。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHov3eyHn1L
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是的。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjWxYyV2wn3
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茉紅梨在最後肯定很驚恐，竟然被哥哥拿刀攻擊，怎麼可能不嚇到。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNYnRo86Ni
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——而且與自己不同，她再也沒有機會害怕了。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjH508Epqd
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「……嗯。」獨人發不出聲音，只能用力點頭，擠出奇怪的悶哼。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENsyEuHoDE
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他將酒一口飲盡，咕嚕一聲，酒精順著喉結下滑。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh8hiz9Mu6X
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率先感受到的是來自喉嚨的灼燒感。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy9eim3vzFc
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隨後則是沿著雙頰流入嘴角的鹹味。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsmOhfCuwtl
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就像他的人生一樣既辛辣又死鹹，難以下嚥。
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而茉紅梨墓前的酒杯仍透著傍晚夕陽的暖橘，熠熠生輝。
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