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「我想她一定會原諒你的。」
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那人佇足原地，思緒被稱不上朋友的同學單單一句善意話語給侵佔，久久不能自己。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSl9FxOu16G
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白雪輕降，灑落一片冰涼，覆蓋在排列整齊的墓碑上、少年輕眨的睫毛上、已無溫度的心頭上。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdUN1RtKao
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即使安高愛已經祭拜完離去多時，獨人仍跪在墓前。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ2WBKzwAr1
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「茉紅梨，妳願意原諒我嗎……」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNIUGUvokI9
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呢喃中摻有些許哽咽以及沙啞，這是時流獨人這輩子第一次如此向人示弱。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡasiLXObkqi
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……卻得不到任何回應。
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81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1hBfaPgAn0
這一天可真漫長，他感覺渡過了數日，天色卻僅僅只是由亮白轉為暗橘。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjCzkrySV7i
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「獨人？」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkXNpie6rAY
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGh0BgwSCpH
又是他，是只要來此處便能遇見的那人。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc46rU8meQA
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伊堂春菅，一名低調過了頭的英雄，無法排解喪妻之痛而長期駐守墓園。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMCXq4cI1T
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGvljZ45eVf
「真少見，竟然在傍晚看到你。」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7IaaeivG7G
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNYURcS00E
「我出獄了。」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntpmiXMcfd
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春菅愣了一瞬，眼前這名少年太常出沒了，導致他根本就沒有散發受刑人的氣質，而且一般也不可能如此自由。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡagPzsDsWmA
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不過殺人可是重罪，身為英雄、親自將多名敵人送入監獄的春菅對這點觀念還是有的。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXUWSmmSeB5
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbq3QqveKNI
恢復了平靜眼神，本想道聲恭喜的，卻馬上意識到他們兩人身於何處，而少年又是為了何事才入獄又出獄。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsjv5rZ3Nj5
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Rh9e7SKGP
想到這，春菅就吞回原本的祝賀，改成沒什麼起伏的回應，「這樣啊。」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjfif4MlkG
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtWOTBcYJv
兩人呼著白色霧氣，吸入相同的冰冷，位於此處的他們有著相同的孤寂。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡms2hCaxBl1
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沈默維持著，明明見過數次面卻沒話可聊，但春菅也不是會為此感到尷尬的人，他就是生性活潑健談。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjwNVU7Ui6
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡslKDg7aR3r
在只剩彼此鼻息的無語寧靜中細細思考，該開什麼話題才好呢？81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIhNftrKmHe
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFYfwJ2ZUzM
思念之人？不，對獨人來說這可是禁忌話題。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaqc6hryofF
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmeSvaTfrs
仔細想想他還真是對獨人一無所知，那談談經歷吧？嗯……還是算了，對過去最後悔莫及的人肯定非獨人莫屬了。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRVp3afjLA
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSxakJJoiNN
最後，春菅無奈輕笑，嘆了一口白煙。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkiXDBGb99L
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJQdkEIeJhP
「獨人，你未來想做什麼？」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBSwWWW5CTQ
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHvAYCl2suS
原來他最終也只能問這種大人的制式問題，春菅不禁覺得想笑。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKfnRPeiij
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「……未來？」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBqKXQseKc7
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbu7jYYcALy
「對啊，既然順利出獄了，得到重啟人生的機會，那更應該想清楚未來的出路吧？」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3X4LglY62M
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnBTMDG2Dpb
獨人瞪大了眼，像是腦袋當機般發愣著。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS12DODuzCn
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他從未思考過未來。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7j9JEdDb4
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因為他眼裡只有回到過去的路。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vKmgKt02B
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSNys5VTj1W
說來可笑，費盡心思博取他人的敬重，嘔心瀝血才換來了「天才」的稱號，獨人卻從未想過自己究竟想做什麼。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh60DCWzF80
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGdhifrsZa
國小作文課在全班面前發表的題目——我的夢想——當時寫了什麼？他似乎不記得了，反正肯定是寫了個會讓眾人羨慕的職業吧。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnioakcRtfT
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那此刻的他呢？81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXQFfa6kRJ4
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9jLVrAjJbJ
腦袋一片空白，他想不出任何答案，而且越是努力探索內心，腦海越會深刻浮現出茉紅梨不諒解的面容。
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「我已經沒有未來了，你憑什麼有呢？」
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喉頭發出吞嚥口水的聲音，獨人沒有任何回應。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPM6GMA7tvD
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡknsH0V8alg
春菅無法靠這片沈默理解對方內心，於是繼續道，「那你的個性呢？」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGoqTVFcmuL
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「……」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31e01SsXKJ
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「如果沒有想做的工作，也可以找跟自己個性相關的來考慮。」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzUytBJmwU
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlgpOVPHtsT
「一般人要取得英雄執照才能對他人使用個性，這是常識，對吧？但很多時候如果個性可以運用在工作上，也能由公司去申請許可證。其實電力公司裡面一堆電氣系個性的人，真羨慕那些傢伙，哈哈！」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylTiRaDoXN
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDUEv6PS8FB
雖然知道自己講這些很像愛管閒事的老人，但這也正是成年人的諫言，春菅希望這名已經悔過的少年，能夠光明磊落走完剩下的人生。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYdL3U4hdy
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「……我沒有個性。」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJBWRer76T
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPjdt32Zh0
只是他完全沒有料到會得到這樣的回應。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP8g0DFSu9a
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlABPhtP3h1
「這、這樣啊，不過沒關係啦，大部分的人個性也沒有運用在工作上。就像我要是做一般工作，這個性大概頂多也只能讓我睡過頭也不會遲到吧。」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwDzBRyMck
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BKSsYlKZ2
春菅平常就看得出來性格隨和多話，只是今天明顯是拼命在找話題，這反而讓獨人不太能理解。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAwENVl9KNM
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrmkmH0ZDzo
他們又不是什麼朋友，安慰自己對春菅可沒有好處。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHprT5OBfEq
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfqYXxJKigA
剛剛對未來的提問已經讓獨人煩心，現在已經完全沒心力理會春菅了。他沒有回話，甚至將頭轉回，繼續凝視茉紅梨的墓碑。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaV7iY1RNZV
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCv9WgzZ4Y
「唉，不過，我最羨慕的果然還是『回到過去』的個性呀。」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6eHXBxPCwS
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuESB2AGb7r
「……？」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQmF8mybBF0
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頭皮瞬間發麻，獨人像是卡榫生鏽的機械一頓一頓地看向春菅，他已經在妻子的墓前盤腿坐好，為彼此各倒一杯酒，握起小酒杯搖動，瞧著在容器內泛起漣漪的透明液體。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1P7CMIIh0
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7qyaOG5Gn
「要是能回到過去，我肯定會想盡辦法阻止我妻子的悲劇。」春菅將酒杯高舉至眼前，無高光的暗綠雙眸將所有期望寄託於杯中反射的光芒，「就算犧牲這條命也在所不惜。」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk8ggREsVd6
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3DK6ZVUoCO
最後那句話甚至刺進獨人心底深處，嘲笑著他只顧著反悔，卻沒有一點覺悟的窩囊樣。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1HFwp4KgTt
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7zXglAOawr
欲言又止了一番，獨人最終鼓起勇氣啟動雙唇，「伊堂先生你……難道不會害怕嗎？」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ0NVISiB1a
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「害怕？為什麼？」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1XIl4p1Ts
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5G9honhdm8
「害怕回到過去之後，你妻子怪罪你為什麼沒來得及救她……」獨人越說越沒自信，音量逐漸減小。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzahfyWcTTD
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWqvyRRXK5j
「都回到她還沒出事的時候了怎麼可能會怪我啦？」春菅笑道，一口飲盡小酒杯裡的清酒，「不過倒可能怪我馬桶蓋又沒放下來就是了。」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWYgEoF3lP
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDsxKtS5kZ0
幽默緩頰沒有奏效，獨人仍被困在自我怪罪的循環裡，微弱卻快速地喘著氣。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHAldNZbds
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「我也想回去，一直都想……是真的真的很想回到過去……」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawy9vrcHIZ
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyGdJyczeq
聲音哽咽著難以發出，摻雜些許啜泣，語氣裡盡是懊悔。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS78ML4om0m
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyhcsmtcwKD
獨人因為劇烈心痛不自覺緊抓胸口，就算衣襟擠出深深皺摺仍得不到緩解，眼角堆積淚水，不用兩秒便溢出。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGPcII1Hwv6
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtxlbqRkPF7
「我想回到她還活著的時候……！」哽咽使他聲音變得尖銳，卻莫名令人心痛。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZkV0cyyasB
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9RqFVRDlwy
春菅已經沒有剛才開玩笑時的笑容了，被獨人的悲傷渲染著他根本笑不出來，而且就算沒有提及也知道那個「她」指的是誰。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF1JexWa0SX
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「可是，就算回到過去，就算她還活著，我犯下的那些過錯也已經無法改變了。」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLEFbv4IHpC
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7sWkvqhXSf
十幾年來的言語霸凌是何等程度的罪孽，心智早已成年的獨人再清楚不過了。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiW9IrNhGKX
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYfWqgXI780
他已經不討厭茉紅梨了，甚至想要補償她，但這只是獨人自己單方面的想法。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWfA2bJGSzX
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpoJ6mVi3W
茉紅梨肯定很討厭自己，獨人打從心底畏懼，如果妹妹看著自己的眼神充滿憎恨，他真不敢面對。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN9mMbE9xVs
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwprOId1ydf
其實也有想過如果回到更早呢？如果再次回到四歲，自己所做的一切就會歸零，那些罪孽就不存在了呀。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBAv9OuxW9
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVnxPgj2JwY
然後這數年來的「獨人」也將不復存在，所有努力白費只剩下空蕩蕩的軀殼，一切從頭來過，自己仍然什麼都不是，而茉紅梨依然被眾人擁戴。
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他感覺自己會再壞掉一次。
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「我希望茉紅梨能活著……但我害怕她的存——」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQyixgObgP
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOTGwBwM9WT
「我不知道你們過去發生了什麼，不好隨便做評論啦。」春菅以他成熟的磁性嗓音打斷，隨後嘆了一口氣，「不過，會害怕是因為你承認自己的錯誤了吧？」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT847R4kqU2
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqlr6zk2wS
他慢悠悠地將給妻子的酒一口乾掉，隨後把兩個清酒杯酌滿，收回盤起的腿起身，拎著酒杯將其中之一放到茉紅梨墓前，「吭啷」的敲擊聲有些突兀。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6TRMeRItE
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS90VG0uI8W
春菅蹲下，這樣便能與跪在墓前的獨人平視。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡin0ar1fXZL
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmV96tanJaf
「既然承認做錯事了，後續再害怕都要勇敢面對，要當個負責任的男人嘛。」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOchBR0KRUN
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyeYdHuleNs
感受到手中傳來溫熱卻冰冷的觸感，獨人才發現春菅正把另一杯酒塞到自己手中。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74NaQEpoFG
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5HAINtIZk
春菅的手有些粗糙，壓緊獨人握杯的掌後連帶抬高，乍看之下獨人像在與茉紅梨敬酒。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWj0cU3C7cc
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ37zCMpZvC
「茉紅梨她……在最後一定比你更害怕，是吧？」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOohcmM7Yqq
81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSRseAGG7bm
春菅的手一脫離，缺少了支撐，獨人握著杯的手便瘋狂顫抖，清酒隨著晃動不斷沿著杯口滲出。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboNT64eYVK
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是的。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfLZrwRbtw
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茉紅梨在最後肯定很驚恐，竟然被哥哥拿刀攻擊，怎麼可能不嚇到。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0Z64q7gDV
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——而且與自己不同，她再也沒有機會害怕了。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ62leS2RegM
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「……嗯。」獨人發不出聲音，只能用力點頭，擠出奇怪的悶哼。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQi8v0BsvyY
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他將酒一口飲盡，咕嚕一聲，酒精順著喉結下滑。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3eDxSQkqdJ
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率先感受到的是來自喉嚨的灼燒感。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptqQwkIpbC
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隨後則是沿著雙頰流入嘴角的鹹味。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4mlWTIvlWk
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就像他的人生一樣既辛辣又死鹹，難以下嚥。
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而茉紅梨墓前的酒杯仍透著傍晚夕陽的暖橘，熠熠生輝。
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