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No Plagiarism!miLH7qXKGJ6JOchS95lNposted on PENANA 临川上辈子的人生被抑郁症划分成两个阶段。8964 copyright protection83PENANAIG5XdZV4do 維尼
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生病前,她没有什么情绪,不爱哭,也不会闹。8964 copyright protection83PENANAsP2LbZ0iiv 維尼
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她自己都没有察觉到,其实自己的无感很不寻常。8964 copyright protection83PENANAX3RgWh7j0R 維尼
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所有被积压的情绪一直到十四岁那年爆发,临川小时候很胖,导致她长时间被霸凌,刚开始她只是单纯的拒绝去上学,拒绝见到那些在教室里辱骂她的丑恶嘴脸。8964 copyright protection83PENANAFHSh3KbD5O 維尼
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后来这些人身攻击,从线下到了线上,她被安上造谣的罪名,挂在学校的讨论版上任人凌迟。8964 copyright protection83PENANA1pAJUdD1ch 維尼
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明明不关她的事,可只想吃瓜的人哪会在意事实真相。8964 copyright protection83PENANAF8bUR53BnL 維尼
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他们拿着键盘当武器,言语做攻击,一下下的把临川推入深渊。8964 copyright protection83PENANADk3WuPcRsx 維尼
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长久以后,学校里的一草一木都让她焦虑,人与人之间再平常不过的交流,对她来说是地狱。8964 copyright protection83PENANAJoBdPAp0Ot 維尼
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转学并没有让她变好,在临川心里,这只是另一个地狱。8964 copyright protection83PENANA6LPUajhc95 維尼
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老师给她开后门,刚开始前一个月她天天泡在图书馆里,只有文字能暂时安抚她焦躁不安的心。8964 copyright protection83PENANAhDX3xUJt2m 維尼
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图书馆没开门的时候,她就静静坐在教师办公室里。8964 copyright protection83PENANAu9whedHbi4 維尼
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每天重复着相同的事情,看书,吃饭,睡觉。8964 copyright protection83PENANAfo7N9oeXmI 維尼
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但规律总有一天会被打破,就像临川始终要回到人群里一样。8964 copyright protection83PENANAD4WhbIsNbv 維尼
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那是她的同学,也是救赎,更是引领临川走向死亡的暗。8964 copyright protection83PENANAqAz9LfXlN7 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAfy9uNw6K7b
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女孩叫夏,初次见时临川觉得她阳光开朗。8964 copyright protection83PENANAVK2qPXlkxc 維尼
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夏是班长,人缘极好,这世上好像不会有她讨厌的人。8964 copyright protection83PENANARZwtiwhcHn 維尼
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哪怕是班上最皮的男生,她依旧能把人训得服服帖帖。8964 copyright protection83PENANAWaMWpJ3yv1 維尼
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夏的成绩也特别好,参加的比赛也很多。8964 copyright protection83PENANAt5iIfNv7hW 維尼
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她是老师嘴里的三好学生。8964 copyright protection83PENANAsEZ4HKf29N 維尼
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在夏面前,临川永远是自卑的。8964 copyright protection83PENANAUDiIJ4Bb5i 維尼
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可随着时间过去,她发现自己和夏有很多共同点。8964 copyright protection83PENANA0PxVDQeJFK 維尼
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她们同样喜欢文学,喜欢电影,喜欢摇滚乐。8964 copyright protection83PENANAsW0LKl6EhD 維尼
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夏也发现临川和自己一样,是悲伤的。8964 copyright protection83PENANAQHsvGWBa7o 維尼
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两个人的气质让彼此靠近,她们成为无话不谈的朋友。8964 copyright protection83PENANAfLWGlQrFcw 維尼
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临川没有学习压力,她除了督促自己把英语学好以外,其他都不重要。8964 copyright protection83PENANAjxo56UJwbw 維尼
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所以她把大把的时间都花在夏身上,从白天聊到黑夜。8964 copyright protection83PENANA8QXZVkDyz1 維尼
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谈人生理想,谈世事无常。8964 copyright protection83PENANAL8IZI6cNwI 維尼
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期末考高中那会,夏写了满满一大篇的作文发给临川。8964 copyright protection83PENANADYAF5X6wgZ 維尼
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还给她打了电话,原来夏一直这么痛苦啊...8964 copyright protection83PENANA8LGLsTtZaK 維尼
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她们是两只在人生道路上受了重伤的小兽。8964 copyright protection83PENANAJ9JoG1WmAY 維尼
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世界从来没有看见过她们的伤口,只是一而再再而三的,把回忆翻出来撒盐。8964 copyright protection83PENANAruWUwDHw2r 維尼
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考试结束后,夏走了,考试失利害她被家人看不起。8964 copyright protection83PENANAdLayJ0EIW9 維尼
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她选择让生命停留在十六岁。8964 copyright protection83PENANAY67lMUCIyH 維尼
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一个本应该无忧无虑的年纪。8964 copyright protection83PENANAogOV66RKKi 維尼
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那天以后临川更讨厌说话了,她带上面具,封存自己的心。8964 copyright protection83PENANAh48NB7yl1h 維尼
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假装一切都正常,除了深夜里被哭湿的枕头。8964 copyright protection83PENANAaVrUdWfpqj 維尼
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世上除了她自己,就是和她一样罹患抑郁症的夏。8964 copyright protection83PENANAlnKIMyLjV8 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAYyeAoJ9lMV
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互相救赎只剩下她一个人独活。8964 copyright protection83PENANAMfQaLOn5qs 維尼
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遗书里希望临川好好活着这句话,被她刻在心间。8964 copyright protection83PENANAVlyLYOEcio 維尼
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浑浑噩噩的那几年,她去了便利店打工,尝试接纳人群。8964 copyright protection83PENANArF6YHHNjmA 維尼
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外人眼里她的确适应良好,临川能记住至少百分之九十的客人。8964 copyright protection83PENANAq4BIeV7XHb 維尼
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她甚至能判断外面的路人是否要进来,进来的人会买什么。8964 copyright protection83PENANApuWa5j2G0l 維尼
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尤其是抽烟的,不需要对方开口,她自己就能从脑海中翻出对方习惯买的牌子。8964 copyright protection83PENANAKvCvZ5f4jF 維尼
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临川打工的便利店在居民区,大部分都是上了年纪的烟鬼。8964 copyright protection83PENANAhmLpucaikj 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAaHOaWY3rtU
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为了增加业绩,她研究过烟,还自己抽。8964 copyright protection83PENANAQehZOYc54I 維尼
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每个焦虑到崩溃的夜晚,临川总是一个人抱着枕头在阳台吹风,手里夹着烟,脚边全是酒瓶。8964 copyright protection83PENANAqiPo9EzPCQ 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAGa443f5nTS
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长时间营养不良所以她瘦了,掉下来的体重仿佛在嘲笑临川。8964 copyright protection83PENANA6KWlmgipvN 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAaqr4hXIsXw
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你看啊,就算瘦了,你骨子里依旧是个烂人,你守护不了自己的朋友,你为什么要活着。8964 copyright protection83PENANAJkLP1GrFRD 維尼
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二十五岁,她结束了悲惨且荒谬的一生。8964 copyright protection83PENANAqWseM6gJIn 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANATzIL6BIRvs
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悲惨在她无法治愈自己,荒谬在她选择不治愈自己。8964 copyright protection83PENANAOADaYiXzaN 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAJitxMdHi4f
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可命运造化弄人,她这样如同烂泥的生命,竟然有人要再给一次机会。8964 copyright protection83PENANAo9Faar3PvQ 維尼
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临川在时管局见到的羊角人类,在她第一次任务前告诉她,“你的精神状况有点问题,要不要封存?”8964 copyright protection83PENANA8f4wyb4eEC 維尼
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“封存会有什么后遗症吗?”8964 copyright protection83PENANAbLGwEeS9cT 維尼
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“失去很多情感能力,可能以后你都不会哭,也感受不到爱,你是个很特别的存在,属于你的情绪大多都是悲哀,正向情绪可以说是完全没有。8964 copyright protection83PENANAxE5b2K79vm 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA46UsJD8dFv
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更好玩的是,你共情能力特别强,外界情绪特别容易影响你。8964 copyright protection83PENANASzv8rhwpHt 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAuyVk8EahOL
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所以,我建议你封存,不然你可能会崩溃的。”8964 copyright protection83PENANACSLNOcE0Jr 維尼
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但随着任务推进,时管局高层后悔的要死。8964 copyright protection83PENANAzRQA54oDrI 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA1v8cQyCN1P
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临川不知道为什么变成了喜欢杀戮的恶魔。8964 copyright protection83PENANAIANIxVSpv3 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAWnVaMpa9Rc
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从行为上看更像是本能。8964 copyright protection83PENANA3kjK6YmoFp 維尼
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杀光一切具有危害性的本能。8964 copyright protection83PENANAeh6pbOA8jN 維尼
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精神海的狂躁日益严重,封存情绪的枷锁马上就要被破开。8964 copyright protection83PENANAfEZODmFwAy 維尼
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奇怪的是,她似乎刻意留下了爱。8964 copyright protection83PENANAy2N52uycHa 維尼
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如果夏在她身边的话,肯定能看出来,临川在惩罚自己。8964 copyright protection83PENANAqJPotsQtv8 維尼
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怨恨吧,所有痛苦都朝着我过来吧。8964 copyright protection83PENANA9Za7cwlaCe 維尼
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好友的离世化成实质的刺,狠狠扎在临川身上,那是时间长河带不走的。8964 copyright protection83PENANAXXofcnWw6G 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAl1WYIqLqH4
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做任务时靠着杀戮抒发自己紊乱的情绪,回到时管局的小宿舍后,临川就泡在烟酒里。8964 copyright protection83PENANAfAtN6AG8f1 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAoHusp2fGpV
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她其实有很严重的气管炎和酒精过敏。8964 copyright protection83PENANA8WoGcMTzPy 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAaT8w3B47X9
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可这些和精神凌迟比起来,微不足道。8964 copyright protection83PENANAVknIw1fOrC 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAkwadT6ay8i
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她爱不了人,她恐惧。8964 copyright protection83PENANAtqqUL7cYm6 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAeSeO54d9R0
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父母对自己的不在意,让她早就学会了独立。8964 copyright protection83PENANAx4AxIXJMuH 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA4n9Sz19InX
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突然的爱意只会造成临川的负担。8964 copyright protection83PENANAlJ80GgetLV 維尼
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有了在乎的人等于有了软肋。8964 copyright protection83PENANAoPC7DlLgWP 維尼
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也等于自己会一直活在恐惧失去的时间里。8964 copyright protection83PENANA9rSKq8OSFf 維尼
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她不想也不愿意面对傅淮瑾表达的喜欢。8964 copyright protection83PENANAUs1gTZ4tP7 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAbwjubTt0uZ
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“傅淮瑾,我的人生是个悲剧,时间抹不平痛苦,我承担不起你的喜欢,也无法给予任何回应。8964 copyright protection83PENANAWh9bzfrHc3 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAFuZOar7MNi
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而且我的存在对联邦来说是个威胁,你不知道吧,从我第一次去到前线,杀了所有侵入边境线的虫族后,主席和军部就决定杀了我。8964 copyright protection83PENANAlJGaUE6Src 維尼
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要不是霍野和江烁,我早就死了。8964 copyright protection83PENANAeZhbbnYFUu 維尼
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未来我还会再经历一次边境之乱,那我还能活下来吗?8964 copyright protection83PENANArxBkm3O8dc 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANApYbvOSFVdO
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我不回应你,就是最好的答案,我们本就不是一个世界的人,我没有爱可以给你。”8964 copyright protection83PENANAZDZLPdg2sp 維尼
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临川如释重负,埋藏多年的秘密在今天有了出口,她欣喜又愧疚。8964 copyright protection83PENANA2uqAh80dyc 維尼
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爱而不得的感觉她比任何人都清楚。8964 copyright protection83PENANAjYl61bPVtD 維尼
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可惜在现实面前,她能给傅淮瑾的只有一句对不起。8964 copyright protection83PENANAGkygdjNycK 維尼
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