最後我同蟲蟲返去海濱公園坐,一齊隊啤酒。頭先我話自己係酒筲箕其實都係逞強啫,一罐落肚我已經有啲Wing。2035Please respect copyright.PENANAIeWGrGUVBx
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「啦⋯⋯啦⋯⋯啦⋯⋯」蟲蟲都啪咗一罐。佢應該開始Wing。佢拎住第二罐啤,喺草地上面自己哼緊歌,原地轉緊圈。佢啲步伐好似舞步咁,只覺得佢已經進入咗自己嘅世界入面,享受自己嘅快樂2035Please respect copyright.PENANAE0ofIeizAv
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酒精再加上夜深嘅寧靜,令我埋藏咗嘅感覺又出返嚟。冇咗個好兄弟、Miss嬲咗我、李Sir嘅衝擊⋯⋯一切一切負面嘅感覺都撈埋一齊,我都唔識形容而家嘅感受係點,總之就好難受。原來有啲感覺,唔即時喊出嚟、發洩出嚟,會變成好似岩石一舊咁,好難再將佢發洩出嚟,硬生生卡住喺喉嚨度。2035Please respect copyright.PENANASQHbNdzvkT
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此時,夜裡寒風吹送,令沈醉喺自己嘅快樂中嘅蟲蟲連聲叫:「好凍呀!好凍呀!」然後走埋嚟我度,喺我旁邊坐低,佢抱住膝成粒波咁。2035Please respect copyright.PENANATQa0sUcpAY
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我喺背囊度拎件外套出嚟,披喺佢身上,我笑說:「天氣開始凍啦!你仲著短褲!」2035Please respect copyright.PENANAYWoFdmXSf9
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蟲蟲笑一笑,乾咗一罐啤,又開多一罐,對我講:「飲杯呀。」2035Please respect copyright.PENANAf3O8OuIEOs
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崩——!碰杯。2035Please respect copyright.PENANAjw5jC3zCpy
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我乾咗罐啤,wing嘅感覺又加重咗。2035Please respect copyright.PENANAzrq10tTbuz
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「你今日做咩同人打交嘅?」2035Please respect copyright.PENANAAUEU9zmieo
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蟲蟲問咗個令我吃驚嘅問題。我問:「你又知。」2035Please respect copyright.PENANAj7NfOg1Y71
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「你成個權骨都瘀晒啦!睇落應該食咗招左勾拳喎。」2035Please respect copyright.PENANAI0Nmk99BrS
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「你點知架?」2035Please respect copyright.PENANAJR95PMztSO
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「我都食過嘛。」2035Please respect copyright.PENANA6GYsa7Wbmh
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「嘩⋯⋯邊個咁衰呀?」2035Please respect copyright.PENANAxLkbomtu7e
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「表哥囉⋯⋯唔講我嗰啲。講你先。你做咩嚟海濱公園嘅?你唔開心呀?」2035Please respect copyright.PENANA6vMQZ8TpOK
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「你都講咗啦。同人打交嘛!」我嘆口氣,又開咗罐啤酒嚟飲。2035Please respect copyright.PENANAR3ZtUe2fRA
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「你好傷心喎。我睇得出。我睇人好準架。」2035Please respect copyright.PENANAfm3kP5nfrQ
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「有幾準呀?」2035Please respect copyright.PENANA7HTA5ovngP
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「嗯⋯⋯」蟲蟲抬頭思索,好快就話:「你平時一定有兄弟陪。但你今日得自己一個。」2035Please respect copyright.PENANAzeovzLAkl8
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佢呢句一嘢打落我心度,淚線有一種被刺激嘅感覺:「嗯⋯⋯你⋯⋯你講啱咗。」2035Please respect copyright.PENANA8aTeFsqMXB
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「唔會係阿波啦?」2035Please respect copyright.PENANA2HGCYIpJAW
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「嗯。」2035Please respect copyright.PENANAss16Ll8ICG
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「亦都唔會係阿偉。」2035Please respect copyright.PENANA2jwVuEzrLL
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「嗯。」2035Please respect copyright.PENANA7qxvjLhMMb
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「咁係杰少。」2035Please respect copyright.PENANAU1KrzKcKLL
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「唉⋯⋯⋯」2035Please respect copyright.PENANAGytetV0rkJ
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「好大件事?」2035Please respect copyright.PENANAePo37220Df
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我好淡然咁講:「我同杰少已經冇兄弟做。因為啲好戇鳩嘅原因⋯⋯」2035Please respect copyright.PENANAPPkbfgtFOw
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我大口咁飲咗啖啤,想壓制住心痛嘅感覺。2035Please respect copyright.PENANAmWYTHhfr1W
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「噢⋯⋯sorry。」佢飲咗啖酒,然後又問:「你地唔係好好感情架咩?冬冬有同我講,杰少成日提你地三個啲Kai嘢。點解會搞成咁嘅?」2035Please respect copyright.PENANAZ3RH1joG8n
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我灌一大啖酒後,好輕描淡寫咁講件事出嚟。講我點樣夾喺好兄弟同女朋友之間。最後我點做都好,Miss都係嬲咗我。當然我唔會提Miss嘅身份啦。2035Please respect copyright.PENANAgB9ucuv2Oa
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蟲蟲明白事理咁點頭,佢話:「咁係好難揀嘅。兩個都重要。你最後揀咗女朋友⋯⋯因為佢重要啲?」2035Please respect copyright.PENANAtyifS4ndR9
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我抖咗啖長氣,就話:「好重要。中間我地分過手,好難先可以一齊返。我地唔易行落去,因為呢個世界冇人會認同我地。我地做任何事都要偷偷摸摸,唔可以比人知。」2035Please respect copyright.PENANAWTsTMkEgxX
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「嗯⋯⋯其實你女朋友係點架?」2035Please respect copyright.PENANADz8dsmUVNB
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雖然醉醉地,我都仲好清醒嘅,關於Miss嘅事唔想講太多,求其作個身份出嚟:「佢年紀大過我嘅,讀緊大學。佢最近佢好忙,忙到我都唔知佢忙緊咩,煩緊咩。我想幫佢分擔下啲煩惱都唔得。我最叻都係煮餐飯比佢食。」2035Please respect copyright.PENANA1UPKtCs8Gt
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我嘆一口氣,飲啖啤,暈眩嘅感覺漸漸加重,繼續講:「佢大過我,佢成熟過我,佢叻過我,佢學歷高過我⋯⋯我點爬都爬唔到佢嘅高度。有時我會諗緊,點解佢唔揀同年紀嘅人?點解會愛我?或者到某一日,佢會突然同我分手?搵一個同自己地位、年齡一樣嘅人,就好似⋯⋯而家同佢好熟嘅男同事⋯⋯男同學!」2035Please respect copyright.PENANAJawKvkAWi9
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「你地一齊咗幾耐呀?」蟲蟲將罐啤酒貼落塊面度,兩隻大眼好定神咁望住我。2035Please respect copyright.PENANANrNkd2n7uk
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「差唔多兩個月。」我又乾咗罐啤,將空罐揸埋一舊,掟去遠處嘅垃圾桶。咚——!掟唔入添。2035Please respect copyright.PENANAvnhpVC2Zli
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「今日我發現我地應該過咗熱戀期。佢鬧我鬧特別狠。蟲蟲,你睇下⋯⋯」2035Please respect copyright.PENANAXoH9edDiBH
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我將仍然發痛嘅面龐擰轉比蟲蟲睇。但蟲蟲個表情話我知面上嘅掌印一早散晒。其實塊面已經唔痛,真正嘅痛係喺心入面。2035Please respect copyright.PENANAsmLcxFMfKr
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呢個時候,我感覺到對眼開始熱,有啲嘢浪下浪下咁。我話:「佢今日摑咗我兩巴。佢好錫我架,係唔會打我。初初我以為我唔會冇事,但其實我個心好似⋯⋯好似碎咗。佢打完我之後就忙自己嘢,佢冇問我有冇唔開心,亦都冇問我去咗邊,佢更加冇問我仲痛唔痛。我足足⋯⋯」我嘆一口氣,繼續:「我足足喺學校等咗佢六個鐘,佢冇⋯⋯佢咩都冇做⋯⋯仲坐另一左個男人車走咗!」2035Please respect copyright.PENANAF08DWintCz
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乾完一罐又一罐,好想大叫出嚟。2035Please respect copyright.PENANAJdUYZT42Bj
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「我發覺我點愛佢都好,好似都補足唔到我同佢之間嘅距離。我同佢好近,好親密,但⋯⋯但今日⋯⋯盈盈,你好陌生啊!明明同你一齊係最開心⋯⋯點解嘅?或者⋯⋯」2035Please respect copyright.PENANA8o7iAriH5e
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「講到尾⋯⋯」2035Please respect copyright.PENANApLpWd3s0hQ
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我內心有一股無力感⋯⋯2035Please respect copyright.PENANACrfls23nVg
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「我⋯⋯我始終只係⋯⋯」2035Please respect copyright.PENANAiSlni1wwXo
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呢份無力感連帶住擔憂同恐懼⋯⋯2035Please respect copyright.PENANAP76RdEjZou
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「我始終只係你個學生。」2035Please respect copyright.PENANAnkIOgyq5aj
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