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「你係咪有好多女性朋友㗎？」Priscilla對我說。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82Us2coaEc
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我：我冇乜女仔friend㗎。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaF6TcdRjex
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Priscilla：下？你咁都冇？偽娘唔係應該有好多女性朋友咩？550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHghYKN69gs
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我：幼稚園至到小學初期嗰時會，但而家冇曬呢種緣份lu。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4FRaFcp5eD
我：講起上次拍拖，都已經係8年前，嗰個女仔係喺Facebook識。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiKETJe5RbW
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說著，我又跟Priscilla說起自己的情史。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQzQZBoW5L
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在大年初一的早上，我和Priscilla在一家中式餐廳吃點心。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZB6pGFFXwU
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我是Andy，又名水神，是本長篇故事的主角。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡluU4Nod3Dh
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這個長篇故事，就要先由我和Priscilla說起。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE8lzaUkdI8
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就算沒有看過上一篇故事，看過前言的人，都大概知道我擁有「女裝大佬」我身份。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdXYdsrSgff
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先報上自己的status和stage，A1，stage最高記錄是 3。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZp6fO7xKfB
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自從8年前和一個在Facebook認識的女生，談過一個月這麼久的戀愛之後，我就再沒有談過戀愛。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp6HJ7ECD9A
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甚至嚴格來講，從成年人的角度看，那只是霧水情緣，算不上是正式戀愛。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7J0hc5iUV
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為甚麼之後的8年都是單身？雖然我也有宅男的性格，但這不是主要原因。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOKPVdY8DVZ
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真正的原因，是我沒有把意欲投放到感情生活之上。用比喻說，就像一台電腦進入了休眠模式。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡejNus5iUNX
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第二個主因，是我把「男生對女生存有性幻想」這件事，想成一件不乾淨的事情，然後再建立出「柏拉圖式的男女關係是最純潔」的價值觀；這也同時解釋了，為甚麼我一直只在stage 3 止步不前。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqm2kQhzoO
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不像主流的宅男，我沒有心儀的網紅、主播、男神或女神。看到女神，我多數都在想：怎樣模仿她的衣著打扮？性方面，我頂多只是戀物。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoGeB8iIvFp
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相信有不少人都會好奇，到底偽娘的感情生活是怎樣？找男生談戀愛？找女生談戀愛？550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJgNdBOglBN
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在社會的價值觀規範之下，很多人都會直覺地認為：偽娘就只有找男生談戀愛。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6w1kaOOzE
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大錯特錯！偽娘也可以找女生談戀愛。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDiVWKbsxbP
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我就是這種人。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrEizHrkqvg
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至於我的性取向，到底是甚麼？550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMLspygbboy
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我曾經回答過異性戀，也回答過無性戀；但無論如何，我就是最傾向找女生談戀愛。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfCw1rOfoTF
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「無性戀」這個字其實被人爭議了很久很久，有人說是的確存在，也有人說它只是個偽命題。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfd9c7wIdU7
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有些觀點認為，人不可能完全沒有「性」，要麼就是「性慾低下症」，不然就是受到後天的環境影響，例如文化、成長背景的影響，所以認為「無性戀」是個偽命題。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8KVapCUpCX
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舉例說，有些人從小時候，所接受的教育，或者是被某些電視劇集所影響（一些低質劇集甚至把「性」和「性侵」劃些等號），讓他覺得：「性」是不乾淨的東西；然後就是令他以後都會抗拒進入性愛關係，形成所謂的「無性戀」。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1NEjM0PRO
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這頓早茶，以AA制完。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePkZfkomZU
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我送著Priscilla回家，在路上，「肢體接觸」這四個字像一個鋼造的框架，牢牢地鎖在自己的腦海裡，又是為做而做的接觸；我都是在最近才真正有「肢體接觸」這個概念的。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPi0sMM3zcK
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在過馬路時，我眼睛又是瞄著她的手臀，想了一想，好不容易才敢伸手撓下去。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUH45Kwm4R
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我：下次再玩啦！550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnkF7NeOnq
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Priscilla：來一個抱抱吧！550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdggE2xBqYO
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在Priscilla家的大廳裡，我和她來了一個擁抱道別。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5t2aVgVE28
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這個擁抱，只能算是一般社交式的擁抱；因為我很清楚地感受到，她只是來了一秒，然後就抽身離開，彷彿不再讓我擁抱多幾秒。550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpTF3awrasc
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到底，是真的無性戀，或只是未有把「性」這個靈魂解放出來？550Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6SZoAl72B
