被強迫面對社會狀況,來自惡魔的威脅,再多的反抗只會落得更淒慘的結局。36Please respect copyright.PENANAIgMkKTD8OV
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現在的處境就是需要向惡魔低頭,去換取一絲生機。36Please respect copyright.PENANAUnZA3RjD24
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做得到的事與想做的事可以重疊,可以有衝突。36Please respect copyright.PENANAbSFaOjw309
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上學這件事便是做得到的事以及不想做的事。36Please respect copyright.PENANASFhNN2swVF
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我並沒有帶有任何偏見,只是對「上學」這一件事感到反感。36Please respect copyright.PENANAGwhuQvyRWi
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我讚同義務教育的存在,我認同教育是培養社會下一代的最佳方法。36Please respect copyright.PENANAy1ExBjJwHO
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但我也不會為自己找藉口,我就是個垃圾。36Please respect copyright.PENANAxsVDAxe2St
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即使這樣學校也沒有批准我的退學申請,開學典禮我只是坐在保健室,所有文件都是學校以郵寄的方法寄到家中,出席率為零。36Please respect copyright.PENANAVVQs9O2BpA
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就算是學期考試也只是坐在保健室完成的我,到底學校會有甚麼人記得我。36Please respect copyright.PENANA84Ghf1V3lO
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站在鏡子前打量着自己穿上校服的樣子,看上去還真是奇怪。36Please respect copyright.PENANAbJEfilHF7g
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「我出門了……」36Please respect copyright.PENANAZMskA4uYX2
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「我也出門了。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAFroaNwMs0I
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「記住路上小心。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAD0CuRgkj8h
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嘭的一聲,大門被緊緊關上。36Please respect copyright.PENANAxbcc1NqDmX
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正午十二時,太陽高掛正曬得猛烈,穿著校服襯衣的我熱得滿頭大汗。36Please respect copyright.PENANANk8t4nbsjU
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而她,此時卻穿著學校的毛衣,臉上一滴汗珠也看不見。36Please respect copyright.PENANAmwa9FfuMF6
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我極度懷疑她是不是生病了,還是感熱器官出現了問題。36Please respect copyright.PENANANmgZ239K2Z
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「你知道學校一直有着你的傳說嗎?」36Please respect copyright.PENANA84uzDnm6Hh
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「不知道。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAqC2HBepQsM
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「高中一年級一班的夜一桐,初中時每年都能拿到第一,升學考試以滿分的成績原校升讀高中部。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAAqusOlf1vN
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「是我來的嗎?我不清楚。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAOIXVKogU6m
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「第一學期的考試以全科滿分取得第一位,但卻從未在學校出現過。」36Please respect copyright.PENANALcysZf0js5
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「學習是學生的本份,取得滿分是份內事。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAtQ70Q43i97
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這也是我討厭上學的其中一個原因,討厭別人將期望放在自己身上,有能力去做也不代表我有義務去做。36Please respect copyright.PENANA9WrQMmA3q2
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上學是學生的責任,我討厭別人強加於我身上的事情,義務教育是社會對你的保障,同時也是強加於你身上的責任。36Please respect copyright.PENANAJkEHkXioHo
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「小桐,你明明有能力為甚麼又不去做呢?」36Please respect copyright.PENANARrzwHqDZat
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又來了,這種不負責任的話,我最討厭便是這些裝模作樣的說話,有能力便要去做?36Please respect copyright.PENANAj7tiyZ61rh
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「因為沒有意義。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAq62dBHAXr4
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「那甚麼是有意義的事?」她回過頭來問道36Please respect copyright.PENANA3ENAQsRF85
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「我還未找到。」我逃避着她的眼神回答36Please respect copyright.PENANAdI8iSPUZTd
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「整天呆在家又怎會找到有意義的事,從今天起開始改變自己吧。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAUJOE9eWeM2
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「我沒有興趣去改變,我為甚麼要為了迎合他人而去改變自己。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAiwLhh8n4M2
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「不是為了他人而去改變,而是為了自己而去改變。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAJW5Rp3xDHG
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「我也沒有任何要改變自己的原因。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAHfTpjwFEPu
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「那不是因為你整天呆在家又不願出外看看這個世界嗎。」36Please respect copyright.PENANASyAM9fq9fc
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「這件事根本沒有意義......」36Please respect copyright.PENANAplvVnha4bW
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在無限循環這個對話的同時,我們也走到了這所無聊的學園。36Please respect copyright.PENANAimErl7I718
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在踏進校園的一剎,我已經混身不自在,感覺就像被人窺視着。36Please respect copyright.PENANALgmRDh8ZHM
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除了知道保健室在哪裡之外,這所學校沒有我熟悉的地方。36Please respect copyright.PENANAe30e25OUHe
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猜拳輸了要上學也是她強加給我的責任,為甚麼我要去執行。36Please respect copyright.PENANA6Gx3pZ7qf6
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我也不清楚,可能因為陽光總會驅散黑暗,身前有陰影也是因為陽光在你背後不知疲倦地照耀着。36Please respect copyright.PENANAQ8CuJCB5c6
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「明明初中認識你時你還不是這樣的。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAGJIl7quUnV
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「我也是這樣想,明明認識你時你還不是這樣麻煩的。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAnPyULQXjNZ
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「我可是在為你着想。」36Please respect copyright.PENANATP2N2AIuka
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「如果是在為我着想就不要強逼我來學校。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAXEhGFhCbRO
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在拌嘴的同時我們也走到了班房,緊張嗎?當然不會,反正我也只有今天會來,日落後他們便不會再見到我。36Please respect copyright.PENANAD1Tyq6Dej0
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白櫻凜拉開教室的門,所有人的視線都望向了我們這邊。36Please respect copyright.PENANAwKRrBf6btl
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他們一臉意外的看着我們,我能感受到不少視線都聚集在我身上。36Please respect copyright.PENANAAeM1i7wUlK
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他們竊竊私語,交頭接耳的討論着。36Please respect copyright.PENANArPN0u6zRdk
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「白櫻凜同學,你今天不是請假了嗎?」36Please respect copyright.PENANA9L81nl2orm
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「我只請了上午的假。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAopzdP7dSjs
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「後面那位同學是?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAtPxrfURUtK
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「我是夜一桐。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAAq18wl0J9j
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全班都用驚訝的眼神看着我,我不理會他們的眼光,徑直的往角落靠窗的座位,那是全班唯一一個沒有人的位子。36Please respect copyright.PENANA0YyHA65JOm
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「他就是夜一桐?」「滿分的那位?」這些說話不斷傳出,我不明白為什麼要大驚小怪。36Please respect copyright.PENANAAGcgKeeSiP
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這節課就在大家的驚訝中完結。36Please respect copyright.PENANACt01FnpKMt
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課堂一完結我便離開了教室往保健室走,避免不斷被人詢問的處境。36Please respect copyright.PENANAPkfTRfBjPC
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呼吸越加急促,真想吐,來學校真的很辛苦......36Please respect copyright.PENANA0rIBnQm6Jd
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走到樓梯口我便再也忍不住要坐下休息一會,完全呼吸不過來……36Please respect copyright.PENANAGpCSeDpyid
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此時後面一把腳步聲傳過來,我回頭看去,是熟悉既討厭的面孔。36Please respect copyright.PENANAx9OSRO1r2m
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「追過來幹什麼,我只答應你來上學,並沒有答應你我會留在那會令我窒息的教室裡。」36Please respect copyright.PENANApN90pkuuTR
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「我發現你並不是討厭上學,你只是在逃避,初中一年級第三學期那時到底發生了甚麼事?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAXfDJcMKWJ6
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「追問別人私事是很不禮貌的,而且逃避上學不就是因為我討厭上學,不要好像很了解我想法似的。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAwDu01FM4d7
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「你明明是個好孩子來。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAzGjJ7KvEQt
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她拍了拍我後背然後掃了掃我的頭髮。36Please respect copyright.PENANANAbrlptpjn
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「是不是要去保健室?我陪你吧。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAQTOAzLuXsj
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「凛……我討厭你。」36Please respect copyright.PENANA4mYwPSLYQ3
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「呵呵,這是對我的讚賞來。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAAjkcopgPLU
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「作為女孩子,你還真是不知羞恥。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAHYfdmUW0nW
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我不討厭白櫻凜,能和她相識,也是因為這所我討厭的學校。36Please respect copyright.PENANAzjn10Z7bTq
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她也沒說錯,在初中時我還是一個正常的學生,除了頭腦比其他人好一點外也是跟普通人無異。36Please respect copyright.PENANAPe8Kh6P2Nc
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就是我突然想通了,上學甚麼的一點意義也沒有,於是我便成了「家裏蹲」。36Please respect copyright.PENANAxTlcRtXnFU
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她把我送到保健室後便回到教室,而我則躺在病床上休息。36Please respect copyright.PENANAMIi57PTM3Y
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我沒有所謂「朋友」的人,這所學校也沒有甚麼令我留戀的地方,要不是今天凜強迫我回來,大概高中三年我也打算在家中渡過。36Please respect copyright.PENANABdqAyHCYHh
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不用擔心出席率,因為學校接受了我的申請,家長通知也早就備好。36Please respect copyright.PENANAGZIBdvqcTR
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高中一年級的第一學期也好好過了,考試也是在保健室完成。36Please respect copyright.PENANAHshgtzY6Bx
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「這不是稀客嗎,一桐同學。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAa6RzchekEG
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「是星之宮嗎,真麻煩。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAWWkQMKUBok
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「我好歹也算是這所學校的老師,不加敬語的話我也是有權罰你留堂。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAxqlc16JSAe
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星之宮千園,保健室的當值老師,也是我在這所學校見得最多的人。36Please respect copyright.PENANAok1bicJjOZ
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一進門她便躺在了旁邊的病床,一點也不像老師,要說她甚麼地方像老師嘛……年齡吧。36Please respect copyright.PENANAkRUHngYhzH
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「放學的鐘聲一響我便會回家,不會呆在這裏很久的。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAbcwpIcCIV7
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「你最好不要結我添麻煩,教師會議上其他老師都將你交托給我,說甚麼「星之宮老師,你是接觸一桐最多的老師,一定能改變他的心意」,只會將麻煩的事托給我,又不見給我加薪金,老師也正值美好年華,才沒有那麼多心思放在你身上,乖乖的給我離開這裏然後去上課。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAufabTfDgMc
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她不斷嘮叨,抱怨着學校的待遇不好。36Please respect copyright.PENANAh7tFullpja
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我側過頭不去理會她,進入我的冥想狀態。36Please respect copyright.PENANA7SHZa2WS7n
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冥想是我的習慣,冥想能放鬆自己的內心,緩解在學校的焦慮。36Please respect copyright.PENANALuVvYqY5E9
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即使在家我也會抽時間去冥想,大概是因為閑得發慌,久而久之就成了我的習慣。36Please respect copyright.PENANAZ4L2UCE77m
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「你還要睡到甚麼時候,小桐~」36Please respect copyright.PENANAAZ76asJ3PV
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「我沒有睡,只是在冥想,還有就是不要再小桐小桐這樣的叫我。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAAxQgSyXfaV
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下課的鐘聲才剛響起白樓凜便來到了保健室,她根本就是埋伏在門外。36Please respect copyright.PENANAWJNOXq1wt2
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「正值青春的高中學生在保健室打情罵俏,可惡的現充都去死一死!」36Please respect copyright.PENANAFLlr76GsJF
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「星之宮,我們才不是情侶,而且從教師的口中說出那番說話應該算是教職員行為失當。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAlTsvIomped
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「星之宮老師,小桐今天麻煩你了,我會帶他離開的。」36Please respect copyright.PENANARruMMSGKub
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「麻煩你了,如果所有人都跟櫻凜你一樣乖巧,老師的煩惱就減去不少了。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAS0FyJkKSQO
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說這句話時星之宮還是盯着我說的。36Please respect copyright.PENANA6LRi4a0IIV
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「不用擔心,過了今天除了考試你不會再見到我。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAPvsbXHUxjA
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拉開保健室的門,徑直往校門走,再留在這個鬼地方多一秒我也不願意。36Please respect copyright.PENANAyHJjickvjE
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白櫻凜與我肩並肩的走,路上也不斷有人投來羨慕與妒忌的眼光,每個跟她打招呼的同學她也會一一回應。36Please respect copyright.PENANAybMetj8VnE
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每當我加快步速她也會跟着提速,她就是要站在我的旁邊。36Please respect copyright.PENANATeXckSFF6j
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「我得罪了你嗎?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAJ9KWfquF10
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「沒有。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAh4RxgLDZQO
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「那你今天為甚麼要纏着我。」36Please respect copyright.PENANA2y9LKiOFLv
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「因為我不想再看到你沉淪下去。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAKYCFwBApLZ
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「看來我是得罪你了,我在這裡向你道歉,放過我好嗎?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAOD6PbzsEJP
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「為甚麼你就這麼固執,唉……」36Please respect copyright.PENANAzrNNbHp3nS
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我並沒有理會她的義務,反正這麼長時間沒有出過門,今天就當出來吹吹風。36Please respect copyright.PENANANB6ZoHhMhf
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白櫻凜她有社團活動,所以當我出到校門時她已經不在身邊。36Please respect copyright.PENANA2nEAeKbkOr
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學校離家不近,乘電車的話也要兩個站,而且學校離電車站有一段距離,加上走路的時間,步行跟乘車回家所用的時間其實差不多。36Please respect copyright.PENANAc5gyzJy7sC
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即使我長期呆在家,但我對身體的鍛鍊也沒有落下,我會在家做些普通的體能和肌肉訓練。36Please respect copyright.PENANAWtdZ7C7Tom
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所以我選擇步行回家,無它,就因我忘記了帶錢包。36Please respect copyright.PENANAHQCAFzpuMA
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「我回來了。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAkRa3rKBfKP
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「小桐,歡迎回來,學校有趣嗎?」36Please respect copyright.PENANA96syQeYL2p
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「完全不有趣,最好幫我申請退學,反正學校的課程我早已學完。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAHYta16iGrI
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「不要這樣嘛,至少學校裡還有小凜陪你,她是個好女生,如果是她的話,媽媽我不會反對噢。」36Please respect copyright.PENANA5o1HkNTTFT
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「但是我反對。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAfd5nad52qs
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梳洗後我回到了房間,坐在床上打座冥想。36Please respect copyright.PENANALp1gPYXXki
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一想便是好幾個小時,直到晚餐時段我才停下來去吃飯。36Please respect copyright.PENANArdpdX40cTe
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冥想時我會幻想身體是土地,一株株幼苗慢慢生長,直至長成一大片森林。36Please respect copyright.PENANA492gAM8eVb
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每人都有不同的冥想方法,放空自己內心的做法我也有嘗試過,但我實在不能停止思考。36Please respect copyright.PENANAs0Ar6qFzy4
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人,不能停止思考,不論是在甚麼情況,就算是在想晚餐該吃甚麼這種事也好,我也不願停止思考。36Please respect copyright.PENANAfzlV9C18Ed