「啱嘅嘢緊係要堅持，但有時啱同錯真係好難界定。」我感嘆。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOT4tFRtdjr
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「同你啱啱遇到嘅事有關？」佢追問。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Qy5Bm46VF
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「係...我阿媽返咗嚟，仲帶住個病返嚟。」我故意好輕描淡寫咁講。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD89HltWGPz
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「吓...咩病？」306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvfb4gqeIcW
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「腦癌喎。」306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSDHHqIAB7
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「吓...」佢好似有啲愕然但又唔敢表現出嚟。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLbpbJBVBi
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「哈，我以為我會冇咩感覺，點知原來見到佢之後都係有啲嬲佢。」306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH3YC5CAQQT
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「咁證明你仲係重視佢。」306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡceydLq6Gs7
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「我唔知，我又開始唔識分到底佢嘅離開係啱定錯。」306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrc4lFlTKSj
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「點解要分啱定錯？你一係繼續憎佢，一係就放低姐。」306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqXyNBmlNvU
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「我憎唔落，但又放低唔倒。」我答，呢種矛盾嘅感覺好討厭。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcP8pl0fQYS
「咁一啲解決唔倒嘅嘢咪丟低佢，由自己當刻情緒主導囉。」306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0T3EBhaxFC
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「咁都得，哈哈哈。」果然係不負責任嘅小月。我一邊笑，一邊抹去從眼角輕瞟出嚟嘅淚水。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡllBv8bSY07
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「有...冇嘢可以幫手啊？一係我介紹一啲醫生俾佢？」阿月輕搭我隻手，手心傳來一陣溫暖。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9X1FYNuVb
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人嘅情緒一混亂就會做好多理性阻止唔倒嘅嘢，或者呢一刻，佢就係我唯一嘅避風港。我忍唔住將佢攬入懷中，輕撫佢擁有陣陣薰衣草香味嘅秀髮。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIP6Msva8l3
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我唔知我有冇做錯，但我真係好需要呢種可以倚靠嘅安慰。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxfoxxxbsfx
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「白痴，我老豆已經係最好嘅腦科醫生。」306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9UPbywwQQ
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「係喎。」306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV8qmUNnE9e
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「就好似你對阿南嘅感覺，放唔低就唔好放，直至有一日放得低，幾耐我都會等你，最緊要唔好放棄自己，由得自己頹廢落去。記住，牽掛一個人都可以好充實咁牽掛。」佢突然提起阿南，或者，佢都感覺到我嘅擁抱並唔係完全充滿住對佢嘅愛。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkkp1rQjok1
「你好傻。」我答。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡru848NXdwW
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「我嘅傻只係對你嘅限定。」306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4S2PV2e3a
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我哋就咁攬咗半個鐘，咩都冇講，就咁望住個日落慢慢從視線中溜走。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEx99s6ZKaG
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「好啦，我走啦，我司機喺樓下等，唔好諗咁多啦你。」306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbyRXcil6N
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「嗯。」得到佢唔知算唔算有用嘅開解，又真係釋除咗好多疑慮，至少識得正面面對自己嘅情緒。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBW9DeB6geM
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接落嚟幾日，我都有去醫院探阿媽，即使係帶住少少嘅悶氣去，但心底仍然希望可以留低多啲同佢嘅回憶。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPr79JBeJF
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俾阿月講中咗，係因為我仲好重視佢。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYsO4dj2whg
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有時老豆都會落嚟病房，我哋三個人傾咗好多嘢，阿媽當然冇講佢喺離開之後嘅事，但我都同佢分享咗呢十幾年嚟我嘅生活。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDvaMxqbQC
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包括點樣識咗幾個兄弟、孤兒院嘅事，同埋...阿南嘅事。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOdLXnv2k6S
「傻仔啊，女仔咁樣嚟搵你緊係緊張你喇，你點可以鬧走人？」阿媽講。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5AoqLPHSA
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「我都係咁同佢講，你睇佢個樣幾後悔。」老豆都踩我一腳。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ713PDnvC8N
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「咁果刻啖氣仲未落。」306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFsHLTCBDMA
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「你而家落咗仲唔追返人？」306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcu1pRNTJbg
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「唔好咯，Hurt得人咁深，無謂再打攪佢。」306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡToOuSiivCW
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「你真係大傻仔。」阿媽輕拍我後腦一下，再講：「佢係冇意思嘅，你點搵都影響唔倒佢，影響倒佢嘅話即係對你仲有感覺啦。」306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgE0t15Mm3l
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呢一下輕拍，係我第一次感受到一個母親對自己嘅關心。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLdFXvWSuk
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「係咪㗎？」306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ygZPtc5CV
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「我都後生過，就係當初糊塗咗先...」佢講講吓就冇再講落去。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwiadNdUepj
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「我明白。」我答，佢唔想我再重蹈佢嘅覆轍。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmC6Ep6x2W
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「你明白？」老豆問。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1x3CfxJCW
「嗯，所有嘢都好難分對錯，與其係咁，不如跟隨自己嘅感覺走。」我答。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjblWbdiViv
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「你冇怪阿媽？」阿媽問。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KRl0UKlec
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「有，好怪。但如果你當初留喺到，呢十幾年都唔會快樂。至少今日，我哋三個都係快快樂樂咁喺一齊，係或者有啲遲，但始終都到咗。」阿媽聽到我咁講，即刻喊到收唔倒聲，仲不停同我講對唔住。以呢一泡眼淚作為咁多年嚟嘅贖罪，我都已經好接受。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpaCeMsdgGd
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「仁，多謝你，教得個仔咁好。」阿媽捉得老豆隻手好實咁講。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1ZhYMi4yW
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「唔關我事啊，係個傻仔自己諗通。」老豆輕鬆回應，緩解呢一刻咁傷感嘅氣氛。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqU99LjVp9t
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阿媽亦點醒咗我，無論結果係點，我都要同阿南講清楚，那怕只係一句道歉，都係我欠咗佢。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDUUXojEfl
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或者上天感受到我嘅決心，第二日返到學校，一入到班房門口就同阿南迎面相遇。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4ybAUefVM
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「早晨。」我主動打破隔膜。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFOh8SjCkOY
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「早晨。」佢先有啲愕然，然後對我微微笑咗一笑，之後就離開咗。雖然係咁微小嘅舉動，但已經足夠令我心情暢快。我有預感今日一定可以同佢破冰。306Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNLfmqwiRPa
