*IMPORTANT*: This is a story that contains a lot of explicit description of abuse, violence and sexual scenes. It will also display a very weird love story. The language will also vary a lot as the story is lost in time so BARE WITH ME PLEASE!
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~Jeremy~
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As soon as our suitcases had walked the Senegalese land yesterday, I had already caught a delicious vagina. Women here are so easy to fish! I must even admit that being white is the perfect hook that will make them swallow between your nets. In addition, they are downright good in this country, considerably better than the bimbos whose remains of perverse fifties I had to lick yet already sold out at marriage. We are all idiots, it must be said!
Another consolation in my favor is that people here do not swing from tree to tree as the colonizer’s God complex of greatness may have made us believe.
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For now, at least, it will calm the squeak by my side who since our arrival, does not seem to resign herself to stopping the furniture massacre. Soon, we will only have in this mansion of yesterbe that now serves as our home, only a dusty carpet as a blanket and a lonely widow. Damn it! Marylin will train me faster than expected to the shéol at this rate! Still have to discover the mysterious reason for her bitter mood but I don't see any ounce of envy to do so for now anyway.
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There was only the croak of the sordid crows that praised the cold greyness of the old house. The sun was tired of arguing and chasing the shadows that adorned around, but obviously, it was a waste of time. There was nothing to describe, nothing to admire here, just a pile of bricks and wild wood; the taste for modernity, a priori, was terribly lacking in this culture.
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Not surprisingly, my soul blended perfectly with the canvas of the landscape. Empty, dull and black. I had committed suicide every day of my life in this damn addiction. I wanted to stop, I promise, really! On my life! About my life. I felt myself pushing the balls to overcome my nightmare. Funny, because I collapse in the dark, alongside the one to whom I promised the world and happiness, head against the pillow, harassing her with kisses on the friezes of her curveless body knowing that I lost the fight miserably. Hum, I no longer even have the courage to face anything. I know that she suffers from it, that she holds the marble face and the masquerade to perfection but that at the bottom we both drown. By force, only the debris of the union remains. But I want more, I want more of these women, I want more of this pleasure. Unfortunately, it makes me alive, sin makes me alive, I am alive! ...
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"Shit!"
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And she had just broken one of the last teapots to prepare breakfast for us.
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"Go ahead, the TV is perched there on the wall, you could destroy it while you are there. It will complete your magnificent collection”
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In her turquoise iris, disgust and anger were worth. She struck me with a look that instructed me that I was no longer in a position to place one.
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"FUCK!”
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She had burned herself this time with the cigar that agglomerated her lips.
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"You know, even if jewels have the proud propensity to be more attractive in the dark, it is not the same as to human beauty”
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“And can I know what is sir my husband referring to?"
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"To the fact that your face is embellished with the horror of your feelings! So basically all this mixture of not so enjoyable feelings makes you look hideous.. I mean , I’m just saying”
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She was on the alert, ready to blow up the rage she contained, God alone knows for any reason.
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"And what am I supposed to do? What am I supposed to do Jim, tell me! Parading in this slum of a house, this dead home, with a smile on my face to tame the pride of my husband's dick when my soul is in full putrefaction? I have already given everything Jim, I have already sacrificed everything! I'm here, you have me! What about me? I?…Who do I have? Even this cursed junk ring couldn't save you, it couldn't save us Jim! Twenty years, Jim, your good faith, your promises have not reissued it for you! Fuck! What did you expect, huh? Frankly? That I enthre myself in a servile role? Spread my legs after you have previously emptied the jug of your fucking nuts in the opener of one of these idiots of women you pick up at the corner of the streets? No! I have my slap in the face of having to endure your gaps! You have to accept that you are sick Jim! You are and you know it! Damn it! your job couldn't even find us a decent home! I am in a jungle, in the midst of these negroes, these monkeys who bury their reason and their dynamics of success in a God that their poverty has created, poltrons who keep moaning to obtain the clemency of whites over their nations in misery when their leaders steal with their agreement, the hopes and the chances of their future generations! So, if you wanted me to frame in our decadenced farce of a marriage, the image of a perfect wife, darling we have some for the century! ’’
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In the immediate future, my reason no longer proceeded with my actions. I don’t know what the hell got through her to spew this annoying and overly dramatic monologue BUT I AM NOT SICK! She didn't have to touch the lair of a beast that we both wallowed in oblivion. Without my knowledge, I had already jumped on her tiny figure, grabbing her irritating face.
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"I AM NOT SICK!”
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"You are Jim! Give yourself to the obvious! And if you still needed evidence, look at my body probed with bruises. I suffered under your madness, but you don't remember those moments when you go into crisis and become such a brute...''
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I didn't let her continue, that I captured her foggy lips between my teeth. This morning scene was to end. I pushed my tongue into the bottom of her buccal cavity, playing with hers and ardently sucking on it while kneading her hardening nipples. She had resisted it for a second but was now languishing to the touch of my hand that forced the path of her bra. She was relaxing, mission accomplished.
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"It's going to be fine, we'll get there… we.. we will get through it!”
I whispered that shit in her ear while her breathing crashed in a jerky cadence. Immediately, she got out of my grip and went to pull the newspaper from the coffee table, which she throws in my face.
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"You speak as if we were at the dawn of a global crisis. We will both get there? Where will we get to, Jim? What is so serious, that you have such dramatic sentences? You literally have a choice! You can request a reassignment or a transfer, I don't know! Don't play me with the tragic comedy when we obviously have the choice to leave this rat hole! You have a choice, Jim."
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"Until when Jim? Why necessarily here? In Africa? Between the clutches of a pack that has no empathy for human life. This is what they found best as a qualifier for the death of this person. <<The suicide of a sick soul>>…”
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"What is it?" I ask her while inspecting the traces of the newspaper
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"A person who would have committed suicide by burning their own house.” I quoted the newspaper. “People of the kind of the deceased, the disregulated, those who rebel against the will of the Almighty deserve such punishment, hell and worse..."
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"Jim, I want to go home. At my place, in our place, Jim.''
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"We are here Marylin.. in our home. Yes fucking ugly looking but still! We'll get through it,I promise you! Besides it’s just a one year mission. Before we know it, it’ll be over and we’ll soon be back in our country”
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I didn't know if I was taking over this dramatic statement to motivate her or me. I felt like a prancing puppet on a play, who is forked with a pair of lines on a manuscript to empress an assembly of bitter elderly people with boring lives.
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With an angry air, she walked away taking advantage of the fire that devoured her lungs and breathed in the life that my lies had stolen from her.
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"As you then swore to me yesterday that you were going to change, and that not even for a day, you were lying between the layers of another stranger, or when you promised me to spend an incredible wedding night but it was my great disarray to share my husband's fruit with three strangers on the marital bed just because the gentleman was struck by a sudden fetish kink”
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"At least I thought that if I gave you my pain, you would have liked to grasp the extent of my despair and the reason why I hate this particular country... You know what, go ahead, have a good day. Work well!"
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She did not hesitate to pout the smoke headlights she harvested from the tar she inhaled. She wanted to symbolize that the discussion was closed, in the most burlesque way it is, because she thought I didn't care about her.
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There is much more than we both didn’t know at that time, much more that connects me, us, to this infamous sick soul of the newspaper that turns into the stupidity of suicide.. For the time being I thought I had to change! For her, for me, for us. I set myself this year as the ultimate margin. And if my dependence triumphed over my efforts, for once, I would have the choice of the epilogue of my destiny. One year to become better, change or die. Time is given to me. Just for you Marylin...
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"Suicide is the only mortal sin that cannot be confessed to"
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