"HOW THE HELL IS IT STILL TWINKLING?!?" 51Please respect copyright.PENANAmzvujUsBvy
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I go to touch it. "SHIT!" no hands. "I cant!. Okay, this is starting to be annoying. Why did my hands have to be the first thing to go?!?" I childishly exclaim.51Please respect copyright.PENANAOJQesmElsw
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I roll my eyes in annoyance, and as I do I loose sight of the twinkle... "AH SHIT!"
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I frantically search for the shimmer. "Its all nothing!" I yell. "I would think this would be easy, finding the only white light in infinite darkness" I say jokingly, trying to keep myself together.51Please respect copyright.PENANAFAj6QToMMX
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After continuously searching for the glimmer for what feels like days I start feeling myself hyperventilating. "How am I even still breathing?" I think to myself. "talk about plot armor". I kid, attempting to make light of my feelings of desperation.51Please respect copyright.PENANAvHvVyTOVZj
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I keep looking for what feels like like weeks now. Frenziedly moving & twisting my head. Turning around, or flipping upside down, or... Honestly at this point im not sure. I think im turning around, it's kind of hard to tell if im even moving..
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I feel my mental state breaking down, the anguish setting in. I feel hopeless, a feeling I haven't felt in so long I can't even remember when. But some things still don't change. Like making light out of of dark situations. Choosing laughter over tears.51Please respect copyright.PENANAmpxzzZv58x
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But it's becoming too much, choking on my tears I jokingly say, "It's like searching for that little black dot in the corner of my eye that you can never catch!! WTF!!. IT'S LITERALLY THE ONLY LIGHT IN THE UNIVERSE!!! THIS IS INSANE! WHERE IS IT!!!!!"
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I start to reform my body that I let be consumed. I swing my arms trying to do what I think is turning around. I get a glimpse of more nothing that should be my hand.. I look down, my feet are still gone too. "W..what the fuck?"51Please respect copyright.PENANAQvixRlNCp4
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Fear setting in I reform again, nothing.. I try harder... "I, I cant... I ... cant?? ... I CANT!!!! ha" I chuckle. "Haha" more tears boil up, "HAHAHAHAA!!" I break down mentally, laughing in anguish.51Please respect copyright.PENANAin77uCy061
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Screaming until my lungs Burn I Shout, "There was never any fucking light! hahaha!!!! Why?!? WHY!?! WHY DO I ALWAYS HAVE TO DO THIS TO MYSELF?!? JUST LET GO EVAN!, LET GO!!! ITS OVER, EVERYTHING IS GONE." My voice giving out, along with my will I whimper, "even hope". With nothing comes no pain, the void sings.51Please respect copyright.PENANAEGSX1g7rXg
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As my heart slows back down, something I chose to keep to keep myself as human as possible, I close my eyes. Emptying my mind until there is nothing, slowly letting the void do the same to the rest of myself..51Please respect copyright.PENANAQHHPWUNPZB
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I feel me knees slowly disappear, I feel. Light. A weight, such a heavy weight is being lifted off myself. the weight of the universe. The last of the universe.51Please respect copyright.PENANATauxfwa6Zu
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I calmly open my eyes, embracing the infinite nothing...
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*TWINKLE*51Please respect copyright.PENANAoDDDbymRj1
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"Yup, okay. I lied, I don't wanna die!"51Please respect copyright.PENANAgjvIlnox4y
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"HEEEYY!!!!!!" I Yell. "As if it can hear me" I think. "It could be a light years away." I Project my self closer to the light.51Please respect copyright.PENANAIUU2hVgeiC
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Now starting to travel I noticed that when I stay stagnant it's as if the darkness lets me exist, it carries me. Gives me the choice to give myself up. But when I start to venture, it takes it as a form of aggression. It no longer carries, but attempts to restrain. It feels as though the more I move, the harder the void attempts to restrict.51Please respect copyright.PENANA23mKLiw8tQ
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Fighting off the void isn't that difficult thankfully, at least for now. But I do notice the difference. And it seems teleporting is impossible, every time I teleport it seems as if the dot gets further away. Well not further. But the flicker it gives off starts to become less rapid.51Please respect copyright.PENANA6TFTnNWFLb
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Giving up on teleporting I just continue to project myself as fast as possible closer to the light, sprawling as I do, trying to swim through the darkness. As much as I can with me not having any hands and two nubs for legs. All the while making sure to keep my eyes glued to the spot.51Please respect copyright.PENANAWIAV4c84Yc
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Making sure to keep my eye off on the gleam I move my hands into my peripheral. "It doesn't seem the darkness is consuming me any further unless I allow it. But I damn sure can't reverse it" ...51Please respect copyright.PENANA30RNTA7k9f
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I move my hands away, giving 100% of my attention to the flicker. "Has it gotten bigger?" I ask myself. "Or am I just imagining it? What if I'm just hallucinating out of desperation?" I think about rubbing my eyes, "maybe it's just in my head" I ponder. But I don't want to risk losing site of it once more. But also I don't want to spend all of eternity looking at what I think is a light.51Please respect copyright.PENANAelugpy2nHr
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"Would it just be better to let go? With nothing means no pain, no false hope"....51Please respect copyright.PENANARWaw3m56Yi
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"But what if it's real I said there was no hope. But, what if this is literally the last hope hope the universe?"51Please respect copyright.PENANAWO8xbPRi4f
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"Okay... maybe I'll just wait. BUT I won't spend an eternity here! I refuse! I'll... just give it an hour or so to see if there's any changes.. Maybe a couple days, or a few weeks if it comes to it.... half of an eternity max!"
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To Be Continued...51Please respect copyright.PENANAAW8X4BLrp2