92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJ7flD8guk
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1XSC4VB07l
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz7YDWq3hEE
0192Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh08c34rshi
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfH9Sszdxi3
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH6j61EKm5z
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwx24bevFmK
赤羽業一如往常的沖泡咖啡加奶精加糖，他慣於在這時候放空腦袋休息，即便是在這時候，他依然如此。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAXM0FVkQPn
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgBQlTZytd
攪拌咖啡時他看見自己的倒影迴轉在波紋中，意外的竟可以清晰反射出他面部的表情，是一個相當平靜的情緒，他本以為自己會是一副靜靜發著怒火的神情，然而，事實並非如此。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn7up0YTCbo
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSoCqLDFL8n
和表情同樣，他的內心此刻也靜謐的像火種熄滅似的，只有一縷青煙騰空散去。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS2vT9qA993
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWL3QlHgoQ
他不禁想，自己比起中學時候確實是成熟了些——尤其在看到娛樂版頭條醒目的標語之後，還能做些和普通日常無異的行為，而不是在那裡懊惱與憤恨——自己單戀了十幾年的人和當紅女明星傳出緋聞，作為證據，報導還放上兩人前往某溫泉旅館時的同遊照片。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxW5keM6Zw
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5pAoa4eUe
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTuw2vlg4za
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJQxyzvW5V
赤羽業啜飲著咖啡醒腦，明天他有一場重要的議會質詢，為了這場質詢，他能掌握的資料都已經準備妥當，務必成功達陣。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60v2ZYZlrV
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMynHI21Osf
在迅速打著資料重點時，赤羽業想起以前看過的動畫，裡面一句台詞就是在說明成熟與不成熟的差異，成熟的人接受事實不再反抗，不成熟的人則繼續頑強抵抗。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNosboXxNi
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVdZ80fcgDs
若然是以前的自己，肯定是會選擇反抗吧，然而自己並沒有選擇那樣幼稚的作法，大概就是成熟。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5xPpgvJM3h
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡth6064D4MM
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJ9hSAyOIr
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs6Fc9zIaJh
身後傳來同事們閱讀報紙之後的各種驚呼，他聞所未聞，繼續著自己的工作。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHbYX4ygAdk
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCk9lPSTs0
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbT5IXhGgDb
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr6YovXqeBE
0292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhhAo01Q9M
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHXzxChqzj
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0j15y0uAAO
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVFer2gWm2
過了二十五歲之後，除了工作，赤羽業經常回想的就是一些有關於潮田渚的相處片段。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYx7dZ2S0rR
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ZFkhYP1VG
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrVzbcSINg
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlUkUrpbnhi
最初只是一個留著長髮、綁著馬尾、笑起來有些虛幻的少年，放眼望去很容易在眾人中淹沒的稀薄存在感，卻因那時的偶然，令他目光全然留在他身上。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvjoMhv8gm
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0upoyfj8OS
赤羽業從來沒有對潮田渚說過，他對他最初的印象來自於某個放學後的黃昏教室，當時他出了校門憶起遺漏了作業本，便趕緊回教室欲拿取，剛好教室大門尚未關上，他正要踏入之時卻被眼前景緻停住腳步——逢魔時刻的色彩渲染整間教室，在他目光所及之處的人，綁著馬尾，藍色髮絲裡滲透著金黃色，背對著他。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRCPBbOukCa
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DCSnE3MCe
彷彿愛麗絲的兔子洞，誘惑著好奇的孩子一探究竟。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEALK0vN0P
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZOxG21TQb
日後，他經常回想的就是那樣的場景，靜謐的時刻裡，看著遠方夕陽沈落的少年。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq86b00s8kw
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3I6n0gL7a
假如那時候，更靠近些，或許便能得知少年那時在思考的事情了吧。 92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwI9Nt1FQBo
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB36YrN9XEm
赤羽業不只一次地這麼揣想。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SrG5nTo0Q
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgiVmC8ToJK
更靠近些，也就更能了解少年了，或者，讓少年想靠近自己，這份從那時便持續的單戀或許就能劃下結果——無論是否如願，至少不用懷抱揣想，一驚一顫地。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf1xbg4Dwxd
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgNJAyCVrr
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlSzSOuNhMA
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ3v58Qdn0c
0392Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQLaLxfFIG
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh18MMp62ks
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPoAfCYg79z
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzz5W9cpii1
結束了一整天的工作，赤羽業走出辦公室時已滿天星斗。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4VuWcmQ3B
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡloHewgqZMa
冷咧的風吹來，寒的讓人哆嗦，迎風而行的他卻忽然笑了，抑不可止的笑了，剝落了從早上就武裝的情緒笑了。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDBNxEorru
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDxeAqsYn5
隨著緊繃情緒忽然的潰堤，他感覺到溫熱的液體從自己的臉龐滑落。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwMBewjZMs
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRdyTe8UsK1
他想自己的確是很難受，不然一向不輕易落淚的他怎會突然無法阻止地不斷掉淚，弔詭是自己臉上還是一副笑容，而他知道自己是真心地露出笑容的。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡusluCJtxlB
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRJvfMt7zM
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0FGkCst3JE
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5PPySN4a7q
原來，再怎麼了解自己，終究還是會有無法理解的地方——就像小說角色因各種情緒的混雜那樣，他又笑又哭。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡna9httN6fz
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdptkPaABLh
而他以為自己不會。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDrLCKXfIV
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAi04z6RDgA
他本來以為自己不會的。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdX2TiE3Qiu
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY54I44zOQq
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIi4VBgsrgB
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrySAFynCoF
不過就是喜歡的人似乎有了喜歡的對象，而那個對象偏偏不是自己罷了，沒什麼大不了的。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5OvSTjuDoV
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7wnahcYj5
沒什麼大不了的，不是嗎？92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYjcO4cDnK
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkX9fS7dN4U
不是嗎？92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡanRiCNmgK1
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgm4Ei53HgE
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPY85MCHOZ
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVO1xOaYnR
0492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19dKFJmQM4
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7o3Q4PkSmG
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD5DD7kkfEH
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0H7OjP03LG
赤羽業中學之後常常會夢到潮田渚。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQccnArrbOF
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHh7KeOz8Jw
綁著馬尾的他，升上中學三年級之後的他，留著短髮的他。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSbQqXLLKFi
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7VLjwBoY1c
無論哪一個他，只要看到他，潮田渚都會露出笑容往他而來，並說著美妙的話語，是只能在夢裡聽見的情話。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQIZ6kajdGl
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXav7UJ3b3G
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7oQgZ3NJs
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP6CsRB8Qbz
所以，在住家周圍見到早上才在報紙裡看到的人出現的時候，赤羽業恍惚還以為自己疲累到走著睡著了——尤其，對方還一臉笑容的往自己走過來時，簡直重現了夢境場景。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlqHYohNAGg
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡML6xCMnjlo
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGJvuAAPsc
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYGev7Huv9j
「業，你今天好晚回來啊。」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBK9hbb431Y
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNl92sdpM6
雖然擺著一張笑容，然而赤羽業敏銳感覺到那笑顏下潛藏著的疲憊。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbb7laYS67T
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy6KpYQWxlX
啊啊，是這麼回事嗎？92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpLwHnDO7WD
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58pLv0ZUYY
難得的，赤羽業對自己洞悉人性這一點感到厭惡。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7BuBq7CYLy
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9X6a9Oxdda
「明天有重要的質詢，所以剛剛還在處理。」他頓了頓，並沒想戳破什麼地裝傻「渚，這麼晚了，你怎麼會來呢？」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLyylbcy8uw
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4upZOs9Cll
「……原來，業沒有看到報紙嗎？」不知道是放心還是懊惱，潮田渚呼了口氣「今天我下班回家時，發現家裡附近躲著好幾個記者，大概是想來打聽些事情吧」言至此，赤羽業難得見到潮田渚露出苦笑「而我的父母貌似也被騷擾了，便傳簡訊讓我今天別回家去別處躲著，等過個幾天就會沒事了。」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcm5bUwpkSi
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW4vTRJDN6E
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPibROpsPwZ
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwyaAWY9thp
潮田渚的言詞閃爍，大概是有些顧慮吧。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzvxP12aFf
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmE4iLsOs49
他並沒有興致去讓自己受傷，因此潮田渚言詞隱蔽的那些內容，儘管他猜得出來，他也不想直接聽到當事人直接說出。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMkuIF3qYE
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwzzPvFk60F
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwAmhVAOPqt
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43czUbujgc
「所以，你想在我這裡待個幾天，是這樣的意思嗎？」他直接點出結論。確實自己之前經常拖著潮田渚灌酒，家裡是有一些渚的換洗衣物跟被子。要是他是渚也會選擇一樣的事情，一來不用花錢住在酒店裡，二來也比較方便。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHcHnM1pTou
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CqG4Bnu8L
「對，畢竟，我沒有其他可以拜託的人了。」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3jV9wMOT7y
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQILLZqqxp6
赤羽業聽了之後直覺渚在說謊，然而卻找不出任何感覺奇怪的地方。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqikXgnGRMK
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0HlR1QXQcW
要論交情，自己的確是可以勝任的，然而說找不到人可以拜託？E班的感情在共經患難之後，是非常堅實的，除了自己之外，渚還有很多人可以拜託，想必他們也會十分樂意的（當然，肯定包含看戲的成份）。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwY1Pxesoni
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaw32RpBXPr
只是，渚的為難似乎也是真的，他似乎是真的找不到其他可以拜託的人——是以，才會沒有任何告知，就跑來他家外面等他，而他甚至不知道他會幾點回來地在寒風中等著。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1FrgYzcAK
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡac4aQWSrxt
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd0gCJjnZqJ
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rS8SpNyjT
「我知道了，你就在我這裡躲個幾天吧。」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj8PD7smAr8
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ29jRNsUCPn
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeoR1tfsQvu
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPolNcdOAUV
赤羽業有時會想，假如記憶可以回放，那麼潮田渚在他應允之後的那個畫面，他肯定會重溫數次——潮田渚喜出望外地抱住他，透過衣服傳來的溫熱，他曉得渚十分高興，雖然他還感覺到更深層次的欣喜，而那個欣喜在之後才能明白。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiv5AUcEczT
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCs1Z4Dz5TU
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNAgzg7fIXu
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs67l7Q03ec
當時的他僅僅是以為渚對於他讓他躲在他家裡這件事情感謝而已，直到後來發現誤會一場，他聽見和夢裡一樣的話語時，他才明白那時感覺到的謊言與欣喜的意義。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAuYcenSNI
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZX8d0ZgF2J
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTG1dIKsx0j
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnlhIk1fd2n
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGe5Is6sm8
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXoaI4o1ama
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SVhgvEeoA
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWWAVIHp1zO
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHv8YC70UV
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcbwV0G9CN
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjALENLz41
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0pbg8gQNZ
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGysuYiywbx
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZVCRJ3iP2u
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVoO1gg5li
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtqNq2g33R0
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡouA6mT5maF
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ4czpYDXWO
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCsKJ7lDQI
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJ3nfQ1N12
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqgOGkgnWj1
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhke7NhPaPK
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFoZ3rGTS6
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtnvMSOVHcQ
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHUboho5ZX
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOg4EY2Z3Ab
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjXMqASrEG
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrFdIZ88zBQ
***92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWmVBmiutW
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡocXR9KRIBz
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYDTWpebjr2
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qocDxchwb
「二十五歲時，赤羽業看見了自己單戀的人出現在報紙的版面上，那是一個和女明星緋聞的版面。從十三歲和少年相遇的時候，他這一份單戀就開始了。直到年老，他從來也沒說出口。沒有人知道的戀情不存在，所以他只是陪在潮田渚的身邊，他陪了多久，這份單戀就多久。六十五歲時，赤羽業還是陪在喜歡的人身邊。直到老死前，他都沒有說出口。」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxDugsnMN2o
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ98bh6w0ar7
以上是我寫文的最初動機與結構。以業的角度出發的單戀，只是，業對於這份戀情並沒有想放手一搏，以致於他和渚的關係始終在非常奇妙的情況。原設定中的渚也並沒有結婚，從業的角度無法知道渚的內心，所以並不能明白渚不結婚的原因。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqfIEUe3OXX
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMGNQfVLe3
不過寫文寫著就會出現慣性，所以最後還是回到不太遺憾的層面。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvnKlrQB9Nh
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPBkVvU1Tr
以前跟徘徊討論過，對於業渚，業必須處於主動才能得到好結果，假如兩個都沒有意識到，儘管遺憾但也不太虐，然而一方清醒一方迴避，那就有趣了。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwACZsxIoft
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRsPOHl02Jg
這文章大概有涉及到這一層面的討論。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShx4QMdwRs
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwnAlSlyweC
謝謝觀賞與指教！ns216.73.216.206da2
