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梅雨季的陣雨總來得又快又急,黑子盯著窗外被雨幕刷上朦朧的夜景,一片黑暗裡只剩下若隱若現的燈光,或許是赤司住的地方位於高樓層的緣故,即使是模糊不清的色彩也別有一番風情。18Please respect copyright.PENANA4G8HsDRNge
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“謝謝。”接過赤司遞給的熱飲,濃郁的可可香氣在鼻息間蔓延,淺嚐一口,微苦與甜膩搭配得恰到好處的成熟風味殘留於舌尖,令人久久無法忘懷,“很好喝呢,不過沒想到赤司君會有可可。”18Please respect copyright.PENANA1f42dYvmTD
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稱不上漫長,可他與赤司相識的時間也不算短,雖不可能完全摸透一個人的個性,但赤司的喜好基本上他還是清楚的,至少在記憶裡,除了應酬的酒類,他不曾見赤司碰過咖啡以外的飲品。18Please respect copyright.PENANA1wwYE7ZDH6
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“那是別人送的,雖然是無糖的可可粉,不過我還是喝不慣就是。”赤司輕描淡寫的說道,見黑子面露疑惑,又補了句,“我加了點糖,只是覺得你應該會喜歡喝甜一點的。”18Please respect copyright.PENANA6uzld8ZmVv
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果然是個細心的人呢。黑子嘴角悄悄上揚,這個總淡漠待人的人,其實比誰都要來得注意細節,並非是周遭人想像的那般薄情,只是習慣將一切藏得隱晦。18Please respect copyright.PENANAAi7MdZS7S4
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“赤司君的房間很乾淨呢。”18Please respect copyright.PENANAGLmDHnbGYA
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“是嗎。”18Please respect copyright.PENANAyL489Y0osu
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赤司的住所裝潢簡單,因為東西少,相對的就顯得空曠,只有書架上擺滿了各式各樣的書籍,四處張望的黑子看到書自然是眼睛一亮,拿著杯子的手甚至顫動了下。18Please respect copyright.PENANAXZMffVJShs
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“想看的話就拿回去看吧。”彷彿察覺了黑子的心思,赤司淡淡的說道。18Please respect copyright.PENANADN92aLf7Pe
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“咦?可以嗎?”18Please respect copyright.PENANAWBnHi8Yce8
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“無所謂,帶去實驗室還我就好。想拿幾本隨你。”18Please respect copyright.PENANA15vLv9ru4V
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“那我就不客氣了。”18Please respect copyright.PENANAfaAwanxXX9
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得到了主人的首肯,黑子很快的便沉浸在被成堆書籍環繞的喜悅中,或許表面上看來不是那麼明顯,但他拿著一本本書認真翻閱的模樣已說明一切。18Please respect copyright.PENANAGDz4q5yNwY
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書架上的書籍大多是與研究相關的文獻,隨意抽出一本都能見到重複使用所留下的書籤及書寫記號,可無論使用過多少次,每本書籍全都被分門別類地整齊擺好,彷彿能看見那個凡事要求嚴謹的男人的背影─無論是工作或閒暇,那人與書本幾乎形影不離的專注,即使只靠想像,也能令他會心一笑。18Please respect copyright.PENANAZGeSJqfbLS
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目光不經意落到書架最上方,一本被獨立擱置的書吸引了黑子的注意,越看越覺熟悉,他踮起腳尖想去拿那本對自己來說算是有些高度的書,卻怎麼伸手也勾不著。18Please respect copyright.PENANAq5G7GEBOve
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“唔…”這些個書架還真是不符合人體工學,高度已超過了一般成人男性的平均值了!黑子微微皺起的眉頭宛如他沉默的抗議,但他可沒因此向現實屈服,用力伸長的手已碰到書緣,只需再一次的努力就能將書本拿下來…18Please respect copyright.PENANA3mwXgX24qM
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“這本?”毫無預警出現在耳邊的嗓音令他渾身一顫,攀在書架上的另一手隨之鬆脫。往後墜的身體並沒有直落地面的疼痛,他在背後接觸一片柔軟的當下也同時跌進熟悉的顏色裡。18Please respect copyright.PENANA9kA4SEQwKN
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任時光流逝也不曾改變的初衷、怎樣的眼神交會也抹不去的悸動,正一次次用無語的沉默訴說。崩解的冷漠使黑子更加確信,他也同時跌進了赤司征十郎不加修飾的錯愕。18Please respect copyright.PENANAjFQv88y9NF
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即使是須臾片刻,他們眼中,只有彼此。18Please respect copyright.PENANACHPbPbFxlO
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“沒事吧?”18Please respect copyright.PENANAWsrrTSbhNY
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“啊,嗯…”黑子點點頭,方才被緊抓住的雙臂還留著輕微的疼痛感,他下意識抱緊雙臂,並非是疼痛令他難以忍受,而是不知該如何阻止快速在身體蔓延的熱度。18Please respect copyright.PENANAhdnYiRGBju
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“哲也?”18Please respect copyright.PENANAFsm3QXhgYq
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“啊,我沒事…抱歉我沒拿好赤司君的書,掉到地上了…”這樣窘迫的自己還真是失常,他連忙回過神蹲下去撿地上的書。18Please respect copyright.PENANAnAQBfmSorZ
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書背落地大開的頁面,日本狼依舊如記憶中的身影那般美麗,黑子這才想起這書是先前被鎖在資料室時,赤司手裡拿著的那一本。一張自書裡飄出的照片亦靜靜躺在旁邊,黑子也沒多想便拾起那照片。18Please respect copyright.PENANAgNrHQuoeWj
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照片裡的女人對著鏡頭的微笑甚是溫柔,美麗的臉龐,一頭柔順的長髮,襯以後方盛開的紫藤,如畫的景象連少有表情的黑子也不免面露讚嘆。18Please respect copyright.PENANAh8Eh02o5QK
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“是我的母親。”赤司撿起了地上的書,罕見地主動開口,“在我還很小的時候就過世了。”18Please respect copyright.PENANANLlJavlt4c
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“是個很溫柔的人。”即使只是一張照片,也足以博得黑子的好感,“跟赤司君一模一樣呢。”18Please respect copyright.PENANAExmFUtALgl
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凝視著照片的目光變得柔和,他不禁想,若眼前的這個人也像照片中的人露出微笑,那是否也是一幅令人醉心的景象?無論期盼或是渴望,都開始越過自己畫下的分界線,但他卻不想停下。18Please respect copyright.PENANAZxwX3s9m2S
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因為對方是赤司征十郎。18Please respect copyright.PENANAKBLxNoq1eU
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下意識轉過頭,發現赤司也正看著自己。連言語也顯得多餘,沉寂的注視裡湧進一股森冷的氣息。18Please respect copyright.PENANAiU4mup5Tro
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“…赤司君?”18Please respect copyright.PENANAqnajjPd5bw
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接過黑子手裡拿著的照片,赤司就著鎖定的視線俯下身,兩人五公分的身高差距並不是多遙遠的距離,可黑子還是有了眼前世界全被一人籠罩,只剩下赤司征十郎這個人的錯覺。18Please respect copyright.PENANAltneXXddyy
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“赤…”吹拂在頰邊的氣息異常熾熱,陷入僵硬的身體無法移動。過近的距離下,擱在肩頸的柔軟髮絲飄散出的淡淡清香混著男人獨特的氣息─他一片空白的腦袋已無法正常運轉。18Please respect copyright.PENANAjVht689YNo
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所幸男人主動的貼近只維持片刻,否則他大概無法阻止自己由屏息變成窒息的窘境吧。黑子在心裡默默鬆了口氣。18Please respect copyright.PENANAf17hEw5f6q
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“哲也。”18Please respect copyright.PENANAEM0MyRvy7w
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“欸,是?”18Please respect copyright.PENANAuxAY3ttxCT
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窗外的雨似乎是停了,徒留雨滴點點墜落的滴答聲響,規律且緩慢,宛如他已恢復正常跳動的心跳。他沒能明白赤司方才的舉動代表的意義,只是用直視的雙眼回應赤司的呼喚。18Please respect copyright.PENANAnMx79PpNQF
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“你,曾為了踏錯的某一步而後悔過嗎?”溫潤的聲線裡藏著毫無情感起伏的淡漠,每當赤司談及自己的事情時,他總會見到赤司露出這樣的表情。或者,那已不能稱的上是一種表情了。18Please respect copyright.PENANA0B99hF0vfL
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他沒有回答。這個人對大多數的事情都不聞不問,包括自己。站在他面前的只是一個名為赤司征十郎的空殼,但他期盼與之對話的靈魂,又何去何從。18Please respect copyright.PENANAdcvcWCfct7
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“有些事…一腳踏入就無法回頭,會後悔的。”18Please respect copyright.PENANAE3IHIAu0Sf
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依舊保持沉默,但黑子回視的目光與赤司所給予的同樣堅決。從不認為一個人能夠完全瞭解另外一個人,就連他黑子哲也,有些時候也不懂自己究竟在想什麼、想做什麼。可他始終相信靈魂是會相互呼應的。那麼此時此刻站在面前,用孤寂的牢籠將自己束縛住的人,不也是一直以來無法正視的另一個自己嗎?18Please respect copyright.PENANAFeXwIlFEqn
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“好像什麼事都瞞不過赤司君呢。”思及此,黑子不自覺地笑了,一如往常般的雲淡風輕。“我只是個普通人,所以,普通人該有的情緒我也會有。是的,我曾後悔過。” 18Please respect copyright.PENANAwc06nakLiQ
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“那麼,你該知道什麼是重蹈覆轍。”轉身將照片放回架上,赤司留下了包含太多無奈的嘆息。這人已知悉一切了吧,包括赤司弘彥與自己見面的事,雖然不清楚赤司是如何得知的。18Please respect copyright.PENANA4oOB6szut3
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如果那個肩膀所承擔的重量也能分點給自己,那就好了─望著赤司一再留下的背影,黑子思忖道。 18Please respect copyright.PENANAm1e2IPlcBu
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“做你想做的,做你自己就好了。”相似的背影,熟悉的笑容,猶言在耳的話語瞬間沖散了拉扯不已的思緒,他想開口呼喚背對自己的人,雙腳卻在這之前已大步邁出。18Please respect copyright.PENANA3WcwWCCZ9w
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將掌心與額頭貼上那人後背的一瞬間,黑子感受到一絲輕微的顫抖,可他陷入黑暗的視線沒能分辨這輕顫究竟是源於赤司抑或是自己。18Please respect copyright.PENANAE8tvXmuovA
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第一次的接觸是無心之舉,僅僅是單純的關心,從沒想過赤司會就這樣揮開他的手。但是在他做好被躲開的心理準備時,赤司卻又打破了他的預料,無聲允許了他的主動。18Please respect copyright.PENANAR9r06cSnMs
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“赤司君,我…並不知道什麼才是正確的,只是…”18Please respect copyright.PENANAHUXnyi2lD3
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能不能就這樣往前、就這樣靠近,直到追上那個背影,直到看見這人不再掩飾的真心。18Please respect copyright.PENANAWrgo5f2pO9
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“只是在想…如果像這樣靠在一起,肩膀的負擔就能減輕許多吧。”18Please respect copyright.PENANAAKUnKkxUJe
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這次沉默的人變成了背對自己的男人。18Please respect copyright.PENANArFTLxnIpf8
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沒有打破良久沉默的念頭,比起那些需要言語才能傳達的心情,其實他更喜歡靜謐逐漸蔓至全身、將所有思緒寄託予一瞬觸碰的悸動。18Please respect copyright.PENANAwj7gWLvoiQ
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因為對方是赤司征十郎。18Please respect copyright.PENANAdXx3rkVJf3
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緩緩閉上雙眼,此刻的黑子哲也,只想在這樣輕柔的觸碰裡感受赤司征十郎給予的─寧靜的溫暖。18Please respect copyright.PENANAt1oDXOzptd
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他是不是也能放進些許猜測,猜測赤司也不排斥這樣的接觸。如果隨身攜帶的手機沒有突然響起,再給他多點時間思考,那就好了。所謂事與願違,多麼希望它能消失片刻,哪怕只是這一分這一秒。18Please respect copyright.PENANAE9ox5jeVYA
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“不接嗎?”18Please respect copyright.PENANAyEgUeqhr1A
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“…嗯。”收回的手抓到一絲微涼的空氣,黑子接起通話,“黃瀨君?啊…抱歉,我忘記要一起去買東西了,我這就過去。”18Please respect copyright.PENANAOCQ4KHuA4M
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“涼太在等你吧,那麼趁現在雨正好停了,快去吧。”赤司伸手阻止了他欲幫忙收拾的動作,從玄關的鞋櫃邊取出一把折疊傘,遞給黑子。“還有,再淋一次雨的行為我並不是很鼓勵。”18Please respect copyright.PENANAvvhrBPeF7P
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“謝謝。”握緊手裡的雨傘,不茍言笑的外表下藏著怎樣迂迴的關心,他想他是收到了,“對了,赤司君…”18Please respect copyright.PENANAIjHzEMEP9U
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黑子像是想起了什麼事,擱在門把上的手停止了動作,突然回過頭來,“我剛才說,曾後悔過,對吧?”18Please respect copyright.PENANAvIXVezI8mx
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“嗯。”赤司點了點頭。18Please respect copyright.PENANACMgA8DfNcI
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“其實我啊…從未自一份後悔裡掙脫。”18Please respect copyright.PENANABLf9Z5LKqC
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微笑,在短暫的停頓裡勾勒出若有似無的哀愁,如水清澈的藍眸溫柔依舊,卻像發出悲鳴的淚光,熠熠閃爍─那是無聲的求救。18Please respect copyright.PENANAIhC9yuno0I
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拯救我。18Please respect copyright.PENANAUb8OiYWkJj
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這大概是赤黑醬對戲最難的一次( º﹃º )18Please respect copyright.PENANADoltRi2P5x
讓我有種“可惡啊赤黑醬好煩的感覺!",可是寫完後又變成了“我愛赤黑醬!"wwwww18Please respect copyright.PENANAe9nhhthVwJ
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