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現在回想起來,那感覺就像是昨天才發生的事情。57Please respect copyright.PENANAXp3EoAo7MX
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運球的聲音在偌大的體育館內此起彼落,混合著球鞋與地板的摩擦聲,那是每天都熟悉得不得了的日常。57Please respect copyright.PENANAQspmMfHtzS
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『啊啊,好想去找小黑子喔……』黃瀨抱著籃球坐在場邊一角,一邊感嘆一邊無精打采地玩起手中的籃球。57Please respect copyright.PENANArVqmW2Tmjj
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黃瀨今年已經是三年級生了,高一時進來的那些前輩們都已紛紛畢業,兩年前監督武內源太預計要以黃瀨為中心打造的球隊如今也已經成熟了,不過雖然身為隊上的前輩,可是黃瀨本身相當隨和的個性倒是讓他和後輩們沒有什麼隔閡。57Please respect copyright.PENANAcgS15iCWDt
也因此當黃瀨這一聲感嘆出來之後,旁邊同為海常正選的幾個二三年級生都見怪不怪地當作沒聽到,反正黃瀨幾乎每天都要抱怨個好幾次。57Please respect copyright.PENANA2YyOpBqXPC
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黃瀨也不在意沒有得到回應,一向能很快從打擊中回復過來的他──拜中學時被那幫傢伙摧殘所賜──馬上又開始興致勃勃地說起了前天去誠凜找黑子發生的事情。57Please respect copyright.PENANAnUXdGxmxle
『吶我跟你們說喔,小黑子他……』57Please respect copyright.PENANAyS6LndZig1
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幾乎三句裡有兩句就會提到小黑子,可是黃瀨自己完全沒有任何自覺,開口閉口都圍繞在黑子身上。57Please respect copyright.PENANAviBffXddFY
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『那個……前輩說的「小黑子」是前輩的戀人嗎?』在一旁聽得一愣一愣的高一新生不禁開口問了一句,卻沒想到所有在場的二三年級正選全都大笑了起來。57Please respect copyright.PENANAAwdVUWE3yd
『怎麼可能啊!』57Please respect copyright.PENANA8FlIx7mxJo
『就是說,對方可是那個黑子啊!』57Please respect copyright.PENANAFwqeClLRlT
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看到那幾個在一旁擦球的高一完全一臉不明白,有人就好心地跟他們解釋。57Please respect copyright.PENANAamHoYEudCt
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『黃瀨說的那個黑子是誠凜那邊的,也是籃球部正選喔。』57Please respect copyright.PENANAGPmU3AgS5v
『哎──』57Please respect copyright.PENANAxGZ9LrDM6D
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幾個一年級一陣驚嘆,不過這時候二三年級生們笑完後又紛紛開始打趣起黃瀨來了,幾個人臉上都是不懷好意的笑容,顯然早就知道了一些什麼內幕。57Please respect copyright.PENANAi4zbkc5BuK
『說到這個,黃瀨,你的手機待機畫面是什麼啊?』57Please respect copyright.PENANAd0U6A9Su5c
『啊?是小黑子的午睡照啊,這可是我費了很多功夫才拍到的喔!』黃瀨一臉莫名其妙。57Please respect copyright.PENANAQ1TOpht4B3
『這麼說來,黃瀨也很常跑誠凜啊不是嗎?上次還被對方的監督打過來抱怨了。』57Please respect copyright.PENANAhBBtvF6MFX
『對,還有手機郵件!上次我有看到,黃瀨的發送紀錄幾乎都是黑子啊。』57Please respect copyright.PENANAjaUNUuVYgV
『而且去出外景的時候不管有什麼好吃好玩的一定第一個想到黑子,我們這些隊友完全沒有存在感啊──』57Please respect copyright.PENANAqKZOMEgkFg
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所有人你一言我一語紛紛發言舉證,黃瀨一副莫名其妙想要反駁的模樣,可是隊友們卻硬是不讓他講話,幾個二三年級生彼此臉上的表情都帶著好笑,其中一個跟黃瀨同樣是三年級的正選扳著手指開始算了起來。57Please respect copyright.PENANAoept1nzizg
『手機的待機畫面是黑子、平均兩天去一次誠凜、通訊紀錄幾乎都是黑子、有什麼好吃好玩的開口就是講起黑子……』57Please respect copyright.PENANAnlBlBEqMWz
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『黃瀨,你該不會是暗戀人家吧?』57Please respect copyright.PENANAvR6M5TW8oA
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不知道是誰說了這麼一句,所有人紛紛笑了起來,直到教練生氣地過來趕人去練習後才紛紛作鳥獸散,嘻嘻哈哈的聲音不絕於耳。57Please respect copyright.PENANANAKR33sL6H
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然而在一片笑聲中,黃瀨卻被最後那一句話給打亂了心緒。57Please respect copyright.PENANAZWZQrTU5d0
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暗戀……小黑子?57Please respect copyright.PENANAp5H2CJvXSC
哈哈,怎麼可能呢,別開玩笑了……57Please respect copyright.PENANAAezODUUahe
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黃瀨試圖想要一笑置之,可是那句話卻像個魔咒一樣在他心底纏繞著生了根,再也不拔掉。57Please respect copyright.PENANA894YZgqzx6
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他從沒認真想過黑子在自己的心裡究竟占著什麼樣的位子,從最開始進入籃球部的討厭、輕視,到後來的尊敬甚至喜歡,黃瀨打從一開始就注意到了那個存在感薄弱的少年,不管是討厭或者喜歡。57Please respect copyright.PENANAbQDpm7SOfQ
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那麼,是在什麼時候開始,那抹淺藍的身影在他心裡佔據的地方越來越多、越來越重要了呢?57Please respect copyright.PENANAF2HwDLQl3H
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這麼想著的黃瀨,破天荒地好幾天都沒有傳過一封訊息給黑子,也沒有再去誠凜一次,手機一連安靜了數天,卻讓黃瀨的心越來越空蕩蕩。57Please respect copyright.PENANAknI7KQR1xK
他不是要撇清什麼,只是……心很慌,原本他只是單純地將黑子視為非常重要的人,連自己對於水藍少年是什麼情感也懵懵懂懂,可是那天隊友們無意間的玩笑卻讓黃瀨好像隱約察覺到了什麼。57Please respect copyright.PENANAGgfKpcHU6j
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不是這樣的吧,戀人什麼的……他只是,很喜歡小黑子而已。57Please respect copyright.PENANAtJb0xgsB3T
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『唉……』黃瀨趴在自己的桌上,悶悶地嘆了一口氣。57Please respect copyright.PENANAPBb0WysrIg
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窗外的雨滴滴答答下個沒完,陰沉的天氣一如他現在的心情。57Please respect copyright.PENANAsKgBRdSnXq
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已經快要一個禮拜沒有跟小黑子聯絡了,也不知道小黑子現在怎麼樣了……57Please respect copyright.PENANAheJ9qecRwp
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就在黃瀨正在胡思亂想的時候,放在桌上的手機忽然震動了起來,黃瀨嚇得彈了起來,一把抓起還在震個不停的手機,一看螢幕居然是黑子傳了訊息過來。57Please respect copyright.PENANAmDAnKjAp4t
黃瀨睜大眼睛,心跳忽然變得好快好快。他深呼吸,微顫著手指點開了那封訊息。57Please respect copyright.PENANAm3EZLGlNaq
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「From:小黑子57Please respect copyright.PENANAuVHKdNmPXC
主旨:近況如何57Please respect copyright.PENANAie6arRB6DM
黃瀨君最近還好嗎?57Please respect copyright.PENANA2cDRDAagH0
如果身體不舒服或是很忙的話就不要再亂跑了,請多多休息。57Please respect copyright.PENANAqZylZUZzVw
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p.s.最近變冷了,記得穿厚一點。」57Please respect copyright.PENANA2xCQXd3yVO
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短短的一兩行字,淡淡的敘述口吻就如同少年平時給人的感覺,透過那樣簡單的文字,黃瀨彷彿還能聽見少年溫潤如水的嗓音在耳邊迴繞。57Please respect copyright.PENANAyMjnCBmUCW
盯著手機的螢幕,黃瀨的眼裡閃過一抹掙扎。57Please respect copyright.PENANAif19e1Pkqq
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小黑子……57Please respect copyright.PENANAXHqYuyBPpp
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雨下了一整天,到了放學的時候也沒有停,烏雲始終沒有要散去的樣子,黃瀨撐著傘,靜靜地看著眼前「誠凜高校」四個大字,心頭湧上了一抹複雜。57Please respect copyright.PENANAGjQAuwmklc
結果他還是跑來了,身體好像不聽自己的使喚了一般,連今天的部活都冒著被監督臭罵一頓的風險請了假,一下課就搭著新幹線從神奈川趕到東京。57Please respect copyright.PENANAQ4hhqXDCS2
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可是黃瀨現在站在誠凜的校門口,卻突然失去了和水藍少年面對面的勇氣。57Please respect copyright.PENANA0MxGSWLJ9P
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深呼吸了幾次,硬是壓下心中的不安,黃瀨走進了誠凜的校園。57Please respect copyright.PENANAfZMuDDTkHA
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體育館裡沒有人,不曉得今天籃球部是不是取消了部活。沒有看到想找的人,黃瀨又不想打電話給黑子,只是慢慢地在雨中走著,不知不覺間就走到了圖書館的旁邊。57Please respect copyright.PENANAky3QfnBh3E
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──然後,他看到了高大的紅髮少年和嬌小的水藍少年肩並肩坐在一起的畫面57Please respect copyright.PENANAinL6XGE1fc
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他看到火神抓頭撓腮對著課本發愁,一臉糾結的模樣,而黑子的唇角揚起很淡的弧度,很有耐心地幫火神把一個個漢字都標上假名。57Please respect copyright.PENANAbunViFdosL
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……那畫面,和諧得讓黃瀨不禁握緊了抓著傘柄的手。57Please respect copyright.PENANAKSobvQuGLG
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如果說現在有人問黃瀨他想幹嘛,他絕對會毫不猶豫地回答讓火神從黑子的身邊消失,消失得徹徹底底。57Please respect copyright.PENANAdwjdqIQohi
想到這裡,黃瀨忽地悚然而驚,心底一下都涼透了。57Please respect copyright.PENANALGG70CHudX
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什麼時候開始,他對黑子的獨佔欲竟然強到這種地步,甚至想要把所有靠近黑子的人都通通趕走?57Please respect copyright.PENANAp8zQ1vqOH6
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因為下雨的關係,多少能為黃瀨遮擋一些視線,再加上今天過來誠凜之前他還特地戴了口罩將臉遮住大半,不會那麼輕易被人認出來。57Please respect copyright.PENANAtTewPVqlFa
所以並沒有任何人發現,金髮的少年撐著傘,在雨中望著那扇窗子裡的景象許久許久,專注得連目光都沒有移過動。57Please respect copyright.PENANAtmFMaMbVIk
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那天晚上,黃瀨就做了夢,一個跟黑子有關的夢。57Please respect copyright.PENANAD1dfXCgbX4
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隔天早上起來時,看著沾上白濁的內褲和床單,黃瀨的腦海中閃過昨天晚上夢中的那些片段,零落的喘息、染滿情欲的表情、侵占與進入的喊叫……他忍不住痛苦地閉上眼,把臉埋進手心。57Please respect copyright.PENANAEooEsrJ4uN
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原來,他真的對黑子抱著情慾,原來,他對黑子的喜歡不知不覺間已變質成了戀人的喜歡。57Please respect copyright.PENANA8j9fiwq2cl
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後來黃瀨只是傳了封郵件給黑子說聲抱歉,他最近實在太忙了,所以才抽不出空去誠凜找他,黑子回覆了信件告訴他不用在意,而黃瀨看著手機,唇角卻揚起了苦澀的微笑。57Please respect copyright.PENANA8NHh6f2dPT
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在這之後,黃瀨開始刻意地疏離了黑子,也漸漸地不再和對方聯繫了。57Please respect copyright.PENANAtnA3IaPnmE
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因為他害怕,如果再像以前那樣,他總有一天會忍不住把所有和黑子親近的人都趕走,會忍不住想要獨佔那個水藍的少年。他不想讓黑子看到自己醜陋的一面,所以黃瀨選擇遠離,寧可走得遠遠的,也不敢去面對少年如水清澈的眼眸。57Please respect copyright.PENANAKpbtzWLrJY
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而高三的冬季盃是黃瀨最後一次看到黑子,那年的Winter Cup海常最後還是飲恨敗在誠凜手下,黃瀨最後看了一眼被隊友們簇擁著的水藍少年,然後頭也不回地離開。57Please respect copyright.PENANA5tn323WtzX
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冬季盃結束後,黃瀨就退出了演藝圈,也從籃球部引退了,全心準備升學的他斷了所有和舊日朋友的聯繫,因為他不敢從他們任何一人的口中聽到關於黑子的消息。57Please respect copyright.PENANAOIKFOg4fSp
就這樣來到大學,順利升上了二年級,黃瀨以為他將那些過往和自己的情感壓抑得很好,直到桃井五月的那一封訊息再度讓他察覺到,他其實從來都沒有放下過對黑子的感情。57Please respect copyright.PENANA7XK8c3aIcm
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逃避真實的心情、逃避著喜歡的人,沒有勇氣告白也不敢正視自己的感情。57Please respect copyright.PENANAog4QGpdYNb
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──他黃瀨涼太,就是這樣的膽小鬼。57Please respect copyright.PENANAU1UrWNMeWh
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TBC.
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現在回想起來,那感覺就像是昨天才發生的事情。57Please respect copyright.PENANAXp3EoAo7MX
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運球的聲音在偌大的體育館內此起彼落,混合著球鞋與地板的摩擦聲,那是每天都熟悉得不得了的日常。57Please respect copyright.PENANAQspmMfHtzS
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『啊啊,好想去找小黑子喔……』黃瀨抱著籃球坐在場邊一角,一邊感嘆一邊無精打采地玩起手中的籃球。57Please respect copyright.PENANArVqmW2Tmjj
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黃瀨今年已經是三年級生了,高一時進來的那些前輩們都已紛紛畢業,兩年前監督武內源太預計要以黃瀨為中心打造的球隊如今也已經成熟了,不過雖然身為隊上的前輩,可是黃瀨本身相當隨和的個性倒是讓他和後輩們沒有什麼隔閡。57Please respect copyright.PENANAcgS15iCWDt
也因此當黃瀨這一聲感嘆出來之後,旁邊同為海常正選的幾個二三年級生都見怪不怪地當作沒聽到,反正黃瀨幾乎每天都要抱怨個好幾次。57Please respect copyright.PENANA2YyOpBqXPC
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黃瀨也不在意沒有得到回應,一向能很快從打擊中回復過來的他──拜中學時被那幫傢伙摧殘所賜──馬上又開始興致勃勃地說起了前天去誠凜找黑子發生的事情。57Please respect copyright.PENANAnUXdGxmxle
『吶我跟你們說喔,小黑子他……』57Please respect copyright.PENANAyS6LndZig1
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幾乎三句裡有兩句就會提到小黑子,可是黃瀨自己完全沒有任何自覺,開口閉口都圍繞在黑子身上。57Please respect copyright.PENANAviBffXddFY
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『那個……前輩說的「小黑子」是前輩的戀人嗎?』在一旁聽得一愣一愣的高一新生不禁開口問了一句,卻沒想到所有在場的二三年級正選全都大笑了起來。57Please respect copyright.PENANAAwdVUWE3yd
『怎麼可能啊!』57Please respect copyright.PENANA8FlIx7mxJo
『就是說,對方可是那個黑子啊!』57Please respect copyright.PENANAFwqeClLRlT
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看到那幾個在一旁擦球的高一完全一臉不明白,有人就好心地跟他們解釋。57Please respect copyright.PENANAamHoYEudCt
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『黃瀨說的那個黑子是誠凜那邊的,也是籃球部正選喔。』57Please respect copyright.PENANAGPmU3AgS5v
『哎──』57Please respect copyright.PENANAxGZ9LrDM6D
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幾個一年級一陣驚嘆,不過這時候二三年級生們笑完後又紛紛開始打趣起黃瀨來了,幾個人臉上都是不懷好意的笑容,顯然早就知道了一些什麼內幕。57Please respect copyright.PENANAi4zbkc5BuK
『說到這個,黃瀨,你的手機待機畫面是什麼啊?』57Please respect copyright.PENANAd0U6A9Su5c
『啊?是小黑子的午睡照啊,這可是我費了很多功夫才拍到的喔!』黃瀨一臉莫名其妙。57Please respect copyright.PENANAQ1TOpht4B3
『這麼說來,黃瀨也很常跑誠凜啊不是嗎?上次還被對方的監督打過來抱怨了。』57Please respect copyright.PENANAhBBtvF6MFX
『對,還有手機郵件!上次我有看到,黃瀨的發送紀錄幾乎都是黑子啊。』57Please respect copyright.PENANAjaUNUuVYgV
『而且去出外景的時候不管有什麼好吃好玩的一定第一個想到黑子,我們這些隊友完全沒有存在感啊──』57Please respect copyright.PENANAqKZOMEgkFg
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所有人你一言我一語紛紛發言舉證,黃瀨一副莫名其妙想要反駁的模樣,可是隊友們卻硬是不讓他講話,幾個二三年級生彼此臉上的表情都帶著好笑,其中一個跟黃瀨同樣是三年級的正選扳著手指開始算了起來。57Please respect copyright.PENANAoept1nzizg
『手機的待機畫面是黑子、平均兩天去一次誠凜、通訊紀錄幾乎都是黑子、有什麼好吃好玩的開口就是講起黑子……』57Please respect copyright.PENANAnlBlBEqMWz
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『黃瀨,你該不會是暗戀人家吧?』57Please respect copyright.PENANAvR6M5TW8oA
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不知道是誰說了這麼一句,所有人紛紛笑了起來,直到教練生氣地過來趕人去練習後才紛紛作鳥獸散,嘻嘻哈哈的聲音不絕於耳。57Please respect copyright.PENANANAKR33sL6H
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然而在一片笑聲中,黃瀨卻被最後那一句話給打亂了心緒。57Please respect copyright.PENANAZWZQrTU5d0
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暗戀……小黑子?57Please respect copyright.PENANAp5H2CJvXSC
哈哈,怎麼可能呢,別開玩笑了……57Please respect copyright.PENANAAezODUUahe
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黃瀨試圖想要一笑置之,可是那句話卻像個魔咒一樣在他心底纏繞著生了根,再也不拔掉。57Please respect copyright.PENANA894YZgqzx6
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他從沒認真想過黑子在自己的心裡究竟占著什麼樣的位子,從最開始進入籃球部的討厭、輕視,到後來的尊敬甚至喜歡,黃瀨打從一開始就注意到了那個存在感薄弱的少年,不管是討厭或者喜歡。57Please respect copyright.PENANAbQDpm7SOfQ
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那麼,是在什麼時候開始,那抹淺藍的身影在他心裡佔據的地方越來越多、越來越重要了呢?57Please respect copyright.PENANAF2HwDLQl3H
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這麼想著的黃瀨,破天荒地好幾天都沒有傳過一封訊息給黑子,也沒有再去誠凜一次,手機一連安靜了數天,卻讓黃瀨的心越來越空蕩蕩。57Please respect copyright.PENANAknI7KQR1xK
他不是要撇清什麼,只是……心很慌,原本他只是單純地將黑子視為非常重要的人,連自己對於水藍少年是什麼情感也懵懵懂懂,可是那天隊友們無意間的玩笑卻讓黃瀨好像隱約察覺到了什麼。57Please respect copyright.PENANAGgfKpcHU6j
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不是這樣的吧,戀人什麼的……他只是,很喜歡小黑子而已。57Please respect copyright.PENANAtJb0xgsB3T
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『唉……』黃瀨趴在自己的桌上,悶悶地嘆了一口氣。57Please respect copyright.PENANAPBb0WysrIg
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窗外的雨滴滴答答下個沒完,陰沉的天氣一如他現在的心情。57Please respect copyright.PENANAsKgBRdSnXq
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已經快要一個禮拜沒有跟小黑子聯絡了,也不知道小黑子現在怎麼樣了……57Please respect copyright.PENANAheJ9qecRwp
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就在黃瀨正在胡思亂想的時候,放在桌上的手機忽然震動了起來,黃瀨嚇得彈了起來,一把抓起還在震個不停的手機,一看螢幕居然是黑子傳了訊息過來。57Please respect copyright.PENANAmDAnKjAp4t
黃瀨睜大眼睛,心跳忽然變得好快好快。他深呼吸,微顫著手指點開了那封訊息。57Please respect copyright.PENANAm3EZLGlNaq
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「From:小黑子57Please respect copyright.PENANAuVHKdNmPXC
主旨:近況如何57Please respect copyright.PENANAie6arRB6DM
黃瀨君最近還好嗎?57Please respect copyright.PENANA2cDRDAagH0
如果身體不舒服或是很忙的話就不要再亂跑了,請多多休息。57Please respect copyright.PENANAqZylZUZzVw
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p.s.最近變冷了,記得穿厚一點。」57Please respect copyright.PENANA2xCQXd3yVO
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短短的一兩行字,淡淡的敘述口吻就如同少年平時給人的感覺,透過那樣簡單的文字,黃瀨彷彿還能聽見少年溫潤如水的嗓音在耳邊迴繞。57Please respect copyright.PENANAyMjnCBmUCW
盯著手機的螢幕,黃瀨的眼裡閃過一抹掙扎。57Please respect copyright.PENANAif19e1Pkqq
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小黑子……57Please respect copyright.PENANAXHqYuyBPpp
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雨下了一整天,到了放學的時候也沒有停,烏雲始終沒有要散去的樣子,黃瀨撐著傘,靜靜地看著眼前「誠凜高校」四個大字,心頭湧上了一抹複雜。57Please respect copyright.PENANAGjQAuwmklc
結果他還是跑來了,身體好像不聽自己的使喚了一般,連今天的部活都冒著被監督臭罵一頓的風險請了假,一下課就搭著新幹線從神奈川趕到東京。57Please respect copyright.PENANAQ4hhqXDCS2
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可是黃瀨現在站在誠凜的校門口,卻突然失去了和水藍少年面對面的勇氣。57Please respect copyright.PENANA0MxGSWLJ9P
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深呼吸了幾次,硬是壓下心中的不安,黃瀨走進了誠凜的校園。57Please respect copyright.PENANAfZMuDDTkHA
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體育館裡沒有人,不曉得今天籃球部是不是取消了部活。沒有看到想找的人,黃瀨又不想打電話給黑子,只是慢慢地在雨中走著,不知不覺間就走到了圖書館的旁邊。57Please respect copyright.PENANAky3QfnBh3E
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──然後,他看到了高大的紅髮少年和嬌小的水藍少年肩並肩坐在一起的畫面57Please respect copyright.PENANAinL6XGE1fc
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他看到火神抓頭撓腮對著課本發愁,一臉糾結的模樣,而黑子的唇角揚起很淡的弧度,很有耐心地幫火神把一個個漢字都標上假名。57Please respect copyright.PENANAbunViFdosL
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……那畫面,和諧得讓黃瀨不禁握緊了抓著傘柄的手。57Please respect copyright.PENANAKSobvQuGLG
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如果說現在有人問黃瀨他想幹嘛,他絕對會毫不猶豫地回答讓火神從黑子的身邊消失,消失得徹徹底底。57Please respect copyright.PENANAdwjdqIQohi
想到這裡,黃瀨忽地悚然而驚,心底一下都涼透了。57Please respect copyright.PENANALGG70CHudX
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什麼時候開始,他對黑子的獨佔欲竟然強到這種地步,甚至想要把所有靠近黑子的人都通通趕走?57Please respect copyright.PENANAp8zQ1vqOH6
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因為下雨的關係,多少能為黃瀨遮擋一些視線,再加上今天過來誠凜之前他還特地戴了口罩將臉遮住大半,不會那麼輕易被人認出來。57Please respect copyright.PENANAtTewPVqlFa
所以並沒有任何人發現,金髮的少年撐著傘,在雨中望著那扇窗子裡的景象許久許久,專注得連目光都沒有移過動。57Please respect copyright.PENANAtmFMaMbVIk
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那天晚上,黃瀨就做了夢,一個跟黑子有關的夢。57Please respect copyright.PENANAD1dfXCgbX4
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隔天早上起來時,看著沾上白濁的內褲和床單,黃瀨的腦海中閃過昨天晚上夢中的那些片段,零落的喘息、染滿情欲的表情、侵占與進入的喊叫……他忍不住痛苦地閉上眼,把臉埋進手心。57Please respect copyright.PENANAEooEsrJ4uN
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原來,他真的對黑子抱著情慾,原來,他對黑子的喜歡不知不覺間已變質成了戀人的喜歡。57Please respect copyright.PENANA8j9fiwq2cl
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後來黃瀨只是傳了封郵件給黑子說聲抱歉,他最近實在太忙了,所以才抽不出空去誠凜找他,黑子回覆了信件告訴他不用在意,而黃瀨看著手機,唇角卻揚起了苦澀的微笑。57Please respect copyright.PENANA8NHh6f2dPT
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在這之後,黃瀨開始刻意地疏離了黑子,也漸漸地不再和對方聯繫了。57Please respect copyright.PENANAtnA3IaPnmE
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因為他害怕,如果再像以前那樣,他總有一天會忍不住把所有和黑子親近的人都趕走,會忍不住想要獨佔那個水藍的少年。他不想讓黑子看到自己醜陋的一面,所以黃瀨選擇遠離,寧可走得遠遠的,也不敢去面對少年如水清澈的眼眸。57Please respect copyright.PENANAKpbtzWLrJY
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而高三的冬季盃是黃瀨最後一次看到黑子,那年的Winter Cup海常最後還是飲恨敗在誠凜手下,黃瀨最後看了一眼被隊友們簇擁著的水藍少年,然後頭也不回地離開。57Please respect copyright.PENANA5tn323WtzX
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冬季盃結束後,黃瀨就退出了演藝圈,也從籃球部引退了,全心準備升學的他斷了所有和舊日朋友的聯繫,因為他不敢從他們任何一人的口中聽到關於黑子的消息。57Please respect copyright.PENANAOIKFOg4fSp
就這樣來到大學,順利升上了二年級,黃瀨以為他將那些過往和自己的情感壓抑得很好,直到桃井五月的那一封訊息再度讓他察覺到,他其實從來都沒有放下過對黑子的感情。57Please respect copyright.PENANA7XK8c3aIcm
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逃避真實的心情、逃避著喜歡的人,沒有勇氣告白也不敢正視自己的感情。57Please respect copyright.PENANAog4QGpdYNb
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──他黃瀨涼太,就是這樣的膽小鬼。57Please respect copyright.PENANAU1UrWNMeWh
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TBC.