你們的距離。49Please respect copyright.PENANAfwxrDIsVsI
從他坐著的椅子到你站立的位置,從他的紅眸到你的黑眼,從他冰冷的指尖到你微顫的手掌,從他的唇到你的額,你們的距離,彷彿彼此依靠相信所留下來的自由空氣,確實存在卻又一伸手一動作就可以被泯滅的距離。49Please respect copyright.PENANAq2KvbSQMGt
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愛的證明。49Please respect copyright.PENANAeJ4XCLi7cQ
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距離無以言喻49Please respect copyright.PENANAZB8ZHoQh8Y
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「學長?」你疑惑地看著他,而猛然打開你房門的人只是抓著一張紙站在門口,直直地看著你,半晌沒有動作。你轉過電腦椅,雙手還擺在快速鍵的鍵盤之上忘了敲下,歪著頭,試圖理解你的隔壁鄰居為何出現這種表情。49Please respect copyright.PENANABXtff2VXWo
「學長,怎麼了嗎?」49Please respect copyright.PENANArsUZ3pRpVf
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過了半晌,他用凝重的表情呼出一口淺淺的氣,開口呼喚你,「褚,你過來,我有話要問你。」49Please respect copyright.PENANAeVFZJ7QS4u
「可是我的遊戲……」49Please respect copyright.PENANA2Q6tEdlsue
轉過你腦海的第一個念頭是「都快升級了我現在不想離開電腦啦……」,第二個念頭是「完蛋了我居然敢跟學長頂嘴──」,然而在你心中被敬稱(?)為紅眼殺人兔的火星人之王只是冷冷地一笑,雙手環上胸膛,紙張夾在指縫間,臉上又出現你很熟悉的冷笑。49Please respect copyright.PENANAPdtfRoZSHm
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「褚。」49Please respect copyright.PENANAIPLCkNOTh2
你原本以為他要揍你的。49Please respect copyright.PENANAsmaYqU4N6m
「啊?」49Please respect copyright.PENANA37Ly6WwHu3
你的學長用著每看必發毛的輕柔微笑對你說話。49Please respect copyright.PENANAAjTq0Nw1qD
「你的角色,被剛剛冒出來的怪打掛了,」一字一頓,充斥落井下石意味的嗓音,「你、沒、有、發、現、嗎?」49Please respect copyright.PENANAaOTYwmRZJS
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啊!49Please respect copyright.PENANAv6lt2a0J8j
學長你怎麼可以使出召喚大魔王這種賤招!49Please respect copyright.PENANA9p60er8rdb
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於是五分鐘之後,你垂頭喪氣地坐在你那萬惡的學長身旁,恨恨地看著他拿在手上翻來翻去的那張紙,只差沒有咬著水杯悲嘆你逝去的升級。49Please respect copyright.PENANAE6wPGLYJBa
「你那什麼臉,醜死了。」他嫌惡地看了你一眼,「我這裡有一張學校發的身心測驗量表,要由代導人測驗被導人。等一下我問,你就憑第一反應回答。這樣懂了嗎?」49Please respect copyright.PENANAntASiLiaUD
你的表情瞬間變得有點奇怪。49Please respect copyright.PENANAUZcTkr3m8q
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──學長怎麼回事?居然會要我填這種浪費時間的東西,而且還是親自叫我填欸……小小的無袍時間浪費掉就算了,但是他黑袍大人的時間用一秒鐘十幾萬上下來形容絕對沒問題的!49Please respect copyright.PENANA8SuT5PuwRn
十幾萬欸!49Please respect copyright.PENANA3S48qUYcSL
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「有話就開口,不要讓我浪費時間用表情去猜你在想什麼。」49Please respect copyright.PENANArC4JY7DaJl
拳頭招呼了過來。49Please respect copyright.PENANAVM9gWUgUAs
「嗚,好痛……」49Please respect copyright.PENANAgBA6AjLBPr
死命地抱住被打爆的地方。49Please respect copyright.PENANAdG6ORSqIt7
「笨死了。」你覺得那個惡鬼的臉色稍微緩和了一點,或者是變得有點無奈,「我要開始問了。」49Please respect copyright.PENANAmqkk2MVq4O
「啊、啊學長等等!你直接把那張紙給我寫就好啦?」然後快點離開我的房間讓我補回丟掉的經驗值吧──49Please respect copyright.PENANAs35NQhs6co
學長瞟了你一眼,「我記得,有人通用文字是五十九分哭著去求老師才沒被當的啊。」 「……對不起學長我錯了請你問我吧!」49Please respect copyright.PENANAoOWgpNdzlU
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測驗開始。49Please respect copyright.PENANAOaj9c1gPB3
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「你最近生活作息正常嗎?」49Please respect copyright.PENANAXdGXT9tq4p
你想起著現在有人沒辦法三不五時拖你去解任務、因為他剛剛回歸接任務的數量也受到限制,所以說,那當然,「──非常正常。」49Please respect copyright.PENANAPmrbHn9WbV
對面那雙紅色的眼睛似乎帶著「你敢說你沒有三更半夜熬夜打線上遊戲嗎?」的質疑,你乾笑。49Please respect copyright.PENANACoUYiketot
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「有失眠的問題?」49Please respect copyright.PENANA3GCw62d226
「沒有。」49Please respect copyright.PENANAFGQHZpLufp
「笨蛋不會失眠。」你連他的吐嘈都來不及抗議。「有自殺傾向嗎?」49Please respect copyright.PENANAbMxgL7idnE
「沒有。」你忍不住想起你曾因為被拖去出任務而時時刻刻處在沒命的危險之中,突如其來地感嘆:啊,最近的生活真是太平多了。49Please respect copyright.PENANALxhtLz3o47
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「那麼,很容易去醫療班復活嗎?」49Please respect copyright.PENANAOz6al9k4uX
「不會。」幸好還沒發生過這種事。49Please respect copyright.PENANAR24NXOvbGl
「任務成功率有下降嗎?」49Please respect copyright.PENANAgN45ew76iE
「……我不知道我的任務成功率是多少。」尷尬。49Please respect copyright.PENANAPzuMfmCdGc
「嘖。」你看他的手上的筆在紙上隨手幫你勾了一個答案,但不知道他到底勾的是哪一個,「會有突然很想接大量任務的念頭?覺得折磨那些低等鬼族很有快感?」49Please respect copyright.PENANAv8VbAvNPEj
「……我才不是你。」小聲。49Please respect copyright.PENANAXo7oukqoXB
「褚,你想被我種在黑館大門口就說,馬上送你下去。」49Please respect copyright.PENANAeT6GcaDgjc
你身旁的殺人兔折起了手指,你又乾笑。49Please respect copyright.PENANALd8UontSFZ
「學、學長,饒命啊對不起我只是一時口誤──」49Please respect copyright.PENANA90zDrOCOlu
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他嘖了一聲,「有時候會突然忘記某一句咒語?」49Please respect copyright.PENANAZdYnHggXl4
「本來記得的就不多……」49Please respect copyright.PENANAWa3JLMf355
「覺得與其慢吞吞的用道德勸說,不如一道爆符直接超渡?」49Please respect copyright.PENANA5CtIag2NMY
「……」49Please respect copyright.PENANAafCvg0EOMl
──就說我不是你了!誰像你這沒良心的鬼黑袍!49Please respect copyright.PENANAyN94vCwyk1
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他又看了你一眼,自動跳下一題,「入學到現在還是記不起教室的全名?」49Please respect copyright.PENANADkMasnZ6uC
「……」49Please respect copyright.PENANAZWUNV8FbIH
到底有誰記起來了,學長可不可以拜託你回答我這奧妙的問題?49Please respect copyright.PENANAEhCK3zo8EM
「嘖,果然人笨沒藥醫。」49Please respect copyright.PENANAYUahxRoSPx
「學長!」49Please respect copyright.PENANAa3haM61nel
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「每次發現你同學的眼鏡又在反光、突然跳上大貓飛走、看到飯團就現形的時候,就會覺得胃又痛了起來?」49Please respect copyright.PENANAke70DgWDeG
「……我想說這件事很久了,這題目、還真貼近我的生活。」49Please respect copyright.PENANAvcpJpTzOfY
「問卷會根據每個人不同的狀態改變題目。」他拿筆敲了敲你的腦袋,「回答問題,不要浪費時間。」49Please respect copyright.PENANAXq6Z5IpU4b
「最近、我想有稍微好一點吧……可能離被同化成火星人的日子不遠了。」你最後一句是小聲的嘆氣,他想了想似乎還是決定不要花時間跟你算帳,所以裝作沒聽見。49Please respect copyright.PENANAVOnaZsHfFt
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「有時候會覺得心悸、頭暈目眩,熱度上升?」49Please respect copyright.PENANAbxsE2qgZN0
「會。」你想了一下才回答,但沒有得到你預期中的下一個題目。49Please respect copyright.PENANAesa1ON9Mjn
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他只是看著你,一時沒有說話,紅色的瞳孔在光線之下彷彿有著流動變幻的濃淡色彩,複雜而看不出意謂的凝視,而你被那樣的視線看得些微焦躁,總覺得有點想垂下視線卻又不敢動彈,然後他開口,用著較為低沉的嗓音。49Please respect copyright.PENANA92FaNfZ8en
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「為什麼?」49Please respect copyright.PENANAmgnYRTaW0t
氣氛輕易地轉變,彷彿因為這個問題理解了什麼在兩人之間浮動的情緒,你強忍著心裡吶喊著「學長你為什麼要把平常的題目搞得這麼詭異啊──」,無法控制地低下頭,垂死掙扎。49Please respect copyright.PENANAqvLzoIEPRx
「學長,單子上沒有這題。」49Please respect copyright.PENANARh4UycGoy0
「你怎麼知道沒有?」49Please respect copyright.PENANA16YTJpDzXZ
「我的通用語只是差點被當!不是被當!」抗議。49Please respect copyright.PENANAerPYW88oyv
「那都差不多。」他哼了一聲,你簡直想瞪他,完全不想理會自己此刻快速飆升的頰畔體溫。49Please respect copyright.PENANApZ4ODm6hIW
你們之間的沉默拉距著,直到他突然笑出聲,你不明所以地抬頭看他,不能夠理解他今天到底是吃錯什麼藥怎麼老做一些奇怪的事。49Please respect copyright.PENANAP7lGWprAhQ
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「好吧,最後一題了。」你才想著他怎麼這麼好心,他又補了一句話讓你悚然一驚的話語,「你再敢不答,你就死定了。」49Please respect copyright.PENANAqhwYRv7VCl
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「吶,褚。」49Please respect copyright.PENANAiGWMS8S3f9
不知為何視線陷入一片昏暗,你過了一陣子才理解是他的手不知何時越過了你的肩,掩住了你的眼,平時冰涼此刻卻顯得有些溫熱的手掌貼緊你的眼皮,氣息吹在你的耳邊,你感覺自己渾身顫抖,但又想著這樣的情況對那嘴硬又彆扭的學長來說大概比你更為煎熬吧,忍不住微笑。49Please respect copyright.PENANA4MZBFICktr
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「你會覺得這世界上、沒有人了解你嗎?」49Please respect copyright.PENANAHXMXEUwRA5
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你微笑地對他說了一句話,然後被他一把擁入懷中,連讓你看一眼他表情的機會都不留給你。你想著你們都在試著學習,就像任何彼此重視的人們一樣,藉由習 慣、理解、思考,嘗試解構對方的思緒,不是由竊聽心聲的方式、不是由直接沒有經過任何思考的獲得,而是越過無數迂迴話語的距離,不斷反芻對方話語背後的情 緒。49Please respect copyright.PENANAEzNndsUr2t
由思考而將彼此的樣貌深深記憶,這樣的感覺不是輕易的靠近,而是一種更加複雜的、沒有辦法解釋的慎重與親暱。49Please respect copyright.PENANAzXqC2GeSCN
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就算是學長你沒辦法聽到我在想什麼也是一樣,對我來說都是一樣的。49Please respect copyright.PENANAKExcN0UHnr
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「──從認識學長之後,我從來沒有這麼想過。」49Please respect copyright.PENANAFJ0gqlm2hk
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+THE END+49Please respect copyright.PENANAD5dOxVZ5sa
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差點趕不上答應的更新(汗死)49Please respect copyright.PENANADYdL0EEW9E
明明是很喜歡的題目卻表達的七零八落,這幾天新生訓練真的累掛我了(癱軟)49Please respect copyright.PENANA1CHee4I7vN
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常常看到特傳文寫學長天線消失之後兩個人都很不習慣的文章,或者是學長最後又把天線打開了的故事,忍不住就想寫寫看他們如果接受這樣的關係,會有怎樣的成長。雖然表現得不好,但這題目從我的角度而言,其實是相當有思考意義的。49Please respect copyright.PENANAqIpSLX88Yc
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所以說,這篇不屬於學長苦追漾漾的《學長與憂鬱》系列(爆笑)
ns216.73.216.251da2 從他坐著的椅子到你站立的位置,從他的紅眸到你的黑眼,從他冰冷的指尖到你微顫的手掌,從他的唇到你的額,你們的距離,彷彿彼此依靠相信所留下來的自由空氣,確實存在卻又一伸手一動作就可以被泯滅的距離。49Please respect copyright.PENANAq2KvbSQMGt
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愛的證明。49Please respect copyright.PENANAeJ4XCLi7cQ
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距離無以言喻49Please respect copyright.PENANAZB8ZHoQh8Y
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「學長?」你疑惑地看著他,而猛然打開你房門的人只是抓著一張紙站在門口,直直地看著你,半晌沒有動作。你轉過電腦椅,雙手還擺在快速鍵的鍵盤之上忘了敲下,歪著頭,試圖理解你的隔壁鄰居為何出現這種表情。49Please respect copyright.PENANABXtff2VXWo
「學長,怎麼了嗎?」49Please respect copyright.PENANArsUZ3pRpVf
49Please respect copyright.PENANAgeAovWJV1y
過了半晌,他用凝重的表情呼出一口淺淺的氣,開口呼喚你,「褚,你過來,我有話要問你。」49Please respect copyright.PENANAeVFZJ7QS4u
「可是我的遊戲……」49Please respect copyright.PENANA2Q6tEdlsue
轉過你腦海的第一個念頭是「都快升級了我現在不想離開電腦啦……」,第二個念頭是「完蛋了我居然敢跟學長頂嘴──」,然而在你心中被敬稱(?)為紅眼殺人兔的火星人之王只是冷冷地一笑,雙手環上胸膛,紙張夾在指縫間,臉上又出現你很熟悉的冷笑。49Please respect copyright.PENANAPdtfRoZSHm
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「褚。」49Please respect copyright.PENANAIPLCkNOTh2
你原本以為他要揍你的。49Please respect copyright.PENANAsmaYqU4N6m
「啊?」49Please respect copyright.PENANA37Ly6WwHu3
你的學長用著每看必發毛的輕柔微笑對你說話。49Please respect copyright.PENANAAjTq0Nw1qD
「你的角色,被剛剛冒出來的怪打掛了,」一字一頓,充斥落井下石意味的嗓音,「你、沒、有、發、現、嗎?」49Please respect copyright.PENANAaOTYwmRZJS
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啊!49Please respect copyright.PENANAv6lt2a0J8j
學長你怎麼可以使出召喚大魔王這種賤招!49Please respect copyright.PENANA9p60er8rdb
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於是五分鐘之後,你垂頭喪氣地坐在你那萬惡的學長身旁,恨恨地看著他拿在手上翻來翻去的那張紙,只差沒有咬著水杯悲嘆你逝去的升級。49Please respect copyright.PENANAE6wPGLYJBa
「你那什麼臉,醜死了。」他嫌惡地看了你一眼,「我這裡有一張學校發的身心測驗量表,要由代導人測驗被導人。等一下我問,你就憑第一反應回答。這樣懂了嗎?」49Please respect copyright.PENANAntASiLiaUD
你的表情瞬間變得有點奇怪。49Please respect copyright.PENANAUZcTkr3m8q
49Please respect copyright.PENANAoLMcKhcYXy
──學長怎麼回事?居然會要我填這種浪費時間的東西,而且還是親自叫我填欸……小小的無袍時間浪費掉就算了,但是他黑袍大人的時間用一秒鐘十幾萬上下來形容絕對沒問題的!49Please respect copyright.PENANA8SuT5PuwRn
十幾萬欸!49Please respect copyright.PENANA3S48qUYcSL
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「有話就開口,不要讓我浪費時間用表情去猜你在想什麼。」49Please respect copyright.PENANArC4JY7DaJl
拳頭招呼了過來。49Please respect copyright.PENANAVM9gWUgUAs
「嗚,好痛……」49Please respect copyright.PENANAgBA6AjLBPr
死命地抱住被打爆的地方。49Please respect copyright.PENANAdG6ORSqIt7
「笨死了。」你覺得那個惡鬼的臉色稍微緩和了一點,或者是變得有點無奈,「我要開始問了。」49Please respect copyright.PENANAmqkk2MVq4O
「啊、啊學長等等!你直接把那張紙給我寫就好啦?」然後快點離開我的房間讓我補回丟掉的經驗值吧──49Please respect copyright.PENANAs35NQhs6co
學長瞟了你一眼,「我記得,有人通用文字是五十九分哭著去求老師才沒被當的啊。」 「……對不起學長我錯了請你問我吧!」49Please respect copyright.PENANAoOWgpNdzlU
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測驗開始。49Please respect copyright.PENANAOaj9c1gPB3
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「你最近生活作息正常嗎?」49Please respect copyright.PENANAXdGXT9tq4p
你想起著現在有人沒辦法三不五時拖你去解任務、因為他剛剛回歸接任務的數量也受到限制,所以說,那當然,「──非常正常。」49Please respect copyright.PENANAPmrbHn9WbV
對面那雙紅色的眼睛似乎帶著「你敢說你沒有三更半夜熬夜打線上遊戲嗎?」的質疑,你乾笑。49Please respect copyright.PENANACoUYiketot
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「有失眠的問題?」49Please respect copyright.PENANA3GCw62d226
「沒有。」49Please respect copyright.PENANAFGQHZpLufp
「笨蛋不會失眠。」你連他的吐嘈都來不及抗議。「有自殺傾向嗎?」49Please respect copyright.PENANAbMxgL7idnE
「沒有。」你忍不住想起你曾因為被拖去出任務而時時刻刻處在沒命的危險之中,突如其來地感嘆:啊,最近的生活真是太平多了。49Please respect copyright.PENANALxhtLz3o47
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「那麼,很容易去醫療班復活嗎?」49Please respect copyright.PENANAOz6al9k4uX
「不會。」幸好還沒發生過這種事。49Please respect copyright.PENANAR24NXOvbGl
「任務成功率有下降嗎?」49Please respect copyright.PENANAgN45ew76iE
「……我不知道我的任務成功率是多少。」尷尬。49Please respect copyright.PENANAPzuMfmCdGc
「嘖。」你看他的手上的筆在紙上隨手幫你勾了一個答案,但不知道他到底勾的是哪一個,「會有突然很想接大量任務的念頭?覺得折磨那些低等鬼族很有快感?」49Please respect copyright.PENANAv8VbAvNPEj
「……我才不是你。」小聲。49Please respect copyright.PENANAXo7oukqoXB
「褚,你想被我種在黑館大門口就說,馬上送你下去。」49Please respect copyright.PENANAeT6GcaDgjc
你身旁的殺人兔折起了手指,你又乾笑。49Please respect copyright.PENANALd8UontSFZ
「學、學長,饒命啊對不起我只是一時口誤──」49Please respect copyright.PENANA90zDrOCOlu
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他嘖了一聲,「有時候會突然忘記某一句咒語?」49Please respect copyright.PENANAZdYnHggXl4
「本來記得的就不多……」49Please respect copyright.PENANAWa3JLMf355
「覺得與其慢吞吞的用道德勸說,不如一道爆符直接超渡?」49Please respect copyright.PENANA5CtIag2NMY
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──就說我不是你了!誰像你這沒良心的鬼黑袍!49Please respect copyright.PENANAyN94vCwyk1
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他又看了你一眼,自動跳下一題,「入學到現在還是記不起教室的全名?」49Please respect copyright.PENANADkMasnZ6uC
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到底有誰記起來了,學長可不可以拜託你回答我這奧妙的問題?49Please respect copyright.PENANAEhCK3zo8EM
「嘖,果然人笨沒藥醫。」49Please respect copyright.PENANAYUahxRoSPx
「學長!」49Please respect copyright.PENANAa3haM61nel
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「每次發現你同學的眼鏡又在反光、突然跳上大貓飛走、看到飯團就現形的時候,就會覺得胃又痛了起來?」49Please respect copyright.PENANAke70DgWDeG
「……我想說這件事很久了,這題目、還真貼近我的生活。」49Please respect copyright.PENANAvcpJpTzOfY
「問卷會根據每個人不同的狀態改變題目。」他拿筆敲了敲你的腦袋,「回答問題,不要浪費時間。」49Please respect copyright.PENANAXq6Z5IpU4b
「最近、我想有稍微好一點吧……可能離被同化成火星人的日子不遠了。」你最後一句是小聲的嘆氣,他想了想似乎還是決定不要花時間跟你算帳,所以裝作沒聽見。49Please respect copyright.PENANAVOnaZsHfFt
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「有時候會覺得心悸、頭暈目眩,熱度上升?」49Please respect copyright.PENANAbxsE2qgZN0
「會。」你想了一下才回答,但沒有得到你預期中的下一個題目。49Please respect copyright.PENANAesa1ON9Mjn
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他只是看著你,一時沒有說話,紅色的瞳孔在光線之下彷彿有著流動變幻的濃淡色彩,複雜而看不出意謂的凝視,而你被那樣的視線看得些微焦躁,總覺得有點想垂下視線卻又不敢動彈,然後他開口,用著較為低沉的嗓音。49Please respect copyright.PENANA92FaNfZ8en
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「為什麼?」49Please respect copyright.PENANAmgnYRTaW0t
氣氛輕易地轉變,彷彿因為這個問題理解了什麼在兩人之間浮動的情緒,你強忍著心裡吶喊著「學長你為什麼要把平常的題目搞得這麼詭異啊──」,無法控制地低下頭,垂死掙扎。49Please respect copyright.PENANAqvLzoIEPRx
「學長,單子上沒有這題。」49Please respect copyright.PENANARh4UycGoy0
「你怎麼知道沒有?」49Please respect copyright.PENANA16YTJpDzXZ
「我的通用語只是差點被當!不是被當!」抗議。49Please respect copyright.PENANAerPYW88oyv
「那都差不多。」他哼了一聲,你簡直想瞪他,完全不想理會自己此刻快速飆升的頰畔體溫。49Please respect copyright.PENANApZ4ODm6hIW
你們之間的沉默拉距著,直到他突然笑出聲,你不明所以地抬頭看他,不能夠理解他今天到底是吃錯什麼藥怎麼老做一些奇怪的事。49Please respect copyright.PENANAP7lGWprAhQ
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「好吧,最後一題了。」你才想著他怎麼這麼好心,他又補了一句話讓你悚然一驚的話語,「你再敢不答,你就死定了。」49Please respect copyright.PENANAqhwYRv7VCl
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「吶,褚。」49Please respect copyright.PENANAiGWMS8S3f9
不知為何視線陷入一片昏暗,你過了一陣子才理解是他的手不知何時越過了你的肩,掩住了你的眼,平時冰涼此刻卻顯得有些溫熱的手掌貼緊你的眼皮,氣息吹在你的耳邊,你感覺自己渾身顫抖,但又想著這樣的情況對那嘴硬又彆扭的學長來說大概比你更為煎熬吧,忍不住微笑。49Please respect copyright.PENANA4MZBFICktr
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「你會覺得這世界上、沒有人了解你嗎?」49Please respect copyright.PENANAHXMXEUwRA5
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你微笑地對他說了一句話,然後被他一把擁入懷中,連讓你看一眼他表情的機會都不留給你。你想著你們都在試著學習,就像任何彼此重視的人們一樣,藉由習 慣、理解、思考,嘗試解構對方的思緒,不是由竊聽心聲的方式、不是由直接沒有經過任何思考的獲得,而是越過無數迂迴話語的距離,不斷反芻對方話語背後的情 緒。49Please respect copyright.PENANAEzNndsUr2t
由思考而將彼此的樣貌深深記憶,這樣的感覺不是輕易的靠近,而是一種更加複雜的、沒有辦法解釋的慎重與親暱。49Please respect copyright.PENANAzXqC2GeSCN
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就算是學長你沒辦法聽到我在想什麼也是一樣,對我來說都是一樣的。49Please respect copyright.PENANAKExcN0UHnr
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「──從認識學長之後,我從來沒有這麼想過。」49Please respect copyright.PENANAFJ0gqlm2hk
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+THE END+49Please respect copyright.PENANAD5dOxVZ5sa
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差點趕不上答應的更新(汗死)49Please respect copyright.PENANADYdL0EEW9E
明明是很喜歡的題目卻表達的七零八落,這幾天新生訓練真的累掛我了(癱軟)49Please respect copyright.PENANA1CHee4I7vN
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常常看到特傳文寫學長天線消失之後兩個人都很不習慣的文章,或者是學長最後又把天線打開了的故事,忍不住就想寫寫看他們如果接受這樣的關係,會有怎樣的成長。雖然表現得不好,但這題目從我的角度而言,其實是相當有思考意義的。49Please respect copyright.PENANAqIpSLX88Yc
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所以說,這篇不屬於學長苦追漾漾的《學長與憂鬱》系列(爆笑)