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再醒來的時候。我坐在醫院冰涼的走廊長椅上。41Please respect copyright.PENANATt2cvRRJTd
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「獄寺?你醒了?」41Please respect copyright.PENANAWDsJSFuINb
正依靠的肩膀瘦弱卻堅定,安心的氣息。41Please respect copyright.PENANAe1Tlb5PmZA
我抬頭撞上十代首領滿是擔憂與憐憫的目光,他的臉蒼白至無血色。41Please respect copyright.PENANAy1lGgUCTnr
「醒來就好醒來就好,哪裡還痛麼?」41Please respect copyright.PENANAnPHhXExzHp
我機械的搖頭,喉嚨幹到吐不出完整句子。如往常時,我也許會馬上從他懷裏脫逃出來,用敬語不停對剛才自己的無理舉動道歉。然而現在,我想任性一下。因為我太過於需要,這個容我卸下防備,縱我袒露軟弱的避風港。41Please respect copyright.PENANAgWUQcS26qc
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「下次不要再這麽莽撞了,知道嗎!」41Please respect copyright.PENANALDDZyg577j
他手掌輕緩的,若有若無撫著我的背脊,上面附有母親的溫度。41Please respect copyright.PENANAyQvKQ9Vdcq
走道裏三兩個人焦慮的走過,急診室的氣氛不如想像中那麽窒息,令人惶恐的死寂,偶爾傳來的幾聲哀號。黑夜有些冰冷,我們依賴在一起像是互相取暖。縱然我清楚自己幷不瞭解,也無從瞭解到十代目的私人生活。41Please respect copyright.PENANALKJN3W0VlL
他是否有在戀愛?或許也會因爲思念而焦慮,甚至是被傷害後的迷茫?41Please respect copyright.PENANAj8IxRelmKl
總能看透我的十代首領,無需我多言,也知道我在被什麽羈絆著動彈不得的十代首領…41Please respect copyright.PENANAmZ9RAwwaSv
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「十代目……」 委屈,痛苦,這一刻被無形引力吸出開始瓦解我佯裝的堅强…41Please respect copyright.PENANAKNTQtweAb5
額頭粗略纏著惱人情緒的紗布,手臂的傷口還在隱隱作痛。我真窩囊,明明是要挑釁,卻被對方教訓得要首領幫我善後。現在還要一副孬種樣依賴在需要我保護的人懷中,思考那些有的沒的兒女情長。41Please respect copyright.PENANAtjdPiEisXt
泄露單相思沒有收穫,但却很輕鬆。41Please respect copyright.PENANAa3mT8wbjp7
罪惡感令山本會對我格外溫柔。41Please respect copyright.PENANAUBuWqdkRUW
而且一定不會再發生比這更糟糕的事情,不會再受更深的傷害。41Please respect copyright.PENANAzXhO4jeewg
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但是……41Please respect copyright.PENANACFVSSkWJ2K
嚼不爛的痛苦,理不清的哀傷。41Please respect copyright.PENANAtUNABRzdRN
如果可以將它們藏在某處不被發現……41Please respect copyright.PENANAe4SzYGOCek
鼻子好酸,眼睛發脹,下一秒我再無法控制自己。41Please respect copyright.PENANAPqeSZCft3J
「好啦,要是想哭的話……」41Please respect copyright.PENANARb8B8MOOZp
「獄寺…我都明白的,明白。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAUaUNlZhPYE
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再無法控制的…41Please respect copyright.PENANA6ekrIYmvmU
「…十…十代…唔……」 41Please respect copyright.PENANAsRM7RxiW1Z
淚如雨下。41Please respect copyright.PENANAVTJQ25Ekzs
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請原諒我…不會太久…41Please respect copyright.PENANADlgHVoUB6t
就這一小會兒…馬上就會好了……41Please respect copyright.PENANA5e1hABAMzj
等這些懦弱的液體流到幹了,就可以再拿起武器…41Please respect copyright.PENANAD8oRItf5qd
再不會讓你操心…沒什麽再可以再阻攔我……41Please respect copyright.PENANAXAM2Psv4cQ
倒帶回曾經單一却安全的生活…不受束縛。41Please respect copyright.PENANA6KYe6gao0N
眼裏只會追隨你一人,其餘不想過問…41Please respect copyright.PENANA1REZkqdbm3
即使是他……41Please respect copyright.PENANA66La3Epk4Z
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山本……你現在正在做什麽?41Please respect copyright.PENANAqu3S8Fefq2
是不是正在心疼,被我狠心毆打挂彩的雲雀?41Please respect copyright.PENANAJLmwQarxdi
正在爲他細心包扎傷口,用一貫的寵溺與深情語氣。41Please respect copyright.PENANApC4by1ZMtQ
那麼那個人映在山本瞳孔中的身影會是怎樣的?41Please respect copyright.PENANAOGVFowfbfh
是不是也在像我一般懷揣著一灌稠濃的漿液,41Please respect copyright.PENANAJPkLwRBuzI
滿打滿撞撒在各處角落一灘灘,或粘膩得緊貼在身上甩不凈?41Please respect copyright.PENANASDiyNiVjBY
也會想要觸碰他寬廣的肩,還有他燦爛的臉麼。41Please respect copyright.PENANAgbmIIzzHfu
那時,山本的心中會發出怎樣的聲響?41Please respect copyright.PENANAXmOppcTFel
那個応接室裏充斥著怎樣的回憶?41Please respect copyright.PENANAFmOPhu757L
一直,一直……41Please respect copyright.PENANA3FqyDTNj8b
都只有兩個人的吧。41Please respect copyright.PENANAXMwsYdZ7LF
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專門找藉口,多次經過可以裝作偶然相遇他的地方。41Please respect copyright.PENANAz0hGbZNa1O
哪怕只能見一面,聽一次聲音也可以。41Please respect copyright.PENANAwhGHATgJI4
拼命地思念,使勁掙扎著。41Please respect copyright.PENANAqLyC7dNdVS
但是我只明白這點,光是思念就令人快要心痛死。41Please respect copyright.PENANAhhcTpMRwZI
而無法離開你的理由,只要這心痛就够了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAsYmKWB38lj
不過,放心吧,這算得了什麽大事。41Please respect copyright.PENANA2JVwztIJs1
哪怕會親眼見到這些,我也不會像易碎品斷裂,能夠繼續活下去。41Please respect copyright.PENANApLyysh18cG
哪怕山本一直惦記著那個人,哪怕再看他同樣充滿不安的神情…41Please respect copyright.PENANAh05gHCGGy1
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我的心也不會輕易崩潰。41Please respect copyright.PENANA9Nxnf0Ormk
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等傷好到連疤都看不到我才肯回學校上課,山本主動跑過來遞給我筆記。41Please respect copyright.PENANAubr5MR4Ht9
我才不相信,他上課能記到重點在紙上,只是翻開了看,了了草草的他的字迹,我讀得到滿滿的認真,還參雜著不應有的,心軟與愧疚。41Please respect copyright.PENANAP1X5bYZQ8q
一抬頭,發現班裏大部分同學均向我這邊投來複雜目光。有些女生不顧山本此行目的,做作得走過來搭訕,一舉一動連我鶏皮疙瘩掉了一地。 41Please respect copyright.PENANAWXW4iw9uGO
「山本同學,你和獄寺同學認識?」41Please respect copyright.PENANAuUyz5PsOMS
「獄寺同學爲什麽從來不說你們是國中同學?!」41Please respect copyright.PENANA4z2BByqujR
「山本同學,這是我自己做的點心,不介意的話就收下吧!」41Please respect copyright.PENANAruvxdEctEz
「山本同學的棒球聽說很厲害,有打算加入棒球社團麽?」41Please respect copyright.PENANAKt7oKrA0CD
「山本同學……」41Please respect copyright.PENANAi6sn8Yh8mF
够了都給我滾!41Please respect copyright.PENANAyQBZQ7PQIE
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人群聚集一堆嘰嘰喳喳,我完全沒了吃午餐的習慣,逃似的飛奔出教室。41Please respect copyright.PENANAg8bwPey7MA
任憑山本在後面怎樣喊我的名也顧不上絲毫的猶豫。41Please respect copyright.PENANAjpzVg9P3Ze
我真想馬上找個地洞鉆進去,永遠都不要出來。41Please respect copyright.PENANArn31vO60fn
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「獄寺!等等我!」41Please respect copyright.PENANAFRpt7t9d3a
我已經記不住自己跑了多久,他竟然一直在後面窮追不捨。41Please respect copyright.PENANAVC2iaxISHS
沒辦法,根本沒有吃早餐的我肯定敵不過他運動神經發達,只好停下脚步找個地方猛喘大氣。他追上來,扶住靠著墻逐漸下滑的我死不放手,雖然我用眼神威脅他無數次。41Please respect copyright.PENANAmvhqaiH0Wl
「你很煩……」 我和他上一次對話,好似已經是很久前了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAEvO70Ujuq5
他完全忽視了我一切反面的情緒。「一起去福利社買午飯吧!獄寺!」 沒等我反應,乾淨得笑著拽住我走。 醞釀好的拒絕也被他濕熱的掌溫融化。41Please respect copyright.PENANAZnhhsGIUqr
我要被你這樣牽著鼻子走到何時?41Please respect copyright.PENANAOkMM1IZM4u
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他肯定是看過雲雀才來這兒,我知道自己把雲雀傷的不輕。41Please respect copyright.PENANAHwLxkHdbha
若山本老媽子似的囑咐我幾句,我全當聽狗吠。然而他未多表現出一分异樣,只是將買好的套餐端到我面前,討好似的笑容。 41Please respect copyright.PENANA6aaquoGuDr
「還頭暈嗎?」41Please respect copyright.PENANANarQLQWFfF
我沒應他,只是側頭。41Please respect copyright.PENANAyryKRSVwxW
我也不知自己鬧什麽彆扭,但就是看不慣,這樣曖昧場景。41Please respect copyright.PENANAuPcuVS7BeP
對我狠點更好,我更容易恨你,然後我們就玩完。41Please respect copyright.PENANAOuSVqxSuZ0
「獄寺?」 煩不煩啊你。41Please respect copyright.PENANAuRhQ0BMGhy
不要總是用這種語氣叫我的名字。41Please respect copyright.PENANABaMji6RTPb
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「獄寺怎麽不吃?是不喜歡人多麼…沒辦法,中午食堂就是這樣。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAQ3ZDQtgDrW
「不過爲了吃美食,總是要犧牲點呢。」 41Please respect copyright.PENANAWOmp1pqUqb
他把自己碗裏的蝦肉球都夾給我, 「獄寺喜歡吃這個吧?吶,都給你。」 41Please respect copyright.PENANAQpDMMiEIVJ
再沒力氣和他作對。我閉上眼睛,緩緩別過頭。41Please respect copyright.PENANA0LV801Q4Fy
心裏絲絲縷縷的酸澀……41Please respect copyright.PENANAws6o6klsde
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山本……你可不可以試著,這樣講給我聽?41Please respect copyright.PENANA5kXFedd6pl
『都給你。你想要的,想從我這裡拿走的都可以給你。』41Please respect copyright.PENANAxmvLMXjT8a
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儘管我知道一切根本不可能如此發生。41Please respect copyright.PENANA6RzyyM21ki
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「我不餓,你吃你的,不用管我。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAgh76OFnSUD
既然無法回應我,那就不要再給我希望。41Please respect copyright.PENANApcUetBIMY8
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我乾脆放下筷子,將視線挪至走動的人群。41Please respect copyright.PENANASC5JYDBnSL
能感覺到氣氛由盛至衰逐漸尷尬起來,他也只好低頭默默扒飯。41Please respect copyright.PENANAE7mJduD0Dw
幾個風紀委員估計是記住了我的長相,路過我身邊的時候能感覺到敵意。41Please respect copyright.PENANAJR0HBZ4lOj
「說起來。雲雀沒怎麼樣吧。」 我沒頭沒腦竟然要問這個?!41Please respect copyright.PENANAw78QRyL5sC
他啞然。過了好一會兒才講, 「沒事了,傷……恢復得差不多了。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAZfl68sejKI
有那麽嬌氣?!我記得自己下手很輕的,因為心有它顧。41Please respect copyright.PENANAaka3uDdJI9
看著山本一臉五官凝聚的苦惱狀,忍不住一笑。41Please respect copyright.PENANAHehMcJf7c3
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這個白癡,因為戀愛的事情開始會察言觀色了嗎?41Please respect copyright.PENANAryb6FpBKlH
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緊接著是更深的沉默。41Please respect copyright.PENANAqewSMIZtTj
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「我肋骨都好了呢!」 他突然轉移話題, 「你看,我又活動自如了!」41Please respect copyright.PENANAfh29dOspp8
「不要得意忘形啦混蛋快坐好。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAYsaJu9BMYh
「那次被雲雀修理的夠嗆啊!不過都是因為我吸煙的錯啦…」41Please respect copyright.PENANAOrj9z61xE8
吸煙?你已經開始吸烟了麼…41Please respect copyright.PENANAl0T2eER0hz
靠!是誰天天雞婆似叫我戒煙的!41Please respect copyright.PENANAEma9Kbfztu
爲什麽你也吸煙了……你在煩惱些什麽?41Please respect copyright.PENANAdEU1gf4TKf
同時煙民,或許那幷不是因爲煙的味道有多麼誘惑。41Please respect copyright.PENANAg4Hcfderzg
只是人會空虛,需要一種習慣性動作填補這空白。41Please respect copyright.PENANAvPSEjFTchF
你這麼做,是因為空虛還是什麽?41Please respect copyright.PENANAoJzMDaqc8V
你已經堅定決心,不再做棒球手了?41Please respect copyright.PENANARUI9GgsM3C
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看他手舞足蹈滑稽的樣子想要逗我笑。41Please respect copyright.PENANAvKitjmbSYl
更是心酸似吃了一顆梅。41Please respect copyright.PENANAuBEMFzqfEJ
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我正思索著,突然迎面他的手撲上來。41Please respect copyright.PENANAfzAQip2MBv
「獄寺,你傷好重。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAfqHdQwCjwK
我嚇得本想往後一撤,身體卻僵硬在原地。任憑他揉我沒搭理的亂髮。41Please respect copyright.PENANA1tcdliFVdm
「雲雀手勁兒大,你小心被他傷到要害。」 41Please respect copyright.PENANATwsxpbM7rX
你這是放馬後炮吧,而且真正傷到要害的不是你麼?41Please respect copyright.PENANAQH5xTMQEfR
「……你…背還疼麼?」 我故作冷漠的語調。41Please respect copyright.PENANAQ57PzhVZa6
「獄寺終于肯說話啦,來吃飯吧!」 41Please respect copyright.PENANApe2Jl0ndpY
他又將筷子遞到我面前。「我沒事噢!這幾天休息好著呢,大補了幾頓。現在十萬火急的想要運動啊唉!」 說著還不忘展示他肱二頭肌。41Please respect copyright.PENANAfv46epnRA1
「那就不要再在風紀混了,打棒球去。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAzAliYEjio1
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我不自主講出這句,事後才意識到不自然。41Please respect copyright.PENANA4yvTlgzVOC
山本瞳孔一縮,結結巴巴支吾了一下, 「之前我問獄寺…」41Please respect copyright.PENANAtasOCbTjzH
「你根本早就自己决定好了吧!」 41Please respect copyright.PENANAWorSOH1kiG
一股怒氣竄上心頭,我拍案而起。41Please respect copyright.PENANA37JQDBsUhF
我那些都是謊話!你根本就是爲了找個契機給自己一個正當理由而已!41Please respect copyright.PENANAHgxFRMy6mQ
「根本就是你自己!抽煙喝酒!參加幫派!裝什麽受傷!」41Please respect copyright.PENANAciEV4BLYKw
「獄、獄寺?……冷靜啊……」 41Please respect copyright.PENANA8nVQcyfZGT
他慌張的拉我,顯露出為難的樣子。41Please respect copyright.PENANANQ3gH102OC
周圍的人紛紛瞧向我們這邊,醜惡的嘴臉在看熱鬧。41Please respect copyright.PENANAGBKhCh4WRL
包括掩藏在人群中的黑衣男人。41Please respect copyright.PENANA22m4bUjnCW
雲雀恭彌,你他媽個混蛋。41Please respect copyright.PENANA9psZzJYWmw
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打與不打,對我意義不大。41Please respect copyright.PENANA3KgVTkcY5C
然而看不到你與棒球的結伴,我的心變得空蕩。41Please respect copyright.PENANAS92VO1ZhhM
縱使被他人鄙視,那些東西卻是我的寶貝。41Please respect copyright.PENANAHKjd1h8emT
山本武,你又一次成功逼迫我煩躁起來。41Please respect copyright.PENANA4l43iY16c6
頭皮撓出血肉,骨胳也吱吱喳喳跟著開始叫囂起來。41Please respect copyright.PENANArmFpUxUfEY
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他體味到我怒氣,沒再講話。41Please respect copyright.PENANAM21xeD4tta
四目相對的時候,我好想擁緊他。41Please respect copyright.PENANA6cAos5STAL
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他像是雨,倘若可以感受到這濕潤,自己也會像是草木在放晴後的生長,一夜間長大麼?不過也許他會忘記了吧,那時候的風那時候的雲,那時候的光影嘈雜。41Please respect copyright.PENANA7ysNbmkISh
儘管那麼認真的生氣過迷茫過、隱忍過受傷過,隨著時間流逝笑著回想起來,也許在這個過程中連記憶也會漸漸消失吧。41Please respect copyright.PENANA4vSvCsfFcI
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但是那時候,我的確是在那裡存在過的。41Please respect copyright.PENANAKCu3TfWgIB
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再醒來的時候。我坐在醫院冰涼的走廊長椅上。41Please respect copyright.PENANATt2cvRRJTd
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「獄寺?你醒了?」41Please respect copyright.PENANAWDsJSFuINb
正依靠的肩膀瘦弱卻堅定,安心的氣息。41Please respect copyright.PENANAe1Tlb5PmZA
我抬頭撞上十代首領滿是擔憂與憐憫的目光,他的臉蒼白至無血色。41Please respect copyright.PENANAy1lGgUCTnr
「醒來就好醒來就好,哪裡還痛麼?」41Please respect copyright.PENANAnPHhXExzHp
我機械的搖頭,喉嚨幹到吐不出完整句子。如往常時,我也許會馬上從他懷裏脫逃出來,用敬語不停對剛才自己的無理舉動道歉。然而現在,我想任性一下。因為我太過於需要,這個容我卸下防備,縱我袒露軟弱的避風港。41Please respect copyright.PENANAgWUQcS26qc
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「下次不要再這麽莽撞了,知道嗎!」41Please respect copyright.PENANALDDZyg577j
他手掌輕緩的,若有若無撫著我的背脊,上面附有母親的溫度。41Please respect copyright.PENANAyQvKQ9Vdcq
走道裏三兩個人焦慮的走過,急診室的氣氛不如想像中那麽窒息,令人惶恐的死寂,偶爾傳來的幾聲哀號。黑夜有些冰冷,我們依賴在一起像是互相取暖。縱然我清楚自己幷不瞭解,也無從瞭解到十代目的私人生活。41Please respect copyright.PENANALKJN3W0VlL
他是否有在戀愛?或許也會因爲思念而焦慮,甚至是被傷害後的迷茫?41Please respect copyright.PENANAj8IxRelmKl
總能看透我的十代首領,無需我多言,也知道我在被什麽羈絆著動彈不得的十代首領…41Please respect copyright.PENANAmZ9RAwwaSv
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「十代目……」 委屈,痛苦,這一刻被無形引力吸出開始瓦解我佯裝的堅强…41Please respect copyright.PENANAKNTQtweAb5
額頭粗略纏著惱人情緒的紗布,手臂的傷口還在隱隱作痛。我真窩囊,明明是要挑釁,卻被對方教訓得要首領幫我善後。現在還要一副孬種樣依賴在需要我保護的人懷中,思考那些有的沒的兒女情長。41Please respect copyright.PENANAtjdPiEisXt
泄露單相思沒有收穫,但却很輕鬆。41Please respect copyright.PENANAa3mT8wbjp7
罪惡感令山本會對我格外溫柔。41Please respect copyright.PENANAUBuWqdkRUW
而且一定不會再發生比這更糟糕的事情,不會再受更深的傷害。41Please respect copyright.PENANAzXhO4jeewg
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但是……41Please respect copyright.PENANACFVSSkWJ2K
嚼不爛的痛苦,理不清的哀傷。41Please respect copyright.PENANAtUNABRzdRN
如果可以將它們藏在某處不被發現……41Please respect copyright.PENANAe4SzYGOCek
鼻子好酸,眼睛發脹,下一秒我再無法控制自己。41Please respect copyright.PENANAPqeSZCft3J
「好啦,要是想哭的話……」41Please respect copyright.PENANARb8B8MOOZp
「獄寺…我都明白的,明白。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAUaUNlZhPYE
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再無法控制的…41Please respect copyright.PENANA6ekrIYmvmU
「…十…十代…唔……」 41Please respect copyright.PENANAsRM7RxiW1Z
淚如雨下。41Please respect copyright.PENANAVTJQ25Ekzs
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請原諒我…不會太久…41Please respect copyright.PENANADlgHVoUB6t
就這一小會兒…馬上就會好了……41Please respect copyright.PENANA5e1hABAMzj
等這些懦弱的液體流到幹了,就可以再拿起武器…41Please respect copyright.PENANAD8oRItf5qd
再不會讓你操心…沒什麽再可以再阻攔我……41Please respect copyright.PENANAXAM2Psv4cQ
倒帶回曾經單一却安全的生活…不受束縛。41Please respect copyright.PENANA6KYe6gao0N
眼裏只會追隨你一人,其餘不想過問…41Please respect copyright.PENANA1REZkqdbm3
即使是他……41Please respect copyright.PENANA66La3Epk4Z
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山本……你現在正在做什麽?41Please respect copyright.PENANAqu3S8Fefq2
是不是正在心疼,被我狠心毆打挂彩的雲雀?41Please respect copyright.PENANAJLmwQarxdi
正在爲他細心包扎傷口,用一貫的寵溺與深情語氣。41Please respect copyright.PENANApC4by1ZMtQ
那麼那個人映在山本瞳孔中的身影會是怎樣的?41Please respect copyright.PENANAOGVFowfbfh
是不是也在像我一般懷揣著一灌稠濃的漿液,41Please respect copyright.PENANAJPkLwRBuzI
滿打滿撞撒在各處角落一灘灘,或粘膩得緊貼在身上甩不凈?41Please respect copyright.PENANASDiyNiVjBY
也會想要觸碰他寬廣的肩,還有他燦爛的臉麼。41Please respect copyright.PENANAgbmIIzzHfu
那時,山本的心中會發出怎樣的聲響?41Please respect copyright.PENANAXmOppcTFel
那個応接室裏充斥著怎樣的回憶?41Please respect copyright.PENANAFmOPhu757L
一直,一直……41Please respect copyright.PENANA3FqyDTNj8b
都只有兩個人的吧。41Please respect copyright.PENANAXMwsYdZ7LF
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專門找藉口,多次經過可以裝作偶然相遇他的地方。41Please respect copyright.PENANAz0hGbZNa1O
哪怕只能見一面,聽一次聲音也可以。41Please respect copyright.PENANAwhGHATgJI4
拼命地思念,使勁掙扎著。41Please respect copyright.PENANAqLyC7dNdVS
但是我只明白這點,光是思念就令人快要心痛死。41Please respect copyright.PENANAhhcTpMRwZI
而無法離開你的理由,只要這心痛就够了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAsYmKWB38lj
不過,放心吧,這算得了什麽大事。41Please respect copyright.PENANA2JVwztIJs1
哪怕會親眼見到這些,我也不會像易碎品斷裂,能夠繼續活下去。41Please respect copyright.PENANApLyysh18cG
哪怕山本一直惦記著那個人,哪怕再看他同樣充滿不安的神情…41Please respect copyright.PENANAh05gHCGGy1
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我的心也不會輕易崩潰。41Please respect copyright.PENANA9Nxnf0Ormk
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等傷好到連疤都看不到我才肯回學校上課,山本主動跑過來遞給我筆記。41Please respect copyright.PENANAubr5MR4Ht9
我才不相信,他上課能記到重點在紙上,只是翻開了看,了了草草的他的字迹,我讀得到滿滿的認真,還參雜著不應有的,心軟與愧疚。41Please respect copyright.PENANAP1X5bYZQ8q
一抬頭,發現班裏大部分同學均向我這邊投來複雜目光。有些女生不顧山本此行目的,做作得走過來搭訕,一舉一動連我鶏皮疙瘩掉了一地。 41Please respect copyright.PENANAWXW4iw9uGO
「山本同學,你和獄寺同學認識?」41Please respect copyright.PENANAuUyz5PsOMS
「獄寺同學爲什麽從來不說你們是國中同學?!」41Please respect copyright.PENANA4z2BByqujR
「山本同學,這是我自己做的點心,不介意的話就收下吧!」41Please respect copyright.PENANAruvxdEctEz
「山本同學的棒球聽說很厲害,有打算加入棒球社團麽?」41Please respect copyright.PENANAKt7oKrA0CD
「山本同學……」41Please respect copyright.PENANAi6sn8Yh8mF
够了都給我滾!41Please respect copyright.PENANAyQBZQ7PQIE
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人群聚集一堆嘰嘰喳喳,我完全沒了吃午餐的習慣,逃似的飛奔出教室。41Please respect copyright.PENANAg8bwPey7MA
任憑山本在後面怎樣喊我的名也顧不上絲毫的猶豫。41Please respect copyright.PENANAjpzVg9P3Ze
我真想馬上找個地洞鉆進去,永遠都不要出來。41Please respect copyright.PENANArn31vO60fn
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「獄寺!等等我!」41Please respect copyright.PENANAFRpt7t9d3a
我已經記不住自己跑了多久,他竟然一直在後面窮追不捨。41Please respect copyright.PENANAVC2iaxISHS
沒辦法,根本沒有吃早餐的我肯定敵不過他運動神經發達,只好停下脚步找個地方猛喘大氣。他追上來,扶住靠著墻逐漸下滑的我死不放手,雖然我用眼神威脅他無數次。41Please respect copyright.PENANAmvhqaiH0Wl
「你很煩……」 我和他上一次對話,好似已經是很久前了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAEvO70Ujuq5
他完全忽視了我一切反面的情緒。「一起去福利社買午飯吧!獄寺!」 沒等我反應,乾淨得笑著拽住我走。 醞釀好的拒絕也被他濕熱的掌溫融化。41Please respect copyright.PENANAZnhhsGIUqr
我要被你這樣牽著鼻子走到何時?41Please respect copyright.PENANAOkMM1IZM4u
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他肯定是看過雲雀才來這兒,我知道自己把雲雀傷的不輕。41Please respect copyright.PENANAHwLxkHdbha
若山本老媽子似的囑咐我幾句,我全當聽狗吠。然而他未多表現出一分异樣,只是將買好的套餐端到我面前,討好似的笑容。 41Please respect copyright.PENANA6aaquoGuDr
「還頭暈嗎?」41Please respect copyright.PENANANarQLQWFfF
我沒應他,只是側頭。41Please respect copyright.PENANAyryKRSVwxW
我也不知自己鬧什麽彆扭,但就是看不慣,這樣曖昧場景。41Please respect copyright.PENANAuPcuVS7BeP
對我狠點更好,我更容易恨你,然後我們就玩完。41Please respect copyright.PENANAOuSVqxSuZ0
「獄寺?」 煩不煩啊你。41Please respect copyright.PENANAuRhQ0BMGhy
不要總是用這種語氣叫我的名字。41Please respect copyright.PENANABaMji6RTPb
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「獄寺怎麽不吃?是不喜歡人多麼…沒辦法,中午食堂就是這樣。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAQ3ZDQtgDrW
「不過爲了吃美食,總是要犧牲點呢。」 41Please respect copyright.PENANAWOmp1pqUqb
他把自己碗裏的蝦肉球都夾給我, 「獄寺喜歡吃這個吧?吶,都給你。」 41Please respect copyright.PENANAQpDMMiEIVJ
再沒力氣和他作對。我閉上眼睛,緩緩別過頭。41Please respect copyright.PENANA0LV801Q4Fy
心裏絲絲縷縷的酸澀……41Please respect copyright.PENANAws6o6klsde
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山本……你可不可以試著,這樣講給我聽?41Please respect copyright.PENANA5kXFedd6pl
『都給你。你想要的,想從我這裡拿走的都可以給你。』41Please respect copyright.PENANAxmvLMXjT8a
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儘管我知道一切根本不可能如此發生。41Please respect copyright.PENANA6RzyyM21ki
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「我不餓,你吃你的,不用管我。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAgh76OFnSUD
既然無法回應我,那就不要再給我希望。41Please respect copyright.PENANApcUetBIMY8
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我乾脆放下筷子,將視線挪至走動的人群。41Please respect copyright.PENANASC5JYDBnSL
能感覺到氣氛由盛至衰逐漸尷尬起來,他也只好低頭默默扒飯。41Please respect copyright.PENANAE7mJduD0Dw
幾個風紀委員估計是記住了我的長相,路過我身邊的時候能感覺到敵意。41Please respect copyright.PENANAJR0HBZ4lOj
「說起來。雲雀沒怎麼樣吧。」 我沒頭沒腦竟然要問這個?!41Please respect copyright.PENANAw78QRyL5sC
他啞然。過了好一會兒才講, 「沒事了,傷……恢復得差不多了。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAZfl68sejKI
有那麽嬌氣?!我記得自己下手很輕的,因為心有它顧。41Please respect copyright.PENANAaka3uDdJI9
看著山本一臉五官凝聚的苦惱狀,忍不住一笑。41Please respect copyright.PENANAHehMcJf7c3
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這個白癡,因為戀愛的事情開始會察言觀色了嗎?41Please respect copyright.PENANAryb6FpBKlH
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緊接著是更深的沉默。41Please respect copyright.PENANAqewSMIZtTj
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「我肋骨都好了呢!」 他突然轉移話題, 「你看,我又活動自如了!」41Please respect copyright.PENANAfh29dOspp8
「不要得意忘形啦混蛋快坐好。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAYsaJu9BMYh
「那次被雲雀修理的夠嗆啊!不過都是因為我吸煙的錯啦…」41Please respect copyright.PENANAOrj9z61xE8
吸煙?你已經開始吸烟了麼…41Please respect copyright.PENANAl0T2eER0hz
靠!是誰天天雞婆似叫我戒煙的!41Please respect copyright.PENANAEma9Kbfztu
爲什麽你也吸煙了……你在煩惱些什麽?41Please respect copyright.PENANAdEU1gf4TKf
同時煙民,或許那幷不是因爲煙的味道有多麼誘惑。41Please respect copyright.PENANAg4Hcfderzg
只是人會空虛,需要一種習慣性動作填補這空白。41Please respect copyright.PENANAvPSEjFTchF
你這麼做,是因為空虛還是什麽?41Please respect copyright.PENANAoJzMDaqc8V
你已經堅定決心,不再做棒球手了?41Please respect copyright.PENANARUI9GgsM3C
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看他手舞足蹈滑稽的樣子想要逗我笑。41Please respect copyright.PENANAvKitjmbSYl
更是心酸似吃了一顆梅。41Please respect copyright.PENANAuBEMFzqfEJ
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我正思索著,突然迎面他的手撲上來。41Please respect copyright.PENANAfzAQip2MBv
「獄寺,你傷好重。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAfqHdQwCjwK
我嚇得本想往後一撤,身體卻僵硬在原地。任憑他揉我沒搭理的亂髮。41Please respect copyright.PENANA1tcdliFVdm
「雲雀手勁兒大,你小心被他傷到要害。」 41Please respect copyright.PENANATwsxpbM7rX
你這是放馬後炮吧,而且真正傷到要害的不是你麼?41Please respect copyright.PENANAQH5xTMQEfR
「……你…背還疼麼?」 我故作冷漠的語調。41Please respect copyright.PENANAQ57PzhVZa6
「獄寺終于肯說話啦,來吃飯吧!」 41Please respect copyright.PENANApe2Jl0ndpY
他又將筷子遞到我面前。「我沒事噢!這幾天休息好著呢,大補了幾頓。現在十萬火急的想要運動啊唉!」 說著還不忘展示他肱二頭肌。41Please respect copyright.PENANAfv46epnRA1
「那就不要再在風紀混了,打棒球去。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAzAliYEjio1
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我不自主講出這句,事後才意識到不自然。41Please respect copyright.PENANA4yvTlgzVOC
山本瞳孔一縮,結結巴巴支吾了一下, 「之前我問獄寺…」41Please respect copyright.PENANAtasOCbTjzH
「你根本早就自己决定好了吧!」 41Please respect copyright.PENANAWorSOH1kiG
一股怒氣竄上心頭,我拍案而起。41Please respect copyright.PENANA37JQDBsUhF
我那些都是謊話!你根本就是爲了找個契機給自己一個正當理由而已!41Please respect copyright.PENANAHgxFRMy6mQ
「根本就是你自己!抽煙喝酒!參加幫派!裝什麽受傷!」41Please respect copyright.PENANAciEV4BLYKw
「獄、獄寺?……冷靜啊……」 41Please respect copyright.PENANA8nVQcyfZGT
他慌張的拉我,顯露出為難的樣子。41Please respect copyright.PENANANQ3gH102OC
周圍的人紛紛瞧向我們這邊,醜惡的嘴臉在看熱鬧。41Please respect copyright.PENANAGBKhCh4WRL
包括掩藏在人群中的黑衣男人。41Please respect copyright.PENANA22m4bUjnCW
雲雀恭彌,你他媽個混蛋。41Please respect copyright.PENANA9psZzJYWmw
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打與不打,對我意義不大。41Please respect copyright.PENANA3KgVTkcY5C
然而看不到你與棒球的結伴,我的心變得空蕩。41Please respect copyright.PENANAS92VO1ZhhM
縱使被他人鄙視,那些東西卻是我的寶貝。41Please respect copyright.PENANAHKjd1h8emT
山本武,你又一次成功逼迫我煩躁起來。41Please respect copyright.PENANA4l43iY16c6
頭皮撓出血肉,骨胳也吱吱喳喳跟著開始叫囂起來。41Please respect copyright.PENANArmFpUxUfEY
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他體味到我怒氣,沒再講話。41Please respect copyright.PENANAM21xeD4tta
四目相對的時候,我好想擁緊他。41Please respect copyright.PENANA6cAos5STAL
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他像是雨,倘若可以感受到這濕潤,自己也會像是草木在放晴後的生長,一夜間長大麼?不過也許他會忘記了吧,那時候的風那時候的雲,那時候的光影嘈雜。41Please respect copyright.PENANA7ysNbmkISh
儘管那麼認真的生氣過迷茫過、隱忍過受傷過,隨著時間流逝笑著回想起來,也許在這個過程中連記憶也會漸漸消失吧。41Please respect copyright.PENANA4vSvCsfFcI
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但是那時候,我的確是在那裡存在過的。41Please respect copyright.PENANAKCu3TfWgIB
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