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人一旦長大，什麽都可以變得無所謂，戒煙，甚至濫交。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkPrr75z43A
我跟自己講，我也不是那麽喜歡山本武的。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPRN5NJ2N4
就是說，只是因爲覺得對十代目的那種感情太過于正直。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0OHeKHy4X
以至于我過分壓抑的一部分就轉移到形影不離的路友身上。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKf3LBTy88t
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實際上是很脆弱，會因爲一點傷害便烟消雲散的情感。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCAXFNcNFb
縱然，時間便這樣緩緩流過數年。期間變故不斷。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgIKSw5sJ7
我却依然對他死心塌地到令人作嘔的程度。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPANnirYQ2I
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高中畢業後，十代目與我們守護者沒有進入大學。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqLbqHoUiz
按照之前約定的計劃，直接到意大利進行必要的黑手黨培訓才是全局的重中之重。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWQ5Co01uQ
對於十代首領與山本等人來說，這座歐洲城市是處陌生之地。但就我而言，留下的却是刻骨銘心或喜或悲的記憶片段，隨著時間推移絲毫抹擦不淨的頑漬。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NgnVaiHN5
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我和山本再沒有談及棒球之類的話題，或者說，我們再沒有那麽許久的交談過。 46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVSjIX4VW7
已成長為男人，我們的羈絆反而比曾經年少時更稀少的可憐。他的刀從何時已沾染上人類的鮮血，而我也不再是那個乖戾暴躁的炸彈男，現在彼此都已獨當一面到可以自立門戶。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM8nDPiVY4t
然而想要守護的，從曾經的棒球身影、到現在他的燦爛笑臉。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhF2Ta2gPzh
如同泡影，已不可能再現。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2B01k7P20
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細數著時間腳步，幾年內我們早已習慣打殺賣命的生活。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbcIuFJHNMz
雲雀和六道骸頻繁得出雙入對，我們習以爲常到擦身而過也無需多餘禮貌。即使中間存在複雜的芥蒂，同為守護者的我們也不曾將它擺上檯面惹人尷尬。之後的一次孽緣巧遇，我和山本準備到中國解決海關扣押協商問題。十代目也已經安排在日本的雲雀和骸一同前往廣州與我們碰頭。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RTDgZVUt7
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「既然已经派雲雀他们去了，还需要我们吗？他们很强的吧。」 从山本的話語中我读得到和自己同情绪的抵触。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJOiQ7onQx
十代首领早已清楚我们之间纠葛许久的多角关系，這樣安排或許另有無奈。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMrZmoJBh8
在登机之前，瞄到山本武脸上始终散不去的阴霾感，我咬着烟、心里无比烦躁。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6yomvJcDrS
幾經周折的戀愛有意義嗎？46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlfUBaZM2F
失去的，和從未擁有過的，是否可以構築等號。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMez8SLifUo
但這飛機刺穿茫茫蒼空的十幾個小時，已是我唯一可以緊握住不被流失的珍貴時光。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTDd5WqJpz
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近幾日天氣驟冷。我和山本武爲避人耳目，只藏身于經濟艙中。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBr3RpSqEmN
暖氣開得不足，再加上是夜晚高空飛行，更是加重了艙內溫度的大幅度降低。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdlz8VPxQD
我緊緊裹著機上提供的薄毛毯凍得上下齒不住摩挲。山本將自己的毯子也壓在我身上，自己卻是凍得可憐到縮成一團。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48pUSr2SK0
我心疼的瞧向他顫抖緊縮的軀幹，把毯子往他身上拽了拽。 46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAzfa9sWzAY
「把這毯子拿走吧，我沒問題的。」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTgQDYxdgm
他推搡，勉强擠出個笑容。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaeb7rIIxJi
「我抗凍！獄寺不行吧，你身體抵抗力很差。而且獄寺也說過，笨蛋是不會感冒的。」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7R0CjAjyDa
「都說了沒事了！」 我扳開他阻擋的雙臂。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH2cjLvVxno
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我說山本，你知不知道你很煩？每次你近距離靠在我身邊我就煩，你一對我好我就更煩。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJ4uLZp6ud
你這樣佯裝似的輕描淡寫不經意的關切囚禁了我，這樣的結果你很滿意嗎？46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbfy4PgKlym
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「好吧好吧，那獄寺，我們一起蓋好不好？」 46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzyDlba5x6b
他的氣息開始逼近我。我本能性躲閃，但總是慢了一步。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSwVQNLSLgP
山本堅實的臂膀嚴絲合縫得貼上我因緊張而僵硬的身體。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05kYyZSzXY
「這樣的話，就可以兩個人都暖和了。還有枕頭附送給你噢！」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDUFt9BujcY
他開玩笑似的聳肩，表情看不出一絲一毫的不自在。只是我自作多情扭捏不安。他早已對曾經我狠狠吸他嘴唇的事情一點印象都沒有了麽，還是裝作一切都未發生過。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvfnL3IkFJ
對我太過於重要的記憶，做不到像你這樣輕易唾棄。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPM1pqYC9j
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冰冷的肢體帶來的觸覺，透過襯衫從旁傳來的溫暖。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwNgrU9o21
這一切促使我的胸口又是一陣憋悶，連吞咽都覺得困難。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCk71QZ7Hy
這樣安靜坐了一會兒，他沒有合眼，我亦完全無困意。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhb8bXPLCQW
如此深的沉默竟讓我有些不習慣。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbkR3ujsfh
快找個什麽話題算了…46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡViWVw6EBMm
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其實……46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCynTVH5tEp
「你喜歡雲雀吧？」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CXQrEqcl2
靠，我怎麼鬼使神差撿來這麼個話匣……46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7OJFnUGcug
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我們從未談過感情一類的事情。我這樣發問，把山本著實嚇到好一陣沒講話。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4HDiH7BvW
喜歡就是喜歡，還需要時間考慮麽。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4X4u43JHnz
「獄寺怎麼問這個啊…呵呵……」 46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtvxJq0uWwb
想用這蹩脚的笑容敷衍過去了？門都沒有。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9HOMIQaPr3
「問這個怎麽了，不行嗎？關心你而已。」 46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZbOOexv4j
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只是想確定，說不定因你的回答，我會尋到逼迫自己釋懷的逆境。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDrPnMIEHr
乘客們睡了一大半。狹小的空間裏我聽得到從他胸腔傳來强有力的心跳。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOwY3JwzGGy
節奏逐步加快的迹象，或許是對問題最好的回答。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbop2KzpnOk
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「獄寺…已經發現了麽？」 46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGnjjnLuHPW
他醞釀許久才開口，語氣充斥著遲疑與保留。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHoQzvjxZe1
「你表現的太明顯了，是人都看得出來吧！」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5ZqxNcWXB
我忙著打架挑釁，想找點事情分散精力。但事實是從來不能被掩蓋住的。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYL30r1FoJ
山本，你知不知道？只有感情，不會說謊。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdu8HG5JLXl
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初至意大利時，第一次被安排去完成具有一定難度的任務。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDTJxopbVa
守護者們全員出動。我和你被分在一個小組，被命令突襲埋伏在一棟廢棄大樓的武裝部隊。說起來自己也真是頭腦發熱，不顧一切爲了保護你而受傷。但看到你一臉愧疚的傷心狀，想要抱怨的粗口一股腦咽回心房。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJG81IVXSmP
但這傷口真他媽的疼。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74p2V3ojO1
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緊靠冰涼墻壁，心也被傳遞製冷。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq65yssYUeG
那群不中用的廢物已經被我們三下五除二擺平。橫躺尸體的二樓平臺，一陣風吹過夾卷起的滿是格外提神的血腥氣味。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6KSr9ytbu
「獄寺…你傷口好深……」 我左臂被血水浸濕好大一塊，且還在蔓延。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMOd56ymlf
山本仔細查看，小心翼翼觸碰周圍，生怕弄痛了我。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdg49us1g50
從某尸體上撕下長條幾塊白布幫我做簡單包扎止血。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLcNTtuk7n
但手法已不如以前還在打棒球時那番熟稔。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMkgSS63XeO
那時候，即使是我扭傷了脚踝，他也可以就地取材迅速固定好傷處，技術嫻熟。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1O38OsqAt
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做了初步止血之後，他舒緩了口氣。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYfm8l8ZHjq
因鋼材血流不止，我開始眼皮發顫抖落下來，闔蓋雙目養神。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqQbXkPV45H
每一處肌肉骨胳都在爭奪身體裏僅剩不多的能量，又困又累又酸又痛。山本一同跌坐在地上，依靠在我旁邊。他的沉默聽來却如此的聒噪，每一次呼吸，我都聽得真切。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhM002g3vhD
忍不住眯眼瞧他的背脊。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzNcepz24y1
我們關係如若可以再親密一星點，或許我就有勇氣開口向他借一側肩膀來靠。縱然這場情感拉力賽進行到現在這地步，我仍從未曾擁有過他任何物品的圈地占有權。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbfV95tq4hY
但為此努力，也是徒勞……46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1bb0MW0Ip
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想睡，傷口卻止不住得刺痛。順著發達的神經元傳遞到腦內，每一擊都如坐針氈。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY3XfrF0HGQ
我瞄一眼過去，血已經浸透包扎，滲出一片紅。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpMp1TYyc6b
真是該死。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡusOBwTx7Jw
再忍下……吧。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLt4V7hVENI
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「獄寺？…」 46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRpZHKj6c7
他在我昏迷之際，猛然開口。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSpI7YcnDfo
是發現了那傷口惡化，開始重新幫我包扎。動作輕且麻利。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9BU2ny2163
我想應答，却已然連挪動舌頭的力氣都沒有了。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEEthE7urjr
看似的精神百倍，或許是某種感情催化的結果。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvtSVhnt9j
這一瞬，我逼迫自己大腦硬要無比賣力的運作。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWnA2E3I2qy
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「你忍著點，會比較痛。」 不痛的，你下手很輕。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3FRh1rTFYH
「只有緊扎才能止血，要不會出現缺氧昏迷的。」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tFjneZQ22
我知道我知道了，你可以不可以安靜一會兒？46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4JD9h2OdEs
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該不該告訴你，我現在就有些昏迷的迹象？46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnP0qM6IVsL
我不能確定，是來自血流不止的生理反應還是在於你，在於你永遠收斂不住的關切與疼愛。 我只能睜著眼，緊盯你低下的臉龐，發現你額頭上的汗珠，到底是不是在爲我緊張而滲出。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VSnlHnzye
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疼痛卷著巨浪襲上來，我咬緊下唇，一下下挺過去。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn4dtcjtMZk
「痛的話，就咬這兒吧。」 46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNg9APeY19q
因爲雙手都在忙著，騰不出更多的地方，他只好將身體貼近我，遞了肩膀過來。 然而思緒早開始點點抽離，我亦夢亦醒間聽著。 46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfUE89MvGL
一句句短語的安慰不斷地襲來。期間我只是將頭耷拉墜在山本肩上，不做聲。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5SAc03O8E
一點沒有想像中的堅實，靠在上面生硬極了。這傢夥什麽時候開始變得這麽瘦了…直到只有皮包骨的樣子。顴骨高高聳立在兩頰，看他穿著稍顯大的西服套裝，更像是個中空的衣架子。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUk5oU8FUDx
和雲雀一樣，站在風中會讓人忍不住想要緊緊拽住。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbSXUiRZOH
像是可能一陣咆哮，就會將你們卷走的乾乾淨。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgKDFMRpL4
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你手機突然作響。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZhIrVu7Y77
接了它，聽筒那邊傳來焦急的說話聲。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSflNht0kix
我依舊閉緊雙眼。黑暗中突然意識到，雲雀執行任務的地點就在這附近。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmAOsCMmJeF
他好似是和草坪頭被劃在一組裏，是出了什麽問題？46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfCpeWhxiwF
山本，你是打著英雄救美的如意算盤嗎？46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0HTqtoZCL
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挂了電話好久，我僵直著身體在等你的發話。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyES84EWwzQ
卑微的像是待宰羔羊。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxDe0WbJcGJ
「雲雀他們出事了！了平打來電話，兩個人都受了重傷…」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRdTs2z56D
「我們距離他們事發地點最近，必須去支援才行…」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAltD2PEkd
「……」 睜開眼睛迎上你十萬火急的神情。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2q3es3Apq3
山本武，你是希望我回答什麽？46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2eZQaUsoR
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「獄寺，你受了傷就不要去冒險了…我一個人去吧。」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡme8ZnP1foj
「那麼……你一個人行吧？」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU2AezfyiLf
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我行，可以的。 這樣的問句，不就搭配這樣的回答最佳？46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbnpOKq5zBy
像是，如果你會問「你還行嗎？」或是「你一個人行不行啊。」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnF6naZOyw
我一定不要猶豫的，斬釘截鐵的講給你的是否定答案。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWmjozEwpf
但是我終究是低下頭，醞釀了好一陣子。以防止自己會露出弱者才有的故弄玄虛還破綻百出的善意謊言，將活至今除了我媽見過以外的元氣面容盡數展現給你。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF01KlL6crz
如果要開口講什麽，我一定會控制不好自己的語調。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnDBOJfT0f
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我點了點頭。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhrTvrSyxD5
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這大概是我耗費的體內最後一點真氣。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyoy6aLh8e2
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山本略有遲疑的脚步準備離開，我攢足力氣做最後一拼。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZq7dYmT3VV
拽住他褲脚，我想做徒勞的挽留。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnuzfankOI
但我始終不能將視線完整對上他，無能的別過頭。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFv56zOZdlj
然而，手的力氣一點猶豫都沒有，我死死蜷緊手指，將全身力量彙聚在這一點上。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZVQZWv44V
像個膩歪到甩不開的怨婦。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOfOZqortzG
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「欸？…獄寺，別這樣…在這兒等我，我就回來了啊…」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3EFY4L2aY
「這裡還算安全……你放心吧，有事馬上CALL我，好吧？」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡACIRUY2XIy
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够了，不要用哄孫子似的語氣和我說話。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXZhDerhA6
前一秒那點懊拗口情懷被我瞬間扔到九霄雲外。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzKARH1DZc
我坦然放開捏到濕的一團。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjuRSuqdpT
「行了行了快走吧。」 46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9IMz1KQCus
不想讓他看到我任何表情變化。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcp5R3zXuDp
咬緊牙關，將整張臉埋在黑暗裡。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTm5EFvHqE
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你終于離開了。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA86kELG3og
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身體逐步趨向臨界崩毀狀態。倚靠墻壁的力氣都沒有，緩緩像一個方向倒下去。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6xdGQrtOu
視綫與地平綫成零度角時，我盯著前方模糊的荒景苦笑。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJoGxYrk7Q
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這樣一來，誰會在乎我虛假的大方放逐。將自己逼入絕境，即使死去也無人問津。山本走了，即使他有躊躇過的迹象又怎樣，這幷不代表我會得到任何獎賞。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYoZNP3H6p
我明白即使我苦苦挽留你，對于我們之間却不可能會有任何進展。我知道你最重要的人是雲雀恭彌，我也會配合你去守護他，即使這個男人讓我厭惡到連一口痰都不屑于啐。因爲雲雀倘若果真出了什麽意外，你一定會痛苦到連刀都會握不住，而我也不會放過我自己。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBVmCNoza8
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這樣你追我逐的遊戲，何時才是個結束？46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjDVR0QcQX
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那個近在咫尺卻伸不出手把握的自己，也曾經讓我無數次苦惱。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkuUEzPo45E
根本沒有追求過，就斷定自己得不到。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhC6mlxjTz
但要怎樣做才能真正放棄？就是決定要放棄，然後照那樣去做？46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4sL4iiuZJ
與自己的真心，漸行漸遠…46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboXqtl80f3
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全部都消失的日子真的會到來麼？這種心痛的感覺，也會全部全部不留痕迹，好像從開始就什麽都沒有發生過一樣。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWkwWYOlKiT
就像是現在這樣我們依偎著取暖，各懷鬼胎的互舔傷口。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKrIFiBSqV
卻從未坦誠彼此對待過……46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAqRCAFOJXw
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「我想永遠和他在一起。」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7QtPf6ltG
他遙望窗外雲層之上的黑夜，緩緩吐露這一句不够浪漫的回答。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbnzXz00XxH
卻底氣不足到連我都不能確定是否聽得對內容。 46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsMKa3HZ0vD
山本武，你很忌諱說愛嗎？46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPI7lVqywUP
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我只想聽那句話。心臟狠命在跳，不為其他任何人，只爲你一句話。滿載心願，希望哪怕只有一點變化，你也能傾向于我。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JUJP7DKWb
爲什麽要做夢呢，翻來覆去輾轉反側的，還不厭其煩的。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwAj9UDhopJ
說是夢見你，是因為對你的思念穿越了身體。 46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqt8is5utmX
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我能夠聽見，從他的側臉陰影中傳來被壓抑著的悲鳴。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFyasHBUu6a
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「日本的男人，交往起來是要確定關係吧。你這樣，難道是說不是戀人也可以？」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJYqPAqlh9
「他不會願意做我的戀人，這我知道…」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP8skiHY0tS
「你根本就是屁話！你根本就是還有僥幸心理的！」 46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWqZbyCxTs2
沒來由的怒氣，我在他身上看到自己…46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QHMdMIk6W
「那我怎樣？我還能說完全不顧情況迎難而上嗎？」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFXWEJ4zJe
「至少要…………危險！！」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7HdlFSo77N
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人一旦長大，什麽都可以變得無所謂，戒煙，甚至濫交。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkPrr75z43A
我跟自己講，我也不是那麽喜歡山本武的。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPRN5NJ2N4
就是說，只是因爲覺得對十代目的那種感情太過于正直。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0OHeKHy4X
以至于我過分壓抑的一部分就轉移到形影不離的路友身上。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKf3LBTy88t
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實際上是很脆弱，會因爲一點傷害便烟消雲散的情感。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCAXFNcNFb
縱然，時間便這樣緩緩流過數年。期間變故不斷。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgIKSw5sJ7
我却依然對他死心塌地到令人作嘔的程度。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPANnirYQ2I
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高中畢業後，十代目與我們守護者沒有進入大學。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqLbqHoUiz
按照之前約定的計劃，直接到意大利進行必要的黑手黨培訓才是全局的重中之重。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWQ5Co01uQ
對於十代首領與山本等人來說，這座歐洲城市是處陌生之地。但就我而言，留下的却是刻骨銘心或喜或悲的記憶片段，隨著時間推移絲毫抹擦不淨的頑漬。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NgnVaiHN5
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我和山本再沒有談及棒球之類的話題，或者說，我們再沒有那麽許久的交談過。 46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVSjIX4VW7
已成長為男人，我們的羈絆反而比曾經年少時更稀少的可憐。他的刀從何時已沾染上人類的鮮血，而我也不再是那個乖戾暴躁的炸彈男，現在彼此都已獨當一面到可以自立門戶。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM8nDPiVY4t
然而想要守護的，從曾經的棒球身影、到現在他的燦爛笑臉。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhF2Ta2gPzh
如同泡影，已不可能再現。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2B01k7P20
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細數著時間腳步，幾年內我們早已習慣打殺賣命的生活。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbcIuFJHNMz
雲雀和六道骸頻繁得出雙入對，我們習以爲常到擦身而過也無需多餘禮貌。即使中間存在複雜的芥蒂，同為守護者的我們也不曾將它擺上檯面惹人尷尬。之後的一次孽緣巧遇，我和山本準備到中國解決海關扣押協商問題。十代目也已經安排在日本的雲雀和骸一同前往廣州與我們碰頭。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RTDgZVUt7
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「既然已经派雲雀他们去了，还需要我们吗？他们很强的吧。」 从山本的話語中我读得到和自己同情绪的抵触。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJOiQ7onQx
十代首领早已清楚我们之间纠葛许久的多角关系，這樣安排或許另有無奈。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMrZmoJBh8
在登机之前，瞄到山本武脸上始终散不去的阴霾感，我咬着烟、心里无比烦躁。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6yomvJcDrS
幾經周折的戀愛有意義嗎？46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlfUBaZM2F
失去的，和從未擁有過的，是否可以構築等號。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMez8SLifUo
但這飛機刺穿茫茫蒼空的十幾個小時，已是我唯一可以緊握住不被流失的珍貴時光。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTDd5WqJpz
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近幾日天氣驟冷。我和山本武爲避人耳目，只藏身于經濟艙中。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBr3RpSqEmN
暖氣開得不足，再加上是夜晚高空飛行，更是加重了艙內溫度的大幅度降低。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdlz8VPxQD
我緊緊裹著機上提供的薄毛毯凍得上下齒不住摩挲。山本將自己的毯子也壓在我身上，自己卻是凍得可憐到縮成一團。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48pUSr2SK0
我心疼的瞧向他顫抖緊縮的軀幹，把毯子往他身上拽了拽。 46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAzfa9sWzAY
「把這毯子拿走吧，我沒問題的。」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTgQDYxdgm
他推搡，勉强擠出個笑容。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaeb7rIIxJi
「我抗凍！獄寺不行吧，你身體抵抗力很差。而且獄寺也說過，笨蛋是不會感冒的。」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7R0CjAjyDa
「都說了沒事了！」 我扳開他阻擋的雙臂。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH2cjLvVxno
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我說山本，你知不知道你很煩？每次你近距離靠在我身邊我就煩，你一對我好我就更煩。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJ4uLZp6ud
你這樣佯裝似的輕描淡寫不經意的關切囚禁了我，這樣的結果你很滿意嗎？46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbfy4PgKlym
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「好吧好吧，那獄寺，我們一起蓋好不好？」 46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzyDlba5x6b
他的氣息開始逼近我。我本能性躲閃，但總是慢了一步。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSwVQNLSLgP
山本堅實的臂膀嚴絲合縫得貼上我因緊張而僵硬的身體。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05kYyZSzXY
「這樣的話，就可以兩個人都暖和了。還有枕頭附送給你噢！」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDUFt9BujcY
他開玩笑似的聳肩，表情看不出一絲一毫的不自在。只是我自作多情扭捏不安。他早已對曾經我狠狠吸他嘴唇的事情一點印象都沒有了麽，還是裝作一切都未發生過。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvfnL3IkFJ
對我太過於重要的記憶，做不到像你這樣輕易唾棄。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPM1pqYC9j
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冰冷的肢體帶來的觸覺，透過襯衫從旁傳來的溫暖。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwNgrU9o21
這一切促使我的胸口又是一陣憋悶，連吞咽都覺得困難。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCk71QZ7Hy
這樣安靜坐了一會兒，他沒有合眼，我亦完全無困意。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhb8bXPLCQW
如此深的沉默竟讓我有些不習慣。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbkR3ujsfh
快找個什麽話題算了…46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡViWVw6EBMm
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其實……46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCynTVH5tEp
「你喜歡雲雀吧？」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CXQrEqcl2
靠，我怎麼鬼使神差撿來這麼個話匣……46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7OJFnUGcug
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我們從未談過感情一類的事情。我這樣發問，把山本著實嚇到好一陣沒講話。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4HDiH7BvW
喜歡就是喜歡，還需要時間考慮麽。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4X4u43JHnz
「獄寺怎麼問這個啊…呵呵……」 46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtvxJq0uWwb
想用這蹩脚的笑容敷衍過去了？門都沒有。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9HOMIQaPr3
「問這個怎麽了，不行嗎？關心你而已。」 46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZbOOexv4j
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只是想確定，說不定因你的回答，我會尋到逼迫自己釋懷的逆境。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDrPnMIEHr
乘客們睡了一大半。狹小的空間裏我聽得到從他胸腔傳來强有力的心跳。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOwY3JwzGGy
節奏逐步加快的迹象，或許是對問題最好的回答。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbop2KzpnOk
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「獄寺…已經發現了麽？」 46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGnjjnLuHPW
他醞釀許久才開口，語氣充斥著遲疑與保留。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHoQzvjxZe1
「你表現的太明顯了，是人都看得出來吧！」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5ZqxNcWXB
我忙著打架挑釁，想找點事情分散精力。但事實是從來不能被掩蓋住的。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYL30r1FoJ
山本，你知不知道？只有感情，不會說謊。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdu8HG5JLXl
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初至意大利時，第一次被安排去完成具有一定難度的任務。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDTJxopbVa
守護者們全員出動。我和你被分在一個小組，被命令突襲埋伏在一棟廢棄大樓的武裝部隊。說起來自己也真是頭腦發熱，不顧一切爲了保護你而受傷。但看到你一臉愧疚的傷心狀，想要抱怨的粗口一股腦咽回心房。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJG81IVXSmP
但這傷口真他媽的疼。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74p2V3ojO1
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緊靠冰涼墻壁，心也被傳遞製冷。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq65yssYUeG
那群不中用的廢物已經被我們三下五除二擺平。橫躺尸體的二樓平臺，一陣風吹過夾卷起的滿是格外提神的血腥氣味。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6KSr9ytbu
「獄寺…你傷口好深……」 我左臂被血水浸濕好大一塊，且還在蔓延。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMOd56ymlf
山本仔細查看，小心翼翼觸碰周圍，生怕弄痛了我。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdg49us1g50
從某尸體上撕下長條幾塊白布幫我做簡單包扎止血。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLcNTtuk7n
但手法已不如以前還在打棒球時那番熟稔。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMkgSS63XeO
那時候，即使是我扭傷了脚踝，他也可以就地取材迅速固定好傷處，技術嫻熟。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1O38OsqAt
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做了初步止血之後，他舒緩了口氣。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYfm8l8ZHjq
因鋼材血流不止，我開始眼皮發顫抖落下來，闔蓋雙目養神。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqQbXkPV45H
每一處肌肉骨胳都在爭奪身體裏僅剩不多的能量，又困又累又酸又痛。山本一同跌坐在地上，依靠在我旁邊。他的沉默聽來却如此的聒噪，每一次呼吸，我都聽得真切。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhM002g3vhD
忍不住眯眼瞧他的背脊。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzNcepz24y1
我們關係如若可以再親密一星點，或許我就有勇氣開口向他借一側肩膀來靠。縱然這場情感拉力賽進行到現在這地步，我仍從未曾擁有過他任何物品的圈地占有權。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbfV95tq4hY
但為此努力，也是徒勞……46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1bb0MW0Ip
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想睡，傷口卻止不住得刺痛。順著發達的神經元傳遞到腦內，每一擊都如坐針氈。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY3XfrF0HGQ
我瞄一眼過去，血已經浸透包扎，滲出一片紅。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpMp1TYyc6b
真是該死。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡusOBwTx7Jw
再忍下……吧。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLt4V7hVENI
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「獄寺？…」 46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRpZHKj6c7
他在我昏迷之際，猛然開口。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSpI7YcnDfo
是發現了那傷口惡化，開始重新幫我包扎。動作輕且麻利。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9BU2ny2163
我想應答，却已然連挪動舌頭的力氣都沒有了。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEEthE7urjr
看似的精神百倍，或許是某種感情催化的結果。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvtSVhnt9j
這一瞬，我逼迫自己大腦硬要無比賣力的運作。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWnA2E3I2qy
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「你忍著點，會比較痛。」 不痛的，你下手很輕。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3FRh1rTFYH
「只有緊扎才能止血，要不會出現缺氧昏迷的。」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tFjneZQ22
我知道我知道了，你可以不可以安靜一會兒？46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4JD9h2OdEs
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該不該告訴你，我現在就有些昏迷的迹象？46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnP0qM6IVsL
我不能確定，是來自血流不止的生理反應還是在於你，在於你永遠收斂不住的關切與疼愛。 我只能睜著眼，緊盯你低下的臉龐，發現你額頭上的汗珠，到底是不是在爲我緊張而滲出。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VSnlHnzye
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疼痛卷著巨浪襲上來，我咬緊下唇，一下下挺過去。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn4dtcjtMZk
「痛的話，就咬這兒吧。」 46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNg9APeY19q
因爲雙手都在忙著，騰不出更多的地方，他只好將身體貼近我，遞了肩膀過來。 然而思緒早開始點點抽離，我亦夢亦醒間聽著。 46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfUE89MvGL
一句句短語的安慰不斷地襲來。期間我只是將頭耷拉墜在山本肩上，不做聲。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5SAc03O8E
一點沒有想像中的堅實，靠在上面生硬極了。這傢夥什麽時候開始變得這麽瘦了…直到只有皮包骨的樣子。顴骨高高聳立在兩頰，看他穿著稍顯大的西服套裝，更像是個中空的衣架子。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUk5oU8FUDx
和雲雀一樣，站在風中會讓人忍不住想要緊緊拽住。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbSXUiRZOH
像是可能一陣咆哮，就會將你們卷走的乾乾淨。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgKDFMRpL4
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你手機突然作響。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZhIrVu7Y77
接了它，聽筒那邊傳來焦急的說話聲。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSflNht0kix
我依舊閉緊雙眼。黑暗中突然意識到，雲雀執行任務的地點就在這附近。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmAOsCMmJeF
他好似是和草坪頭被劃在一組裏，是出了什麽問題？46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfCpeWhxiwF
山本，你是打著英雄救美的如意算盤嗎？46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0HTqtoZCL
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挂了電話好久，我僵直著身體在等你的發話。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyES84EWwzQ
卑微的像是待宰羔羊。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxDe0WbJcGJ
「雲雀他們出事了！了平打來電話，兩個人都受了重傷…」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRdTs2z56D
「我們距離他們事發地點最近，必須去支援才行…」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAltD2PEkd
「……」 睜開眼睛迎上你十萬火急的神情。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2q3es3Apq3
山本武，你是希望我回答什麽？46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2eZQaUsoR
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「獄寺，你受了傷就不要去冒險了…我一個人去吧。」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡme8ZnP1foj
「那麼……你一個人行吧？」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU2AezfyiLf
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我行，可以的。 這樣的問句，不就搭配這樣的回答最佳？46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbnpOKq5zBy
像是，如果你會問「你還行嗎？」或是「你一個人行不行啊。」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnF6naZOyw
我一定不要猶豫的，斬釘截鐵的講給你的是否定答案。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWmjozEwpf
但是我終究是低下頭，醞釀了好一陣子。以防止自己會露出弱者才有的故弄玄虛還破綻百出的善意謊言，將活至今除了我媽見過以外的元氣面容盡數展現給你。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF01KlL6crz
如果要開口講什麽，我一定會控制不好自己的語調。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnDBOJfT0f
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我點了點頭。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhrTvrSyxD5
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這大概是我耗費的體內最後一點真氣。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyoy6aLh8e2
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山本略有遲疑的脚步準備離開，我攢足力氣做最後一拼。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZq7dYmT3VV
拽住他褲脚，我想做徒勞的挽留。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnuzfankOI
但我始終不能將視線完整對上他，無能的別過頭。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFv56zOZdlj
然而，手的力氣一點猶豫都沒有，我死死蜷緊手指，將全身力量彙聚在這一點上。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZVQZWv44V
像個膩歪到甩不開的怨婦。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOfOZqortzG
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「欸？…獄寺，別這樣…在這兒等我，我就回來了啊…」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3EFY4L2aY
「這裡還算安全……你放心吧，有事馬上CALL我，好吧？」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡACIRUY2XIy
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够了，不要用哄孫子似的語氣和我說話。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXZhDerhA6
前一秒那點懊拗口情懷被我瞬間扔到九霄雲外。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzKARH1DZc
我坦然放開捏到濕的一團。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjuRSuqdpT
「行了行了快走吧。」 46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9IMz1KQCus
不想讓他看到我任何表情變化。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcp5R3zXuDp
咬緊牙關，將整張臉埋在黑暗裡。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTm5EFvHqE
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你終于離開了。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA86kELG3og
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身體逐步趨向臨界崩毀狀態。倚靠墻壁的力氣都沒有，緩緩像一個方向倒下去。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6xdGQrtOu
視綫與地平綫成零度角時，我盯著前方模糊的荒景苦笑。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJoGxYrk7Q
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這樣一來，誰會在乎我虛假的大方放逐。將自己逼入絕境，即使死去也無人問津。山本走了，即使他有躊躇過的迹象又怎樣，這幷不代表我會得到任何獎賞。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYoZNP3H6p
我明白即使我苦苦挽留你，對于我們之間却不可能會有任何進展。我知道你最重要的人是雲雀恭彌，我也會配合你去守護他，即使這個男人讓我厭惡到連一口痰都不屑于啐。因爲雲雀倘若果真出了什麽意外，你一定會痛苦到連刀都會握不住，而我也不會放過我自己。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBVmCNoza8
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這樣你追我逐的遊戲，何時才是個結束？46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjDVR0QcQX
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那個近在咫尺卻伸不出手把握的自己，也曾經讓我無數次苦惱。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkuUEzPo45E
根本沒有追求過，就斷定自己得不到。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhC6mlxjTz
但要怎樣做才能真正放棄？就是決定要放棄，然後照那樣去做？46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4sL4iiuZJ
與自己的真心，漸行漸遠…46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboXqtl80f3
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全部都消失的日子真的會到來麼？這種心痛的感覺，也會全部全部不留痕迹，好像從開始就什麽都沒有發生過一樣。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWkwWYOlKiT
就像是現在這樣我們依偎著取暖，各懷鬼胎的互舔傷口。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKrIFiBSqV
卻從未坦誠彼此對待過……46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAqRCAFOJXw
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「我想永遠和他在一起。」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7QtPf6ltG
他遙望窗外雲層之上的黑夜，緩緩吐露這一句不够浪漫的回答。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbnzXz00XxH
卻底氣不足到連我都不能確定是否聽得對內容。 46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsMKa3HZ0vD
山本武，你很忌諱說愛嗎？46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPI7lVqywUP
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我只想聽那句話。心臟狠命在跳，不為其他任何人，只爲你一句話。滿載心願，希望哪怕只有一點變化，你也能傾向于我。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JUJP7DKWb
爲什麽要做夢呢，翻來覆去輾轉反側的，還不厭其煩的。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwAj9UDhopJ
說是夢見你，是因為對你的思念穿越了身體。 46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqt8is5utmX
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我能夠聽見，從他的側臉陰影中傳來被壓抑著的悲鳴。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFyasHBUu6a
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「日本的男人，交往起來是要確定關係吧。你這樣，難道是說不是戀人也可以？」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJYqPAqlh9
「他不會願意做我的戀人，這我知道…」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP8skiHY0tS
「你根本就是屁話！你根本就是還有僥幸心理的！」 46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWqZbyCxTs2
沒來由的怒氣，我在他身上看到自己…46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QHMdMIk6W
「那我怎樣？我還能說完全不顧情況迎難而上嗎？」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFXWEJ4zJe
「至少要…………危險！！」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7HdlFSo77N
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