我同思穎站在門前，我伸手入袋掏鑰匙，手指一抖，差點掉落地。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡesekn6SrUo
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插進鎖孔時，鑰匙卡了一下，我心跳加快，不是因為鎖很硬，很難開，而是因為她站在我身邊。曾經是我的性奴，現在卻是我的女兒。那種感覺很奇怪。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgSqYp5G1Xq
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「叩。」門一開，屋裡靜得讓人耳鳴。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdf0nCTWC0B
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打開燈掣，燈光軟軟地灑下來，可空氣裡有股怪味，像尷尬燒焦了。她走進去，腳步在玄關上「嗒嗒」響。她脫下鞋，光著腳丫，裙子下露出一截白嫩小腿，我眼角瞟到，雙眼馬上燒起來。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiaBysNC5jX
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思穎輕聲說：「明明冇返嚟幾日……」聲音細得像蚊子叫，卻像勾子一樣扯住我。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUTLjwqHmVp
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我沒有出聲，默默關門，手握門把太用力，指節都白了。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetiuujiowa
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「叩」一聲，像把什麼封起來，又像把什麼炸開。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBf7Durwzdg
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這屋子，太熟了。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHCnNMmP0q
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餐桌上，思穎曾經躺著、伏著任我抽插；沙發上，她靠著我看電視，手指在我肉棒亂摸；而房間，我腦袋閃過一幕，只是一個星期前，她穿著我那件白襯衫，扣子解開一半，露出粉紅乳尖與乳溝。她騎在我身上，腰扭得像蛇，汗珠從她脖子滑下來，滴在我肚子上。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMTjfHSBKn
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那時，思穎喘著氣，媚眼如絲地看我，低聲問：「主人，以後可唔可以都搵你扑嘢 ?」我沒答，只是抓著她臀肉，狠狠吻她，肉棒撞得更深，像要把她整個人插沒了。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGqUZAw2AKC
現在，我坐在沙發上的一邊，手機扔在茶几上，「嗒」一聲，響得刺耳。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1kPMZOUsO
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我等著老婆的回電，屋裡靜得像墳墓。思穎坐沙發上的另一邊，沙發的格子隔開我們，也隔開那道亂七八糟的身份線。她低著頭，手指捏著校裙邊，指甲摳得裙子都皺了。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsMwtjw6ecd
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我知道她在偷看我，眼角那點光藏不住。我也忍不住看她，她眉眼像她媽，嘴唇卻軟得像她，咬起來時總是熱乎乎的。可她是我女兒，這想法讓我喉嚨發乾，像吞了沙。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdrgMYpIVt
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「爹哋……有冇諗過……如果我哋早啲知真相，會唔會唔使咁亂？」她聲音低得像耳邊風，卻像雷劈進我腦袋。我愣住，嘴角扯了個苦笑：「冇諗過……」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprLdmeL2bc
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她沒抬頭，手指更用力摳裙子，指尖發紅，像在掐自己。她慢慢說：「我唔知對爹哋你……應該點……其實一齊住會唔會唔好？」她聲音抖︰「我唔係唔想同你住，但返嚟呢度，我腦袋亂晒。記得以前……你摸我，錫我，我仲叫你用力啲……」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFP6GSHcdSJ
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她話沒說完，我喉嚨像被塞滿棉花，喘不上氣。那些畫面又來了。她躺在我床上，腿纏著我腰，皮膚燙得像火，喘息聲黏在我耳邊。我想說話，想叫她唔使亂諗，可嘴張開，什麼都出不來。她看著我，像個求救的小動物，又像個曾經在我身上尖叫的女人。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpKIFYgL0dH
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「我哋唔使即刻有答案。」我終於擠出聲，硬裝平靜︰「但你要知，無論點，我都會保護你，唔會再傷害你。呢個唔會變。」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiD88LEibWQ
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她盯著我，眼神怪得像陌生人，又熟得像情人，又像是奴隸看著主人求情，又像是女兒看著爸爸求救。那一刻，我懂了，這尷尬是因為「亂倫」兩個字。我們做過愛，她奶子貼過我的肉棒，腿夾著我腰，現在卻要叫我「爹哋」。這比校長搞學生更髒，更亂。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡur5QpgT8s9
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手機震起來，像刀子劃破這死靜。是老婆回電。我吸口氣，手指在屏幕上停了一下，才接起來：「你幾時返？ 我有嘢要講……好重要。」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Dw4AZF1KC
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電話那頭老婆說話時，我腦子還是思穎的樣子。汗濕的頭髮貼著臉，嘴唇咬著我肩膀，低聲喊我。那味道，那觸感，像鬼一樣纏著我，甩都甩不掉。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpCgy8SFbxx
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「差唔多返到 ? 好啦 ! 」我收線道。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKCJPHVImb
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客廳燈光刺眼，我伸手轉暗一格，光線軟下來，像蒙了層霧，可我心裡那團亂麻還是壓得我喘不過氣。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEVU3lp3ySr
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大概等了十五分鐘，門鎖「咔」一聲響，老婆推門進來，鞋跟敲地板的聲音停了一下。她眼神掃過沙發，落在思穎身上。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKs6sU5RHL5
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思穎見此，突然坐得直直，雙手緊握在膝蓋上，像個乖學生，向老婆點點頭。可她當坐直那刻，裙子也拉上了，露出的腿，又白又嫩，讓我腦子一閃，又再次想起她曾經騎在我身上扭腰的樣子。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ddIdsRzvq
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「你係……？」老婆聲音平靜，眉頭卻皺起來，像聞到什麼怪味。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMgvS1GEsK7
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我喉嚨一緊，說：「你坐低先。」聲音硬裝鎮定，可手心已經冒汗。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHJuireerQ
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她走到餐桌前，把椅子拖到沙發旁，那聲音很是刺耳。她坐下去，手袋扔在旁邊，手指交叉握著，像準備聽壞消息。我看著她，深吸一口氣，說：「佢係思穎，我之前提過嗰個好叻嘅學生。」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcY17Xckdn
她愣了一下，溫柔地笑：「噢，原來係佢。睇落真係幾乖。所以你咁急叫我返嚟……係想我見你嘅學生？」她眼神掃向思穎，嘴角還掛著笑，那笑仍很溫柔。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvEOQV5Mkh
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我沒答，從沙發旁抓起文件袋，掏出一份報告，輕輕放桌上，紙撞桌面的「啪」聲像敲在我心上。我直說：「佢唔止係我學生，佢仲係我個女，呢份係DNA報告。」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6c8Y55c0B
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她眼睛盯著報告，沒動。空氣像凍住，連呼吸都重了。她沉默幾秒，終於問：「你話……思穎係你女？」聲音抖得像風裡的葉子。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2YL1Nuqtzl
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我點頭，喉嚨像塞了塊石頭：「係，佢係我同……以前一個女人生嘅。」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCKVWPmxM0
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老婆臉色一白，手猛地抱住頭，像要壓住什麼崩潰的東西。她喘著氣問：「你幾時知？點解會知？」聲音越來越高，像繃緊的弦。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdlgtCPupB
我開始講，從最初的懷疑說起。思穎的笑太像她媽，那對眼睛水汪汪的，勾人又無辜；還有她身世不清不楚，血型、出生年份的線索。直到有天，我真的覺得她的樣子、小習慣都與我相似。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWmmdvSa3e
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我說得慢，手指不自覺捏緊沙發邊，像抓著救命稻草。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE5VYAY3FUU
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老婆聽著，臉從白開始回復紅嫩。她望向思穎，嘴角掛起溫柔的笑：「咁……你阿媽就係嗰個女校長？」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZtNmywz7Ec
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思穎點頭。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhyrKPrlDky
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老婆又問思穎：「你以前同阿媽住？過嗰種生活？」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESg72cuKNZ
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思穎低頭，聲音細得像蚊子哼：「係。」她手指摳著裙邊，指甲發白，像在掐自己。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3p8mrlhO5
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我看著，心裡一陣刺痛，想起她曾在我床上，腿纏著我腰，喘著氣叫我「用力啲」，那聲音黏在我耳邊。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiSAKa9JFzh
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為何……為何……我現在會想到這些 ? 81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNfxzwOYPU
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老婆嘴唇抖了一下，眼裡閃著淚。她站起來，走到思穎身前，蹲下身，伸手握住她的手，聲音軟下來：「辛苦你啦……呢啲唔係你嘅錯 !」她停了停，笑得溫柔：「我第一眼見你就鍾意你。不如你同我哋一齊住，好唔好？我一直想要個女，你唔介意我呢個三十歲做你阿媽吧？」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpg7sjvZox7
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思穎抬頭，愣了一下，嘴角輕輕彎起來：「唔介意。我阿媽都差唔多年紀。」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3kjb3ZaXFV
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「差唔多？思穎你而家係十八歲 ?」老婆笑意僵住。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwPuf8kwwNw
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思穎點了點頭。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJni1rolmV
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老婆眼神慢慢轉向我，像刀子一樣銳利：「咁你……嗰陣搞一個十幾歲女仔？」她的聲音不再軟，變得硬邦邦，像冰砸下來。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡheLYjuCbd5
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屋子像炸開一樣靜。老婆盯著我，我嘴張了張，什麼都說不出。她猛地站起來，走到我面前，聲音爆開：「你搞個十幾歲嘅女仔都算 ! 人哋有咗你又唔理，生咗你又唔照顧兩母女，你睇思穎咁乖又叻，叫好彩冇學壞啫 ! 萬一學壞咗……唉…… 周永基你有冇搞錯㗎 ! 你仲係唔係男人 ? 」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQvzyEPER8
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「老婆唔係……我可以解釋……」我試著解釋，可每個字都像紙片，燒成灰。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2F8Afwxd4
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老婆氣得臉紅，轉頭看思穎，眼裡全是心疼與憐憫，抓著她的手說：「思穎……唔係，阿女，媽咪以後唔會再俾你受苦，你跟媽咪返外婆度，而家我車你返屋企執埋啲衫同日用品 !」說畢，老婆眼神轉向我，用手指著我︰「你呢條死肥佬，自己反省下啦 ! 仲有架車就俾我用，你以後自己行路返工啦 ! 」81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPp0fvSuNJY
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我想說什麼，但老婆已經拉著思穎往門口走。我起身，站在原地，看著她們背影。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIgL9OYEgP
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「砰！」門關上，聲音震得我耳朵嗡嗡響。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNnycXHE9e
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客廳只剩我一個，燈光昏黃，牆上時鐘「嘀嗒嘀嗒」。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4eeClOj13O
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或許，這是最好的解決方法。81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEMEUQBMAOs
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