我同思穎站在門前,我伸手入袋掏鑰匙,手指一抖,差點掉落地。111Please respect copyright.PENANA8j3IfJ1EU2
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插進鎖孔時,鑰匙卡了一下,我心跳加快,不是因為鎖很硬,很難開,而是因為她站在我身邊。曾經是我的性奴,現在卻是我的女兒。那種感覺很奇怪。111Please respect copyright.PENANAahfHXHuAYg
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「叩。」門一開,屋裡靜得讓人耳鳴。111Please respect copyright.PENANAOjQ4BLLUsA
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打開燈掣,燈光軟軟地灑下來,可空氣裡有股怪味,像尷尬燒焦了。她走進去,腳步在玄關上「嗒嗒」響。她脫下鞋,光著腳丫,裙子下露出一截白嫩小腿,我眼角瞟到,雙眼馬上燒起來。111Please respect copyright.PENANAHT8MlkFufU
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思穎輕聲說:「明明冇返嚟幾日……」聲音細得像蚊子叫,卻像勾子一樣扯住我。111Please respect copyright.PENANArbTLQJX7Li
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我沒有出聲,默默關門,手握門把太用力,指節都白了。111Please respect copyright.PENANAHo1S1s5wdG
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「叩」一聲,像把什麼封起來,又像把什麼炸開。111Please respect copyright.PENANAkQ90tqzdjC
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這屋子,太熟了。111Please respect copyright.PENANAdSeP0xDgfl
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餐桌上,思穎曾經躺著、伏著任我抽插;沙發上,她靠著我看電視,手指在我肉棒亂摸;而房間,我腦袋閃過一幕,只是一個星期前,她穿著我那件白襯衫,扣子解開一半,露出粉紅乳尖與乳溝。她騎在我身上,腰扭得像蛇,汗珠從她脖子滑下來,滴在我肚子上。111Please respect copyright.PENANAgkOZvTEh6K
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那時,思穎喘著氣,媚眼如絲地看我,低聲問:「主人,以後可唔可以都搵你扑嘢 ?」我沒答,只是抓著她臀肉,狠狠吻她,肉棒撞得更深,像要把她整個人插沒了。111Please respect copyright.PENANAHpI77UowFW
現在,我坐在沙發上的一邊,手機扔在茶几上,「嗒」一聲,響得刺耳。111Please respect copyright.PENANAjJW4InVdrY
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我等著老婆的回電,屋裡靜得像墳墓。思穎坐沙發上的另一邊,沙發的格子隔開我們,也隔開那道亂七八糟的身份線。她低著頭,手指捏著校裙邊,指甲摳得裙子都皺了。111Please respect copyright.PENANAImkCHN04rO
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我知道她在偷看我,眼角那點光藏不住。我也忍不住看她,她眉眼像她媽,嘴唇卻軟得像她,咬起來時總是熱乎乎的。可她是我女兒,這想法讓我喉嚨發乾,像吞了沙。111Please respect copyright.PENANABvjb7mfrii
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「爹哋……有冇諗過……如果我哋早啲知真相,會唔會唔使咁亂?」她聲音低得像耳邊風,卻像雷劈進我腦袋。我愣住,嘴角扯了個苦笑:「冇諗過……」111Please respect copyright.PENANAmSrZG9tIUH
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她沒抬頭,手指更用力摳裙子,指尖發紅,像在掐自己。她慢慢說:「我唔知對爹哋你……應該點……其實一齊住會唔會唔好?」她聲音抖︰「我唔係唔想同你住,但返嚟呢度,我腦袋亂晒。記得以前……你摸我,錫我,我仲叫你用力啲……」111Please respect copyright.PENANAZuWzZYTjAv
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她話沒說完,我喉嚨像被塞滿棉花,喘不上氣。那些畫面又來了。她躺在我床上,腿纏著我腰,皮膚燙得像火,喘息聲黏在我耳邊。我想說話,想叫她唔使亂諗,可嘴張開,什麼都出不來。她看著我,像個求救的小動物,又像個曾經在我身上尖叫的女人。111Please respect copyright.PENANARg6ceI8oqK
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「我哋唔使即刻有答案。」我終於擠出聲,硬裝平靜︰「但你要知,無論點,我都會保護你,唔會再傷害你。呢個唔會變。」111Please respect copyright.PENANASb6wU4jr0g
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她盯著我,眼神怪得像陌生人,又熟得像情人,又像是奴隸看著主人求情,又像是女兒看著爸爸求救。那一刻,我懂了,這尷尬是因為「亂倫」兩個字。我們做過愛,她奶子貼過我的肉棒,腿夾著我腰,現在卻要叫我「爹哋」。這比校長搞學生更髒,更亂。111Please respect copyright.PENANAsExe5y4nzH
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手機震起來,像刀子劃破這死靜。是老婆回電。我吸口氣,手指在屏幕上停了一下,才接起來:「你幾時返? 我有嘢要講……好重要。」111Please respect copyright.PENANALbRdG5x2O7
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電話那頭老婆說話時,我腦子還是思穎的樣子。汗濕的頭髮貼著臉,嘴唇咬著我肩膀,低聲喊我。那味道,那觸感,像鬼一樣纏著我,甩都甩不掉。111Please respect copyright.PENANAjNevHuSAE3
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「差唔多返到 ? 好啦 ! 」我收線道。111Please respect copyright.PENANA7NYxeV9wZt
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客廳燈光刺眼,我伸手轉暗一格,光線軟下來,像蒙了層霧,可我心裡那團亂麻還是壓得我喘不過氣。111Please respect copyright.PENANAoc67aXHwO4
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大概等了十五分鐘,門鎖「咔」一聲響,老婆推門進來,鞋跟敲地板的聲音停了一下。她眼神掃過沙發,落在思穎身上。111Please respect copyright.PENANABMgF0rLZzu
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思穎見此,突然坐得直直,雙手緊握在膝蓋上,像個乖學生,向老婆點點頭。可她當坐直那刻,裙子也拉上了,露出的腿,又白又嫩,讓我腦子一閃,又再次想起她曾經騎在我身上扭腰的樣子。111Please respect copyright.PENANAOtEIZNH7nF
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「你係……?」老婆聲音平靜,眉頭卻皺起來,像聞到什麼怪味。111Please respect copyright.PENANAoEygIdjTgW
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我喉嚨一緊,說:「你坐低先。」聲音硬裝鎮定,可手心已經冒汗。111Please respect copyright.PENANAcxnSB0Btd5
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她走到餐桌前,把椅子拖到沙發旁,那聲音很是刺耳。她坐下去,手袋扔在旁邊,手指交叉握著,像準備聽壞消息。我看著她,深吸一口氣,說:「佢係思穎,我之前提過嗰個好叻嘅學生。」111Please respect copyright.PENANAbQ8zqmPQ0D
她愣了一下,溫柔地笑:「噢,原來係佢。睇落真係幾乖。所以你咁急叫我返嚟……係想我見你嘅學生?」她眼神掃向思穎,嘴角還掛著笑,那笑仍很溫柔。111Please respect copyright.PENANAJLG84C8e34
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我沒答,從沙發旁抓起文件袋,掏出一份報告,輕輕放桌上,紙撞桌面的「啪」聲像敲在我心上。我直說:「佢唔止係我學生,佢仲係我個女,呢份係DNA報告。」111Please respect copyright.PENANAN6iPXhDeUY
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她眼睛盯著報告,沒動。空氣像凍住,連呼吸都重了。她沉默幾秒,終於問:「你話……思穎係你女?」聲音抖得像風裡的葉子。111Please respect copyright.PENANAMzH7blg5S6
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我點頭,喉嚨像塞了塊石頭:「係,佢係我同……以前一個女人生嘅。」111Please respect copyright.PENANA7hbgV01sNZ
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老婆臉色一白,手猛地抱住頭,像要壓住什麼崩潰的東西。她喘著氣問:「你幾時知?點解會知?」聲音越來越高,像繃緊的弦。111Please respect copyright.PENANA9Idhn5ZfRC
我開始講,從最初的懷疑說起。思穎的笑太像她媽,那對眼睛水汪汪的,勾人又無辜;還有她身世不清不楚,血型、出生年份的線索。直到有天,我真的覺得她的樣子、小習慣都與我相似。111Please respect copyright.PENANAskeldzDr5z
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我說得慢,手指不自覺捏緊沙發邊,像抓著救命稻草。111Please respect copyright.PENANAZc4La94THm
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老婆聽著,臉從白開始回復紅嫩。她望向思穎,嘴角掛起溫柔的笑:「咁……你阿媽就係嗰個女校長?」111Please respect copyright.PENANA8I5WcXLsBf
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思穎點頭。111Please respect copyright.PENANAy9qHRAoRix
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老婆又問思穎:「你以前同阿媽住?過嗰種生活?」111Please respect copyright.PENANAabO1MwPme3
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思穎低頭,聲音細得像蚊子哼:「係。」她手指摳著裙邊,指甲發白,像在掐自己。111Please respect copyright.PENANArJpJU5Es1M
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我看著,心裡一陣刺痛,想起她曾在我床上,腿纏著我腰,喘著氣叫我「用力啲」,那聲音黏在我耳邊。111Please respect copyright.PENANAeg8ydnqAp4
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為何……為何……我現在會想到這些 ? 111Please respect copyright.PENANAP6pQuFcjgz
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老婆嘴唇抖了一下,眼裡閃著淚。她站起來,走到思穎身前,蹲下身,伸手握住她的手,聲音軟下來:「辛苦你啦……呢啲唔係你嘅錯 !」她停了停,笑得溫柔:「我第一眼見你就鍾意你。不如你同我哋一齊住,好唔好?我一直想要個女,你唔介意我呢個三十歲做你阿媽吧?」111Please respect copyright.PENANAGv9jQ92uy6
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思穎抬頭,愣了一下,嘴角輕輕彎起來:「唔介意。我阿媽都差唔多年紀。」111Please respect copyright.PENANAuIrgpi37o1
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「差唔多?思穎你而家係十八歲 ?」老婆笑意僵住。111Please respect copyright.PENANAWBJ7sV0fHE
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思穎點了點頭。111Please respect copyright.PENANAycLxSH6X3R
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老婆眼神慢慢轉向我,像刀子一樣銳利:「咁你……嗰陣搞一個十幾歲女仔?」她的聲音不再軟,變得硬邦邦,像冰砸下來。111Please respect copyright.PENANAFyuxAB2RyK
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屋子像炸開一樣靜。老婆盯著我,我嘴張了張,什麼都說不出。她猛地站起來,走到我面前,聲音爆開:「你搞個十幾歲嘅女仔都算 ! 人哋有咗你又唔理,生咗你又唔照顧兩母女,你睇思穎咁乖又叻,叫好彩冇學壞啫 ! 萬一學壞咗……唉…… 周永基你有冇搞錯㗎 ! 你仲係唔係男人 ? 」111Please respect copyright.PENANAjSzVeAeuC1
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「老婆唔係……我可以解釋……」我試著解釋,可每個字都像紙片,燒成灰。111Please respect copyright.PENANAUoqCaCcrx3
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老婆氣得臉紅,轉頭看思穎,眼裡全是心疼與憐憫,抓著她的手說:「思穎……唔係,阿女,媽咪以後唔會再俾你受苦,你跟媽咪返外婆度,而家我車你返屋企執埋啲衫同日用品 !」說畢,老婆眼神轉向我,用手指著我︰「你呢條死肥佬,自己反省下啦 ! 仲有架車就俾我用,你以後自己行路返工啦 ! 」111Please respect copyright.PENANAkyFJ0tue54
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我想說什麼,但老婆已經拉著思穎往門口走。我起身,站在原地,看著她們背影。111Please respect copyright.PENANAWbJ9blKyf3
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「砰!」門關上,聲音震得我耳朵嗡嗡響。111Please respect copyright.PENANALfe0O8Oc9c
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客廳只剩我一個,燈光昏黃,牆上時鐘「嘀嗒嘀嗒」。111Please respect copyright.PENANAalOa2ybgNj
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或許,這是最好的解決方法。111Please respect copyright.PENANApPr6G8M2VF