那一夜之後,我們在家裡多待上幾天才走。7Please respect copyright.PENANAzo6APar7ep
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這幾天,學長不出任務而我也找了人代課,我們留在原世界裡什麼也不做,也不去注意守世界的任何消息。7Please respect copyright.PENANAT2SHcL16fn
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只是陪在父母身邊,像是過去平常日子裡的假期……每天睡醒會看見在廚房忙著的母親,然後一起用過早餐,或許就待在客廳看看電視,還是一起出去走走。7Please respect copyright.PENANAI1IB8dQbzX
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也許還會和他們到市場,午餐可能就在外面的店家解決,下午回到家,幫忙整理買回家的東西,看著母親把處理好的食材放入悶燒鍋內,暖熱的香氣隨溫度上升而開始飄散,晚餐就是下午先燉過的東西,和之後炒的菜。7Please respect copyright.PENANA8Pvd4tPfHn
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等冥玥回來再一起再用過晚餐,所有人一起收拾,然後吃過水果就又是開著電視。7Please respect copyright.PENANA4DFgFyWOFd
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可能會聊點天、漫無目的隨意聊著,也可能把注意力放在電視上,不管劇情是不是能夠預想……平凡的一天就這麼過去,然後看時間差不多了一一回房歇下。7Please respect copyright.PENANA1yS6TR7T0M
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隔天醒來,又是一樣的日子。7Please respect copyright.PENANA7Ma87KORcP
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平凡、少有變化,卻感幸福。7Please respect copyright.PENANA1JzFRnGQx2
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就這樣待了超過一周才回到Atlantis,恢復任務、恢復教課……守世界的朋友們幾乎都已經知道了我的選擇,也許是千冬歲發現的、又或者只是身上氣息的改變被查覺。7Please respect copyright.PENANAGbkVpRcLjc
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接受了很多的祝福與加油。7Please respect copyright.PENANAAiEu1QVkPw
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我知道對於他們,就如同我的家人一樣……不管早晚之後也會別離。7Please respect copyright.PENANAiSsltSJ9pM
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可是在現在,大家還是都在身邊,都能夠繼續旅行、繼續玩鬧,就像是初見的過去,那最初不需要太擔心什麼的時光,現在我覺得過去那點偶爾徬徨、不時被照顧的日子好像也不是那麼糟。7Please respect copyright.PENANA7Ra322PZwf
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多想回到過去,不過現在也很好,值得下一個未來的我懷念。7Please respect copyright.PENANAGd73aHDxdF
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開始更珍惜每一分每一秒。7Please respect copyright.PENANAjtOOyu2o03
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之後,還常常回去原世界,有時候自己一個人、有時候和學長一起……偶爾帶著朋友,家裡常常因為客人來訪而熱鬧非凡,就像很久之前的那個除夕夜,我們一起在家裡圍爐、然後玩了一場遊戲。7Please respect copyright.PENANArazg6jXWbX
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後來我還學了一些料理,在有些時候自己下廚或是和喵喵他們一起在廚房半是玩鬧的搞定晚餐,母親坐在搖椅上慢慢搖著、微笑看著我們而非自己起來忙碌的次數漸漸增多。7Please respect copyright.PENANAggEiY6jQR9
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她和老爸總對視、然後笑看著──眼神裡是放心、還有欣慰。7Please respect copyright.PENANAFOEjk9jgkj
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幾年間,陸陸續續還接到了一些過去的同學、現在的朋友結婚甚至生子的消息,有時候會去參加有時候則沒有。7Please respect copyright.PENANAIf8dfPDCzF
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應該是說來自守世界的邀請都不會拒絕,不過若是來自原世界,時間越往後越不會參加,畢竟已經停止變化的面孔,並不適合出現在原世界認識的人面前──好歹那種「誤差」已經不只是可以用娃娃臉呼攏過去的程度了。7Please respect copyright.PENANA7hqFNwcWT5
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而有參加時,看到其他人也攜伴參加時有種別樣感覺。7Please respect copyright.PENANAx0UmKgNhbx
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過去都是看著,跟著父母出席一些婚喪喜慶,很少有跟我直接關聯的,沒想到現在自己也是受邀者,看到以前一起長大的人,現在有伴、結了婚甚至帶了孩子,感覺就是有點不適應。7Please respect copyright.PENANAkafNeRRlF8
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聽到的一些消息,看見變化了很多的人事物,這些都跟小時候距離遙遠,卻在此刻異常接近。7Please respect copyright.PENANAtNN6xO8COd
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然後在偶爾發現邀請函上印的名子異常出乎意料時,會很驚悚的瞪大眼,看惶恐的眼珠子滿地亂滾。7Please respect copyright.PENANAO28WgMIz56
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例如最印象深刻的……某摔倒王子與阿利學長,他們最後居然在一起還結了婚完全不在意料之中!可是學長和很多人卻似乎理所當然的樣子。7Please respect copyright.PENANA82MUI31N9G
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所以花了很多時間思考到底要不要去奇歐妖精聖地,一邊腦殘某王子會不會一看到我來就殲滅我,一邊則是很難以想像的推論到底他們是怎得搭上線──糾結超久結果被學長一巴打到完全沒想法,典禮當天直接被「攜帶」過去……7Please respect copyright.PENANAZGmkc5PZvc
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總之就是如此了。7Please respect copyright.PENANAyqKG6RxFMp
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後來又參加一些人的婚禮,然後有時被起鬨問起我和學長,那時只是笑笑帶過,偶爾則在看見幾個孩子被帶出來時,忍不住多戳幾下,聽著軟軟的童音有點新奇。7Please respect copyright.PENANApXOsKkCNUU
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一些值得賀喜的消息不斷被信使稍來。7Please respect copyright.PENANAdXeOJiqgVE
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大部分我總在驚奇中,和學長相視而笑。7Please respect copyright.PENANAPk0WCGj4sn
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時間就這樣不斷推進,有令人驚恐的事、高興的事、不快的事……7Please respect copyright.PENANAznpYpKpOFS
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但也還有,悲傷痛苦的事──並不是希望事情不要發生,他就不會來,即使遮住雙眼不看,世界仍在改變。7Please respect copyright.PENANAAwtvhU2jvR
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有喜就有悲,有生……亦有滅。7Please respect copyright.PENANA4Ge4B3H9k7
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距離那晚十一年後,在醫院的病床上……老爸離開了。7Please respect copyright.PENANAkLOL6Qyqzg
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醫生說,癌症末期的人要走前必定是渾身插滿管子,身體也因為各種治療而破敗不堪,並不會像是他這樣有如睡著一般,只是臉色稍顯蒼白。7Please respect copyright.PENANA7ZVyb0GXtM
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知道這是因為喵喵的關係,鳳凰族不能阻止自然死亡,但是可以將痛苦減到最低,並且多延長了一點時間。7Please respect copyright.PENANAr9HE5ZMW49
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不過即使如此,親人的離去還是讓人幾近無法接受。7Please respect copyright.PENANATJCdxnRq8B
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是渾渾噩噩辦完喪禮。7Please respect copyright.PENANAfTvkBVB0OM
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鮮紅的炙熱火焰燒盡逝者一切,連灰都不剩,僅剩記憶與被我特意留下的一只手錶。7Please respect copyright.PENANAk9UFfmKcQP
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安靜落淚的老媽抱著我和冥玥什麼也沒說。7Please respect copyright.PENANAFQ9CuuhD0P
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我也同是什麼話都說不出口,只能用力抱緊懷裡僅存的熟悉溫度,忍住眼底的熱燙。7Please respect copyright.PENANA8cswTLmClJ
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再過兩年,剛好忙完一個有點費時的任務,我和學長回到原世界剛好碰上了姊一起到家,精神很好的母親難得又下了一次廚,並且堅決不要幫忙。7Please respect copyright.PENANA6JpWK3fTqR
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那晚她笑得特別開心、整個人還顯得神采奕奕,不只因為我們回來,而是彷彿期待已久的什麼事就要發生,問她媽也說不上來是因為什麼。7Please respect copyright.PENANAE6QH6W3tWx
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她還說了很多很多的話,又問了我一些問題……7Please respect copyright.PENANAfUCJK22fUM
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最後媽說,她能放心了。7Please respect copyright.PENANA4mfDEpd135
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而隔天早上,睡醒到客廳卻沒有見到搖椅上的熟悉身影,我和姊一起到了主臥室,看見諾大的雙人床上,安靜的瘦小身軀躺著。7Please respect copyright.PENANAybNSy1NOTS
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散落的銀白髮絲擱在枕上無聲無息,一抹很淺的微笑掛在曾經漂亮的臉上,雙眼緊閉再也沒有打開的跡象。7Please respect copyright.PENANAtYqoi9dPW4
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姊握著那冰冷的手和我一起沉默了,很久之後才說:7Please respect copyright.PENANAUSxOFbzfzk
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『媽放心的去找爸了。』7Please respect copyright.PENANAD3o2I1Flus
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她的聲音有點乾啞,而我除了一片空白的思緒之外,暫時沒有任何反應。7Please respect copyright.PENANAKVPYo1dPmD
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一直到將所有事情處理好後,我留下了一個相框。7Please respect copyright.PENANAtQ0w3JQEPh
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母親走了半年後,我和冥玥都正式離開原世界很少再回來,留在那裡的房子沒有賣掉也沒有再住人,只用了守護精靈與水晶保護起來,除了受允許之外的人,不會意識到這裡還曾有一間房子、也不會闖入。7Please respect copyright.PENANAHOhGIY3Foh
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讓它獨立於仍持續往前進的都市發展外。7Please respect copyright.PENANAmF0rEFKZ6l
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而我,幾乎斷了在原世界裡的牽掛。7Please respect copyright.PENANA97fT6H80sW
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有時候回來,竟也只是為其他年邁的遠親送葬,用了幻術遮掩的容貌在哀傷得人群中我不顯得突兀,我看著那些同樣被留下的人,感覺那種悲傷,說不出心裡是什麼樣的滋味。7Please respect copyright.PENANAGu60gGraSY
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親人的逝去讓我有一陣子的心沉,一想到這樣的感覺還要不斷的迎接,就覺得痛苦,尤其曾連以為可以已起走很遠的朋友也會離開──多數的種族都比不過精靈的長壽──那種最後誰都會中途退出旅途,只有少數人會繼續存在的現實讓人心慌。7Please respect copyright.PENANAOaTCCEipSC
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當想到多記得一個人,就要多為一個人傷心時,曾經令人畏懼再去接觸更多人,只想關起自己、什麼也不想聽。7Please respect copyright.PENANAktl7FkvpXw
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可即使如此,消息還是會持續傳進耳裡,也許是風裡的歌聲、大氣中的吟唱,不會終止的時間、必經的痛苦只能繼續承受。7Please respect copyright.PENANA6uSPbFjAn9
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還是一樣的生活,會笑會和其他人打鬧,可是更多一個人的時候讓自己坐再緊閉的窗邊,無言的沉默,手中代表思念的物品越來越多。7Please respect copyright.PENANAmHUZIHx4CE
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我看著那只錶、那副像框、那水晶飾品……眾多的回憶逐漸遠去,把頭埋進膝蓋中一直到黃昏日落也不想起來。7Please respect copyright.PENANApwm3U7R8el
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一直到有一天被學長拖著到一片山崖上,風很大、冰冷異常一如我持續了好一陣子的心境……而駐足在深不見底的懸崖上,那種什麼也看不見好似隨時會墜落的全黑空間令人心生恐懼,唯慶幸還有學長握著我的手。7Please respect copyright.PENANAlqJh8XGh3u
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他在呼嘯的風聲中問我是不是後悔了,嗓音很沉、低低的聲調幾乎被掩蓋在空氣哩,而我一愣,握緊微暖的手用力搖頭。7Please respect copyright.PENANAHiAdTA3z2Z
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知道自己未曾後悔,但是卻對不斷的失去感到痛苦與疲累,雖然還是如往常一般的生活,一樣的和別人相處,卻在心裡渴望要躲避一切。7Please respect copyright.PENANAT3KDlDGjmy
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如果不會在乎,就不會害怕失去了吧?7Please respect copyright.PENANAook4UVkjYt
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那時幾乎有點自暴自棄的想著,甚至懷疑時間真得能夠帶走所有傷痛嗎?還是稍來更多噩耗?7Please respect copyright.PENANAol7KrDBGrS
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結果那一瞬間,斷崖下全黑的山谷像是在回應我的疑問,突然亮起刺目的白光幾秒後才慢慢趨緩。7Please respect copyright.PENANAcUG2RbqYFx
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那底下,像是數百片鏡子碎片的光亮面填滿了所有黑色地表,從中間大片的地方往外碎開到越來越小,越是靠近中間的鏡面越是大塊,它反射出我在乎的人,從學長、父母、冥玥、幸運同學、千冬歲和喵喵他們……到很多很多人,越是在乎變佔滿越是大片的碎片,一直向外延伸著到有時僅有一面卻印象深刻的誰。7Please respect copyright.PENANANNwqZawtBz
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每個碎片畫面都持續閃動,映照出我記憶裡和這些人相處的點點滴滴、不管是笑是生氣還是留淚,只要是每個記得的景象,都不斷閃動跳躍。7Please respect copyright.PENANA6k8V67m02d
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這些畫面令人懷念不已,是多麼希望再看一次,尤其是已經不在的人。7Please respect copyright.PENANAss7MsrEi6A
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然後……無意間,我看見了角落處一個有著女孩身影的碎片,那著窗著粉紅洋裝的女孩曾委託我一個任務,想找回她失去的重要東西,而在那過程中我曾陪過她一段日子。7Please respect copyright.PENANA7X63StNof9
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最後,當終於把東西交到那張開的小小雙手上,我記得她說:7Please respect copyright.PENANAcl1jp9TDZp
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『謝謝你,遇見你真好。』7Please respect copyright.PENANAeA6leu8kAg
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剛好想起的同時那碎片中的女孩抱著布偶,天真的小臉仰起來取代了初見的悲傷,一字一句、雖是無聲畫面但是從口型我卻能知道她說了什麼。7Please respect copyright.PENANA6f2Dl6Nhdc
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因為相處時間不多、記憶不長,所以很快畫面又重複了,女孩甜甜的嗓音彷彿迴盪在山谷中不斷跟著畫面在我腦海中響起。7Please respect copyright.PENANAr42zToxjDy
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我好像開始能感覺到這些碎片中想表達的情感。7Please respect copyright.PENANAM00FUshNr0
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學長說,這裡是記憶谷,能夠為徬徨的人映照出心裡的想念。7Please respect copyright.PENANAg3mMXeNCBF
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握緊他的手,這次我沒有哭,只是怔怔繼續看著。7Please respect copyright.PENANAsL5CUsTNNY
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就這樣和他在這裡待了整整一晚,一直到天亮畫面消失才回到Atlantis,然後因為出門的很突然也沒有特別準備,吹整晚的冷風我很光榮的直接得到重感冒,跟學長在醫療班被難得怒火中燒的喵喵插腰唸了好久。7Please respect copyright.PENANATgWiC0pZZx
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可憐兮兮被狠狠瞪著,無辜看她卻也想起喵喵同是那種會活很久的種族,看著她一樣年輕、不過成熟很多的外表,我有一瞬間的恍神。7Please respect copyright.PENANAjSClWAQWEZ
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像是想起了什麼。7Please respect copyright.PENANAsKsVcnOuCI
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好一陣子悶在心口的晦澀感覺,從前夜裡開始消散。7Please respect copyright.PENANA7UDItGEzbY
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又是十個年頭過去、然後是二十年、三十年、四十年……7Please respect copyright.PENANA5sCFRBFUOI
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之後我還是和學長繼續往下走,跟著移動的時間。7Please respect copyright.PENANALcKRszayYp
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雖然只要認識的人離去我還是會難過、會痛苦,不過已經漸漸釋然。7Please respect copyright.PENANA2DDU15ZbNL
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就這樣每天醒來,打開黑館窗戶看得見同樣明亮的鮮明景色──只要某董事不要隨便亂來就好。7Please respect copyright.PENANAhBzVDqbUva
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想起有次打開窗戶,一隻詭異冒火的黑色蜥蜴直接衝過來,被剛睡醒的學長一拳揍飛出去,接著就看見了窗外有如地獄景象到處都是火山噴發、岩漿亂流黑石遍佈、一堆奇妖異獸追著倒楣學生亂跑的景象,我足足愣了一分種有餘,才在學長不屑的嗤聲中回頭看見了他手上的詭異破關地圖,知道是扇董事搞的鬼,一群人不得不被拖下水集體的討伐去了……7Please respect copyright.PENANAq7Nd467mis
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不過這不是重點、咳。7Please respect copyright.PENANAK7nigsKAr4
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然後偶爾還是回到原世界,把一些承載珍貴記憶的小事物放入盒子小心收藏,它就被收在那個自從我和姊都離開後,讓我們封印起的舊房子裡。7Please respect copyright.PENANA5uAnGKu7ox
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在屋外,我則立了一座小小的石墓碑,沒有刻上誰的名字。7Please respect copyright.PENANAZ0yGQkCm4m
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那時回首,看見學長站在身後幾步距離外,不知道什麼時後到了的他就安靜的看著,於是拍掉身上沾的塵土我走向他,露出笑容。7Please respect copyright.PENANAVE0Q7lohU6
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這一刻,我想我已經覺得可以了。7Please respect copyright.PENANAuX99jzTE0Z
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──就讓時間繼續流動吧,我將迎來與那時間點交錯最後一個十年。7Please respect copyright.PENANA5nG4VdcI43
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這幾天,學長不出任務而我也找了人代課,我們留在原世界裡什麼也不做,也不去注意守世界的任何消息。7Please respect copyright.PENANAT2SHcL16fn
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只是陪在父母身邊,像是過去平常日子裡的假期……每天睡醒會看見在廚房忙著的母親,然後一起用過早餐,或許就待在客廳看看電視,還是一起出去走走。7Please respect copyright.PENANAI1IB8dQbzX
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也許還會和他們到市場,午餐可能就在外面的店家解決,下午回到家,幫忙整理買回家的東西,看著母親把處理好的食材放入悶燒鍋內,暖熱的香氣隨溫度上升而開始飄散,晚餐就是下午先燉過的東西,和之後炒的菜。7Please respect copyright.PENANA8Pvd4tPfHn
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等冥玥回來再一起再用過晚餐,所有人一起收拾,然後吃過水果就又是開著電視。7Please respect copyright.PENANA4DFgFyWOFd
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可能會聊點天、漫無目的隨意聊著,也可能把注意力放在電視上,不管劇情是不是能夠預想……平凡的一天就這麼過去,然後看時間差不多了一一回房歇下。7Please respect copyright.PENANA1yS6TR7T0M
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隔天醒來,又是一樣的日子。7Please respect copyright.PENANA7Ma87KORcP
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平凡、少有變化,卻感幸福。7Please respect copyright.PENANA1JzFRnGQx2
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就這樣待了超過一周才回到Atlantis,恢復任務、恢復教課……守世界的朋友們幾乎都已經知道了我的選擇,也許是千冬歲發現的、又或者只是身上氣息的改變被查覺。7Please respect copyright.PENANAGbkVpRcLjc
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接受了很多的祝福與加油。7Please respect copyright.PENANAAiEu1QVkPw
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我知道對於他們,就如同我的家人一樣……不管早晚之後也會別離。7Please respect copyright.PENANAiSsltSJ9pM
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可是在現在,大家還是都在身邊,都能夠繼續旅行、繼續玩鬧,就像是初見的過去,那最初不需要太擔心什麼的時光,現在我覺得過去那點偶爾徬徨、不時被照顧的日子好像也不是那麼糟。7Please respect copyright.PENANA7Ra322PZwf
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多想回到過去,不過現在也很好,值得下一個未來的我懷念。7Please respect copyright.PENANAGd73aHDxdF
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開始更珍惜每一分每一秒。7Please respect copyright.PENANAjtOOyu2o03
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之後,還常常回去原世界,有時候自己一個人、有時候和學長一起……偶爾帶著朋友,家裡常常因為客人來訪而熱鬧非凡,就像很久之前的那個除夕夜,我們一起在家裡圍爐、然後玩了一場遊戲。7Please respect copyright.PENANArazg6jXWbX
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後來我還學了一些料理,在有些時候自己下廚或是和喵喵他們一起在廚房半是玩鬧的搞定晚餐,母親坐在搖椅上慢慢搖著、微笑看著我們而非自己起來忙碌的次數漸漸增多。7Please respect copyright.PENANAggEiY6jQR9
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她和老爸總對視、然後笑看著──眼神裡是放心、還有欣慰。7Please respect copyright.PENANAFOEjk9jgkj
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幾年間,陸陸續續還接到了一些過去的同學、現在的朋友結婚甚至生子的消息,有時候會去參加有時候則沒有。7Please respect copyright.PENANAIf8dfPDCzF
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應該是說來自守世界的邀請都不會拒絕,不過若是來自原世界,時間越往後越不會參加,畢竟已經停止變化的面孔,並不適合出現在原世界認識的人面前──好歹那種「誤差」已經不只是可以用娃娃臉呼攏過去的程度了。7Please respect copyright.PENANA7hqFNwcWT5
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而有參加時,看到其他人也攜伴參加時有種別樣感覺。7Please respect copyright.PENANAx0UmKgNhbx
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過去都是看著,跟著父母出席一些婚喪喜慶,很少有跟我直接關聯的,沒想到現在自己也是受邀者,看到以前一起長大的人,現在有伴、結了婚甚至帶了孩子,感覺就是有點不適應。7Please respect copyright.PENANAkafNeRRlF8
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聽到的一些消息,看見變化了很多的人事物,這些都跟小時候距離遙遠,卻在此刻異常接近。7Please respect copyright.PENANAtNN6xO8COd
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然後在偶爾發現邀請函上印的名子異常出乎意料時,會很驚悚的瞪大眼,看惶恐的眼珠子滿地亂滾。7Please respect copyright.PENANAO28WgMIz56
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例如最印象深刻的……某摔倒王子與阿利學長,他們最後居然在一起還結了婚完全不在意料之中!可是學長和很多人卻似乎理所當然的樣子。7Please respect copyright.PENANA82MUI31N9G
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所以花了很多時間思考到底要不要去奇歐妖精聖地,一邊腦殘某王子會不會一看到我來就殲滅我,一邊則是很難以想像的推論到底他們是怎得搭上線──糾結超久結果被學長一巴打到完全沒想法,典禮當天直接被「攜帶」過去……7Please respect copyright.PENANAZGmkc5PZvc
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總之就是如此了。7Please respect copyright.PENANAyqKG6RxFMp
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後來又參加一些人的婚禮,然後有時被起鬨問起我和學長,那時只是笑笑帶過,偶爾則在看見幾個孩子被帶出來時,忍不住多戳幾下,聽著軟軟的童音有點新奇。7Please respect copyright.PENANApXOsKkCNUU
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一些值得賀喜的消息不斷被信使稍來。7Please respect copyright.PENANAdXeOJiqgVE
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大部分我總在驚奇中,和學長相視而笑。7Please respect copyright.PENANAPk0WCGj4sn
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時間就這樣不斷推進,有令人驚恐的事、高興的事、不快的事……7Please respect copyright.PENANAznpYpKpOFS
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但也還有,悲傷痛苦的事──並不是希望事情不要發生,他就不會來,即使遮住雙眼不看,世界仍在改變。7Please respect copyright.PENANAAwtvhU2jvR
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有喜就有悲,有生……亦有滅。7Please respect copyright.PENANA4Ge4B3H9k7
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距離那晚十一年後,在醫院的病床上……老爸離開了。7Please respect copyright.PENANAkLOL6Qyqzg
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醫生說,癌症末期的人要走前必定是渾身插滿管子,身體也因為各種治療而破敗不堪,並不會像是他這樣有如睡著一般,只是臉色稍顯蒼白。7Please respect copyright.PENANA7ZVyb0GXtM
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知道這是因為喵喵的關係,鳳凰族不能阻止自然死亡,但是可以將痛苦減到最低,並且多延長了一點時間。7Please respect copyright.PENANAr9HE5ZMW49
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不過即使如此,親人的離去還是讓人幾近無法接受。7Please respect copyright.PENANATJCdxnRq8B
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是渾渾噩噩辦完喪禮。7Please respect copyright.PENANAfTvkBVB0OM
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鮮紅的炙熱火焰燒盡逝者一切,連灰都不剩,僅剩記憶與被我特意留下的一只手錶。7Please respect copyright.PENANAk9UFfmKcQP
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安靜落淚的老媽抱著我和冥玥什麼也沒說。7Please respect copyright.PENANAFQ9CuuhD0P
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我也同是什麼話都說不出口,只能用力抱緊懷裡僅存的熟悉溫度,忍住眼底的熱燙。7Please respect copyright.PENANA8cswTLmClJ
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再過兩年,剛好忙完一個有點費時的任務,我和學長回到原世界剛好碰上了姊一起到家,精神很好的母親難得又下了一次廚,並且堅決不要幫忙。7Please respect copyright.PENANA6JpWK3fTqR
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那晚她笑得特別開心、整個人還顯得神采奕奕,不只因為我們回來,而是彷彿期待已久的什麼事就要發生,問她媽也說不上來是因為什麼。7Please respect copyright.PENANAE6QH6W3tWx
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她還說了很多很多的話,又問了我一些問題……7Please respect copyright.PENANAfUCJK22fUM
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最後媽說,她能放心了。7Please respect copyright.PENANA4mfDEpd135
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而隔天早上,睡醒到客廳卻沒有見到搖椅上的熟悉身影,我和姊一起到了主臥室,看見諾大的雙人床上,安靜的瘦小身軀躺著。7Please respect copyright.PENANAybNSy1NOTS
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散落的銀白髮絲擱在枕上無聲無息,一抹很淺的微笑掛在曾經漂亮的臉上,雙眼緊閉再也沒有打開的跡象。7Please respect copyright.PENANAtYqoi9dPW4
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姊握著那冰冷的手和我一起沉默了,很久之後才說:7Please respect copyright.PENANAUSxOFbzfzk
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『媽放心的去找爸了。』7Please respect copyright.PENANAD3o2I1Flus
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她的聲音有點乾啞,而我除了一片空白的思緒之外,暫時沒有任何反應。7Please respect copyright.PENANAKVPYo1dPmD
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一直到將所有事情處理好後,我留下了一個相框。7Please respect copyright.PENANAtQ0w3JQEPh
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母親走了半年後,我和冥玥都正式離開原世界很少再回來,留在那裡的房子沒有賣掉也沒有再住人,只用了守護精靈與水晶保護起來,除了受允許之外的人,不會意識到這裡還曾有一間房子、也不會闖入。7Please respect copyright.PENANAHOhGIY3Foh
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讓它獨立於仍持續往前進的都市發展外。7Please respect copyright.PENANAmF0rEFKZ6l
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而我,幾乎斷了在原世界裡的牽掛。7Please respect copyright.PENANA97fT6H80sW
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有時候回來,竟也只是為其他年邁的遠親送葬,用了幻術遮掩的容貌在哀傷得人群中我不顯得突兀,我看著那些同樣被留下的人,感覺那種悲傷,說不出心裡是什麼樣的滋味。7Please respect copyright.PENANAGu60gGraSY
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親人的逝去讓我有一陣子的心沉,一想到這樣的感覺還要不斷的迎接,就覺得痛苦,尤其曾連以為可以已起走很遠的朋友也會離開──多數的種族都比不過精靈的長壽──那種最後誰都會中途退出旅途,只有少數人會繼續存在的現實讓人心慌。7Please respect copyright.PENANAOaTCCEipSC
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當想到多記得一個人,就要多為一個人傷心時,曾經令人畏懼再去接觸更多人,只想關起自己、什麼也不想聽。7Please respect copyright.PENANAktl7FkvpXw
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可即使如此,消息還是會持續傳進耳裡,也許是風裡的歌聲、大氣中的吟唱,不會終止的時間、必經的痛苦只能繼續承受。7Please respect copyright.PENANA6uSPbFjAn9
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還是一樣的生活,會笑會和其他人打鬧,可是更多一個人的時候讓自己坐再緊閉的窗邊,無言的沉默,手中代表思念的物品越來越多。7Please respect copyright.PENANAmHUZIHx4CE
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我看著那只錶、那副像框、那水晶飾品……眾多的回憶逐漸遠去,把頭埋進膝蓋中一直到黃昏日落也不想起來。7Please respect copyright.PENANApwm3U7R8el
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一直到有一天被學長拖著到一片山崖上,風很大、冰冷異常一如我持續了好一陣子的心境……而駐足在深不見底的懸崖上,那種什麼也看不見好似隨時會墜落的全黑空間令人心生恐懼,唯慶幸還有學長握著我的手。7Please respect copyright.PENANAlqJh8XGh3u
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他在呼嘯的風聲中問我是不是後悔了,嗓音很沉、低低的聲調幾乎被掩蓋在空氣哩,而我一愣,握緊微暖的手用力搖頭。7Please respect copyright.PENANAHiAdTA3z2Z
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知道自己未曾後悔,但是卻對不斷的失去感到痛苦與疲累,雖然還是如往常一般的生活,一樣的和別人相處,卻在心裡渴望要躲避一切。7Please respect copyright.PENANAT3KDlDGjmy
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如果不會在乎,就不會害怕失去了吧?7Please respect copyright.PENANAook4UVkjYt
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那時幾乎有點自暴自棄的想著,甚至懷疑時間真得能夠帶走所有傷痛嗎?還是稍來更多噩耗?7Please respect copyright.PENANAol7KrDBGrS
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結果那一瞬間,斷崖下全黑的山谷像是在回應我的疑問,突然亮起刺目的白光幾秒後才慢慢趨緩。7Please respect copyright.PENANAcUG2RbqYFx
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那底下,像是數百片鏡子碎片的光亮面填滿了所有黑色地表,從中間大片的地方往外碎開到越來越小,越是靠近中間的鏡面越是大塊,它反射出我在乎的人,從學長、父母、冥玥、幸運同學、千冬歲和喵喵他們……到很多很多人,越是在乎變佔滿越是大片的碎片,一直向外延伸著到有時僅有一面卻印象深刻的誰。7Please respect copyright.PENANANNwqZawtBz
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每個碎片畫面都持續閃動,映照出我記憶裡和這些人相處的點點滴滴、不管是笑是生氣還是留淚,只要是每個記得的景象,都不斷閃動跳躍。7Please respect copyright.PENANA6k8V67m02d
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這些畫面令人懷念不已,是多麼希望再看一次,尤其是已經不在的人。7Please respect copyright.PENANAss7MsrEi6A
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然後……無意間,我看見了角落處一個有著女孩身影的碎片,那著窗著粉紅洋裝的女孩曾委託我一個任務,想找回她失去的重要東西,而在那過程中我曾陪過她一段日子。7Please respect copyright.PENANA7X63StNof9
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最後,當終於把東西交到那張開的小小雙手上,我記得她說:7Please respect copyright.PENANAcl1jp9TDZp
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『謝謝你,遇見你真好。』7Please respect copyright.PENANAeA6leu8kAg
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剛好想起的同時那碎片中的女孩抱著布偶,天真的小臉仰起來取代了初見的悲傷,一字一句、雖是無聲畫面但是從口型我卻能知道她說了什麼。7Please respect copyright.PENANA6f2Dl6Nhdc
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因為相處時間不多、記憶不長,所以很快畫面又重複了,女孩甜甜的嗓音彷彿迴盪在山谷中不斷跟著畫面在我腦海中響起。7Please respect copyright.PENANAr42zToxjDy
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我好像開始能感覺到這些碎片中想表達的情感。7Please respect copyright.PENANAM00FUshNr0
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學長說,這裡是記憶谷,能夠為徬徨的人映照出心裡的想念。7Please respect copyright.PENANAg3mMXeNCBF
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握緊他的手,這次我沒有哭,只是怔怔繼續看著。7Please respect copyright.PENANAsL5CUsTNNY
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就這樣和他在這裡待了整整一晚,一直到天亮畫面消失才回到Atlantis,然後因為出門的很突然也沒有特別準備,吹整晚的冷風我很光榮的直接得到重感冒,跟學長在醫療班被難得怒火中燒的喵喵插腰唸了好久。7Please respect copyright.PENANATgWiC0pZZx
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可憐兮兮被狠狠瞪著,無辜看她卻也想起喵喵同是那種會活很久的種族,看著她一樣年輕、不過成熟很多的外表,我有一瞬間的恍神。7Please respect copyright.PENANAjSClWAQWEZ
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像是想起了什麼。7Please respect copyright.PENANAsKsVcnOuCI
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好一陣子悶在心口的晦澀感覺,從前夜裡開始消散。7Please respect copyright.PENANA7UDItGEzbY
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又是十個年頭過去、然後是二十年、三十年、四十年……7Please respect copyright.PENANA5sCFRBFUOI
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之後我還是和學長繼續往下走,跟著移動的時間。7Please respect copyright.PENANALcKRszayYp
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雖然只要認識的人離去我還是會難過、會痛苦,不過已經漸漸釋然。7Please respect copyright.PENANA2DDU15ZbNL
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就這樣每天醒來,打開黑館窗戶看得見同樣明亮的鮮明景色──只要某董事不要隨便亂來就好。7Please respect copyright.PENANAhBzVDqbUva
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想起有次打開窗戶,一隻詭異冒火的黑色蜥蜴直接衝過來,被剛睡醒的學長一拳揍飛出去,接著就看見了窗外有如地獄景象到處都是火山噴發、岩漿亂流黑石遍佈、一堆奇妖異獸追著倒楣學生亂跑的景象,我足足愣了一分種有餘,才在學長不屑的嗤聲中回頭看見了他手上的詭異破關地圖,知道是扇董事搞的鬼,一群人不得不被拖下水集體的討伐去了……7Please respect copyright.PENANAq7Nd467mis
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不過這不是重點、咳。7Please respect copyright.PENANAK7nigsKAr4
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然後偶爾還是回到原世界,把一些承載珍貴記憶的小事物放入盒子小心收藏,它就被收在那個自從我和姊都離開後,讓我們封印起的舊房子裡。7Please respect copyright.PENANA5uAnGKu7ox
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在屋外,我則立了一座小小的石墓碑,沒有刻上誰的名字。7Please respect copyright.PENANAZ0yGQkCm4m
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那時回首,看見學長站在身後幾步距離外,不知道什麼時後到了的他就安靜的看著,於是拍掉身上沾的塵土我走向他,露出笑容。7Please respect copyright.PENANAVE0Q7lohU6
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這一刻,我想我已經覺得可以了。7Please respect copyright.PENANAuX99jzTE0Z
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──就讓時間繼續流動吧,我將迎來與那時間點交錯最後一個十年。7Please respect copyright.PENANA5nG4VdcI43
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