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她又怎麼會不知道。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoulqHN6QUk
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或許她無法完全肯定，但她不可能沒有察覺。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5RoeXjRu5H
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殷詠弦看著她的眼神，殷詠弦抱著她的力道。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPGvbexKXRo
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她只是盼望，這不是唯一的解答。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA1sUS9TB0J
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啪嚓。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwJ9RaXgrr
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從機場回到市區的鐵路列車上，許愛悠本靠在玻璃窗上沉思，她聽見身旁的雜音，轉頭一望，卻見阿北拆開了白之戀人的包裝，撕開獨立包裝的餅乾咬起來。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmSVC1GJxN
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「喂，」許愛悠說著「我無話包白之戀人係你嫁喎。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8EsSVhnXYw
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHgbg0Sszx
阿北咬了一口帶著濃甜白朱古力的夾心餅乾：「乜唔係咩？咁俾我份手信到底係咩呀？」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjyVqR2YcR4
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「你食咗我包白之戀人，賠番俾我呀。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFrDYbytLL
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「講真幾好食喎，妳要唔要食一甩？」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZZs4MJQnU
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阿北又拆開一份獨立包裝的夾心餅，遞到許愛悠嘴前。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQkTXmU8Twm
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許愛悠仍然靠在玻璃窗上，無力地笑了一聲：「你依包應該叫『白痴戀人』。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeJx7BdsFmw
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9b6438JoY
阿北揚起眼眉：「嘩……咁爛嘅 gag 妳都講，證明真係有事發生。殷詠弦到底同妳……發生過咩事。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqKg0jA0AoL
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許愛悠剎那明白到，原來阿北這一連串無意義的舉動和對話，都是繞了一個大圈引導到這個問題。她坐直身子，握起阿北的手掌，咬了一口他手中握住的夾心餅。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOzAFRQuuak
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbK9a9mz3y
「小弦係我係依間學校入面，最好最好嘅朋友。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIhM0h9qm6d
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPYEhKOj7N
許愛悠這麼說著，阿北卻道：「妳確定係佢眼中，妳只係『朋友』？」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGRSLnHy5R8
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許愛悠稍低著頭，繼續握住阿北掌頭，咬著他手中的白之戀人：「你應該知道……我一直都好多人追，係所謂『女神』。我先唔講小弦，但前幾年，特別係我同林之年拍拖之前，耐唔耐就有人同我表白，話鍾意我……你可以話依個係借口，但我真係無可能每識一個人，同每一個人做朋友，都要顧及佢地係咪純粹當我係『朋友』。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJv58MOWCK
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阿北看著許愛悠像貓一樣咬著他舉著的餅乾：「但妳依家個樣好苦惱。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSOvMHJCVq
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許愛悠抬起眼看著阿北，抿了抿嘴唇：「咁係因為……我一直以嚟，都拜托小弦幫我做咗好多野，我好希望依一切都係『朋友』之間嘅幫忙，即使佢唔認同咩校規修訂都好，我唔希望……唉……」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ008UYPoJnh
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許愛悠大概把夾心餅吃了一半，又推開阿北的手沒有吃下去，阿北只好把剩下的一半自己吃掉。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNmiGXakT4e
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「我可唔可以問另一個問題，唔關殷詠弦事。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgWqeaA4c1x
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「嗯？」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2dCQwiK3w
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「何子晉妳諗住點善後？」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5yQkRQtvom
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許愛悠沉起眼睛，瞪了一眼阿北，但她又垂下無力的肩膀，知道阿北提問背後的道理。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcA3lpLQas
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殷詠弦或何子晉，這兩人之間與她許愛悠的連繫是同性質的，即使她一直不想承認殷詠弦那一部份。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdvMd6LvvoV
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列車窗外的景色呼嘯流逝，許愛悠卻遲遲沒有回答，然後才說：61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtU9ssT7zT
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「或者……我真係應該係時候，要放棄校規修訂，咁樣就唔會有咁多事會發生，唔洗有咁多野要面對。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXGwDTyShOv
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阿北笑了笑說：「係？咁淨低下半年，妳打算做咩呀？」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkhGZbIzsM5
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「咪跳下舞呀，溫下書呀，或者……陪你打下橋牌囉，好無？」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcAnr5BmRHs
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「我地個橋牌學會岩岩先俾人收咗檔喎。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT5q5nCbcnl
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「咁調返轉囉，你嚟跟我學跳舞。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI035mL7u6j
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「都好喎，妳 dancing 果邊都好多靚女，我可以享受下好似阿強咁。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM5zD9L9LT1
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTn3WyLKV6g
「你得唔得嫁，上次聖誕晚會叫你陪我跳咗半晚，跳到好似要 call 白車咁款。我一條囡你都搞唔掂啦，仲要幾條囡？」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr9QsKuOJAT
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrHgZ2l9R8
許愛悠擺出囂張的反詰，阿北看著她滿盈如常的笑意，兩人終於相視而笑。許愛悠呼了口氣，把額頭垂下靠在阿北的肩上。阿北輕撫她的肩頭說：61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡllFqr7ll8H
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「咁點呀，妳又搞唔搞得掂呀？」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB5QeFRgaSz
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許愛悠閉起雙眼，然後發出了繃緊的呼號：「丫啊────────！！！」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw67MLo3Rp1
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阿北感到許愛悠溫熱的額頭壓在他的肩上，他回想她在上學期時遇過的各種困局，也沒有過這份沉重。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMD7FyvE9R
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他終於知道這世上也有許愛悠不願直接面對的難題。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0ZvJE9MDA
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范震升站在學校外的廢棄空地，面前是問校工借來的鐵盆，裡面焚燒著各種古書。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XxH06rMqp
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火舌席卷著老舊的硬皮，霉黃的紙張在燃燒下之變成濃重的灰燼，在寒冬中拚發出微弱的碎裂音。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7iCVrVWYMf
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6SLhJtflc
程芳靈按范震升的挑選，將更多古書搬到旁邊放下來。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVzpv5GiMov
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「會長……」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzVxJtqBvwU
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「我都已經唔係會長，妳可以唔洗咁叫我。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBKcc0nw9Ce
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程芳靈戴著厚重的近視眼鏡，她知道那不足以掩蓋她面上的漲紅。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKUBXoFgrh3
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「咁、咁我……應該、點叫你……」程芳靈說。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIAh1aMGt1e
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范震升執起鐵叉，撩動著鐵盆中的飛焰。他說：61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrFmAfeRDdQ
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「Verba volant, scripta manent. (拉丁文：口說必逝，文字留存）。妳鍾意點叫，就點叫。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8AKoNYKCH
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「知道，會長……」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQFY5xi4H5
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程芳靈點頭說。她仍然覺得這一切不可思議，她仍然記得過去胡言亂語的范震升，那只能靠她與外界溝通的范震升。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtKWmf3INTO
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但她從來沒有問為什麼，就那像聖誕晚會那天，她收到一套白色的長裙，要她在晚會前換上，然後在社團室中等待。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPchnYblqDX
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她亦沒有問過范震升這一切原委及細節，為什麼他要偽裝為瘋子，為什麼他卻又選擇重新恢復為常人。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpy7Uca5jJJ
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──只要我們想要的生活仍能過下去，這都不重要？是吧。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZuuu5ufBf
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6SxUP6DG0
程芳靈將一本古書拾起來，察看封面之後，略帶著遲疑地放進火盆裡。范震升注意到她的眼神：61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsER8dcgd1k
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡudiTWS0KLV
「做咩呀，唔洗覺得可惜。我揀嚟燒嘅書，都係我地已經有曬PDF，而且……妳應該都知道，一般古書其實唔多珍貴，亦唔值錢。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5Nw72kwcH
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFm2dcdbOuO
程芳靈頷首點頭，小手將書本投進火裡，又趕快縮回手來：「我明白，不過……始終……有啲可惜……」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡssazDzkR6C
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范震升在聖誕晚會過後，便主動申請解散歐研，不但不再是十二大社團，更連一般社團也不是。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBo1uVemWPJ
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那麼他自然就要歸還社團室予學生會，房間中的大量古書也需要找地方安放。范震升決定只要保留最重要最珍貴的一小部份，其他捐增予圖書館，圖書館也無意要接收的，就直接付之一炬。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrCNfB9MEK
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡew7iv19lcc
程芳靈絕對明白，這些古代文獻能夠流入他們手中的，即使有上百年歷史，但隨時也有上千、上萬個印本，如非與歷史人物有關係的，少一本也不會對人類文明造成任何損失。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqPz4YXdGWD
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只是，當她看著火盆中的飛焰吞噬捲動的書頁，看著那些如石刻般的墨水印刷文字化作飛灰，她仍然惦記著兩人在社團室中歲月靜好的日子。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9VNWyEhMR
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡONWiX5dL0H
范震升將手放程芳靈肩上，她肩頭一抖被嚇了一跳。范震升說：61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9BX8bxbvv
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJkNXcZeEnh
「社團室只係一間房，我地嘅工作仍然可以繼續。至少……我地依家唔再係社團，唔再有咩動議權、唔洗再捲入學生會或者許愛悠嘅事件入面。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8xMDNtmpI
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程芳靈轉身過來，她望向范震升那修長的五指，她試著輕輕握起他的手，沒有放開。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohQf55RKaO
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「真係唔洗我陪妳去？」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6JOInHPZq
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLjZz7pP6CS
阿北與許愛悠來到城中的轉車站，許愛悠領回阿北一直提著的兩大袋手信。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmV3135tIL
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「唔洗啦，」許愛悠擺出笑容說「我識咗小弦咁耐，佢又唔會對我點嘅。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDGAyUperXU
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兩人從機場坐鐵路回到城裡後，許愛悠決定先將手信搬回家中，然後再去學校旁邊的小教堂裡去找殷詠弦。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHZtpRmtvO
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5NPRjnqm6U
阿北與許愛悠居住在不同區份，便送她來到轉車站。眼前仍然是晝短的冬日，蜜色的陽光像在許愛悠的毛衣上披了一層明亮的雪。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNozsNhTIR
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「我仲諗住去妳屋企參觀下添。」阿北道。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVqzE2xWEyi
61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWuvByoYlw
「咦，」許愛悠打趣說「睇嚟你真係對我阿媽好有興趣喎！」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeUXS366ktM
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「……妳落雨唔好出街，遲早行雷劈死妳個不孝囡。」阿北碎碎諗道。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRZsFWm17b
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「哈哈，聽日都開學啦，」許愛悠說「我屋企離學校仲近啲添，你鍾意嘅叫埋強強呀、芳靈呀，或者雪蕾BB佢唔厭棄嘅，咪上嚟坐下囉。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNLcgDVZFp6
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阿北也知道殷詠弦的事情，必須要許愛悠親自去處理。他便說：「咁好啦，聽日見。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfzC35Ws56
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「啊，」許愛悠像突然想起來「俾你嫁。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLCrim6daHh
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許愛悠放下兩袋手信，沒有從那一堆雜七雜八的手信中翻找，而是將手伸進她的毛衣外套內袋中，再取出來。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFOMH8mKUYc
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阿北看見她的手心上，有一道深銅色手鏈，連帶著一把老舊生鏽的鐵色古典鑰匙。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKBGvvpfD4
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手鏈很幼細，鑰匙則是尋常大小，看來只是一般的手飾。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDFtxCtQ1De
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「吓……」阿北不免失笑「依個就妳俾我嘅北海道手信？」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0BEXs4aZyh
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阿北曾想象過，許愛悠會給他食物、蛋糕、啤酒、護身符又甚至是實體版AV，卻沒想到最後竟然是一把老舊的鑰匙。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2lylcHXaaw
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「係呀，」許愛悠板起臉瞪著雙眼「咁你係咪唔要丫！我係函館嘅古著店見到，專登配埋條手鏈俾你嫁！」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDq0jf9PNK
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「唔係、唔係咁嘅意思……」阿北連忙說，然後從她手心檢起那把附著手鏈的鑰匙「多謝妳啦，我一定會好好戴住佢，希望唔會俾訓導主任周到。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAxGbQ4kLr7
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許愛悠「哼」了一聲，看車快到了，她便提起兩袋手信，準備排隊上車，又微笑說：「都多謝你嚟接我機啦，知你個死仔唔鍾意出街。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ytwJHp75g
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「係嫁，」阿北說「我咪成日都話，我最希望就係冬天乜都唔做係屋企睇電視，夠鐘就食飯。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoeXVbZmIW0
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許愛悠聽過不止一次阿北的這個「夢想」，她應道：「我唔識煮野食嫁喎。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkF2i4Z4TeS
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「我都唔識。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWjQ3k6rdb
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「咁點算呀？」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzRSEwS6TO
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「我唔知呀，」阿北聳肩道：「到時再算啦。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ4w07tCKaP
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許愛悠嬌笑著沒有回答，走上車門。阿北看她往內裡的座位走去。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Kmfvi1EkQ
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「愛悠！」阿北在車外，無理由地喊了一句「聽日見喇！」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSCLmMrziG2
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許愛悠回頭朗聲道：「咪講咗啦！又講？好呀！聽日見啦！」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0o2rrdk0e1
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阿北在巴士站內，望向許愛悠走到坐位上坐下來。車窗折射的斜陽下，他好像看見她低垂著臉，收起她剛才那嬉玩的笑意，陷入無盡的思緒裡，在公路上遠去直至消失在遠處，消失在阿北的眼前。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIL32VkHDu8
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──妳會唔會幫我祈禱呀，小弦。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYsaYYhIttq
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許愛悠孤身走在陰冷的林間，快日落了，天色由金黃轉為蒼藍，她帶著散光的雙眼稍看不清通往教堂的林間小道，兩旁的植披像被潛藏魔物與禁忌的森林。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcTzzFAsGP3
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許愛悠清楚記得是二年級那年認識殷詠弦，她是位有點體弱但很真誠的朋友。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6kACaMYXG
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許愛悠早就感覺殷詠弦對自己格外關懷的視線，可是她不論生理或心理上，也絲毫沒有那界線外的共嗚。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUo7RB4nXwB
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她記得殷詠弦是在二年級的下學期開始信教，學生信教一點也不稀奇，但殷詠弦卻異常地虔誠。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBD2gVFXS4
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班上的同學開始戲稱她為修女，許愛悠作為她最親密的朋友，也感受到殷詠弦對於宗教與神明的投入。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0P1O7IDiIu
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可是，她曾經有過一種難言的直覺，偶爾她聽見殷詠弦一個人在教室角落輕聲誦禱，那都像是一種自我懲罰，一份苦行。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxHLF0Idmi
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然而隨著殷詠弦信教的時間愈長，許愛悠卻覺得她看自己的眼神愈是濃烈。她一直要自己處之泰然，就像那些突然如來向她告白的男生，就像那些無來由地妒忌她的女生，但她亦知道，即使是她，許愛悠，也無法完全在人的愛慾憎惡之間找到最恰當的解答。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUbNQ0bJtHL
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她只知道，殷詠弦是她的朋友，這一點由始至終，直到永遠也不會改變。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0a7O9jEUdw
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許愛悠推開教堂的門，幽暗的堂內點著燭火，充滿油蠟與壇木的味道。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl1M8iTjUlm
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她看見一個孤瘦的身影，穿著修女袍，跪在聖壇前低頭禱告。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ499rOIrK97
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「小弦。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBi89BclXaS
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許愛悠走到她的身後，嘗試用平靜的語氣說。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZVbyAZCXP
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當然殷詠弦轉頭站起來身，許愛悠卻一下子要抑壓住流淚的衝重。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5WiLivieY8
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殷詠弦兩頰消瘦，眼窩灰黑，虛弱的眼裡佈滿紅絲。她顫顫巍巍地走到許愛悠面前：「小悠……妳終於嚟啦。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhNltENsBUN
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許愛悠皺著彊硬的眼眉，扶起殷泳弦的雙臂：「小弦，妳做乜野？點解、點解妳瘦咗咁多，點解、妳無食野？啊……」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDBUb4pGTS
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殷詠弦張開雙臂，緊緊地抱住許愛悠。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLUICuhXlN
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許愛悠抽著鼻頭，壓止眼眶的淚水。她驟然明白到，原來殷詠弦一直以來，就等著可以這樣坦白、如實地擁抱她的身體。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUb0s6x9q8
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「我好難過，小悠……我已發咗初願，我已經決定要終身待奉上主，但係無辦法……小悠，妳一直係我心入面、妳仍然係我心入面。我始終無辦法完全放低妳……小悠、我唔知可以點做……」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzNX9rzVQ8e
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殷詠弦雙腿突然軟垂，許愛悠也連忙抱著她那單薄的身驅，在冰冷的教堂石地版上跪下。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡChQhYViFDj
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「小弦，」許愛悠艱難地吸了一口氣「妳對我、啊、妳一直對我好好……真係好好……」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeTJevzURDy
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殷詠弦挽起微笑，撫起許愛悠的臉，眼裡終於綻放出一絲的欣喜：「小悠，由我見到妳開始，由妳坐係我面前開始，我就從來就放唔底妳。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfY9KOQp2y
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「我知……但係妳首先、妳聽我講，妳唔好咁樣先。妳先好好照顧自己身體、仲有……」許愛悠強忍著淚水說。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4moqnlDj43
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「如果妳係知嘅話，」殷詠弦捉緊許愛悠的手臂「點解、點解妳一直都唔回應，點解妳唔話俾我知，妳心入面係點諗……？」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19eFDjLUru
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許愛悠又搖了搖頭：「我、我……對唔住，我真係無辦法。小弦，好對唔住……我無辦法、成為同妳一樣嘅人……」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOHxbscSfR5
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殷詠弦流下了淚。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJdxdxvESHL
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她用盡各種方法去抵抗、去無視、去抑壓、去解脫她內心對許愛悠的眷戀，就因為她知道會有這一刻。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ASvjtVrGI
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即使她如何投入地去敬愛上帝，始終無法取代她對許愛悠的愛，始終無法找到另一種更美滿的情感。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjF1ml0NLg
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殷詠弦的淚水湧流不絕，跪著的她像把許愛悠當成懺悔的對象：「我明白，小悠，我一直都明白……妳同我唔係同一種人。但係，聖誕晚會果陣，當我見到妳同阿北跳舞，妳面上嘅幸福。我就知道，我係時候要離開妳，我發初願，我成為修女……我只係唔想再需要妳、唔想再諗住妳……」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2sHFwEPOUx
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許愛悠終於收不住眼角的淚水，她握住殷詠弦的肩頭，哽咽著說：「對唔住，小弦。我唔知有咩可以做到，有咩可以講到。但係，小弦，妳點都好，一直會係我嘅朋友──」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAN4Qb8B5V
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「朋友？」殷詠弦卻痛苦地苦笑說「妳明知我幾咁愛妳，妳都仍只能當我係朋友。許愛悠，妳唔覺得咁樣好殘忍咩……？我點解，點解一定要愛妳？我點解唔可以同妳一樣，只當妳係朋友……」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC0CAojlcnl
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殷詠弦淚如雨下，許愛悠無計可施抹起她面上的淚，掌中的體溫隨著她那源源不絕的淚而流逝。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGSgsirUE5
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「我真係唔知、」許愛悠垂著眼淚說「我真係唔知我會令妳咁痛苦。如果妳早啲話我知嘅話、我、我……小弦，如果妳覺得係我錯嘅，我向妳認錯……」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk4LQA2Qnfz
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殷詠弦卻無助地搖頭說：「小悠，有時候我甚至無辦法完全唔去憎妳，甚至無辦法唔去憎我自己。咁多年啦，由妳同林之年拍拖，再到妳同阿北跳舞果陣。我唯一可以做嘅，只有憎恨。但我真係好愛妳，妳每日每夜，都係我心入面……」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡucVd43JJ4P
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許愛悠捧著殷詠弦那淚流不止的臉，她人生第一次感受到如此空洞的衰傷。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDxEfLjRaiR
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「如果小弦妳討厭我……會令到妳自己好過啲，咁樣、咁樣……」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKHA6431DBC
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許愛悠說不下去，因為殷詠弦又再突然抱住她的身體。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJTTUixwSd
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「唔會嫁，小悠。無論如何，我點都一定會愛妳。妳係我第一個愛上，真心鍾意嘅人。由此至終，我都只希望可以同妳一齊，只有希望妳都可以一樣愛我，就算只有一秒、一分鐘都好……小悠，妳可唔可以闔埋雙眼，就俾少少時間我。」61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjts5LNt60p
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殷詠弦的雙眼映照著焚燒的燭火，用瘦弱的手抹起許愛悠臉頰的淚痕。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3UisdNqJW
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許愛悠在殷詠弦那骷骨般空空如也的雙眼裡只看見灼痛的慾望，她知道接下來會發生什麼，但還是點了點頭。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlqm8nIGOZn
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許愛悠閉上雙眼，然後，她感到殷詠弦帶著淚水的嘴唇吻著她。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRFpYzCtw7
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那天晚上，阿北沒有看電視。 61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYDRPpUXvOB
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他不時窺看手機，卻始終沒有收到許愛悠的來訊或來電。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdyDM1Gy7xf
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他想過主動去詢問許愛悠，可是他又想到那與殷弦詠有關，那是否該等許愛悠先主動跟他說。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAH78Or1UoU
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阿北知道許愛悠是靠著與殷弦詠的關係，才得以掌控真理研究社。有一兩次阿北也見過殷弦詠，可是她只穿著那灰白色的修道服一聲不響，安安靜靜地坐在一邊。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutYSjUZB3k
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直到今天，他才終於體會到，殷弦詠那總是專注凝望許愛悠的眼神。 61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuwLJymRdLB
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阿北躺在床上，明天就是下學期的開學日，他打開許愛悠的對話框，但許愛悠卻仍然不在線上。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ535XKFArL8
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他放下手機，轉又想起橋牌學會被剝奪十二大社團的席位。對他來說，社團室從只是額外的福利，是在林強的慫恿下，他才會去申請認證甚至成為會長，如果這一切打回原形，對他來說其實也無礙，反正就剩半個學年，就要畢業了。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4GwjLhuJY
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他也從程芳靈那邊得悉歐研決議解散，她也沒有仔細解釋，但似乎是范震升想遠離學校的各種爭端。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXfyNbZ7dAc
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莊繞盈也終於獲得了認證及社團室，這麼一來，他與她的立場反而逆轉了，是她成為十二大社團的負責人。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqUJXJJXQfo
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是他多慮了嗎？新學年還未開始，卻有一種隱藏在遙遠雲層後的風起雲湧。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGdyE1Kjohz
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阿北再看了一眼手機，仍然沒有許愛悠的訊息，如果事情是解決了，她一定會先傳簡訊過來。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ64vBBffZjt
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他拿起許愛悠給他的老鑰匙手鏈，扣在手腕上，那冰冷生繡的質感像結冰的鎖。61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP8pTKoCEso
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他闔下眼，只是希望，明天早上醒來，會收到許愛悠說「無野嚕」「無事啦」的簡訊。 61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKxIuxPbm8
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而恍惚有夢的一覺之後，他的確收到了簡訊。 61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGRl2JylF6m
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但不是來自許愛悠的簡訊，而是眾多有關許愛悠的簡訊。 61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBW0AaY98Sb
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第二天早上，許愛悠與殷詠弦跪著在教堂中接吻的照片，在學校的討論區及社交媒體上瘋傳。 61Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2x7TqDU9x
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