34 嘴唇26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhC0Zfi2vS
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她又怎麼會不知道。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWdqEtVdiDZ
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或許她無法完全肯定，但她不可能沒有察覺。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ88bCDPGteT
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSr3q2HQdt
殷詠弦看著她的眼神，殷詠弦抱著她的力道。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeB5PZCl6rq
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她只是盼望，這不是唯一的解答。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9B93fI1I4m
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啪嚓。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo0mhTjNDBj
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從機場回到市區的鐵路列車上，許愛悠本靠在玻璃窗上沉思，她聽見身旁的雜音，轉頭一望，卻見阿北拆開了白之戀人的包裝，撕開獨立包裝的餅乾咬起來。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4moUnaUcTj
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy0xPKzXqfH
「喂，」許愛悠說著「我無話包白之戀人係你嫁喎。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QEy5mIUAb
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOm80oIHcDs
阿北咬了一口帶著濃甜白朱古力的夾心餅乾：「乜唔係咩？咁俾我份手信到底係咩呀？」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpNjX8FQn3
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcyRJmm7F6
「你食咗我包白之戀人，賠番俾我呀。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Y8SgP8smQ
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaTdxoNqxds
「講真幾好食喎，妳要唔要食一甩？」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NGsBCnmS0
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjraEJrDNml
阿北又拆開一份獨立包裝的夾心餅，遞到許愛悠嘴前。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvEgivvGGA
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQW62bgQpBs
許愛悠仍然靠在玻璃窗上，無力地笑了一聲：「你依包應該叫『白痴戀人』。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUsLubugKY
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXj70xlybMP
阿北揚起眼眉：「嘩……咁爛嘅 gag 妳都講，證明真係有事發生。殷詠弦到底同妳……發生過咩事。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZyI7aWTaw
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjX6z3FsqUd
許愛悠剎那明白到，原來阿北這一連串無意義的舉動和對話，都是繞了一個大圈引導到這個問題。她坐直身子，握起阿北的手掌，咬了一口他手中握住的夾心餅。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkr50lyffeY
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCtHLwPbvp
「小弦係我係依間學校入面，最好最好嘅朋友。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWa3t0QaFEx
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlH1jAqUXd
許愛悠這麼說著，阿北卻道：「妳確定係佢眼中，妳只係『朋友』？」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCm9aE5RkRK
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGCCPE0X0RF
許愛悠稍低著頭，繼續握住阿北掌頭，咬著他手中的白之戀人：「你應該知道……我一直都好多人追，係所謂『女神』。我先唔講小弦，但前幾年，特別係我同林之年拍拖之前，耐唔耐就有人同我表白，話鍾意我……你可以話依個係借口，但我真係無可能每識一個人，同每一個人做朋友，都要顧及佢地係咪純粹當我係『朋友』。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG1mPhmmCg2
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYtnSFhAXaK
阿北看著許愛悠像貓一樣咬著他舉著的餅乾：「但妳依家個樣好苦惱。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2rujS6MgQ
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡza3SLxLpyp
許愛悠抬起眼看著阿北，抿了抿嘴唇：「咁係因為……我一直以嚟，都拜托小弦幫我做咗好多野，我好希望依一切都係『朋友』之間嘅幫忙，即使佢唔認同咩校規修訂都好，我唔希望……唉……」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8tOS13wZaH
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnoxUArpJq
許愛悠大概把夾心餅吃了一半，又推開阿北的手沒有吃下去，阿北只好把剩下的一半自己吃掉。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsmvHPjxc03
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbm6dHcMVK1
「我可唔可以問另一個問題，唔關殷詠弦事。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXuL4R26LQ
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpDbsEHxCq
「嗯？」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4CPwVjIk9E
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIKjcJNSA5
「何子晉妳諗住點善後？」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOl7IlDPcS
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許愛悠沉起眼睛，瞪了一眼阿北，但她又垂下無力的肩膀，知道阿北提問背後的道理。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNlxoETvawi
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJb33yROcV5
殷詠弦或何子晉，這兩人之間與她許愛悠的連繫是同性質的，即使她一直不想承認殷詠弦那一部份。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxytwusUMv
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFX60DBWByQ
列車窗外的景色呼嘯流逝，許愛悠卻遲遲沒有回答，然後才說：26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwflpMSsNuS
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNWQsTOb1Kj
「或者……我真係應該係時候，要放棄校規修訂，咁樣就唔會有咁多事會發生，唔洗有咁多野要面對。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlqFQ6Fe5K
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCQF7G0aMN
阿北笑了笑說：「係？咁淨低下半年，妳打算做咩呀？」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Wr9uvwaMh
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZiDTwA6NXl
「咪跳下舞呀，溫下書呀，或者……陪你打下橋牌囉，好無？」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnm3qZM6tti
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJm6jN6ZEz5
「我地個橋牌學會岩岩先俾人收咗檔喎。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeAtJPj1GHr
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvSN4N6PRiE
「咁調返轉囉，你嚟跟我學跳舞。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSW3HuDaBQ2
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6audJ1hhO7
「都好喎，妳 dancing 果邊都好多靚女，我可以享受下好似阿強咁。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAed33Uo40Z
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvVACQAD8gh
「你得唔得嫁，上次聖誕晚會叫你陪我跳咗半晚，跳到好似要 call 白車咁款。我一條囡你都搞唔掂啦，仲要幾條囡？」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP4TbRppXaR
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO085w9ihD7
許愛悠擺出囂張的反詰，阿北看著她滿盈如常的笑意，兩人終於相視而笑。許愛悠呼了口氣，把額頭垂下靠在阿北的肩上。阿北輕撫她的肩頭說：26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvNFJqITYW5
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4P25CTkSR
「咁點呀，妳又搞唔搞得掂呀？」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRvdTLV5ql
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfvRSAALKu
許愛悠閉起雙眼，然後發出了繃緊的呼號：「丫啊────────！！！」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqp4niLfTzN
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZ01cuUhHA
阿北感到許愛悠溫熱的額頭壓在他的肩上，他回想她在上學期時遇過的各種困局，也沒有過這份沉重。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVRVhNJOtnr
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzmXcWGCsB
他終於知道這世上也有許愛悠不願直接面對的難題。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5o5o5FXbKQ
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范震升站在學校外的廢棄空地，面前是問校工借來的鐵盆，裡面焚燒著各種古書。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GyydvvIyk
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3J5kpa5ac
火舌席卷著老舊的硬皮，霉黃的紙張在燃燒下之變成濃重的灰燼，在寒冬中拚發出微弱的碎裂音。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6bYxfztTxK
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3p2dEdORNr
程芳靈按范震升的挑選，將更多古書搬到旁邊放下來。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQbnYr2qup
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTq6zjlX2p1
「會長……」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOiRS7jZTsl
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBT9TUlOf8T
「我都已經唔係會長，妳可以唔洗咁叫我。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ03nUADQaXi
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNVJItAov7
程芳靈戴著厚重的近視眼鏡，她知道那不足以掩蓋她面上的漲紅。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwS4lEdPZc3
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhlmLMoi7T
「咁、咁我……應該、點叫你……」程芳靈說。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWkIELaD9fJ
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZB44haIIDk
范震升執起鐵叉，撩動著鐵盆中的飛焰。他說：26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqhSMHW4lme
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1cnvdldTD
「Verba volant, scripta manent. (拉丁文：口說必逝，文字留存）。妳鍾意點叫，就點叫。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA7bqklzLe0
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQdh6GD7N0
「知道，會長……」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGq22ZZiKN7
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWucGj2Xgjf
程芳靈點頭說。她仍然覺得這一切不可思議，她仍然記得過去胡言亂語的范震升，那只能靠她與外界溝通的范震升。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnIpFG7o2Lk
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXeOoi4C50
但她從來沒有問為什麼，就那像聖誕晚會那天，她收到一套白色的長裙，要她在晚會前換上，然後在社團室中等待。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzKS3mnIwb
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyEhWbUZTm8
她亦沒有問過范震升這一切原委及細節，為什麼他要偽裝為瘋子，為什麼他卻又選擇重新恢復為常人。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67Db68Vxex
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqmsxkHU8u
──只要我們想要的生活仍能過下去，這都不重要？是吧。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQIk0ZhlaI
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHhm5fNKMvY
程芳靈將一本古書拾起來，察看封面之後，略帶著遲疑地放進火盆裡。范震升注意到她的眼神：26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0jrscq5YIp
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYsUUR5ERtG
「做咩呀，唔洗覺得可惜。我揀嚟燒嘅書，都係我地已經有曬PDF，而且……妳應該都知道，一般古書其實唔多珍貴，亦唔值錢。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24wyUEEIoY
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiSoYhu1luD
程芳靈頷首點頭，小手將書本投進火裡，又趕快縮回手來：「我明白，不過……始終……有啲可惜……」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksgiOXZHCV
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjkwxPBJL5G
范震升在聖誕晚會過後，便主動申請解散歐研，不但不再是十二大社團，更連一般社團也不是。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡELSQpY2jWJ
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMaRTQmR5qB
那麼他自然就要歸還社團室予學生會，房間中的大量古書也需要找地方安放。范震升決定只要保留最重要最珍貴的一小部份，其他捐增予圖書館，圖書館也無意要接收的，就直接付之一炬。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWOstILKw3
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xb6wpIsPp
程芳靈絕對明白，這些古代文獻能夠流入他們手中的，即使有上百年歷史，但隨時也有上千、上萬個印本，如非與歷史人物有關係的，少一本也不會對人類文明造成任何損失。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnYYIujmcug
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7w77ng0NQf
只是，當她看著火盆中的飛焰吞噬捲動的書頁，看著那些如石刻般的墨水印刷文字化作飛灰，她仍然惦記著兩人在社團室中歲月靜好的日子。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPvlJb6G51n
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWzjyYsOAb
范震升將手放程芳靈肩上，她肩頭一抖被嚇了一跳。范震升說：26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZY8DWhsWnN
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZSLZ879eu
「社團室只係一間房，我地嘅工作仍然可以繼續。至少……我地依家唔再係社團，唔再有咩動議權、唔洗再捲入學生會或者許愛悠嘅事件入面。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaWeee4UqPW
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2ILj8Dewg
程芳靈轉身過來，她望向范震升那修長的五指，她試著輕輕握起他的手，沒有放開。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTngDZghxW6
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2L08vdp6An
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「真係唔洗我陪妳去？」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPYlaM29wTe
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡasJqbjtUkK
阿北與許愛悠來到城中的轉車站，許愛悠領回阿北一直提著的兩大袋手信。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM27gutm6kT
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ834pCZFY6z
「唔洗啦，」許愛悠擺出笑容說「我識咗小弦咁耐，佢又唔會對我點嘅。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoWtk8lz4bX
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUcrKCqzJ4
兩人從機場坐鐵路回到城裡後，許愛悠決定先將手信搬回家中，然後再去學校旁邊的小教堂裡去找殷詠弦。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvG3MCVboeg
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgPVDMlrOH
阿北與許愛悠居住在不同區份，便送她來到轉車站。眼前仍然是晝短的冬日，蜜色的陽光像在許愛悠的毛衣上披了一層明亮的雪。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ4pM3F3dHa
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0RnZrzx835
「我仲諗住去妳屋企參觀下添。」阿北道。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJsY9uT48Rg
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN07g0q1PcX
「咦，」許愛悠打趣說「睇嚟你真係對我阿媽好有興趣喎！」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2by3shEft
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXEOXoofhc
「……妳落雨唔好出街，遲早行雷劈死妳個不孝囡。」阿北碎碎諗道。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyHO9TNCYg9
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsU4ELBr9IT
「哈哈，聽日都開學啦，」許愛悠說「我屋企離學校仲近啲添，你鍾意嘅叫埋強強呀、芳靈呀，或者雪蕾BB佢唔厭棄嘅，咪上嚟坐下囉。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39ETmb9BZw
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ85ArJCyjeJ
阿北也知道殷詠弦的事情，必須要許愛悠親自去處理。他便說：「咁好啦，聽日見。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gFejQpsiQ
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「啊，」許愛悠像突然想起來「俾你嫁。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDcqWDNd0vu
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kyTPk6h1D
許愛悠放下兩袋手信，沒有從那一堆雜七雜八的手信中翻找，而是將手伸進她的毛衣外套內袋中，再取出來。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5WpfGm2QV
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBj99rU3XII
阿北看見她的手心上，有一道深銅色手鏈，連帶著一把老舊生鏽的鐵色古典鑰匙。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48N7CwfTXU
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFTPIIjSVy
手鏈很幼細，鑰匙則是尋常大小，看來只是一般的手飾。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVoMmW8Zer3
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「吓……」阿北不免失笑「依個就妳俾我嘅北海道手信？」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2TXrLbfA2
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2CGhmAKW2
阿北曾想象過，許愛悠會給他食物、蛋糕、啤酒、護身符又甚至是實體版AV，卻沒想到最後竟然是一把老舊的鑰匙。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGt9u7d56Yi
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「係呀，」許愛悠板起臉瞪著雙眼「咁你係咪唔要丫！我係函館嘅古著店見到，專登配埋條手鏈俾你嫁！」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZB1jkVBMmh
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8UIMUkcsl
「唔係、唔係咁嘅意思……」阿北連忙說，然後從她手心檢起那把附著手鏈的鑰匙「多謝妳啦，我一定會好好戴住佢，希望唔會俾訓導主任周到。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfGXDfz55Ja
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQUP8W6ttrV
許愛悠「哼」了一聲，看車快到了，她便提起兩袋手信，準備排隊上車，又微笑說：「都多謝你嚟接我機啦，知你個死仔唔鍾意出街。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPIIuQWcoa
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE01Z55eLIs
「係嫁，」阿北說「我咪成日都話，我最希望就係冬天乜都唔做係屋企睇電視，夠鐘就食飯。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0nXSfY85W2
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQu3t4uPyfC
許愛悠聽過不止一次阿北的這個「夢想」，她應道：「我唔識煮野食嫁喎。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRVQ9EbUtT
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「我都唔識。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0x7oTle6DZ
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「咁點算呀？」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEaRk0DdlM
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「我唔知呀，」阿北聳肩道：「到時再算啦。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYzXe9dK4d
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6eGpKuOPE
許愛悠嬌笑著沒有回答，走上車門。阿北看她往內裡的座位走去。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhv3Ga9K3dH
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjDP25M4X7u
「愛悠！」阿北在車外，無理由地喊了一句「聽日見喇！」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMEiUhWnOF9
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyaVqwYMZoz
許愛悠回頭朗聲道：「咪講咗啦！又講？好呀！聽日見啦！」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8oL0jN0pFJ
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9y2QE2XjEp
阿北在巴士站內，望向許愛悠走到坐位上坐下來。車窗折射的斜陽下，他好像看見她低垂著臉，收起她剛才那嬉玩的笑意，陷入無盡的思緒裡，在公路上遠去直至消失在遠處，消失在阿北的眼前。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2t7raydqVK
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──妳會唔會幫我祈禱呀，小弦。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UXQrUsyVC
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許愛悠孤身走在陰冷的林間，快日落了，天色由金黃轉為蒼藍，她帶著散光的雙眼稍看不清通往教堂的林間小道，兩旁的植披像被潛藏魔物與禁忌的森林。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwud93rXlL6
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKQIfUMKqR
許愛悠清楚記得是二年級那年認識殷詠弦，她是位有點體弱但很真誠的朋友。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgaXp3JMraV
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSpzjYZj1tE
許愛悠早就感覺殷詠弦對自己格外關懷的視線，可是她不論生理或心理上，也絲毫沒有那界線外的共嗚。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlBcM7n9Diw
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7SqdJ42g2
她記得殷詠弦是在二年級的下學期開始信教，學生信教一點也不稀奇，但殷詠弦卻異常地虔誠。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Yo8JSG9ZU
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHipPVHbp01
班上的同學開始戲稱她為修女，許愛悠作為她最親密的朋友，也感受到殷詠弦對於宗教與神明的投入。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaYM6DVD2wG
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可是，她曾經有過一種難言的直覺，偶爾她聽見殷詠弦一個人在教室角落輕聲誦禱，那都像是一種自我懲罰，一份苦行。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCCuDryKRa
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然而隨著殷詠弦信教的時間愈長，許愛悠卻覺得她看自己的眼神愈是濃烈。她一直要自己處之泰然，就像那些突然如來向她告白的男生，就像那些無來由地妒忌她的女生，但她亦知道，即使是她，許愛悠，也無法完全在人的愛慾憎惡之間找到最恰當的解答。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUN0RNK8HIl
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNbiAfnz4ZK
她只知道，殷詠弦是她的朋友，這一點由始至終，直到永遠也不會改變。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJNc5mmNiq
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeNTD4jwZFu
許愛悠推開教堂的門，幽暗的堂內點著燭火，充滿油蠟與壇木的味道。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicbt6XT3Co
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她看見一個孤瘦的身影，穿著修女袍，跪在聖壇前低頭禱告。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv30vYdOLXR
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「小弦。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjS4TTBIODE
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許愛悠走到她的身後，嘗試用平靜的語氣說。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1UySmyzDk
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當然殷詠弦轉頭站起來身，許愛悠卻一下子要抑壓住流淚的衝重。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgj2AvvHnaB
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJ6jWhJA6K
殷詠弦兩頰消瘦，眼窩灰黑，虛弱的眼裡佈滿紅絲。她顫顫巍巍地走到許愛悠面前：「小悠……妳終於嚟啦。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡweGb7t1WvK
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJFDubqS8od
許愛悠皺著彊硬的眼眉，扶起殷泳弦的雙臂：「小弦，妳做乜野？點解、點解妳瘦咗咁多，點解、妳無食野？啊……」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhlUnxst8S8
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYXoLCtXdm
殷詠弦張開雙臂，緊緊地抱住許愛悠。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZsVqJsEK7p
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許愛悠抽著鼻頭，壓止眼眶的淚水。她驟然明白到，原來殷詠弦一直以來，就等著可以這樣坦白、如實地擁抱她的身體。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWaJo4RTDA
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「我好難過，小悠……我已發咗初願，我已經決定要終身待奉上主，但係無辦法……小悠，妳一直係我心入面、妳仍然係我心入面。我始終無辦法完全放低妳……小悠、我唔知可以點做……」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ofP9cZURE
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8IOQJNPRW
殷詠弦雙腿突然軟垂，許愛悠也連忙抱著她那單薄的身驅，在冰冷的教堂石地版上跪下。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYew1vnO3h3
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEATViiHPpm
「小弦，」許愛悠艱難地吸了一口氣「妳對我、啊、妳一直對我好好……真係好好……」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuFZnih61z6
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ1XUSjP2st
殷詠弦挽起微笑，撫起許愛悠的臉，眼裡終於綻放出一絲的欣喜：「小悠，由我見到妳開始，由妳坐係我面前開始，我就從來就放唔底妳。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡioz3iabV1g
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlEXh6MDQUh
「我知……但係妳首先、妳聽我講，妳唔好咁樣先。妳先好好照顧自己身體、仲有……」許愛悠強忍著淚水說。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqbDvYG5pZI
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡahREAGiQ9J
「如果妳係知嘅話，」殷詠弦捉緊許愛悠的手臂「點解、點解妳一直都唔回應，點解妳唔話俾我知，妳心入面係點諗……？」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51WzrELO9C
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許愛悠又搖了搖頭：「我、我……對唔住，我真係無辦法。小弦，好對唔住……我無辦法、成為同妳一樣嘅人……」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtiCCF1vqoS
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殷詠弦流下了淚。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtN2h0OAWsv
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她用盡各種方法去抵抗、去無視、去抑壓、去解脫她內心對許愛悠的眷戀，就因為她知道會有這一刻。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl1w87vssh8
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即使她如何投入地去敬愛上帝，始終無法取代她對許愛悠的愛，始終無法找到另一種更美滿的情感。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbFGihCaSwx
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgC4dXdRyC
殷詠弦的淚水湧流不絕，跪著的她像把許愛悠當成懺悔的對象：「我明白，小悠，我一直都明白……妳同我唔係同一種人。但係，聖誕晚會果陣，當我見到妳同阿北跳舞，妳面上嘅幸福。我就知道，我係時候要離開妳，我發初願，我成為修女……我只係唔想再需要妳、唔想再諗住妳……」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ17Gcdn2rks
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許愛悠終於收不住眼角的淚水，她握住殷詠弦的肩頭，哽咽著說：「對唔住，小弦。我唔知有咩可以做到，有咩可以講到。但係，小弦，妳點都好，一直會係我嘅朋友──」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Hig6W59uh
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrW5tUmoLoH
「朋友？」殷詠弦卻痛苦地苦笑說「妳明知我幾咁愛妳，妳都仍只能當我係朋友。許愛悠，妳唔覺得咁樣好殘忍咩……？我點解，點解一定要愛妳？我點解唔可以同妳一樣，只當妳係朋友……」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfiXG5r7dLF
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLFM7WQtNR
殷詠弦淚如雨下，許愛悠無計可施抹起她面上的淚，掌中的體溫隨著她那源源不絕的淚而流逝。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF48EhdbVIE
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「我真係唔知、」許愛悠垂著眼淚說「我真係唔知我會令妳咁痛苦。如果妳早啲話我知嘅話、我、我……小弦，如果妳覺得係我錯嘅，我向妳認錯……」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2UgDzXUB6l
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡorTb6BTpwJ
殷詠弦卻無助地搖頭說：「小悠，有時候我甚至無辦法完全唔去憎妳，甚至無辦法唔去憎我自己。咁多年啦，由妳同林之年拍拖，再到妳同阿北跳舞果陣。我唯一可以做嘅，只有憎恨。但我真係好愛妳，妳每日每夜，都係我心入面……」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYQIaA04dt
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許愛悠捧著殷詠弦那淚流不止的臉，她人生第一次感受到如此空洞的衰傷。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnnDBV6PHS
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「如果小弦妳討厭我……會令到妳自己好過啲，咁樣、咁樣……」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcoJOLonCR
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許愛悠說不下去，因為殷詠弦又再突然抱住她的身體。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsn4rPcGGTu
26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3v7uodIh0
「唔會嫁，小悠。無論如何，我點都一定會愛妳。妳係我第一個愛上，真心鍾意嘅人。由此至終，我都只希望可以同妳一齊，只有希望妳都可以一樣愛我，就算只有一秒、一分鐘都好……小悠，妳可唔可以闔埋雙眼，就俾少少時間我。」26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHS4fLREKJ
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殷詠弦的雙眼映照著焚燒的燭火，用瘦弱的手抹起許愛悠臉頰的淚痕。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQgHF33m6m
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許愛悠在殷詠弦那骷骨般空空如也的雙眼裡只看見灼痛的慾望，她知道接下來會發生什麼，但還是點了點頭。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2VmEzDWA3i
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許愛悠閉上雙眼，然後，她感到殷詠弦帶著淚水的嘴唇吻著她。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDY66dcaZji
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那天晚上，阿北沒有看電視。 26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJN4ExFJ87L
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他不時窺看手機，卻始終沒有收到許愛悠的來訊或來電。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpUdFR2t7Y
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他想過主動去詢問許愛悠，可是他又想到那與殷弦詠有關，那是否該等許愛悠先主動跟他說。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZfgJW1qFp
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阿北知道許愛悠是靠著與殷弦詠的關係，才得以掌控真理研究社。有一兩次阿北也見過殷弦詠，可是她只穿著那灰白色的修道服一聲不響，安安靜靜地坐在一邊。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYm5o3CUu8
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直到今天，他才終於體會到，殷弦詠那總是專注凝望許愛悠的眼神。 26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9BwkXIlHWh
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阿北躺在床上，明天就是下學期的開學日，他打開許愛悠的對話框，但許愛悠卻仍然不在線上。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmBeU08L0Y
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他放下手機，轉又想起橋牌學會被剝奪十二大社團的席位。對他來說，社團室從只是額外的福利，是在林強的慫恿下，他才會去申請認證甚至成為會長，如果這一切打回原形，對他來說其實也無礙，反正就剩半個學年，就要畢業了。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP6bS19kRug
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他也從程芳靈那邊得悉歐研決議解散，她也沒有仔細解釋，但似乎是范震升想遠離學校的各種爭端。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmoOGQ2Rbyy
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莊繞盈也終於獲得了認證及社團室，這麼一來，他與她的立場反而逆轉了，是她成為十二大社團的負責人。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHM0pzoVa4o
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是他多慮了嗎？新學年還未開始，卻有一種隱藏在遙遠雲層後的風起雲湧。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcXaSwZ60ye
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阿北再看了一眼手機，仍然沒有許愛悠的訊息，如果事情是解決了，她一定會先傳簡訊過來。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGT4oWIGfq
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他拿起許愛悠給他的老鑰匙手鏈，扣在手腕上，那冰冷生繡的質感像結冰的鎖。26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrEWUFbC6Du
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他闔下眼，只是希望，明天早上醒來，會收到許愛悠說「無野嚕」「無事啦」的簡訊。 26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mTQZfbXML
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而恍惚有夢的一覺之後，他的確收到了簡訊。 26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcFuDusMZV
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但不是來自許愛悠的簡訊，而是眾多有關許愛悠的簡訊。 26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPj2mjmjgJ
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第二天早上，許愛悠與殷詠弦跪著在教堂中接吻的照片，在學校的討論區及社交媒體上瘋傳。 26Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhWgzwknCIq
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