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低頭做著不曉得已經練習過多少次的考古題,再次填上和上次沒有任何不同的答案,池儒安抬眼望向空蕩的講桌,不曉得第幾次萌生了翹課的念頭。43Please respect copyright.PENANApRo4ueSeju
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做為升學學校,學科老師們總有各式各樣的考試與測驗,來「善用」術科老師的上課時間,老實說,池儒安永遠搞不懂這意義在哪,因為無止境的練習,也不過是另一種形式的照本宣科,他一直覺得與其有時間一直考試,倒不如讓他回去自己唸,也好過多待在學校,老是要被一些明明無心唸書的傢伙干擾,反而讓成績下滑。43Please respect copyright.PENANAWusRNYG8Er
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雖然池儒安也知道,要是真這樣跟老師說了,大概就只是讓班上同學對自己的厭惡再多加深一層而已。43Please respect copyright.PENANA5SOKSzkJQ2
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資優生這個頭銜帶來的永遠只有麻煩……每個吃重的職位都有人提名池儒安、每科老師都希望由自己當小老師、然後班導動不動就冒出:「要多跟儒安學習啊。」這種根本是在將他推入更深的地獄這種話。43Please respect copyright.PENANAM63JfqpjQ8
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明明他也只是成績比較高而已,為什麼總得承受這些?43Please respect copyright.PENANAyD7MmsMCxu
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煩死了……早知道考試就故意多錯幾題,反正最後決定學校的也不是在校成績。偏偏現在才想這些已經來不及了,如果現在自己忽然成績下降,一定又必須接受一些假惺惺的噓寒問暖,說穿了就是希望他能為學校、老師「爭光」。43Please respect copyright.PENANAv78UILYXls
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資優生?其實根本沒什麼好羨慕的啊。43Please respect copyright.PENANAORVcqgfcAF
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幾乎所有人都只看得到正面價值,然後自顧自地艷羨、再將恨意轉嫁到他身上。43Please respect copyright.PENANAWCecyLThZg
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池儒安不能理解,人到底為什麼有那麼多因為所以?成績好能證明什麼?43Please respect copyright.PENANAo8bcUQVBTc
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在現在這個社會上,早就不是以往只有讀書高的狀況了,成績、學歷、學校、科系、證照、才藝……其中並不存在任何一個指標,是只要達成了,就可以保證未來順遂無虞的。43Please respect copyright.PENANAcCvV9Q5a94
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更何況,更具體的,早就不存在什麼絕對能賺錢的路了。43Please respect copyright.PENANAJKGuVk1tFv
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補習班總愛說什麼讓孩子贏在起跑點,起跑點贏了有什麼意義嗎?43Please respect copyright.PENANAH3pqwLoFXd
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沒有任何意義。43Please respect copyright.PENANATQrCJb9mso
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池儒安拿起詳解把答案對過一次、確定全對後,又開始唸下一科。43Please respect copyright.PENANAvSHxCZsPW5
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這是他的日常,灰暗而永無止境的學校生活。43Please respect copyright.PENANAWiv0Mmz3gI
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而生命裡唯一的亮點是他的公主……43Please respect copyright.PENANAHnrsjS0En9
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她成長在一個小康家庭,父母在搬過來兩年後便離了婚,然後不到一年的時間,她的父親娶了一個帶著女兒的女人;身為商人的她父親常常在世界各地奔走、自然將家裡全權交予新婚妻子打理,原本這也沒什麼,但一段時間過後,那女人便開始把繼女當傭人指使,而她也為了不讓父親擔心而沒將事實說出口。43Please respect copyright.PENANAKJSLN8Pvbf
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簡直是十足十的現代版灰姑娘……43Please respect copyright.PENANANSw81TM1hm
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池儒安一直想著有一天要帶她走,離開那個家,不要只是在她受不了時,做她的避風港,聽她說話、為她解憂。43Please respect copyright.PENANAzRWX5HKspg
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直到那該死的一天為止。43Please respect copyright.PENANALjfiQicVZd
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每個故事的結局,都是公主與王子過著幸福快樂的日子,他後來才想通原來騎士不過是墊腳石般的存在,終於公主遇到王子──43Please respect copyright.PENANAtn7rgoGRox
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於是他的公主成了別人的灰姑娘。43Please respect copyright.PENANA7uhF3Myk2c
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聽完總算響起的放學鐘,池儒安用力伸展身體,一點也不意外地,骨骼間發出了清脆的聲音。43Please respect copyright.PENANAci2ucBgRHF
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池儒安刻意緩慢地收拾著課桌上的物品,等他抬起眼時,依然是一如既往,只看見除自己外空無一人的教室,於是他認分地將門窗一一鎖上,並再次檢查沒有遺漏的地方,這才背起書包,走出前門並上鎖、關上。43Please respect copyright.PENANAgiQDH495Fd
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恰恰是這個時候,一陣刺耳的奔跑聲由遠而近,朝他的方向奔來,池儒安原本以為是同樓層其他學生趕著要去補習、才跑這麼匆忙。他轉身要下樓,看見跑得急切的人年紀比他以為得要大、也沒有穿制服,經過了樓梯口,直接到自己身邊停下。43Please respect copyright.PENANA74glsbdlyH
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來者雙手扶在大腿上,大口喘氣,發出了可憐小動物似的哀鳴,接著是接連不斷的嘀咕聲,池儒安本來沒有要理他,前段班原就下課晚,即便是日照時間較長的夏天,天色也暗得快看不見路了,他得快點回家。43Please respect copyright.PENANAWbTBMUfgkn
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然而還沒走到樓梯口,那個人忽然叫住他。43Please respect copyright.PENANA8xL9o0YYxn
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「那個,同學,不好意思打擾一下……」43Please respect copyright.PENANAmXtQBvw9V4
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由於已經很習慣這種開場白,池儒安感到厭煩地呼出一口惡氣,也懶得掩飾,直接說:「既然感到不好意思,那就省下來,不要講沒有意義的事情,我沒時間聽。」43Please respect copyright.PENANA0uFZNRwGm6
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可能是過於直白的拒絕讓那個人錯愕,池儒安並沒有聽見對方還要糾纏的說詞,這和他過往遇到的補習班推銷人員截然不同,困惑浮上心頭,難得產生的微弱罪惡感讓他回頭看,那個人用誇張的哭腔對手機說:「怎麼辦啊?我的報告啊──!我要被死當了嗎?救命啊嗚嗚嗚嗚──」43Please respect copyright.PENANAZ0s1MgwaUB
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報告?不是什麼業績或KPI,而是報告?43Please respect copyright.PENANAAXMmTIDE7a
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不對,他根本沒有管別人的餘裕。43Please respect copyright.PENANAbX1rQyHkcV
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他還得思考本業以外的事情,要為面對灰姑娘的婚禮做準備,他不能就這樣不參加、或者只當個普通的賓客,無論如何那是他唯一的公主,即便只是被當成娘家人一樣的存在,池儒安也不可能讓那個搶走公主的惡劣男人可以怠慢她,他需要一些手段,讓公主要嫁過去的夫家能意識到公主並不是真的可以任人欺侮的孤女。43Please respect copyright.PENANAKzrmsjEPqR
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池儒安下了兩層樓後,望著女兒牆外的天空,倦怠地嘆息。43Please respect copyright.PENANALSF0G1Mfux
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按正常的邏輯而言,他應該要以升學為重,應該毫無雜念。43Please respect copyright.PENANA7sb67gJYdj
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況且即便自己再怎麼努力,也不會有人相信一個十幾歲孩子的真心,他知道向任何人坦承他的暗戀,得到的都會是「你還年輕」、「你不懂」、「你拿什麼跟人家比」、「你有更重要的事要在意」……等回應。43Please respect copyright.PENANAXMQ0DGLFu0
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才活了十幾年的孩子,即便可能有最純粹的感情,那也不是能持續很長時間的存在,不管現在喜歡的程度有多瘋狂,都必然會過去,他會忘記曾經的癡心,他會和她錯身而過,他會走向另一個人、下一段感情,她不會是他的終點。43Please respect copyright.PENANAUensCuueSV
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池儒安又不笨,他當然知道自己的年紀就是原罪,注定不會有人認真以待。43Please respect copyright.PENANABf5TM672iF
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可是他真的很累。43Please respect copyright.PENANAgF9fFkXwHH
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這些傷心、這些失落、這些因為關於她的小事而升起的喜悅,分明都是真的。43Please respect copyright.PENANA1r1K5jZOrK
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人與人之間的喜歡,為什麼會有分別呢?43Please respect copyright.PENANAzw17b1yrvx
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年歲增長後,真的就能更好地愛人與被愛了嗎?43Please respect copyright.PENANAg7knMOwckn
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就算如此,就算真的是那樣的未來,痛到想一躍而下的心情,此刻對他而言就是全部的真實。43Please respect copyright.PENANAKAdyCWrUcw
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與其強迫自己再這樣撐下去,倒不如拋卻面子,像剛剛遇到的人那樣,碰到不如意的事情,就毫無保留地哭出來,是不是比較好?43Please respect copyright.PENANABDsBtUOezz
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是不是就不會再往極端想?43Please respect copyright.PENANAonV3jQwaJn
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池儒安失神許久,不由自主走往牆邊,雙手扶著牆頭,朝下看。43Please respect copyright.PENANAsO6rGoCM9N
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他現在感覺到的不自由,在未來,必定也無法解套。43Please respect copyright.PENANADxxxzuDuCP
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人活在世上,不會全然不受任何外物桎梏。43Please respect copyright.PENANAnbnNGgvT2m
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最終一重疊加著一重,直到生命最終才能結束。43Please respect copyright.PENANAYbMU8A8QIo
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池儒安眼前一片模糊。43Please respect copyright.PENANAe8enicANLs
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他從來沒有感覺到自己這樣軟弱過。43Please respect copyright.PENANAdrh6BTX4Di
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真想劃上句點──43Please respect copyright.PENANASewdmvjOq2
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失重、撞擊的疼痛、近在耳邊的痛呼、他人的體溫──43Please respect copyright.PENANAPabHtphxRy
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他人的體溫。43Please respect copyright.PENANA3hxU3FSSyo
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池儒安緩緩回過神來,隨手一按,借力支撐起身,對上那個把自己抱住往後扯,並因為用力過猛,於是被自己壓得跌坐在地的人。43Please respect copyright.PENANABqxIT4EKfS
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他是第一次這麼近看一個人的五官。43Please respect copyright.PENANAzY2Mvhxgtz
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