「不如聽日出去打獵,我都好耐無郁過。」他用力擠出腹肌,一手摸去,從前輪廓分明的腹肌已變得若隱若現,上面鋪上了一層厚厚的脂肪。一陣失落之意又隨之襲來。11Please respect copyright.PENANApBWsAVbbKY
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「算啦,唔理喇。」他又躺在床上,躺著好久,但他始終未能入睡。他聽著窗外的蟋蟀嘰嘰的鳴叫,聽著,他時睡時醒。然後,刺眼熾熱的陽光又從窗戶照來,落在掃羅的眼皮上。他眼前的黑綢幕又慢慢被紅暈染污,他無法無視它。然後,他又醒來了。11Please respect copyright.PENANAGG1TtVHKLD
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昨天還想著出去打獵,但現在他不想了。這刻的他甚麼都不想做,只想躺在床上。但躺著,他又好像已經睡膩了。他感覺腰背好僵硬,就算再怎麼輾轉反側還是覺得不適。11Please respect copyright.PENANAouPiW7vpHU
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於是他起床。在房間裡來回踱步,他發現牆身幾塊磚頭紋路很礙眼,於是他又拿起工具去磨。磨著,他覺得肚子餓了,然後便往門口取食物。反正,他知道每天妻子總會準備好食物放在門外。11Please respect copyright.PENANA65mOJlLeUC
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食完,他又覺得昏昏欲睡。然後,在朦朧中,他又再昏睡。11Please respect copyright.PENANAIm73xh7wN5
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這種日子已過了好一段時間。是睡?是醒?想做甚麼?不想做甚麼?這一切,對於現在的掃羅都似乎沒有任何意義。11Please respect copyright.PENANAIkISYyXlsN
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自從把迦勒兵團一個不留的殺掉的那天,他的狀態好像一直如此。11Please respect copyright.PENANA7cr0kULrVg
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「點解佢哋要出賣我?點解要假仁假義咁幫我?佢哋係咪從來都冇當我係一份子?如果唔當我係一份子,咁點解又要令我覺得佢哋好重視我咁?點解?點解要呃我?」11Please respect copyright.PENANAkaWk7kzGc9
「我做咗啲咩得罪咗你哋?我有咩咁討厭,所以你哋要咁樣對我?」他向空氣怒罵道。「好啊,你哋唔想見到我吖嘛,而家你哋永永遠遠都唔會再見到我。你哋而家喺下面應該好開心啦,日日開party添啦!掃羅唔喺度喇,佢以後都唔喺度煩住你哋喇。」掃羅一想,不自覺地磨擦著牙齒。11Please respect copyright.PENANAqpOyXCf8ZI
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常言道,原諒就是忘記。忘記別人對你的傷害,忘記痛楚,讓傷口慢慢結疤;忘記那些被掰開的舊患、那些被人用鹽磨擦的痛處,讓它們都慢慢康復過來。忘記不了痛楚,也就忘不了憎恨。忘不了憎恨,那就無法前進。11Please respect copyright.PENANA51Ml58CjIV
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但放不下憎恨大概是人類的本能,是潛藏在人骨子裡,「以眼還眼,以牙還牙」的本能。11Please respect copyright.PENANAwoxzcNwOVs
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「你哋呢班假仁假義嘅垃圾,我見一個殺一個。」掃羅想到他們的背叛又怒了起來。「如果假仁假義幫到你哋嘅話,你哋就唔會死喺我刀下啦。你哋會輸,就係因為你哋一生人都只識喺度嘻嘻哈哈、講人壞話、靠關係。如果你哋有尊重一下自己嘅職業,認真少少練習格鬥,咁我就唔可以一個人毫髮無傷咁殺死你哋幾十個人。既然你哋唔尊重自己戰士嘅身份,你哋係抵死㗎。」11Please respect copyright.PENANAjwBI7Oiuaw
他想起背叛自己的「朋友」,他們所重視的一切都是那麼的無謂虛浮。「因為我對自己戰士嘅身份認真少少,你呢班垃圾就喺度妒忌我。你哋就係妒忌我嘅才華,因為我做到嘅嘢你哋做唔到。如果你哋做到我做到嘅嘢,咁迦勒隊長⋯⋯唔係,迦勒嗰個狗雜種就唔會利用我,而唔係利用你哋。你哋唔係同佢好好關係嘅咩?但去到關鍵時刻無人會用你哋呢班垃圾啊。如果你哋有用,點解揀我唔揀你哋?因為你哋連少少利用價值都無啊。」11Please respect copyright.PENANAkoEYEMyiu4
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他的狂怒有如連綿不斷的波濤,在他心裡一直翻滾。翻滾著,沸騰著,他每次想到這些,都總會變得面紅耳赤。11Please respect copyright.PENANAz9RBNUOKqG
他能走出這個窘境嗎?看來不容易。11Please respect copyright.PENANAU3ryNQWLsJ
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但那一夜,自然世界的一幕改變了一切。11Please respect copyright.PENANAX6jAPerlZw
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