陸禹承✘江言
一個關於替身文學的小故事(๑• . •๑)110Please respect copyright.PENANAOOD7ppvhIL
他第一次見到江言,是在校門口,一個雨天,他卻沒撐傘,只是披著外套跑到某處的屋簷下等雨停。110Please respect copyright.PENANAOiSVfkyl1L
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少年的襯衫被雨水打濕,領口微微敞開,眉目淡淡,白皙的皮膚帶著淡淡的粉色,像極了他曾經的愛人—沈毓,沈毓前兩年因病去世,早已不在人間,陸禹承手上的紅繩,成了陰陽兩隔後唯一的念想。110Please respect copyright.PENANAAMKYO2Bnk3
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而江言像極了沈毓*110Please respect copyright.PENANAc3thFpJlU3
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沈毓喜歡喝白茶,江言也喜歡,沈毓喜歡抹茶提拉米蘇,江言也喜歡,甚至連說話時的尾音都有幾分相似,這讓陸禹承控制不住的接近江言。110Please respect copyright.PENANAsCYeWFuLIr
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沈毓很討厭下雨天,而江言卻總和他說,雨很溫柔,夜晚的雨聲是天然的白噪音。影子之所以是影子,正是因為輪廓相似卻看不清面容,就像江言的某些地方確實像極沈毓,但江言並不是沈毓,他也不是影子,是獨立的,另外一個人。110Please respect copyright.PENANAwvo8BwrEuH
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江言不是沈毓。江言也不是沈毓的替身——起碼江言一直是這麼認為110Please respect copyright.PENANArfGtOOT67E
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可是某天夜裡,江言揉著惺忪睡眼想找點吃的,路過書房時看見陸禹承在讀一封信110Please respect copyright.PENANACFfPE90Rnf
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這是他第一次看見陸禹承掉眼淚110Please respect copyright.PENANAIMP076KcrE
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後來他悄悄的去書房翻找那封信,信封很特別,有別於其他的信封110Please respect copyright.PENANA21K5AlXaCV
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信紙有些地方有些許皺,應是淚水留下的痕跡,不只一處110Please respect copyright.PENANA0wVtltYiIV
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落款是沈毓,信的內容很長,江言皺起了眉頭,看到最後。110Please respect copyright.PENANAjJo712sGDc
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「人總要學會好好道別的,你看到這封信的時候不要太難過,因為,我終於解脫啦~」110Please respect copyright.PENANAJDEKqTrMYE
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「陸禹承,我會一直愛你,不過可能沒機會親口說了,請忘了我吧,我不想成為拴住你的牢籠,這也不應該是你愛我的方式。」110Please respect copyright.PENANAiIS9zLl9bt
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江言在這之後的兩天始終心不在焉,他很想問問陸禹承,你愛的究竟是誰?或者你愛我嗎?哪怕只是某個瞬間110Please respect copyright.PENANACkTkBf8FFi
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可直到最後他也沒問,沒有意義,答案早就攤開在他眼前,只是他不願直視罷了110Please respect copyright.PENANAa3TtIDdScS
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後來江言辦理了轉學,離開的前一天他跟陸禹承提了分手110Please respect copyright.PENANAx9Ho1QgpEB
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陸禹承緊緊的抱住江言,求他別離開110Please respect copyright.PENANAc9SrxKZpXi
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「你只是沒辦法接受沈毓的離開對嗎?我只是剛好像他,你不愛我,陸禹承」江言眼眶蓄滿眼淚,一眨眼便滴落下來,在陸禹承的衣服上留下痕跡110Please respect copyright.PENANAghYgBSCfmz
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陸禹承停止了那些挽留,擁抱的雙手也緩緩下垂110Please respect copyright.PENANAxpe1nDnDkw
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他不知道自己是否愛江言,他愛過沈毓,這不可否認,一開始會靠近江言也只是因為他像沈毓,那後來呢?110Please respect copyright.PENANAOIFFuKtleC
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陸禹承已經分不清自己愛上的是有著沈毓影子的那個江言,還是,他真的愛江言110Please respect copyright.PENANAfCNaEitnDx
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「但是,陸禹承,我很愛你」愛到無法自拔,但江言不想以替身的身份愛著陸禹承,承受著陸禹承對沈毓的愛110Please respect copyright.PENANAu2uMgzrBf7
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那是不應該的110Please respect copyright.PENANAwk5SJWFIdh
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所以他選擇離開,選擇放手110Please respect copyright.PENANAwXagERe1Aw
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江言轉身離開,把他對陸禹承的愛,和所有的回憶封進了行李箱,搭上長途火車,前往另一個,沒有陸禹承的都市。110Please respect copyright.PENANAqx90eY3hnr
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但江言不知道的是,那天晚上陸禹承看著關起的門哭了很久110Please respect copyright.PENANA3X0mYvrmgU
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江言走後的一段時間陸禹承都魂不守舍,日子照樣過著,只是陸禹承覺得自己的心像是空了一塊110Please respect copyright.PENANAXKbCdnZVN7
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大概是被江言一齊丟進了行李箱,帶走了吧。110Please respect copyright.PENANA1vEZgXOALb
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陸禹承其實一開始就明白,江言不是沈毓110Please respect copyright.PENANA6QFmSpJn1Q
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他從未把江言當成沈毓的替身,陸禹承沒有解釋,因為他一開始的靠近的確帶著這樣的目的。110Please respect copyright.PENANA86fzpzQJ6i
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沈毓讓他不要被自己拴住,陸禹承走出來了,但現在,卻又陷進了另一個牢籠。110Please respect copyright.PENANAd6mcVRVUkt
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或許愛,本就不自由,本就是牢籠,而我們都只是其中掙扎的困獸。
*毓:ㄩˋ
- 養育。同「育」。《廣韻.入聲.屋韻》:「毓,養也,長也。」《文選.班固.東都賦》:「發蘋藻以潛魚,豐圃草以毓獸。」
- 孕育、產生。同「育」。如:「鍾靈毓秀」。《國語.晉語四》:「黷則生怨,怨亂毓災,災毓滅姓。」