Every morning...  I open my eyes ... I feel I have to continue, but I don't have energy...

It's just when you're sleeping, there is no hardness, there is just a dream or nothing ...
Everyone had a hard time, and people just try to run...

try to survive ... me too...
But I can't run, my mind, my memory keep me stuck there...
I can't fight .. I can't give up, and every day I'm struggling to do something, how can I help myself? I'm sick of everything
I want to run too, but I can't ...
I'm choking in the ocean of wild

I hate everyone actually ...

People just acting, lying, and hiding...

I hate these things, I hate the complexity of the social world ...
I don't want to be acting, I hate this life...
I want to be real  ...
I know I'm not okay and writhing, ... but I don't have anything to do, just keep going to the future, maybe something changed...
I lost my everything emotionally ...

Now I'm living my dreams, but my soul died
How can I be dead at the same time... and live in my dream???
I lost my trust
I lost my love
I lost my friends
I lost my soul
i hope  ... i wish to not give up...