那天我講話的時候，他沒回我。不是擺臭臉，也不是故意無視，就是——好像根本沒在聽。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡot724YAkm1
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我也不確定他是真的沒聽到，還是根本當耳邊風。後來我也沒再講了，懶得講。反正他那麼安靜，應該也不會在意吧。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ99ZCafEGKf
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這一兩天我都在找直播題材，也沒特別去找他講話。但他還是照常幫我準備晚餐——一天也沒漏過。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZOYq780Gn
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不知道他是真的沒事，還是有事裝沒事。我也沒問，問了好像我很在意一樣，才不要。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLFJ8Gd3Q0
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我最近連後台都不太敢開，一打開就是死氣沉沉的畫面。訂閱卡在那，聊天室也只剩幾個熟面孔在撐場。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzGBKPVyAOz
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我每天想標題、寫開場、盯聊天室數字，該做的全都做了，結果還是沒人在乎。不是我不好，是他們懶得看吧。到底要怎樣，才會有人點進來？22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqewz4khMcV
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我現在用的東西——腳架、收音的小麥克風，還有那個很難卡住的平板架，全都是我哥送的。說是禮物，當時我還笑著收下，但心裡其實很不是滋味。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7WVg53kaJX
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他又沒在打工，那這些錢是哪來的……我心裡不是沒底。我不想靠別人過生活，尤其是——那個人。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3T7Kp1wkP7
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我又把那支影片點開來看了一次。本來刷過了，但那晚真的沒東西靈感，腦袋裡就突然跳出它來。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZeDOQwGcB
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畫面超爛，鏡頭晃得跟喝醉一樣，但越看越覺得……這種東西怎麼會沒人講？兩個女生打成那樣，不是開玩笑的，是真的——會出事的那種。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpmtMM7e72b
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我查了一圈新聞，也看遍其他實況主的頻道，竟然沒人提這件事。如果我先去現場開直播，搞不好會爆紅，訂閱直接衝上萬也說不定。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXG6E9wJFLD
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吃飯吃到一半，我真的忍不住了。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3q7r34qA9C
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本來想等他吃完再說，但平板還停在那個影片畫面，我整個人悶得像要炸了。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xRlyM8AoH
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「欸，我最近想到一個超猛的直播企劃，你一定沒聽過。」22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fz1SDvRqI
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他夾了口菜，沒什麼表情地看了我一眼，「什麼企劃？」22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cEWQeo00r
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「你還記得之前那支影片嗎？就是那支——兩個女生打架的，超詭異那支。」22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8A6JVlpcg
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他的筷子停了一下。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡppaolxXCLe
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我一下子有點興奮起來，語速不自覺加快。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMButZWY6BJ
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「我查過了，新聞沒報，論壇沒人提，連YouTuber都完全沒碰欸！這種還沒人發現的題材，我只要去現場直播，搞不好直接上熱搜！」22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWcJGBlIbs
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「妳打算去現場……直播？」22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYg6N54NJt
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「不然咧？那地點我大概知道在哪，平日晚上人又少，我帶設備直接衝就好了——這種流量根本在等人撿欸！」22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2CyM1ol6Q
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他沒立刻回，慢慢放下筷子。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEFpT9RG0OV
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「不行。」語氣不重，卻很明確。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI360mmSN1k
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我停了一下。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEPY7ZA9FyV
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「為什麼？」22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZrldQjEwD0
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「那地方……妳不知道影片裡那兩個人是誰，也不知道為什麼有人拍那種東西。」他聲音低了下來，不再只是簡單回應了。「不是妳拍不拍的問題，是那地方本身就不對。」22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHQkFU9AyC
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「你怎麼知道不對？你又沒去過。」22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuzKAO8xOYV
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他沒有接話，只是看了我一眼，像是在猶豫什麼。但最後他只是搖了搖頭。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrWnLlxuOhA
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「妳不能去。」他語氣很低，聽不出情緒，但沒有一絲空間。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwD6BCW0Vo
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那瞬間，我整個人都煩了。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22itwL6EyF
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「所以咧？你是希望我一直靠你，不對，是靠那個人過生活，靠別人施捨給我的這些東西活下去嗎？」22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDjUQ16mC7O
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他沒說話，也沒有退讓。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJ785jGxk1
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我看著他那副死樣子，心裡整個炸開。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbu6JleIDA
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就算我真的做到了，他大概也只會這樣搖搖頭，然後一句話都不講。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwOTAQCDdfD
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吃完飯，我沒再講話。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtC9Bpe37ic
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他也沒再看我一眼，就那樣默默把碗筷收去洗。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNGlhzFc5X
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我回房間，關門，把平板立起來，對著鏡頭發呆。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMpkORsskms
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聊天室沒人。我其實也沒開播。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz5MVtSH4tp
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就只是在調角度、測收音、看看畫面會不會卡。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡndkMehbfty
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說是測試，其實根本不敢開。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qsaOPZrPh
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開了，畫面就會定格在那幾個熟面孔，然後什麼事都不會發生。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2OYnu6OSh6
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如果我真的去現場直播呢？22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHNkXhajAPp
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如果畫面拍到什麼，觀眾直接破萬呢？22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNbDHwjrES4
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如果我這次，真的可以靠自己把一切翻起來呢？22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkoEIcErwha
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我盯著畫面上的自己看。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDh1gm2E8u
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臉有點圓，鼻子角度也怪怪的，眼睛還會反光——22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5280fzvxPr
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我不是那種一看就會紅的長相，但也沒到不行。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutcziAOCA6
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我拿起剪刀，把劉海修了一點，又把後面那些太可愛的布偶通通推到牆角。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQA89FVZkUh
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那一瞬間，聊天室跳出一則訊息。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwfeAvOLVP
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【妳會改變一切。】22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4BzqZ34iU
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我愣了一下。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwAafFDgXM
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帳號叫「Obsession」，頭貼黑得像是什麼都沒上傳過。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrz5P6MsGiz
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我點進去，整個頁面空空的，什麼都沒有，連一行字都看不到。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡulgJIiVK0r
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超怪。但我又不是沒看過這種帳號，大概又是哪個神經病亂留言吧。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFyXTC0MSLO
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……只是那句話。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSRRndlluBp
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讓腦袋持續運轉。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNsq0Pt4wU
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好像在說——如果我現在不做，就沒人知道，我也可以。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlJ0PKrnGn
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哥永遠只會搖頭，說「不行」。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6yJa6ZC2Md
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可我不是小孩了，我可以靠自己一次。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkND4fC2p1F
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就這一次，不要管我，好不好？22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBr7WzeVcR8
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我轉頭看了一眼門縫外的走廊。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnKu4HezCnr
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他還在廚房，應該聽不到。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBR8LCMaiq
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我沒多想，把平板收進包包，行動電源也塞進去，再抓了三腳架和那顆小麥克風。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNkewfSn6gX
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要是太早動身，聲音太大，我哥肯定又會問東問西。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLO4DlHK9u
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但如果是——凌晨，就不一樣了。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9hNlRCuv1K
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明天還要上學，我又不是沒熬過夜，深夜出門也不算什麼大不了的事。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCKEU8yCab
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我先把黑色連帽外套準備好，塞進包包最上層。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWAUn9IviS6
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這次我不想再錯過。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgXJ0IApqU
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不管會發生什麼，不管那地方到底有多「不對」。22Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBR05jfkgU6
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等時機一到，我就要證明給他看。
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