恐懼是這世界上最值錢的事物。它使人趨吉避凶，使膽小者無敵。人們追尋的事物往往是自己最深沉的恐懼。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCht4Rmxs5s
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恐懼只懼怕空白，那是唯一沒有恐懼的事物，因為空白無意義、排斥意義。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavsxj56N4k
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而意義往往是恐懼所挾帶著的東西。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRqrst1W17
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他當然沒有意識，因為他什麼都不是。他就是純然的空白，是擁有人身的空白。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIplZX3D0zB
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第一次誕生在這個世界，他被一顆又一顆的眼睛圍攻，掃來掃去的視線如紅外線，一掃到它，就觸發了他身體的哭泣開關。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7HE3GjnHvl
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嘶聲力竭的哭聲下，周圍的人們互相道賀，這是健康的新生命，會航向自己的人生。他會有自己的思考、自己的感受、自己的意識。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeTa03UGlvN
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就算他不相信人擁有自由意識，也不相信自己有。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTrqqWwypC5
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他很正常的長大，會爬會走會跳會講話。父母把他交給幼稚園，催促它去陪同學遊戲。但是同學沒有一位接納他，願意留下來的只有靜默的書本。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF1qtmDbrpe
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大部分時間老師是不管的，他也就靜靜的坐在角落，看自己的書。偶爾被老師叫去做什麼，他就做什麼，而且效率良好。在家長的關心下，老師試著溝通幾次，他還是無法融入同儕的活動。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7LHiIHLC2
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他日復一日沉進在書的世界裡，讓知識用力的攻擊他的腦袋，就算他一點也不懂。他其實不太確定自己看了什麼，就是無意義的看著，一如繼往。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzG4VwQtPSm
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大概小學時，他看懂了文章講述的道理。他細心收納看到的東西，閒暇時間拿出來仔細思考。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7I5HWz9j5V
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他像是一張白紙，「世界」這個影印機不停轉動，把訊息印在他的腦袋中。別人的知識在他的腦袋中轉動，他將那些知識打散融合，去蕪存菁。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJCLs6TwwCp
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腦袋中是這樣滿溢著思考，就算原本純然的空白不見了，但他不在乎。別人說他很聰明，鼓勵他思考、表達。他以獨立性自豪，自我介紹時總是說自己很有想法。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1xBddFLhm
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雖然這也不是他自己的想法，他很清楚這點。那都是由他看到的東西拼湊而成，而不是自己創作的。但書上說，那確實是原創，因為他想出來的規則是錯誤的。世界不會錯，錯的只會是自己。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNHz2BRgZlG
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他懷疑「原創」的真實性。但他總是想錯，他想，他可以因此確認自己的存在。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADk7hKwncr
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他認為想法從書本借來的、思考是從想法中找出來的。他的存在讓這些思考、這些想法變成錯誤的。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPnVgLu6cxp
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但那些想法本來是可以正確的，這真不公平。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNaRKSeepdB
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錯誤只會越積越多，他漸漸把知識與思考通通否定。那些都是外來物，都不是真正的他，就算那些是錯誤的。他在錯誤之間徘徊、在否定自我與否定世界之間掙扎。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLhDIl5Nh0I
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他懷念起最初的空白。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkADYxELUE3
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周圍的人在他身邊嘰嘰喳喳，像是不間斷的狂風，吹亂了他的思緒。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkQAvoH5OV
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在眾人的簇擁下，他否定了自我。但是他的主觀意識太強烈，掙扎著不消失，排斥掉他嚮往的純然空白。在這迴圈中繞來繞去，他得不到真正的滿足。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWA1X0eg1H
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直到他意識到這是世界的陰謀。世界讓他吸收太多的東西，讓他忙到沒時間消化一切，只顧著接收。但是他就是倚靠世界生存的，除了愈浸愈深以外，就只剩下死亡了。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsuACnTfScV
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他不願死亡。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz151FnrGnX
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恐懼使他拋棄自我、拋棄思考、拋棄知識，只剩下純然的恐懼。他仍然得不到空白，就像白紙上的墨跡怎樣都擦拭不掉。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2zXpvLPPy
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他被恐懼接管，眼睜睜的看著自己掠奪一切，把看得到的都佔為己有。偶爾他搶不過來，也幻想自己拿到了，並且信以為真。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqMMmnJVcGE
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最終他依靠著害怕，擁有了全世界。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjNaO6fGiS
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他是純然的恐懼。
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