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Chapter 4: Voice of Reason (updated)
lovepenguins1984
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In restless dreams, a road stretches on forever in front of Zenapharr and he is alive with fear. The road is the only thing there, inky blackness all around it. Something is chasing him, so he runs but never gets anywhere. Fire soon begins raining down on him and all he can do is run, dodging the searing flames. Accompanied by this is a sea of disembodied faces, contorted and disfigured, some known and some unknown, and they angrily pursue him. They never let up and slowly catch up to him. Just as they are about to touch him, they disappear and so does the road.145Please respect copyright.PENANAEed5SIDb0l
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Surrounded by a jet-black nothingness, he is somehow still standing on some invisible sheet. It’s disorienting as he is neither here nor there. He tries to walk straight for a moment or two, and feels sick from not going anywhere when he sees a small speck of something in the distance and he trudges on. Finally, the scene comes into view and he sees an alleyway. The moonlight dances on the pavement, reflecting the scene of two bodies. One is a middle-aged man, lying on his stomach atop a pool of blood. The other is a young boy, no older than eight or nine. He lies on his back in a similar fashion, and Zenapharr stops in his tracks. copyright protection141PENANAO9qQHz8C2L

Immense guilt starts to drown him, and he turns to get away but not before he is frozen in place. In horror, he watches as the deceased boy sits up and stares intently into Zenapharr. He raises one arm in accusation at Zenapharr. No words are exchanged, but the message is clear.copyright protection141PENANAt8LSbkasvB

            “You did this,” the boy’s voice reverberates in Zenapharr’s head.copyright protection141PENANAqbsMocHJRV

            “No! I—I didn’t.”copyright protection141PENANALG5cwMLFpO

            “When will it stop? Look at what you’ve done!”copyright protection141PENANAqTWcM8wWA2

            “It was accident! I wasn’t trying to…”copyright protection141PENANAx0e0NCdum5

            “There’s blood on your hands, Zenapharr.”copyright protection141PENANAq7Lwjhi5XI

Wide-eyed, Zenapharr looks down at his hands to see they are drenched in blood, so much that it’s dripping onto the pavement in small streams. For the first time that he could remember, the blood didn’t fill him with joy. Not only that, it made him feel true guilt. copyright protection141PENANATnCQAoY7lz

            “No, no!” Zenapharr cries. He falls to the ground and curls into a fetal position. Soon, the blood begins moving of its own accord, coming alive and begins to cover him. As much as he struggles and claws at his hands, the blood does not cease to envelope him.copyright protection141PENANA9TzoUm17Rn

            “Stop it! Stop, ahhh!” The blood begins to cover him wholly, entering his mouth, his ears, his eyes, then everything fades to black.copyright protection141PENANAdhvYNPg6Ud

            “That is quite the dream,” a soothing female voice adds. Zenapharr is quiet for a moment, feeling the realness of the dread in his mind. He felt odd, telling something so personal and strange. This was the first time he’d ever told anyone this dream that had haunted him.copyright protection141PENANAPOBrFbQDic

The voice was that of Dr. Ellen Monroe, the psychiatrist assigned to him, to which he had been confiding to for the past week. Much to his surprise, he actually felt…relieved in a strange way. It never occurred to him how much talking to someone organized his thoughts, and began to make sense of all that was going on.copyright protection141PENANAcs5MQ09R81

            “How long have you been having this dream?” She asked, pushing her glasses up on her petite nose as she scribbled some notes down on her clipboard.copyright protection141PENANAfliKj6Azdu

            “About six months ago.” Zenapharr said flatly, feeling exhausted.copyright protection141PENANAM3jnuYzlCR

            “I see. Do these dreams scare you out of your own sleep? Keep you awake at night?”copyright protection141PENANAxPjDCaDM2L

            “They do.”copyright protection141PENANANi663qcD0q

“That’s good.”copyright protection141PENANA8MtraYqJj3

            “How do you mean?”copyright protection141PENANABRTVuv68h8

            “You said that you felt guilt in your dream, and that it bothers you.”copyright protection141PENANAU4q1atrn6r

            “And so…?”copyright protection141PENANAOeehGpf79z

            “That means…that you are reacting to your acts of murder. This is not something commonly felt among serial killers, because of their sociopathic tendencies. Even though it is a dream, there is empathy within you somewhere. Perhaps in the moment of killing you don’t feel it, but it does come nonetheless, consciously or subconsciously.”copyright protection141PENANAaKr4GVzM4R

            “I don’t like it. It makes me feel bad, as if…as if I don’t like myself.”copyright protection141PENANAVYVmZ6QrtX

            “Well that’s what guilt is: feeling that you’ve done something wrong. It’s not supposed to feel good, and means we have a conscience which leads us to know right from wrong.”copyright protection141PENANAThc7zSwP0F

            “So the opposite is also true?”copyright protection141PENANAobqQf7MOTQ

            “The opposite?’copyright protection141PENANAFPPBbPH2gb

            “If I do something…moral that I’ll feel good?”copyright protection141PENANAZ9tbg24NR5

            “Of course…but we must first define what a moral act is. I take it you’re referring to a specific incident?”copyright protection141PENANAtggT7v0TkU

            “Yes…but I did kill people, it was just…different this time.”copyright protection141PENANAJ0KyBWnjYE

            “How do you mean?”copyright protection141PENANAvXNY941eST

            “Well, my reason was not as it normally is. Not the nonsensical killing for small reasons or no reason at all. I was actually trying to help someone.”copyright protection141PENANAjlazfh5gap

            “Please, go into detail.”copyright protection141PENANAaTpVs1RQlP


In the Northern capital city of Old York, Zenapharr was on a mission. Under the cover of night, he was investigating the Palmer district of town, where his most recent duty was to be fulfilled. This was a typical routine for him to walk about as if on a casual stroll, but he was actually taking note of the various side streets, buildings, and foot traffic of the area. This was to get his bearings firsthand for entry and exit undetected. This was his first mission in the capital city, and he was actually enjoying the scenery a bit. There was much history here and that fascinated him. Old York was a great example of a city developed before the Great War had changed much of life on the Great Continent.copyright protection141PENANAuQNiPWnQaf

“Hard to believe they once called this place the Big Apple,” he thought to himself. Being an older city, it had more historical areas than many other provinces, which were apparently called states before the War. It was the only intact one after the War had demolished everything, and served as a great starting point of survivors. Much technology was lost or setback, and much life on the Great Continent had to start over. Yet, the population naturally grew away from the province of York, expanding out to the other provinces to re-populate the Americas, as they were called.copyright protection141PENANAJuAT3Qb86l

“It must have been so different in those times,” He thought, wondering how life had been. As he passed by an alleyway, he absent-mindedly heard a noise but ignored it. Moments later, the noise persisted and he couldn’t ignore it this time, now louder and more discernable. Using his keen instincts, he followed the sound to an alleyway not far south of his location. From this, he soon found a rather unnerving scene.copyright protection141PENANAyhfYcH03yl

A group of dark clad gentlemen surrounded a young girl, a pretty blonde girl who was less than half their size and weight. Two of the men were holding her arms and the third was caressing her hair in a creepy manner. She was screaming for help again and again, and one of the two men laughed.copyright protection141PENANAT3cHl1DISO

“No one’s gonna hear you out here, doll face,” said one of the goons. “You should have been nicer to me back there…I might have let it slide.”copyright protection141PENANAYBizvmpHuv

“Get away from me, creep!” She said in disgust, struggling unsuccessfully against their hold on her. A sudden rush of adrenaline began to pump in Zenapharr’s veins, and he could feel that thing coming back again. His first instinct was to shred these men limb from limb, but he really wanted to resist this time. Lately, he felt like he was giving in too easily to his urges. Feeling of out of control was not something he was fond of, even if it didn’t feel bad in the moment.copyright protection141PENANA23Mh1YZ12y

Breathing slow and evenly to keep his composure, he decided to approach them and attempt to simply talk to them. If push came to shove he could easily incapacitate them. So in a calm stride, he made his way towards the end of the alleyway, his hand close to his katana’s hilt.copyright protection141PENANAnWBzDWAhFt

            “Hey you there, help me !” The girl shouted, noticing him first as she was facing his direction.copyright protection141PENANA6E5odBLCig

            “Shut up!” One of the men shouted at her and, raised his hand to strike her but stopped mid-pose at Zenapharr’s approach. There was a fury in Zenapharr’s intense green eyes, and the thug was smart enough to sense that Zenapharr may not be someone to trifle with.copyright protection141PENANA7kjTCkSClV

            “Evening, gentleman.” Zenapharr greeted politely, a juxtaposition to his eyes full of  homicidal desire. “What exactly is the situation here? Your lady friend looks distressed.”copyright protection141PENANAaIRLiuITLo

            “Hey, butt out pal! This is none of your business!” Another thug replied.copyright protection141PENANAmR2rgf22Rk

            “Oh, I’m afraid you misunderstand. You see I’ve now made it my business, and therefore I stand here before you. Have they hurt you?”copyright protection141PENANAiZFBShVLUh

            “No…not yet” she said meekly, her bright hazel eyes attempting to read Zenapharr. She seemed almost equally afraid of him, questioning who was the frying pan and who was the fire.copyright protection141PENANAG40yQj2ycO

            “What are you, some rock star or something?” The one closes to him said, and took a step closer. “You come over here with your long coat, spiky blue hair, studded bracelets and all, like you’re some kinda badass. Is that what you think you are?”copyright protection141PENANAXyGZ0Xf3Z7

            Zenapharr laughed mockingly. “You see my friend, I don’t think, I know as an absolute fact that I’m a…as you say ‘badass.’ And what I’m going to do here is take Miss….?”copyright protection141PENANAnh63SZlOKf

            “Melody,” she responded.copyright protection141PENANA6rj7Zaq2IC

            “…Miss Melody here somewhere safe. I strongly do not recommend that you get in my way.” Zenapharr took a step towards Melody and the thug closest to him pulled out a small revolver and aimed it straight at Zenapharr’s head.copyright protection141PENANAQGbxGbuVeu

            “I’m not sure…I can stress enough to you, the importance of why I told you not to get in my way.’” He was noticeably gritting his teeth, his lips turning back into a snarl.copyright protection141PENANA2CL8FE81tS

            “Either way, I got a gun pointed at you. You think you can doge a bullet?”copyright protection141PENANAgzjAHiK7kt

            “I can and I will. In fact, before you could even pull the trigger I could grab your arm and make you shoot your friends here with your own gun…but that’s just not fair. Besides, I hate using guns…they’re just loud and obnoxious. Swords are much more fun,” he tapped the side of his scabbard at this. “They’re silent, more personal, and you can do so many…creative things with them that you can’t do with a gun. Tell you what…I’m attempting to turn over a new leaf. You have impeded me from escorting Miss Melody to safety, and you didn’t heed my warning. As much as I’d love to paint these alleyways red with your blood, I’m going to try a different approach, I’m going to give you a second chance to redeem yourself. Normally by now all three of you’d be dead.”copyright protection141PENANAKb9VJQ7dLl

            “You believe this guy?” he looks over to his cronies, and they all chuckle. “So what now?”copyright protection141PENANAIOYuXE85FC

            “If you pull that trigger, this is what’s going to happen. I will not only dodge your bullet, but I’m going to slice off your arm, and while you’re writhing in pain I’m going to beat your other friend with it. The third here, I’m not sure…maybe I’ll call him harsh names…or maybe I’ll shove your arm down his throat…I haven’t decided yet.”copyright protection141PENANAXWchxTAh0V

            “You’re funny…I’ll give you that much. But I can’t give up the girl, she was going to make us a lot of money because she’s just too pretty. Business is business. So get outta here or else there’s one less woodland fairy in this world.”copyright protection141PENANALK6VGPLN3x

            “You have been warned.”copyright protection141PENANA9Ll8fjMoos

At this, Zenapharr took another step forward and the thug fired off a chamber from his revolver. In a split-second, the girl watched an indiscernible blur of movement. All she could fathom was the gunman, who started kneeling in pain holding a bloody stump of what was once his arm. Another of the three was crying out in pain, followed by the sound of being struck, except the sound had a whipping quality to it. The third man now stood with his back flat against the wall in terror as Zenapharr stopped his assault on the other man and approached him and the girl. They could both see that Zenapharr’s eyes were now a deep red, which chilled both of them to see such a thing.copyright protection141PENANA0mpcDW6ee7

            “You there…don’t move if you like the fact that your limbs are still attached. Melody, what was this ruckus all about?”copyright protection141PENANA9ZRgVy5Gm9

            “They, they were going to bring me to some abandoned warehouse. Something about sex trafficking…I would never see my family again. First they were going to…do things to me. ‘Trying out the merchandise,’ they said…oh my God thank you I….”copyright protection141PENANAdvVzDbSqzh

            “Melody, I want you to do something for me, and I doubt you’ll object. Can you kick this man in the groin? I would do it myself, but I’d probably rupture something if I did and I want him to be conscious.” With a grimace of anger, she turned and gave the man exactly what she was instructed, and the thug clutched his injured parts as he crumpled to the ground. Zenapharr now stood over him and met his gaze.copyright protection141PENANATADiNhfTvt

            “Good sir, you and all of your friends here are miscreants; vile and abhorrent. I’ve scraped things off my shoe that I’ve had more respect for in my lifetime. A man who has two other large men with him take advantage of a woman so much smaller? Deplorable. It makes you feel powerful, doesn’t it? So in control…I understand, actually. Power is…a good feeling. Makes you feel invincible, untouchable….and that’s exactly where you’ve gone wrong. Even for people like me…there ARE THINGS THAT YOU JUST…DON’T….DO! Do you know who I am?” He lowered his voice to a whisper, the words full of poison and disgusted rage spilling through his teeth.copyright protection141PENANA0FtSVoq14M

            “N-no.”copyright protection141PENANAaii5SWgKnQ

            “Good, because if you truly knew who I am…and what I am capable of…you’d already be crashing through Death’s doorstep, in pieces.  I’m trying to hold it together right now…I’m trying really, really hard not to kill you, you diseased little worm. You’re smart for not trying to fight back against me. You’re also lucky…that other unconscious fellow who I hit with that dismembered arm didn’t draw a weapon… I’ve just always thought it’d be fun to do that. I’d like to thank you and your friends for giving me inspiration. Would you like to know who I am?”copyright protection141PENANA1gqFzdXO7t

            “No…”copyright protection141PENANAi78LZ39q5e

            “Good answer! But I’ll tell you anyway. I am a specter of death...the last thing you don’t see or hear before your insignificant life is snuffed out by my hands. I am the the undertaker of tyrants, and your personal Anti-Christ if I so choose to be it. Normally, I kill because it’s my job , but you are just a victim of my personal circumstance here. You are going to tell me all the information on your human trade business. I shouldn’t have to explain what happens if you don’t.”copyright protection141PENANAdfxvlprCaO

            “Look…I-I don’t know anything. They just pay me to do certain things…I’m a middle man and so I don’t really...” In mid-sentence, Zenapharr stabbed one of the other thugs with his blade, making him cry out in pain, and whimper silently as he slipped back into unconsciousness.copyright protection141PENANAtb5URE8Otf

            “I’m sorry about that, I have this odd…reflexive thing that I do…it happens whenever someone is attempting to lie to me. Try again.” The man began to babble everything he knew, giving out names, addresses, and any information associated with his business.copyright protection141PENANAiLmqxmuGMA

            “Thank you for your cooperation, this information should prove helpful. And just so we’re clear…” Zenapharr brought his face within an inch of the thug’s. “If you have given me any false information in any way…and especially if any false leads mean any more girls get taken away in the process...you will see no end of me. I’ll make you wait, day after day in anticipation of your own Death as I subtly and continuously make my presence known to you. And I will do this until I haunt your every dream and thought until you think you’re going to lose your mind. It is then, when you least expect it, that I would slowly end your lowly existence, and it’s going to involve a bottle of acid and shards of glass in places of your body that the sun doesn’t shine. That being said, I hope we understand each other clearly.”145Please respect copyright.PENANATFEX3agcjX
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The man meekly nodded his head.145Please respect copyright.PENANAo0DUSS3hIj
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            “Now be a good lad, and give your people a message for me. Tell them that the Boogeyman is coming for them, whether they believe in him or not. And he will be the unholy bringer of justice to end them swiftly and mercilessly. They chose a way of life, and I’m going to end it. It’s up to you how you want to reiterate what I said here, just make it menacing. It adds that little something to it. Well then, that is all. Go, before I change my mind.” At that, the hechmen fled for his life, following every bit of Zenapharr’s instruction.copyright protection141PENANAzcLWDii8Z5


            “So…you did it?” Dr. Monroe leaned in, completely enthralled.copyright protection141PENANAIU5ymAJexy

            “Yes I did. I tracked those sick people down and killed each and every one of the men involved in their organization. I personally freed some of their victims in the process. It was the first time I felt somewhat good about what I was doing. Boy, I sure did kill a lot of people though. It was months before I felt the need to kill again after that…what a relief.”copyright protection141PENANAfjQtb1yHms

            “How many exactly did you kill?”copyright protection141PENANAHVEsRhLapK

            “About 39 men total. I took them out one-by-one…some of them I vetted and stalked. I did rather enjoy it…a little too much to be honest. There was this one man…I set him on fire as he was drinking alcohol, and the fire actually went inside of him! You should have seen it, he was screaming and…it was the hardest laugh I’ve ever…”copyright protection141PENANAf8FlG1Wqgu

            The doctor seemed uneasy, giving him a side glance.copyright protection141PENANAYvNOYZQwGc

            “I’m sorry. I’m in the presence of a lady, I shouldn’t talk of such things.”copyright protection141PENANAYn8DQZUCak

            “Wow….that is a lot of people.”copyright protection141PENANAnqs2L84Hzk

            “Yes, it was, but I feel the world is a better place without them.”copyright protection141PENANAcxQ0mOZclF

            “Yes, but don’t you feel it’s hypocritical? Considering you’re a murderer.”copyright protection141PENANApk3xXTwSvG

            “What, you don’t feel the world is better off without rapists or exploiters?”copyright protection141PENANAcS7FVSOZAn

            “I just don’t understand why murder is any better.”copyright protection141PENANAkMUaNhYMtk

            “Well, they are different things. I take lives…and they destroy lives. It’s more humane to simply end someone than to break them. Like putting a sick dog out of their misery. And if that dog is vicious…all the better. To take advantage of someone…exploiting women like that…those people are not only forcing themselves into their bodies, they are forcing themselves into their inner being, breaking someone of their will and hope…that is the killing of one’s soul…the most sincere form of killing imaginable. ” Dr. Monroe stopped writing, and looked out into the air for a moment.copyright protection141PENANArSEupBoWtT

            “Doctor?”copyright protection141PENANADGMKmHDaHd

            “Yes, I’m sorry. It’s just…as strange as that sounds, you actually made some sense of how you look at the morality within your actions. It’s interesting that there’s logic behind it, almost rational even.”copyright protection141PENANAx10sbNJazd

            “Thank you, that’s quite kind of you to say. You know…around that time I also learned something new about myself.”copyright protection141PENANAu168wvKUse

            “What is that?”copyright protection141PENANAO6UBQgiurZ

            “That whenever faced with these urges…when I decide the pseudo-Shakespearian question of ‘to kill or not to kill,’ there’s something else involved. I thought that it was completely me all along, making the decisions and giving in, but there’s another element.”copyright protection141PENANAIZ0Irbwbl6

            “What exactly do you mean?”copyright protection141PENANApQ8vYE0Jzt

            “What I mean is that…there’s another voice that I hear. I know that no one else can hear it. There is a voice inside my head. And it all started after my Injection.”copyright protection141PENANAXozSZq9iVA

            “Oh…another personality…I should have known.”copyright protection141PENANAhDzil1uSdQ

            “No…it’s not like that. It still feels like me…just another part of me. My entire demeanor doesn’t change. I don’t have blackouts or anything like that.”copyright protection141PENANAZCG77FM8om

            “Is the Voice saying anything to you right now?”copyright protection141PENANACmKceKCo2x

            Zenapharr shifted a bit in his chair, looked down and back up at her.copyright protection141PENANAYkbyDxA7pO

            “Yes, yes it is.”copyright protection141PENANAXorEvyjiHI

“What is this Voice telling you right now?”copyright protection141PENANAEj4ovi88Hb

            “It’s….it’s wanting me to kill you.”copyright protection141PENANAGGvRe9oPgO

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