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隨著日出日落地過去，出走家門經歷完一天，進入天黑後，每個人心裡總會累積多一分情緒，或加添藏在心的一些事情，若沒有意識去處理和釋放內心，捕獲豁然開朗的神奇時刻，某些壓迫在心的煩惱就會不斷日復日輪迴，過去了的過不去，像細菌擴散感染每一個明天，沒有止息地漫延。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyiPsdwbD7h
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有些事情是不可以對別人說的，可能無關信任問題，只是每個人心裡總會收藏著一些只有自己可知道的事。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnSOwoIUiPA
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今晚掛在天空上的彎月好像份外明亮，也份外靠近城市。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo24XaAAtn5
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晚上十二時，舒靜還沒入睡，悄悄摸黑走到廚房泡了一杯濃可可，手心因為這樣變得暖和了許多。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8BQnnQG8r6
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她開了廚房的一盞橘黃色小燈，從口袋裡拿出一個未被吹氣的鮮黃色氣球。這是一個可以盛載沉重秘密，輕輕帶著每個人難以啟齒的事情飄向到他方的氣球。只要一邊把氣球吹脹氣的同時，一邊想著你心裡的那件事，你的情緒就會隨著你呼出的空氣，慢慢放輕……慢慢放輕……539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBO4xCrdSi
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有的客人會選擇發洩自己的嬲怒、有的會感性訴說心事、也會有人大嚷他人的壞話……539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB34160u9DH
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舒靜把想釋放出身體外的事情，在心中默想了十分鐘。過後，她雙手捧著氣球，決心手一放，把氣球放出窗外，送出心房，自由地在天空流浪。這是她的第五個秘密氣球。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEUeZhRCTPv
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舒靜今天如常返回化妝店上班。她當然知道，她又會和她的好同事兼好朋友——卓瑤見面。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdVXwdZhiE
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面對著卓瑤，舒靜總覺得自己很矛盾，很糾結。舒靜喜歡和她相處，每當遇上什麼事情，舒靜都想和卓瑤分享，當一有煩惱，舒靜像風浪上的小船般浮動時，只要想起卓瑤，或聽到她的聲音，舒靜就會安穩下來。但面對著卓瑤，她察覺到自己總是戰戰兢兢。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkfwVGuwB0
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她們個性好像很不一樣，舒靜很依賴他人，她要得到他人的肯定才可下決定，煩惱時情緒會如山泥傾瀉般湧出，她總是按捺不住要向外抓著別人傾訴，希冀他人的安撫能揮去她的不安。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWyMXIY9CKO
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卓瑤則非常獨立，卓瑤可以獨自走在朋友堆前拋離人群，或被拋離在後也是安然自在。她可以活躍於朋友圈子中，卻讓人摸不透內心。卓瑤在舒靜眼中感覺是個沒有溫度的女生，卻像太陽般存在著，令人產生以為可以透過她獲取溫暖的假象和錯覺。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKnxERUkxUY
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化妝店的同事都很喜歡和卓瑤交談。卓瑤的氣質，總是簡單卻帶魅力。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerKfNKqdlV
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今天下班時，舒靜的男友——阿和也一如以往準時在店外等她。敏感的舒靜，留意到男友會不自覺地偷望卓瑤，只是輕輕一眼，卻被她看在眼底。每當舒靜談論起卓瑤，她也發現到男友回應的語氣總會變得不自在。但卓瑤卻讓舒靜推斷不到她的心思。舒靜一開始會酸溜溜和擔驚受怕，但後來，她發現了情緒背後的真相……539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwo224b7e00
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舒靜介紹過男友給卓瑤認識，他們偶爾會三人行的去吃晚餐、或看電影。每一次，都是舒靜和男友並排而坐，而卓瑤就坐在舒靜對面。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7u9q2g1YB
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今晚，他們再次三人行吃晚飯，但氣氛已悄悄改變。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzpwYiiG8c
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餐廳裡，舒靜先開口，打破沈默的氣氛：「你們……應該有話想跟我說吧？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylBby2VJRB
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阿和先是臉龐閃過一絲驚愕，卻又很快回復平靜，露出真心的笑容：539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCHtGtx5pg
「舒靜果然是觀察入微，心思敏感的女生。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrqE6CVTVdn
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卓瑤突然轉臉望著舒靜的眼睛，堅定地說：「我明天就會請辭，也會和阿和分開，從此不再見面。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMoGII8t4Lh
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阿和伸手捉著卓瑤的手，卻發現此舉動不妥當，馬上縮回手，臉部線條變得僵硬，著急地說：「妳在說些什麼呀？妳不是說道歉後就決定要跟我正式開始關係嗎？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOjta7b43Vz
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卓瑤望著桌上虛無的一點：「我決定了是分開。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrIasiOdqr9
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舒靜平靜地吐出：「其實我和阿和早就感情變淡了，只是我們不承認而已，失去了阿和，現在的我，並不會難過。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSMNZxmEEDp
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舒靜這番話，其實刺痛了阿和。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBp8F5C6Uu8
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舒靜欲言又止，但還是斷斷續續開了口：「我明白……為何他……會愛上妳……」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuiCu51aPci
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卓瑤仍然堅定：「我不會和他再繼續下去的。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzhZ4OVt0Vo
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而晚餐後，他們仍然握著昨天已經買好的電影票，進場看了他們三人都有興趣的推理電影。舒靜買了卓瑤看電影必定要吃的焦糖爆米花，只是吃在卓瑤口中，已經變得苦澀。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXvpTm5Bko
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黑暗中，他們都可以專注地看著前方的螢幕，分心地放心想著各自心裡的事情。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Y6KcQ4ZNU
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映在他們眼中的光影，是各自的愁緒。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg6MpSTZury
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看完電影後，阿和想送舒靜回家，單獨和她再好好談一場，但舒靜拒絕了。這是她第一次拒絕阿和。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xjBYnicKg
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一人的路上，舒靜心境變得平靜淡然，不孤單，反而圓滿。她抬頭看到幾顆黃色氣球在天空悄悄劃過。不知道裡面又藏了什麼人的故事？這些故事，最後又會走到怎樣的終點？539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZU56HtcKUT
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舒靜經過一個月的沈澱和整理，她發現她已經沒有怪責他們了，她一開始的不甘心和憤怒，早已隨著另一個情感的滋生而轉為淡然和自我責備。她也真心想成全他們兩個的，她沒想到卓瑤會這樣決斷。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPPnHDOsyR
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夜晚，舒靜又拿出了一個秘密氣球，她望著書桌上她和卓瑤的合照，一邊想著，她們這幾年之間的回憶：她們曾經一起去日本看櫻花、於居酒屋中喝酒談心、在異國迷路再互相安慰合力找回回酒店的路、她們耐心聆聽彼此在工作上共同的委屈與快樂、陪伴對方走過幾段情路……539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOmE7miYXs
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舒靜心裡充滿抱歉：「是我變心在先的……」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhvyJlNBo6v
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兩個月後，某個下著微雨的晚上，舒靜沒料到會有一顆鮮黃色的秘密氣球從外面飄到她家中。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2IsXTi0TV
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氣球沒預警地安靜破裂，空氣彌漫卓瑤的聲線：「舒靜，妳知道嗎，539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbm5NksFXGo
妳可以買這個秘密氣球釋放自己，氣球公司那邊也會通知有關秘密中的人物，詢問他們要不要購買秘密，揭穿真相。而這個氣球，是我特意叫氣球公司送去妳家中的。對不起。我知道了，妳的真實心情。我知道了，妳說妳發現……妳喜歡了自己的……好朋友。我好驚訝，可能是我還不成熟，不懂處理這種狀況，我只知道，我雙重背棄了妳。對不起，我只是……逃兵。但，謝謝妳，我也愛妳，我的好朋友。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWz36Zjapy
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舒靜跌坐在地上，流起淚來：「傻瓜。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicmo0fwp04
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