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阿澄常常緊握手機。不論苦悶的上班時間、在家中獨處、抑或外出與朋友聚會，每隔幾分鐘，她都會不經意地掃一掃屏幕，去看看有沒有新的信息是由通訊apps那裡發出。如果有，通常阿澄都會忍不住馬上打開通訊apps。儘管她也不想自己這麼在乎，好笨。如果一天過後她都沒有收到任何信息，那就像是等待了兩天的六合彩攪珠出了，結果卻落空了般的感覺。97Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGuYK2iY6h6
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「唉，人愈大朋友真的愈來愈少。舊朋友漸漸疏遠，現在身邊日對夜對的就只有同事和公司的文件，有時想找朋友聊天，卻不知如何是好。」阿澄在家中邊慢慢的啜飲著凍檸茶、邊在某個好友群組send了這此post。97Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeRAdCDvAJM
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那個交友群組裡只有六個組員，全是陌生人，彼此都不認識對方，沒有profile picture，沒有真名，是由一個討論區網友們建議延伸出來的群組。大家都是陌生人，卻令大家更安心地、沒有負擔的坦誠真話，比起天天相見的家人、朋友、身邊伴侶，這group的人在群組裡更是親密地交流。97Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWOgw1SaxtT
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不用一分鐘已有人回應，名叫「芯」的人回post：「是的。就算是男朋友，天天見面、拖手、接吻，我還是覺得自己與他的距離很遠，有時候，我會逃避不想見到他。」97Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwRpNoqGyXa
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阿澄想起她的一個好友——阿綠。她們是舊同學，有著一樣的夢想、一樣的思路，曾經她們無話不說。可惜出來社會後，很現實的，友情已被現實沖淡，因為生活圈子不一、話題不一、夢想不一了。阿澄仍然很努力堅持夢想，但阿綠交了男朋友後，夢想已變成了是「結婚」，男朋友是惟一的天空，再沒動力做其他事了。每次她們見面，阿綠的話題就只有愛情，每次她都會給阿澄看很多她和男朋友的甜蜜合照。97Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDt1rRs7qq
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阿澄當然明白這改變是成長過程。97Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQUbkWDcoKC
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group中有另一人回了芯，她名叫may：「妳不愛他了。」97Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEaZQuVtGke
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芯回應：「愛。但同時厭惡。」97Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡga7f1Caviv
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平時很少回應別人，只愛說自己事的阿然簡短回了：「好矛盾。」97Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXmo5CqINV0
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may：「嗯。不過不要緊，只少做女人有份工作能養活自己就好了，獨立一點就天不怕地不怕。」97Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMaXagzAYmw
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阿澄沒有回應，其他人也是已讀不回。但過了三分鐘左右，may繼續說：「不過說真的，雖然我在大型廣告公司公司工作，好像有很好的前景，但這只是外表風光而已。我晚晚OT、連自由的時間都沒有，上司性格差勁，只懂以階級壓人。客人又好麻煩，我天天給客人罵……但我怎跟人說這些事實？大家都是一直羨慕著我的啊。」97Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8so5DEFeD2
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阿澄放下凍檸茶，開始打字：「可能是妳運氣差，遇了一間差勁的公司。我有朋友也是廣告界的，她說她的工作環境超好，福利很好，同事又相處融洽，完全是一份好工作。」97Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfi6EoKj4YW
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阿澄還記得她的廣告界朋友——gigi派咭片給她們這些舊同學的嘴臉有多囂張，當時她有多強調她公司的派頭有多大。97Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQdJuBtNGs
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阿澄忽然很想約阿綠和gigi出來吃飯。她鼓起勇氣send了信息給她們：「hi，找天出來吃飯好嗎？」97Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBKJOueqY26
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很快的，阿澄得到她預期中的回覆。97Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkN43Byh1wj
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阿綠：「啊，好呀，但我這三天都約了男朋友，約下星期好嗎？不過也要看看我男朋友的時間」97Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbkSfnuNFwk
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gigi：「不了，最近我都要開會，這是一筆大生意，我超期待的。妳要知道，我的公司派頭太大了，不容有失。」97Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6XrZdPt1u0
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阿澄失落地回：「不要緊。再約。」但她知道並不一定會有「下次」。97Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkF9kTZOUu
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轉過頭，阿澄在group中說：「好難約朋友出來。大家都不一樣了。」97Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcFrm0llOf
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芯：「是。有時是想見，但不敢見，或是沒動力去見面。因為要裝上一切安好的臉具，好累。」97Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0twsPwNak
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may：「唉。人長大後不會像以前單純了，待在常常給比較的社會中，人會改變的。」97Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw4tZAVO6JZ
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阿澄忽然覺得好累。她想上床窩在被子裡打開電腦看推理日劇。她不想再待在現實中了。97Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPgojgZe56X
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阿澄：「我去看日劇了。再見，明天有空再聊。」97Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlhxKANKPSQ
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芯：「好，我也睡了，好累，bye～」97Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUB3FcQp1J
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may：「byebye！剛好我也要睡了，我們蠻有默契的嘛，哈。」97Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1G15ldVLf
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同一時間，阿澄、阿綠和gigi關上睡房的橘子色燈光。這點她們還蠻有默契的。97Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeXNUZSgcO1
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