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她在行天宮附近做了一次身體檢查,這幾年保養得宜,沒甚麼大問題,只是左腳注定帶一輩子傷,但傷久了之後,不過就像一個比較黏人的朋友,太久沒理會它,就稍稍刺痛一下,昭告一聲存在,疼起來時和它說說話,也就不怎麼疼了,坦承來說,她喜歡這樣黏人的朋友,而非外表熱絡實而冷淡朋友。538Please respect copyright.PENANANiggbQLEft
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回程路過行天宮,依舊同記憶如初。538Please respect copyright.PENANAT49GtKeSTH
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大學以後,她再難以踏入宮廟,想是從前多是家人帶著走進,自己不過相陪一段路程,不走幾步路便朝著供品搜刮而去,嫌口袋貧小,還備了大號袋子,一身匪氣盎然而生,參拜也從不有過所謂『虔誠』,雖然敬神但卻不信神。538Please respect copyright.PENANAQwprTpj1KT
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行天宮外旋轉鐵門輪轉不息,她隨著人潮洶湧推擠,那一刻的自己總有種在紅塵漂渡錯覺,而與芸芸眾生無異,打消己身應是與眾不同想法。538Please respect copyright.PENANACb3hCdtzcz
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從來的地方來,不斷地推擠、不斷地前進,而要去地方都一樣。538Please respect copyright.PENANAziOEmo5iZr
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捻了香、手裡輕輕一扇,輕絲淡淡纏繞而起,她信步走過前殿、偏殿,拜過天公眾神,卻過月老而不拜,再走上樓一一上香,很單純地上柱香,不求什麼、也不需要神明應什麼。538Please respect copyright.PENANATmxobgx2rT
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入廟並不是非得有所求,燃香或合掌也沒有差別,都是一樣的,她燃香也純粹是喜歡線香那種燃燒過後的昇華,和搓揉幾幕舊憶氣味。538Please respect copyright.PENANAdjNVXQc9kP
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上香過後,她坐在宮裡長凳,可能是年紀太輕,旁邊的爺爺奶奶總時不時看過來,幾次不經意眼神交錯,看見他們眼底倒映自己有著莫名疲累身影,爾後,他們用像看著孫輩的眼神走過來攀談幾句,她也笑笑聊著,不覺間享受著這種感覺,零碎的心思淡薄許多,靜靜看著廟埕參拜人們,還有一旁整身青袍的道徒,嗅著那一天雨霽初晴後略微濕潤的空氣。538Please respect copyright.PENANA5B3BIppiYr
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那一天的她思緒空靈,求拜的香客往來一遭又一遭,臨走前,一個奶奶跟她說了再見。538Please respect copyright.PENANArYDXzdIYlX
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「年輕人,要走了?」538Please respect copyright.PENANAy29nMuCvjs
「對啊,要走了。」她輕輕地說。538Please respect copyright.PENANAfrrbQvx9Ot
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又稍稍說上幾句,便不再回過頭,提著還沾染幾點雨水陽傘離開,一走出廟外便是鬧聲撲至,裡外像是隔了一個世界,而腦內想到在廟裡的一段對話:538Please respect copyright.PENANAd1yZ1Vu5lS
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「怎麼會自己一個人來這裡?要考試了?還是信了甚麼神明還願?」一個爺爺問著。538Please respect copyright.PENANAMMxwCWZXsL
「沒有、都沒有,我沒有信仰。」她回答他說。538Please respect copyright.PENANAh7Dv8AkOxy
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她,沒有信仰。538Please respect copyright.PENANA2aDO34SuML
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沒有信仰的人,又為什麼要來宮廟?她忽然間想笑,不知道自己為什麼要在那張椅凳坐上幾個小時,卻又不覺得白費,心中試圖描摹那一縷感受,卻終究如燃香游絲般散了,卻餘下淡淡靜謐氣味。538Please respect copyright.PENANAvkzeMTrcA1
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「或許是需要一種近乎於無的氣味,還要自動自發地逸散,不隨意攀附,所以燃了線香、熄卻火光,頂了三次鞠躬,儘管我無所信仰,卻得了不應不求的靜。」也許就是要這種於囂鬧中的靜。538Please respect copyright.PENANACktVLnyUYE