下班，清吧內消遣。603Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡybAKTQ7IbZ
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店家欲以昏暗燈光打造情調。可在我看來，這更像成本低廉的地底礦洞的老舊照明燈。竭盡全力，也照不出應有的亮度來。勉強看到距己十步的前方，我需要依靠前方男同事的古龍水氣味去辨別路向。603Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhvIovasm1
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九曲十三彎。好不容易，我們在位於一隅的小梳化坐下。我從餐牌挑了橙汁、煎雞翼和炸魚柳，他要了雞尾酒和花生小吃。摘下眼鏡，看不清世界，我方能開懷起來，好好放鬆。邊吃邊喝邊聊天，罵天罵地罵上司，好不痛快。603Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMxd6YSlOZ
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酒過三巡，醉態浮現於男同事臉上。我勸他不要再喝，馬上回家休息去。他不依，反而多點一杯雞尾酒，硬要我飲。603Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNlHEEaOHRo
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「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒？」男同事指著我的橙汁哈哈大笑起來，笑我孩子氣。笑的時候，兩隻門牙顯得不合比例的大，甚至略略變型，像一對彎月。603Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpqRnooIZlF
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「我不大喜歡喝酒…」我怯怯推卻。怕酒，也怕他。是照明不足的緣故？是摘下眼鏡的緣故？我竟看見男同事不成人形。黯黃燈光糢糊地勾勒出他的奇特身影：頭小，胸小，腹大。603Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHRsmnblO1
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「還是…」他以極其鬼魅的姿勢地趨向我，湊近我耳邊：「你根本不會喝酒？」不知他是有心或無意，舌尖碰到我的耳珠，留下丁點濕潤，散發淡淡酒氣。603Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0KKrgfzZ8k
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我全身泛起一陣酥麻，思緒亂轉亂竄。603Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTYmmvGBBZN
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「螞蟻是用分泌物的氣味來進行交流的。」中學的生物科老師不懂授課，課堂很沉悶。603Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5F8Mhwo6N3
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見我呆住，男同事放膽張口噬向我，予以強攻。603Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡODlYxKmcVo
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「螞蟻用兩個大牙叮咬的方式進行攻擊或自衛。」生物科老師如斯說。603Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsOPd0oqgJ
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雙唇交疊，雙舌互纏。他在我口腔留下微酸。他說，他喝的是「威士忌酸酒」，是一款經典的雞尾酒。603Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2DH5joD31M
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「螞蟻叮咬時會分泌出蟻酸。」生物科老師的教誨，我永世難忘。603Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx97tIgyWg6
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威士忌、檸檬汁、砂糖、蘇打水混合起來，成為怡人的清新。我喜歡這徘徊於清醒與醺醉之間的芳香，好比掙扎於自由與奴性之間的耀眼花火，誘人，傷人，殺人。603Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDljL9MfugF
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一口氣乾掉一整杯。603Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqcZZFGtCnP
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醉倒。603Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthjuLLW6MU
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其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂遵循本能的驅使，為族群盲目付出。無他，這就是生存！603Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWi76mdOGw
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還是…603Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhuXCd3sq13
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其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，帶有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。603Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQsafl6vbT
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意義，在哪兒？603Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdB4AFjl7bj
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哪兒？伸手不見五指，男同事的氣味籠罩著我。哪兒？他六肢並用，爬上我的身，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。哪兒？腥臭的觸角四處探索，想要找出通往洞穴的道路。603Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzte2fhXJJ
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婚飛。半透明的翼身折射出謎樣虹光，為沉悶的周遭添上一份誘惑氣息。血脈沸騰，靈慾飛昇。幼長的薄翼亢奮張開，拍動聲浪不絕於耳，重覆又清脆，擁有催眠的魔力。明知是萬劫不復的境地，偏偏抵受不了誘惑，一頭栽進渾水裡。603Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHjiDpciaZ
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交尾，著地。他是我的愛，我的選擇。我緊緊擁著他，盼在他失去知覺前，盡量給他一絲溫存。可悲或可喜？他的生命只為尋歡而誕，壽命終結於極樂之時。該笑或該哭？我的雙翼悄然脫落，說明我已進入生命的黃金時期，有能力落地生根，繁衍後代。但，我的自由同時告終…603Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKrsWCJnbxV
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翌朝，我被食物的香氣喚醒。披著被單，躡手躡腳走到房外去。男同事正手忙腳亂地在餐枱上延開一頓豐富的早餐。603Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHcEXLMimy
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「早晨…」他的笑容帶點靦腆：「來吃吧。給你買了粟米粥，質地綿綿的。」603Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO5k406NdCt
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我沒開口回話，衝前緊緊抱擁他，懶理掉落地面的被單。603Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnqUsIIYF1O
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我以為他已然死去，有如交配後的雄蟻。603Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZZroMkQaC
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