餐廳入面啲客唔係情侶、一家人、就係一班Friend出嚟食飯,有啲一大班人傾計傾到興高采烈,有啲就兩個黐埋一齊睇電話傾密計。550Please respect copyright.PENANAaIUQP2tppA
惟獨我同楊悅盈坐嘅呢一枱,粒聲唔出,好似搭枱咁,同成間嘢個氣氛格格不入。550Please respect copyright.PENANAt6L8WNdT0p
我哋喺個卡位度各坐一邊,明明大家都無玩電話,但係就完全無話題。550Please respect copyright.PENANAnRgma5TfkR
無辦法,因為唔係好似之前同班咁日日都見到,我入咗U之後呢半年都已經好少搵佢,淨係知佢重讀緊中六諗住Re-take DSE…550Please respect copyright.PENANAQdgoTJLi8f
有時我望下佢佢望下我,有時望下電視;好在楊悅盈似乎唔係好介意我哋之間嗰種Awkward Slience。550Please respect copyright.PENANADS5VEW7N49
同時直到而家我先發覺:原來之前同佢嘅相處,都係源於其他事,先至將我哋兩個連繫埋一齊。550Please respect copyright.PENANATNEV6Dn1ZT
我同佢好似真係無試過好Casual咁約出嚟見面。550Please respect copyright.PENANA8PEQgqPWAF
如果隔離枱啲人望過嚟,會以為我哋係情侶吖,定還是兩個平安夜無街去約出嚟圍爐嘅人呢?550Please respect copyright.PENANAWgfB99I1EV
「你頭先問聖誕有咩值得快樂…」我決定求其講啲嘢打破沉默:「聖誕對某啲人、對大部份人嚟講Default就係要快樂,如果你感受唔到,就證明你唔係嗰種人。」550Please respect copyright.PENANAii2jMtTofi
楊悅盈聽到,皺起眉頭望住我,好似唔明我講乜嘢咁。550Please respect copyright.PENANA2SzjbIgtfb
「呃…你有無聽過『聖誕綜合症』?」550Please respect copyright.PENANA5tlHu1ocj6
楊悅盈搖搖頭。550Please respect copyright.PENANAsp8bsSVjEI
「有次又係臨聖誕之前,我同家姐傾開計…」我諗番何晞媛同我講嗰次,好似係佢啱啱入大學嗰年:「佢話我聽每年十一月尾十二頭開始,就會有好多唔係太熟嘅朋友、甚至三唔識七嘅人會無端端想約佢聖誕出嚟玩。」550Please respect copyright.PENANAS5JE2YovKO
呢個時候伙記拎咗我哋叫嗰兩個常餐過嚟,呢啲天氣,楊悅盈竟然仲叫咗杯凍檸茶…550Please respect copyright.PENANAN9glDGHucH
「我問佢啲人係咪想呃蝦條或者溝女,佢話唔一定,有啲人真係約出嚟去倒數、行下街、睇下戲咁,因為佢哋…」我拉咗自己杯熱奶茶過嚟落糖,繼續講:「…臨近聖誕受到個氣氛影響,覺得自己過節一定要有伴、有Party、有人交換禮物,諸如此類;如果無,就會失落、唔開心、週身都唔安樂咁,然後——」550Please respect copyright.PENANA1pZRak0wC5
「然後就會千方百計搵個人,唔理係邊個,但求有人陪一陪自己。」楊悅盈拉開個櫃枱拎出兩隻叉,放咗落杯熱水度:「過後就唔會再見面?」550Please respect copyright.PENANARU4Nyu28iT
「嗯,何晞媛話呢種人就係感染咗『聖誕綜合症』…」我拎隻叉開始捲起啲米粉:「叫做綜合症,其實只係一個情緒:有啲人會覺得聖誕就係Default要快樂,而佢哋又得唔到,所以一句『聖誕快樂』,或者有人陪住佢哋過節,對佢哋嚟講好有意義。」550Please respect copyright.PENANAIrht9yDjV9
——而且,我發現原來我真係感染咗呢個綜合症…因為唔想楊悅盈以為我係因為咁先搵佢,我唔敢講出呢個事實。550Please respect copyright.PENANAZdBrnaKkB7
我講到呢度,楊悅盈瞇起眼望住我;佢係咪睇得出我有啲心虛?550Please respect copyright.PENANA96As8w9RJr
「唔怪得之…」佢好似真係識穿咗我咁講一句。550Please respect copyright.PENANAke50iEccJW
「吓?」我其實驚咗一驚,但係惟有詐傻扮懵。550Please respect copyright.PENANAdOarcE15Vu
楊悅盈無俾反應我,淨係除咗個眼鏡開始食嘢。550Please respect copyright.PENANAGTUDSlhZaH
——仆街喇,佢係咪嬲咗我?550Please respect copyright.PENANAVmRFo65qlK
「頭先臨收工嗰陣,有個客講咗件事俾我聽。」佢忽然間又抬起頭同我講:「本身有一點,我一直都諗唔通——」550Please respect copyright.PENANA3IWXmspObc
「啊?你而家番緊工咩?」550Please respect copyright.PENANAkS35hZKYtD
「呃…係呀…」無端端俾我差開咗個話題,佢有少少愕然。550Please respect copyright.PENANAnmpoYwe3TJ
「番乜嘢?我以為你重讀緊中六。」550Please respect copyright.PENANAKBTrwB3uUR
「阿哥介紹咗我去佢朋友間髮型屋…」佢諗咗一諗:「做打雜、助理;因為反正我讀多一年中六,其實都唔會入到大學,不如——」550Please respect copyright.PENANAyAnwPUeMld
「你今年…出年考DSE之前,我可以陪你溫書。」我諗都無諗就插咗一句。550Please respect copyright.PENANA89jGcGzeRv
楊悅盈聳聳肩。550Please respect copyright.PENANA9L7DUvxFSv
「不過大前提係你真係想入大學?」我又再問佢:「一路都覺得你讀書唔係好掂咁。」550Please respect copyright.PENANAHda2b5OUsG
楊悅盈笑咗一聲。550Please respect copyright.PENANAyBHM1afIIX
「哈哈…仆街啦你…」佢望住我,好似恥笑咁嘅語氣:「我中三之前成績好好架…」550Please respect copyright.PENANAY6pjR3t5jC
——我中三之前…550Please respect copyright.PENANAxvf4guh09p
「我中三之前都未轉過嚟。」我反駁番佢一句。550Please respect copyright.PENANA52Q37Roodh
忽然間。550Please respect copyright.PENANAMsdjNuR8RA
我同楊悅盈好似忽然間打開咗個話匣咁。550Please respect copyright.PENANALZ2ZRQsQ0a
至少,我哋唔再係兩個無街去約出嚟圍爐嘅毒友。550Please respect copyright.PENANAikkMJa374G