How should I describe love? The answer: I have no freaking idea.copyright protection275PENANAoCKI2vQzCS
Finding love is like trying to figure out how deep the pits of Tartarus are. It’s pretty impossible if you didn’t get my stupid reference. You just sorta stumble around until you find the opening to the pit and then the question is: “Should I jump?”copyright protection275PENANAuqaKDk0DDo
I find myself teetering on this edge quite often. Staring down the dark, bottomless pit. Now that I’m writing more I understand how stupid of me it was to use the pits of Tartarus as an example, but I refuse to change it. copyright protection275PENANA4VskTitZW3
Do I jump and risk the chance of being dragged through hell to make up for my stupidity? Or do I back away and stay safely above ground? I know what you’re thinking: “Maybe being dragged through hell is worth it if in the end you come out with a happy relationship.” To that I say: “Hush, I don’t want to think about that side of things.”copyright protection275PENANA7gjRW7ARLM
I’ve wanted a partner for a long time now, blinded by the beautiful positives and absolutely taken aback by the horrendous negatives. I weigh the options in my head: copyright protection275PENANAhE21zqUcxP
Proscopyright protection275PENANAgFACvVfqxi
A partnercopyright protection275PENANAEztqI8nKsk
No more lonely nightscopyright protection275PENANA9e5TdnwmWT
Maybe being happy? (Like that could ever happen)copyright protection275PENANAnTi9yTx118
Conscopyright protection275PENANAwbYtfGWfml
Rejectioncopyright protection275PENANANLiRo81c1n
Argumentscopyright protection275PENANAJBibVT16Ie
Being vulnerablecopyright protection275PENANAQIwo6fyFXJ
After that I just can’t see myself doing it. Giving myself to another only for it to end badly. I would be shattered.copyright protection275PENANADGZgSWcwjV
However, staying alone for another minute will drive me insane. Maybe it’s better to be crazy than in love. Maybe it’s the same thing. copyright protection275PENANATUlEkzOYdw
Either way, I don’t see another pit coming my way anytime soon.copyright protection275PENANAdXk2fqosdu
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