還記得上次跟你度過平安夜,已經是十幾年前的事。686Please respect copyright.PENANAOHLjEQXGHc
那年跟你一起考完會考,就在我到英國留學前夕;686Please respect copyright.PENANAAG6iJ4HAwl
我們一起到廣東道,在那擠迫溫暖的街道上倒數聖誔。686Please respect copyright.PENANAhk5c2TNMc5
那些還打算將多年的感情,在離開你之前跟你表白。686Please respect copyright.PENANA3o692rJjZz
那時的我卻又含蓄收斂,一心又怕被人群聽笑;686Please respect copyright.PENANA0oMn1VWksM
一心又覺即使我跟你表白,未來也不能夠再愛你。
一直想着想着,又被人浪裏浩瀚的叫聲驚醒。686Please respect copyright.PENANAyyYsSMkycG
「十!九!八⋯⋯」原來已經開始倒數,但我依舊未曾向你表白。686Please respect copyright.PENANAgJugr0oCPo
「七!做乜嘢你仲唔數啊!就快到啦!」你對着我吼叫,我亦開始跟着人群倒數。686Please respect copyright.PENANAwJ0HEyZsE3
「三!二!一!Merry Christmas!」我們對着大家大叫著;686Please respect copyright.PENANApZj3MXgr1R
我叫聲雖則澎湃,內心卻是充滿遺憾又無奈。686Please respect copyright.PENANAcTRL9pgnfw
深知道已錯過了表白的機會,還錯過了一段不該猶豫的感情。686Please respect copyright.PENANAu3XMrMdtTK
我只好帶着微笑的表情,為求直到最後不令你對我失望。686Please respect copyright.PENANAOMURuNrXfq
或許我真的沒令你失望,但自從那天起我跟你再沒有聯絡。686Please respect copyright.PENANA8Y4ft8DAC2
沒令你失望,卻是令自己失望。
自從那次我離開香港後,每次過聖誕我都會想起你。686Please respect copyright.PENANAKBc1S2QQ0u
甚至,每次打算認識女朋友我就自然想起你。686Please respect copyright.PENANAZ5Oacq0mav
自從那次過後,每次平安夜倒數我都只能獨在家中;686Please respect copyright.PENANAKZqFdGTn3D
玩著電腦渡過,或是忙着趕工做那些project。686Please respect copyright.PENANATZxnKKedAg
儘量麻痹自己,不想再度回想起那段遺憾。686Please respect copyright.PENANAlF0Icsp7ry
當然,這是不可能了;686Please respect copyright.PENANAcOcpyhOknx
每次過聖誕都只能看着當天朋友幫我們拍下的照片,回味當時的情況。686Please respect copyright.PENANAtDt3ZlzAwy
如果當時我沒有發呆亂想,你會否接受我的表白?686Please respect copyright.PENANAOXr9sfglej
如果那時倒數跟你表白,你會否成為我的異地戀人?686Please respect copyright.PENANAZSJmFx6gix
只是看着那些舊照片,就能冒出千千萬萬個如果。686Please respect copyright.PENANAuwse2uoo1B
還妄想著直到現在都跟你談戀愛的景象,害我有着飛回香港跟你表白的衝動。686Please respect copyright.PENANA1CZOsQ67eR
可惜我早已在英國定居,一切都只能成為空想。
「你來探下我地啦,你好耐無返過嚟啦!」我駁著長途電話,跟父母談電話。686Please respect copyright.PENANAVPaQzEf3Te
說起也是,自從我去留學開始我就沒回過香港。686Please respect copyright.PENANA9hXKRgu5L1
自從離開香港後,大家就再沒碰過面。686Please respect copyright.PENANAkdBtKwNdgB
只能透過電話或是信息中,知道他們的生活。686Please respect copyright.PENANAniV7rtJf9k
「你不如趁着個聖誕假期,過嚟探下我地啦!」我沒猶豫,就跟他們說聲好。686Please respect copyright.PENANAGkkZlBumM2
或者這次是我的最後機會,彌補十年前的遺憾。
出發前的一個月,我不斷密謀著跟你表白的事。686Please respect copyright.PENANAWJBRFJpzJJ
到哪裏慶祝聖誕,約誰到這個聖誕派對;686Please respect copyright.PENANArICWgIYS7r
我都在腦海裏一一包辦,連那時打算說什麼也想好了。686Please respect copyright.PENANAZ1X91yWAD1
就是怕跟你失聯多年,不要說認不認出你;686Please respect copyright.PENANAz4VkESZgZn
我怕連約也約不到你,或者當時一起的朋友才能聯絡得上你。686Please respect copyright.PENANA02CnEyyXXc
想着終於不用再過一個孤獨的聖誕,那時還真的興奮十分。
就在平安夜前一個星期,我終於飛到香港。686Please respect copyright.PENANAJ8yX1XE8DX
看到不只父母變了樣,連街上的行人也變了樣。686Please respect copyright.PENANAjr8wp5VoaY
不,應該是整個香港也變了樣。686Please respect copyright.PENANAV8YDplt1ZV
原本滿是食店的街道,現在都變了藥房與金舖。686Please respect copyright.PENANASZccocw2Ph
重遊舊地之際,又碰到佈滿名牌店的廣東道。686Please respect copyright.PENANAkE6E6SR8vw
就是在香港遊蕩著,它就像提醒了我來這裏的初衷。
這次我不會再到街上慶祝,就是用一直儲下來的錢;686Please respect copyright.PENANAkjacQ9P9ik
跟朋友一起合預租了一晚的露天cafe,跟舊朋友一起派對。686Please respect copyright.PENANA27XxgBHWeV
就是希望營造氣氛,希望經過這麼多年你依然會答應我。686Please respect copyright.PENANANC0UPTCHIH
之前跟你合唱過的詩歌,還有說過的話;686Please respect copyright.PENANAANY4Xn98Fj
通通也為你準備了,這下你沒法不能不答應我吧。
終於,我辛辛苦苦的等到今天。686Please respect copyright.PENANAvHYBUAhiqv
到了那香港差不多絕種的聖誕派對,一進來就看到你跟舊同學談得有講有笑。686Please respect copyright.PENANAG9w5gIl3pv
至少你的樣子我大概還算認得到,沒有如我想像中那麼陌生。686Please respect copyright.PENANAvnRmMkpjBX
「喂,你做乜一入來粒聲唔出就咁崇過來啊?」你拿着酒杯半醉沒醉似的跟我說。686Please respect copyright.PENANAQ8DXm0YDQS
「咁耐冇見,你第一句就同我講呢句?」686Please respect copyright.PENANA3PbT665wPH
「咁唔通未倒數就同你講Merry Christmas咩?」你又用玩笑回答我。686Please respect copyright.PENANAtiWtUgLHk1
接着,又是談著一堆舊事。686Please respect copyright.PENANA50qgxmCICX
不是哪次二人三足拖手拖得太緊,就是那次纜車停電的醜事。686Please respect copyright.PENANASiAHUhNg7W
你總是說着我的醜事開玩笑似的,不過也代表你依然沒忘記我;686Please respect copyright.PENANA1iWLB1Dtwm
至少還懂得拿我這些蠢事開玩笑,我內心感到一陣恩慰。
「咁你宜家有冇拍拖呀?」我試着探問你。686Please respect copyright.PENANAV8o6AyB7ly
「無啦啦做乜咁問⋯梗係未,不過都認咗個有興趣嘅人。」你這麼一說,我的心又沉下去。686Please respect copyright.PENANAIkUpcJX6bS
「咁樣啊⋯你地點識架?」我繼續探問你。686Please respect copyright.PENANApdwh98Y1KE
「冇呀,有次佢唔小心倒瀉左我杯咖啡,仲整濕咗我本雜誌,佢道歉不特止仲幫我買多本新嘅,林起佢份人真係好。」686Please respect copyright.PENANAXzD7fIBvnx
「之後差唔多每次佢都幫我預先買本雜誌,仲同我一齊睇添,又有共同興趣又傾得埋,有時咪同佢傾下公事心事囉,得閑將會約我出嚟食飯添。」686Please respect copyright.PENANAOEQXKzT8tI
「聽落都似唔錯喎⋯」我開始知難而退。686Please respect copyright.PENANAVKBxh2dJ0A
「你不如講吓笑話啦,你之前講笑話好叻架!等成晚都未聽到你講一句笑話!」你突然嚷着要我說句笑話。686Please respect copyright.PENANAmG1I6v1BLf
「你當我黃子華咩⋯咁玩法子華都死啦⋯⋯」我心裏想着。
沒說了好幾句沒人笑的笑話,就開始倒數了。686Please respect copyright.PENANAzVo8BDlaGC
「十!九!八⋯⋯」又是聽着熟悉的倒數聲,忐忑著表白的事。686Please respect copyright.PENANAxcb0zlWsaF
怎麼辦?你都已經有了對象,我突如其來的我愛你相信你也不會接受。686Please respect copyright.PENANAeXr5ZQvtZd
但不說的話,我也許再也沒有機會說。686Please respect copyright.PENANAPSy4CH3Nkq
於是我終於鼓起勇氣,跟你說:686Please respect copyright.PENANAdfW6hXruEQ
「其實我忍左好耐⋯其實我好愛你。」686Please respect copyright.PENANA2wm1UIJ1HE
「三!吓?你終於講咗句好笑嘅笑話!仲虧你用咁認真嘅語氣講出嚟!」你中斷倒數,望住我傻笑著。686Please respect copyright.PENANAF8B1DVmX7P
「唔係呀⋯⋯我唔係講⋯⋯」686Please respect copyright.PENANA6EdUBuOBr2
「Merry Christmas!」倒數完了,旁人都在歡呼。
後來你,越飲越最醉。686Please respect copyright.PENANAyN2A3e5ubj
我也是被你影響,也是跟着你飲醉了。686Please respect copyright.PENANAtQo0AmjOUH
一直說着瘋言瘋語,還要越飲越烈;686Please respect copyright.PENANAdNVqcHZK5N
仍然在傻笑,但你哪知道我想哭。686Please respect copyright.PENANALS3CtClZ5P
我趁着大家還是醉的時候,偷偷抱了你一下。686Please respect copyright.PENANAEvFYz3dys0
還記得上次擁抱的時候,已是你送機的時候。686Please respect copyright.PENANA6IWeWxGuaX
但你似沒反應般,依然裝着傻笑。686Please respect copyright.PENANACOagwUoMfk
或者,明早即使有幸能在機場再碰到你;686Please respect copyright.PENANAMHmv0BCxvj
你也對這晚發生過的事毫無印象,甚至連來過也不記得。
即使我再遇一段感情,怕也沒法再有那熟悉感。686Please respect copyright.PENANAKKEyKCd01j
寧願在遇到這個派對,寧願在醉酒中辛苦嘔吐。686Please respect copyright.PENANAAshEgJ4T8u
現在即使我清醒地歌那句詩歌,怕你也當作是笑話傻笑。686Please respect copyright.PENANAGpidyS9m9g
看着時間一分一秒的飛逝,我逐漸變得清醒。686Please respect copyright.PENANAoSdhpuAxcL
看着你依然渾渾噩噩地望著我傻笑,我真的哭笑不得。686Please respect copyright.PENANAvSftaKUbK2
我收拾好我的一切,準備要離開。686Please respect copyright.PENANAiaeJpeDtsv
臨離開前,我跟你互望了一會,期望你跟我會有所表示。686Please respect copyright.PENANAVANs1Qr8R2
——還是沒有,或者都是我想多了吧。
今天的天氣特別冷,寒風吹着街上一對對的情侶。686Please respect copyright.PENANANjzwOsDQ7x
還聽說今天會下出雪來,到最後也別去麼?686Please respect copyright.PENANAY0GlYXW82a
看着那聖誕限定的燈飾,卻照亮我的寂寞。686Please respect copyright.PENANAct2hCKVdmg
三點了,倒數慶祝聖誕的人早已曲終人散。686Please respect copyright.PENANAxF1w9QeOIH
街上還是殘留着派對留下的痕跡,那一剎的歡呼。686Please respect copyright.PENANAEbeqtWmmTP
寒風陣陣,穿了羽絨的我即使住在英國還是抵受不了如此寒冷的天氣。686Please respect copyright.PENANADnbgs6VJAZ
我帶着一箱一箱的行李,在街上截了架的是;686Please respect copyright.PENANAXlkrsdxt8o
「赤鱲角機場。」是時候要趕機了。
686Please respect copyright.PENANAtLHvBfyzRy
686Please respect copyright.PENANAaZA7VToZUu