So I was thinking that I could be alone .Yep I could .

Maybe ?

Or

Maybe not 

I so definitely can be .Then why does my heart fight against my mind in this decision?. 

Why does it tell me I cannot be alone .

For I have tried to be patient ,strong not letting my tears be  seen . 

Why the hell can't I succeed .

The war is raising repeatedly  between my heart and mind .

Head is thumping like a drum ,while my heart is tearing its way out of my body .

How can I be Strong and alone when all I need is a simple hug and whispers of "everything will be alright" .

I wish i could just hug myself and put this misery behind me .

Maybe someday I will be strong alone or .......................