小屋裡、睡床邊，她架上老花眼鏡，小心翼翼用開信刀拆開今早收到的奇怪信件。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZXfiSetF1W
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0tx0oSbHA
純白的信封上沒有註明地址，亦沒有郵票、郵戳和收信人姓名。明顯不是透過郵政服務寄來的，而是有人將信件直接放入她的信箱。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPsNw4EaNZa
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ06MtAHf6t
是誰？有誰會寫信給她這個孤僻木訥的八旬老婦？該不會是兒子——他已好幾年沒有前來探望，電話聯絡亦少之又少……472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCawHoHcwQQ
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Fupztj8Gj
「啊！」看見信中物，她不由得發出一聲驚嘆。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡycp1vKC4xU
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1AwPifPts0
壓花書籤。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzof9m3MV9Q
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiSDjps6ohX
紫藍色的小花在純白色托紙上尤顯孤獨冷清。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgxUbPLgIPx
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYqhbhlT27j
「毋忘我……」她雙唇微顫，熱淚盈眶，回憶片段有如走馬燈在她腦海中快速運轉。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjCFvqCbHl
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5NpEeQlRFG
初遇於了無邊際的毋忘我花海……情信信箋一角上畫有一朵線條簡單的毋忘我……他突如其來捧上的毋忘我花束……她在婚宴時戴著的紫藍色毋忘我花形耳環……他在窗前花槽播下毋忘我種子……他因頑皮兒子摘掉花槽裡的毋忘我而氣得流鼻血……他拒絕遷往大屋是因為捨不得花槽裡的心血結晶……年邁的他偶爾忘記淋花施肥……患病的他忘了花、忘了她……她為失智的他戴上紫藍色冷帽，笑說他是一朵毋忘我……每年清明重陽或其他大時大節時，她都會帶上一束毋忘我前往拜祭他……472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWFbdCP4N9
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrRTTsminQ
難道是老伴的來信？472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3x7YCSpY6
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVzz84ieTxs
是！一定是老伴自天堂寄來的！472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9naZiqeFIN
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI9Eov1aqic
明明有很多合情合理的說法去解釋信件來歷，她偏偏選擇相信無從證明的鬼神之說。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWtVDni939v
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlTQM6BRVtv
或許，真假從不重要，合乎心意的表象才是真正有意義的。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuvK7avOcGc
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYFnTHlG3y
這來歷不明的壓花書籤正好滿足她對老伴的思念之情。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsEw27S7J1U
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlJg3K5Ngr
她流淚，她微笑。她憂傷，她幸福。她空虛，她富足……472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2bhvYOMsW
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHviR4p96k
剎那間，她重新經歷體驗數十載的喜怒憂懼愛憎欲千萬遍，不斷發現、擁有、消磨、失去。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ywm8QaraZ
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO8WhHp8BRg
一切歸空，如夢如幻如泡影。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBBsst6UgT
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsf08jFX0c0
努力活著，只為失去？472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWosjsJDwyy
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCKl8GqaAA
放眼望去，小屋冷冷清清。兒子遠去，老伴不在。花槽裡的毋忘我早日被鄰近頑童連根拔起，散落滿地，肢離破碎。垂吊耳珠上的花形耳環已然褪色，只餘帶有花亂刮痕的啞色金屬配件。情信信箋受潮發霉，角落的毋忘我污跡斑駁……472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIW8fFwJM8m
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ03uzyeGq36
無論如何用心留住一切，終歸逃不過失去的命運，對嗎？472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35QS3Kras3
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5lwVUZBUO
很累。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDTWOmktiuv
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGvTgeUBFav
放下眼鏡，揉揉眼。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPdP6cBUf5
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZpa4Eu2rC
想睡。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxDr6BTth8c
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡArsIZcxP8E
放下開信刀時，刀尖劃過手腕，留下血痕。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwB2vA38ua
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhH7Dd9B8IH
有意或無意？她自己也說不清楚。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFMdOC0NTE
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgIDQK0tJt
該要馬上包紥傷口。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtm01euKJd5
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsoo36Qg6QW
但看著血流不止的手腕，心裡竟沒有絲毫焦急。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBVxGhkMcw
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzmtJXoqYJ
沒所謂。反正終歸逃不過失去的命運。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡodUXkvNqyu
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDrswnNX5SB
她懶理手腕血流如注，安坐搖搖椅上，對著壓花書籤發愣。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO5qzanK3LE
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxYgFsBGKT
時間流逝，體溫流失，記憶流竄。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCIwn2yrL6
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWkenSGIYx
她的意識逐漸模糊——想不起他的墳頭是甚麼形狀，記不清楚他的冷帽是否以純低針編織而成，忘記了肥料是從哪裡買來的……472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQVuINdUjo
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrKXge0rDC
他的臉和身體分崩離析，成碎，成灰，成粉，最後甚麼也不剩。沒有形體，因其而生的神情動態亦不復存在，遑論聲音、氣味、情感……472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡllvXY4A9X5
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOi1pmkHCLb
被遺忘才是徹底的死亡。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd0pWxf80Fn
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2q9gA7JKTa
她曾痛恨上天帶走他的生命。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0cgPIrU8O
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj44jgiYyRC
現在呢？472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNp0rhLIgG
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8SaCY1WPVb
她主動放棄記住他。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXyR72VzgyU
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZLKE2BUp0
上天或她更可惡可恨？472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0ahykD11d
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZmWbmRD7sh
世上有靈魂嗎？他會怪責她嗎？472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwZTlER9AS
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1EJAKHhZf
「死者已死，沒能怪責。」他的聲音來自壓花書籤：「一切只是生者的心念。」472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4QmVvWR7Pa
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKO9QRCt8w
迴光返照。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8w1nacMghi
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWXhqOC2SZI
她撲前將枱面的書籤摟在懷裡，哭哭笑笑。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV66JIHo9dy
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtRoaT9YZdZ
書籤是書籤，不是他。毋忘我是毋忘我，不是他。回憶裡的他是回憶裡的他，不是他。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ZviKMWErR
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUAtay6Ihu
是她將一切與他扣上關連。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTa6Y87x8Y4
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6HM54ohQR
如果她不復存在，整個世界跟他亦再沒關連……472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgwFxdR93vB
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SMyGckzpo
手腕倏忽劇痛。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcoVygHZq8
醫院。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbcMkTWbnYL
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58W3LporfA
病房裡擠滿前來探病的人，熱鬧非常。唯獨是她床邊兩條通道空蕩蕩的。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡROehWAzAgA
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2g4ooCBdi
不曾期望兒子不會前來，但她心裡難免一陣失落。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmnwIb8u2j
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRR2t819Kq
當時是否不該報警求救呢？472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtcGo5pKYj
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvNbIekQIDT
這念頭生起還沒兩秒，一個小巧身影踏著小跳步來到床邊。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5J5y8yzayO
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoiA8gbdTao
「莊遜太太，午安！」女孩不過十歲，雙頰通紅，眼眸明亮有神。身穿白色連身裙，裙上印滿碎花圖案，是紫藍色的毋忘我。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2SdxvT4Xi
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDsDJUavRbY
「午……安……」她和顔悅色禮貌應道，暗裡搜索枯腸，卻硬是想不起這娃兒是誰。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyauUyqpMSY
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXTNhtZvYm
「喜歡我送你的壓花書籤嗎？」女孩喜孜孜的，不知自己差點兒害死眼前老婦。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwYjQcK0vy
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdlRqq0t0ST
「喜歡。」她強抑心底裡的一陣震驚，輕撫女孩頭頂：「為何你送我書籤呢？」472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGrNpzNSAF
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6PrW4LRKG
「數天前，我和祖母路經你家，看見你跪在草地上，捧著散落的毋忘我痛哭。所以我回家後馬上動手製作壓花書籤。送書籤時湊巧發現你不在家，只好把書籤放入信箱，讓你先睹為快！」女孩從裙袋掏出另外兩張毋忘我書籤送給她。「看！書籤上的毋忘我永不枯萎！多漂亮！」472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8e8wxVXkbY
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrGS5VANiLL
這時，女孩的祖母才拖著蹣跚步伐趕至。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSzPAnNveP
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeN74AgNuSg
原來是鄰居費爾斯太太。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwsLNKWQF7
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEbbWoCS2Eh
十年前，老伴去世後，費爾斯太太每天抽空前來相伴，與她談天說地、為她焗製香氣四溢的果批、陪伴她到市場買肥料……直至孫女出生，費爾斯太太忙著照顧初生小娃，才不得不淡出她的生活圈子。漸漸地，她亦忘記費爾斯太太，變得孤僻木訥……472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQOvrDe9Zh
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOzjyoHt0zD
「小小心意。」憂心不已的費爾斯太太捧上一個毋忘我小盆栽。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWEBTHLuJb
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkV4hrxfSu
「謝謝你們……」她受寵若驚，緩緩伸手接過小盆栽。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8p61Awu17A
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVZD3cD0tG
右手手掌上是鮮活的毋忘我，左手手心裡是永不枯萎的毋忘我。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3l8maOiDW
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡivTZeMVm7i
活的死的都在她手裡，只待她怎麼處理。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcyQucpvAg
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC0xlNsFsib
她打算怎麼處理？472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjRaPlppsi
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9SGZmARL0
未決定。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfGfJik4aqL
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpipRUqsEQ
那就先收拾心情、養好身體吧。472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZup5glvwib
472Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQwJszEdMqe
活著，才可以想及將來、擁抱過去。
