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下午8點，台北市街道上依然車流不斷。座落在路中心旁的義大利麵店內則格外的安靜，我跟女友小柔坐在角落不吭一聲，各自各吃著東西，像是陌生人倂桌，彌漫著尷尬的氣氛。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWn1EPt95gU
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「我們待會去公園坐一下好不好？我有東西想跟你說。」我率先打破沉默，決定要與她坦誠相對。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54scjn43Hh
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「好。」小柔簡短的回應，只低著頭用吸管攪拌著手上的冰茶，看不到她的眼神和表情。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYDc3ItVtX8
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人與人的關係尤其愛情，是很難掌控。有時儘管用盡力氣去喜歡，但結果還是無法做到。有時卻只需看一眼就像陷入瘋狂一樣，無法停止。人最難的就是了解自己，究竟自己為什麼會這樣子？為何回不去那樣子？這些都沒有答案。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbZ0JPU8Ri
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路燈昏暗的公園裡，冷風颼颼，兩人坐在一張長椅上。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUQAkg9Dz7S
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「對不起，我其實很早以前就想跟妳說了，只是我很猶豫。我們還是不太適合。我們......我們還是分手吧。」我不敢直視眼前的女孩，怕她露出什麼樣的表情，讓自己愧疚感更加的劇烈。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeqAF9quZfS
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經過幾秒的寧靜，小柔卻只簡短的回應：「好，再見。」，就拿著袋子急步的離開。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUeKwsFwpRp
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這樣就結束了。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUWVBMcH61
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這段感情沒有轟轟烈烈的結束，只像掉落的枯葉，靜靜的在冷風中消散。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3DQHI7cFA8
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我坐在公園的長椅上仰望著星空。很多回憶湧進了我的思緒，但卻不是小柔，是那個她。與她的一切就像是燦爛的煙火，讓人深刻但卻短暫。我對小柔只有很重的愧疚感，因為自私和孤獨，打擾了她。我還以為可以努力的愛上她，但結果還是不能用最好的自己對待她，我真的是一個很糟糕的人。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvc4ZMnHp6g
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沉重的愧疚感跟空虛，驅使我打給了久沒聯絡的老媽。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWbttq9aIz
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「喂，阿媽，我同女朋友講咗分手。」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7qom54FDC
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片刻的沉默過後，89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCeUqsTUvNh
「咁咪好囉...拖住人反而唔好，翻緊宿舍未？」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCm4wpM9EC
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「未阿，岩岩係公園講完，而家唔知去邊好。」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIX8fvbNAMH
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「翻宿舍啦！都話左你太後生，仲未識咩係愛情，第時出社會先慢慢搵啦！上次已經....總之就快啲翻去啦，唔好搞太夜。」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZoEiYf9bfu
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「知啦。」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG6VEKvYBX8
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為甚麼我是打給老媽而不是老爸呢？也許可能是她有離開我爸的經驗吧，我的本能就是想尋找一個人給我好藉口，讓自己凌亂不堪的思緒安定起來，而且老爸並不知道小柔。唯一一個讓我父母都知道的女友也只有她，那個曾經像是我生命中的月亮女孩。那時候愛人愛的像傻子般的自己、那時候的怔動、大喜大悲的過去，昔日的感覺已經無法再感受一次。妳又怎麼想的呢？小淑。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb1UlnCsQ7O
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（四年前）89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrs2HO858w
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我來到台灣讀書的第一年。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqsCyKubEb0
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「鄭志和？」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpWuU5iP6wZ
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「到！」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrlYbuybykz
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「周業坤？」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVkPm9S4Znd
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「劉家瑜？」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGQMadG3nw
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「到！」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHI0tGifF6
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「李子妮？」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVddYvtVj5Y
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「到！」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhM2uOf3vue
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「張逸晨？」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySXrv5jAMV
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「到！」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeQzaPnz3Bg
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香港學生到台後，學長姐正在點名人數。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE1euGDrqXW
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去台灣的第一年，為了方便人生路不熟的僑生，學校的境外生學生組織提供了接送服務，帶我們去體檢，入住宿舍等等。點完名後，大夥們上了旅遊巴，準備前往學校宿舍。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGDcil5boE
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「覺唔覺得坐前面三行揹住吉他條女幾正？」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFurZEULfgZ
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原本看著窗外的我轉過頭來，原來是那個身材微胖、帶著眼鏡，叫周業坤的男生跟我搭話。而他所指的女生叫李子妮，長髮平陰頭，穿著白色吊帶裙子，皮膚白晢，尤其是那雙修長的腿，真的滿正。阿對了，她是阿坤將來的女朋友。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgwpNJIudSQ
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「恩。」個性比較內向的我微微的點頭，只簡短回了一個肯定。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPZmhtXEoGu
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我創造了幾秒的DEAD AIR後，阿坤再找了一個坐在我們前面的男生搭話，那個男生高高瘦瘦，耳朵帶著一個耳飾，穿著很時髦，有點ＭＫ。他叫鄭志和。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8Hvr6jZOJ
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「你咩系?我中文」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQNQMY4sx3E
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「新聞系」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡld5UsJpIIX
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「企管系」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RgIHqQ3Vd
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「你．．．．．．」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUmjVD3JJ1b
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我們在車上簡單的互相介紹了一下自己，初步的聊了一下。原來他們兩個都比我大，97年生的我是他們之中的老么。那時候真的沒想過他們還有另外兩個人將是陪伴我度過台灣四年青春年華的兄弟。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcy3amXifIi
到達學校，我們到了學校的中央廣場集合，排隊拿取來台前就訂購好的生活用品，準備進入宿舍。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4p6fqYtURs
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「那現在大家請排隊拿取之前訂購的物資，有訂購床具的人請先過來這邊！」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8sbAZ8bnn
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境外會一名幹部在學校的中央廣場喊話。眾人紛紛按地區個別排隊等候物資分發。我們學校算是一個滿「東亞化」的大學，僑生裡面有來自不同地區的人，有來自香港、澳門、韓國、日本還有其中最多的是馬來西亞跟中國大陸。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdnI5uaUc3
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而剛好香港的隊伍在馬來西亞的隔壁。作為一名來台之前沒看過馬來西亞妹子的真男人，當然立即掃描了一下隔壁隊伍的風景。恩，果然很不錯。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL2dM0rl9Es
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「請問這裡是馬來西亞的隊伍嗎？」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUfDHqzO2J0
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突然有一個操著馬來西亞腔調的國語，輕柔動人的女聲從我後面傳來。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNlSWmvLPQ
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轉過頭來，她紮著馬尾、五官標緻、有著一雙好像要把你的心都要吸進去的明亮眼睛，身上還有一陣清香。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZTy6368qN
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「恩......阿......這裡...香港.....那邊才是馬來西亞...」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2KdG2UWpB
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我頓時像有語言障礙的傻子，骨子裡的「毒撚」魂又在蠢蠢欲動，不敢直視她的眼睛。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE5gfVpWwqB
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「謝謝！」跟我道謝後，她走回自己的隊伍。而我的眼睛卻一直離不開她的背影。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXWi4PRjr0M
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一直看著馬來西亞的隊伍，輪到她了。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJQ5JZz8Z2U
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「妳的名字是張怡淑？對嗎？」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGEdk1GHCW
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「對！」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4RgvNgD6Cn
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怡淑...真是很特別的名字。如果不是看到她本人還以為是個朝鮮阿姨的名字，不過現在這兩個字只讓我想到她的眼睛、她的臉蛋、還有她的香味。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgWhYn89qO8
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怡淑...張怡淑....怡淑....滿腦子都是她的名字。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ44u3orYuqN
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「張逸晨係唔係度？」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3x9e8xqTf
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「你係咪張逸晨？」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnlZ6KsRr7q
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「喂！！！」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiSnQbRdrZU
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「阿晨！」旁邊的阿和拍了一下我的肩膀，回過神來，看到臉很臭的香港幹部在面前盯著我。額，原來輪到我了。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9nKKuRjDR5
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「佢岩岩叫左你好多次，你搞咩」89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNb9vhcB1DX
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「係車度已經係咁，我發覺你都幾中意發呆。」阿坤竊笑89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3IwafJkvSq
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真是的！在香港的時候已經被朋友老是講我發呆，這不叫發呆，這叫若有所思好嗎？I am a thinker!89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ZNLpLB4Dn
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那時我腦海裡都是那個月亮女孩，張怡淑。89Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJl68E2Z8o7
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