兒玄玖叩父母膝下39Please respect copyright.PENANATUyt86Ccxh
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玄玖三載未修髮,青絲及膝,此刻下榻處窗外見芳草,綿延無盡,離鄉長思,未有一夜止,惟眺南北月色同消長矣。39Please respect copyright.PENANAv1HzUkGLui
然玄玖不肖,長日於外,已不識歸途,既尋無歸途,玄玖慎思數日,決意隨風飄搖,叩首訣別,莫尋莫念,就作未曾有玄玖。39Please respect copyright.PENANAocbCzZnwBb
望父母珍重身體,勿勞勿憂,以享松鶴之年,兄嫂和諧相敬,同心同影,以盼石榴之福。39Please respect copyright.PENANAe7n1xdqJA4
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三月三日 兒玄玖叩別39Please respect copyright.PENANAGDEhSk4zRa
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月照清荷冷,露潤浮葉輕,不畏自濁池,風骨傲孤挺。雨玄玖獨坐池畔,臨月賞荷,身旁酒一壺相伴,酒過數盞,壺已半空,池裡荷花似乎給人折了,他數日前來看是滿池清紅,今夜只餘一株。39Please respect copyright.PENANAbfTtWuxJP8
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他在春末寄出最後一封家書便離開長安,搭船直下江南,在西北生長的他少見秀水澤池風光,便多流連了些時日,南方軟風不同於北方烈風凜凜如刃,撫來是柔柳搔面頰,絲絲纏綿,朱陽映碧湖雖美,他仍是心底思念北方晚放更怒豔的桃花。39Please respect copyright.PENANAqvNSm7tFG6
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如今已入仲夏,隨處可見荷花玉立,客棧裡吃飯,常見蓮房魚包或藕梢鲊,都是江南纔有景色,雨玄玖望池中孤荷,想三年來獨自過山踏水遊歷。39Please respect copyright.PENANAGQpnECieV7
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當年離家他先是向西,沿商路到了涼州城,城內盡見奇服異族,色目高鼻花繡袍,入夜是天淨月高,胡姬旋舞弄琵琶;出了城是連山長水,孤鷹展翅穹無盡,又見荒土大漠,飛蹄奔馬揚沙漫天。折返後他初入長安,見識帝都內朱門高樓,馬車人流川不息;至夜百家浮燈,樓裡華服美饌奢靡音,盤纏沒了,隨意入一間客棧就能找到活。待盤纏掙足了,再向東北直至太原,登北嶽恆山,俯瞰河北山勢,起伏錯落翠綿延;抵達雲中時冬日已至,荒草曠野,銀風厲雪凍人面,待到入春他纔動身往南,沿長江東去,飽覽河畔富庶風光。39Please respect copyright.PENANAf3DfvERs4J
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飄泊日子雖無安逸,卻也是無牽無掛,柳絮憑風遙,天地廣闊,他無須紮根一處,便不停流轉各地,旅途上識得的人們,也總是不告便別。39Please respect copyright.PENANAhatj0GIaKT
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人生只願若清荷,不枝不蔓,不依不附,遺世獨立水中央。39Please respect copyright.PENANAAXddVvRDS4
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三年之期晃眼便至,雨玄玖依舊是一身離家時穿的黛黑胡衣裝束,磨舊痕跡盡染他沿途所經風霜,即使珍惜著穿,仍是綻了縫口,曾有寄宿人家的女兒替他縫補,但出了城沒多久就在商道外的小徑遇上劫匪,打了一架縫線又脫了,從此未再補過。他當初帶出門的值錢物品惟有父親贈的長劍璇璣與兄長送的墨玉玉佩,如今還留著,即使遭遇飢寒,也未曾想過要典當換錢。39Please respect copyright.PENANAwykV1YYwDy
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當時他人在長安,離鄉已近,但過慣了與人聚散無常的日子,便不願回去再長受眷顧,牽纏人情,又憶起胭胭最後瞧他的忿怨神情,思量許久他終是寫了一紙訣別信請人捎回去,繼續浪跡天涯。39Please respect copyright.PENANAlINe5gFGYs
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當雨玄玖再度落腳江南,白菊正團開擬月圓,他在下榻的客棧裡替住客跑腿辦差以換食宿,今日一位來客要辦禮送人,他聽著對方點數的貨品,手裡疾筆一一抄下,等人付銀錢時他收拾筆墨,頭也沒抬。39Please respect copyright.PENANAj8FRZ4qEq6
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那人忽然擭住他肩頭,激動直呼:「你是⋯⋯玄玖!沒錯,雨春生的小兒子玄玖呀!」聽他喊出名,雨玄玖心口一跳,抬起頭望見對方瞠眼直瞪他,那面目他不認得卻眼熟,想是家中熟人。39Please respect copyright.PENANAUYZKrN4LmR
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他垂下目光,故作冷態否認,「客官認錯了。」39Please respect copyright.PENANAoYeVifIBm4
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「別說謊!你就是玄玖呀!我是許縣丞許伯啊,你怎麼在這兒給人使喚?啊?」對方托起雨玄玖面頰,眼裡詫異憐惜兩交雜,「你父親去世啦!竟然逗留在這麼遠地方,春生剩一口氣的時候還惦著你,一直唸著你不回家還有哪裡可去,哎!你忒不孝,他雖未生你卻也是拉拔你成人呀!」39Please respect copyright.PENANABlf96VRSeT
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「客官真認錯了。」雨玄玖退後幾步,儘管心中錯愕也未承認身份。39Please respect copyright.PENANAYCup8L17Al
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許縣丞卻不肯罷手,二人拉扯起來,旁人見了紛紛窸窣低語,雨玄玖抵不過對方糾纏,應邀共進晚膳,纔知父親患肺病去世,苦等他回去卻沒等著,豁之兄讀了信對他悖約不能諒解,在父親榻前切齒痛罵了他一頓,許縣丞要雨玄玖待他辦妥事了同他回鄉去,雨玄玖不肯,便趁夜深收拾包袱離開客棧,在城門前待到天亮門開就出城。39Please respect copyright.PENANAsYx0h7Km5t
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昔日樹茂參天壯健軀,今時葉凋鋪土憔悴骨,惟嘆鬼伯一何相催促,人命不得稍踟躕。39Please respect copyright.PENANAigP3P4bAxz
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縱然痛悔,可至此他已無顏面對家人,當初寄出書信本就是抱著了斷緣份的心思,若相見傷感,不見也罷。39Please respect copyright.PENANAIe5bnGhaSm
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雨玄玖本就嗜酒,爾後更是日日買醉,白日掙的錢入夜就買酒喝,惟盼酒酣耳熱忘悲意,可每當日出酒醒,頭疼目眩間愁緒更纏綿。39Please respect copyright.PENANAOINtNKdHRP
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夜夢時分他總見兒時舊憶,他與豁之兄在父親書房裡看父親寫字,二人各一套紙筆在一旁習字,習寫的詩是父親所作,他習得認真,直到硯裡的墨乾涸,一抬眼,父親身影竟化煙而散,不留一塵,豁之兄揪著他急問把父親弄哪了,喝聲要他找回,他便驚醒過來。或見胭胭凌空飄浮,身子晃蕩,緊緊跟隨在他身後,他跑遍整座家院也甩不開,停下腳步回望,驚見一條白綾布將她懸吊樑上,她臉色慘白,凸著一雙幽怨眼睛直瞪他,淌出白沬的嘴蠕動著說話,不停唸著要與他終生相纏,轉醒後他便不敢再睡下。39Please respect copyright.PENANAoUj23uyxKO
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如此夢魘纏枕榻,他比從前更難安眠,不思飲食又成日酗酒,面頰很快就消瘦下去,心上悲戚一日日蠶食他而茁壯,悔意則是那滔滔江水,一浪推一浪,無可回奔過往,多少當初,都如江上浮月撈不得。正是應了胭胭最後一句話,他流浪四方不長駐一處,一如亡命天涯,卻始終逃不過壓在心上的那幢暗影,日夜糾纏,永無止境。39Please respect copyright.PENANAqBChrk8sSh
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天地蒼茫,無一處是他歸依,他人總嫌人生苦短若蜉蝣,而之於他猶如春草綿千里,悠無盡,忒漫長。39Please respect copyright.PENANAqKojrKeEf8