話說雪菡對程璿宇起了懷疑,讓凝淞跟著去漢中探究竟,這一探可不得了,探出他和源子煜之間的隱密事兒來,可把雪菡對他多年來的疑惑不解一氣揭清楚了,這會兒程璿宇還不知東窗事發,坐在書房裏看閒書,到了晚飯時間,綺疏過來喊他,說雪菡已經在飯廳等了。80Please respect copyright.PENANA7YanwQNJ3U
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程璿宇起身走出書房,綺疏跟在一旁提醒了一句:「我看娘子眼睛紅著,不知道什麼事哭過了,掛露她們不跟我說,你等會兒皮繃緊點罷。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAq7yxyBRWpg
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「知道了。」程璿宇把今日的事略想了一回,想不起有哪兒惹雪菡不高興的,便忐忑起來,拖沓了腳步。80Please respect copyright.PENANATTeK6Fnkec
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他和綺疏進了飯廳,見雪菡直端端坐在飯桌前,掛露站一旁,雪菡柳眉不展,一雙本來水靈的眼睛腫如杏核,紅如雞冠,臉蛋上連魂魄都沒了似的寂寥,與平時嬌俏可愛的樣兒迥然不同,讓程璿宇瞧了心底一陣涼,感受到一室低抑氣兒,但他還是走到桌前坐了。80Please respect copyright.PENANANoK92VxKix
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「哎,眼睛怎麼腫的?下午不是去吃茶了麼?遇上什麼不高興的了?」程璿宇神情微訝,語氣心疼問道。80Please respect copyright.PENANAs5Sww9eESk
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「先吃飯再說罷。」雪菡冷冷道,看也沒看程璿宇一眼,率先拿起筷子挾菜。80Please respect copyright.PENANAQBXCLwU0CZ
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程璿宇沒再接話,跟著動筷吃飯,他悄悄琢磨雪菡臉色,想不是談天閒話的時候,便安靜吃自己的,偶爾給她挾些菜,雪菡也是一語不發,有一口沒一口地吃菜,很是意興闌珊。80Please respect copyright.PENANAGLZAbu50XY
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「知道妳不高興,不過還是多吃些罷,吃飽了心情纔能緩些。」程璿宇往雪菡碗裏挾了塊她愛吃的火肉,好聲勸道。80Please respect copyright.PENANAQLSPysIkx5
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「不吃也是氣飽了。」雪菡卻是與程璿宇一個瞪眼,語氣慍然,脾氣明明白白向著他來。80Please respect copyright.PENANAZWZ91P9xtW
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「那麼等氣消就該餓了,還是再吃些罷,不然我餵妳吃罷?」程璿宇則一如往常溫柔好氣哄她,挾了菜作勢要送到她嘴前。80Please respect copyright.PENANAOoHU9XJDzp
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雪菡不理他,自己挾菜吃,又草草吃了幾口就擱下筷子站起來,「不吃了,你吃罷,吃完了到房裏來。」說罷她也不等程璿宇答話,兀自走出去,掛露跟著去了。80Please respect copyright.PENANAW0Ns7yOtiU
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程璿宇嘆一口氣,眼前一桌都是香濃味重的菜色,卻是食之無味,綺疏在旁邊彎腰下來,低聲疑惑道:「娘子好像知道什麼了,怪了,我把凝淞看管得好好的呀。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAAoy4W7AIAP
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「該來的總要來,看著辦就是。」程璿宇平靜答道,沒事似地慢慢吃碗裏飯菜,面上卻籠一層灰。80Please respect copyright.PENANANpTrJD0c8A
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就算磨磨蹭蹭也總是用完飯了,程璿宇走索一般戰戰兢兢,一步一步向寢室去,掀開帘子進去,見雪菡倚在妝臺前坐著,瞥見他來了便轉身過來。80Please respect copyright.PENANA2nxHeEyKpH
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程璿宇挪椅子坐到雪菡跟前,直望她發紅的眼睛問道:「有什麼要跟我說的麼?今日發生什麼事了?」他握了握雪菡擱在膝上的手問道。80Please respect copyright.PENANAlASgQ2lpP7
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雪菡瞧程璿宇的眼光又亮又利,彷彿是一道銀光照過來,有些刺人,「凝淞說你跟源公子要好得難分難捨呢,時常待在你屋子裏。」她話似閒聊,語氣卻分明是質問。80Please respect copyright.PENANAI7QyUYsdZg
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程璿宇心上一繃,卻作不知她意圖,輕鬆答道:「哪有到難分難捨那樣誇張,就一塊研究功課,他又愛串門子。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAuhItfwxsHI
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「功課都做得很晚麼?」雪菡卻一臉不信。80Please respect copyright.PENANA5ZXJULZYux
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「時常是這樣,弄著弄著就忘記時間了,有時候是看書、玩玉、玩牌、喝酒之類。」程璿宇把二人平日相處照實說了。80Please respect copyright.PENANAbD0HbwOTBB
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「喝醉了麼?」80Please respect copyright.PENANAG8WbCmVLrp
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「怎麼這樣問?」80Please respect copyright.PENANAY3qg2RvqZY
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「凝淞說他常在你房裏睡。」雪菡嗓音清響若錚錚玉石碰聲,這會兒是說到點上了。80Please respect copyright.PENANAetVqYLk2Yb
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程璿宇仍是不動聲色,目光偏開一些,微微笑了,「子煜他啊,喝酒沒個節制,醉了睡著就叫不醒,只好讓他在我那兒睡了。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAif1F3Yw26n
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啪地一響,程璿宇臉上一陣熱麻麻地,纔知道自己挨了一記耳刮子。80Please respect copyright.PENANA7s0nOC2DGU
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「你還裝傻!你至於跟那些小官一個樣賣色麼!凝淞都跟我說了!」雪菡眼裏有火有水,火燒得烈,水則一傾成瀾,搖墜墜淌出來,「她說你那時、你那時⋯⋯」她語氣跟人兒一樣顫抖不已,話噎在喉頭好半天沒能出來。 80Please respect copyright.PENANAu5uDBai1mT
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「你就跟個⋯⋯女人一樣!是把我當什麼、把你自己當什麼了!」她氣勢凌凌罵著便又是一個耳刮子甩在程璿宇臉上。80Please respect copyright.PENANAfUUJHtjQSl
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程璿宇先是怔忪了,旋即著急否認:「不是,雪菡——」80Please respect copyright.PENANAhfHbVcjvkC
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「你居然對我撒謊了。」雪菡不可置信直哭道,「你跟綺疏兩個倒好,一塊防著凝淞呢,你也是心裏有鬼的罷!」80Please respect copyright.PENANApeAaHqA5ar
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程璿宇見她都知道了,只得恍恍地小聲承認:「是一時鬼迷心竅了。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAm0x2oAiuP7
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雪菡揚揚嘴角卻不是笑,冷悽悽嘲諷道:「是鬼迷心竅了呢,一個堂堂的男人居然甘願像個⋯⋯像個⋯⋯哎!你雷劈腦子成混帳了,不要臉了麼!」80Please respect copyright.PENANApjTzckPMWI
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聽雪菡把重話都說了,程璿宇眼光怯怯落到她膝前,全然不敢瞧她神情,說話又卑屈,又是小心翼翼:「我實是不該,就是酒喝多了誤事,反悔了纔沒敢讓妳知道的,雪菡,我心裏——」80Please respect copyright.PENANAXxMi7GLXbv
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「都好幾回了,每回都反悔麼?甭再騙我了,這些年我還不知道麼?你心思哪在我這兒了?我同他人哪有差別?對我是那樣,又不近女色,原來就是只有龍陽之好麼?」雪菡哭喊著一氣都說了,一下一下猛朝程璿宇心窩捶打,他給捶得身子頻頻向後晃。80Please respect copyright.PENANAptGvFKicrG
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程璿宇什麼也答不出口,就這麼承下她脾氣,他實是沒臉反抗或逃開一丁點。80Please respect copyright.PENANAf0fbe9O0As
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打了一陣雪菡總算是罷手,只餘一絮絮抽泣聲,程璿宇悄悄瞥她臉蛋,瞧見她眼睛紅糊糊地,都要沁出血似的,不忍再看便又別開眼了。80Please respect copyright.PENANAM9fl8qwwiw
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「都這樣久了,今日我倆就把話都說清楚罷,你就是不愛女人,偏偏著迷那樣的妖媚貨兒是麼?」雪菡冷靜了些,徐徐說道,可話裏悲愾是無可抑下。80Please respect copyright.PENANATQTjuh9k2X
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這話程璿宇聽來是直椎入心,極深極刺,他闔了闔眼,喘了幾口氣纔能緩過來答話,嗓音微弱了無力氣:「不是,真的就是那時候神智不清楚了,是我錯了。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAnQmCYsjf86
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雪菡聽了叫起來,眼淚再度落如驟雨,「啊——他還能讓你神智不清著就給壓到床上去了,那就是真真愛男人了!我就不懂了,不都像女人麼?假的可以,真的怎麼就不行了?」她伸手去揪程璿宇衣襟,「你看著我,說呀!」80Please respect copyright.PENANAxHrGbE5m0x
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程璿宇鎖緊眉心想嘆氣,卻還是抬起頭望向雪菡,二人慘白著臉色愣在那兒,相顧無言好半晌,他終於淡淡吐一句:「是我對不住妳,真真對不住。」80Please respect copyright.PENANArRttXrR3t0
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這話一出算是認了,雪菡又放聲哭起來,「我跟你⋯⋯夜夜睡同隻枕頭十年了,都比不上麼?他就讓你那樣著魔麼?寧可扔了男人尊嚴。」她說得極是淒愴悲絕,程璿宇聽得不忍,又不敢摀上耳朵。80Please respect copyright.PENANAX1Eo1KRe8M
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「不是。」他定定否認道。80Please respect copyright.PENANAqsvZMQAmLI
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「你倆都那樣了,不是他,那還能是誰?」80Please respect copyright.PENANAKIlOebpcVM
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「總之不是子煜。」80Please respect copyright.PENANALlSJGcyR2n
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「那麼是哪個人讓你這樣不敢說的?」雪菡窮追著問不肯放過,一股非要今兒就扒開一切的決絕氣勢,把程璿宇衣襟都扯開了,「說呀你!」80Please respect copyright.PENANAeSxuyYjEZL
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拖磨著非要他說,真不如多摑幾個耳刮子,或就這麼把他給打死了乾脆俐落啊!80Please respect copyright.PENANAPesnyRnbdk
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「是子煜。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAxeoEe1fvSY
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話語纔落程璿宇就見雪菡手揚了起來,他也不閃躲,就眼看那隻手疾疾往自己臉上招來,實實地又是一陣刺疼。80Please respect copyright.PENANACP9ahGmITj
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生在這樣富貴人家,他還真真沒有勇氣承認自己家有金貴嬌妻、年輕美妾不愛,反倒鍾情一個下九流的戲子,更不要說那人還是個一身雄陽之氣的,哪還有尊嚴?哪還有體統?80Please respect copyright.PENANA2f3EF0aceP
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但要說他對雪菡就無情,也是不實了,畢竟十年的同床共枕,哪能捨得?思及此他便眼前一片瀅瀅,濡了眼眶,極是疲憊地輕喃道:「其餘的都與妳了,就不夠麼?」這句話他藏在心底許久,沒料想到會有說出來的一日。80Please respect copyright.PENANA3gbFs6gN5o
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「與再多又如何?你分明清楚我要的不是這些,我不高興、我不高興!就是因為你什麼都與了,可我要的不與!」80Please respect copyright.PENANAP30eWHDrBp
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程璿宇別開臉,悠悠嘆息,任憑他強忍,仍是二道清淚粼粼霑頰面。80Please respect copyright.PENANAF1ssOQ5SNP
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啊,怎麼就不能似這般花花草草由人戀,生生死死隨人願—--80Please respect copyright.PENANAGOXikZRpTm
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隨後任憑雪菡如何嘶喊哭鬧,翻了妝臺上胭脂香膏,弄得一地糊,程璿宇就只是獃坐在旁邊,一字也不肯再吭,默默落淚,由她發洩,掛露這纔過來瞧,他卻說自己看著就行,把人打發出去了。待雪菡終於哭盡力氣,人軟軟倒在妝檯上,程璿宇扶她到上床躺了,叫來掛露交代她在床帳子裏點安神的香,便走出寢室。綺疏就坐在起居室,見他眼神憔悴,頰上又通紅,知道是挨打了,要給他敷些藥,他卻什麼也沒說,只叫她備熱水來洗臉,再拿一床棉被出來,當晚去書房睡了。