天明了,妳躺在我身旁,寧靜躺在床上,我吞下了一整個罐子的有毒物質,靜靜地躺在沙發上,隨著意識的消失而死去。
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回想起初,妳是我第一個看到最勇敢的女孩。
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因為不願意再次被送進病房,於是毅然決然地離開前男友,搬到我這同班同學的家中。
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一開始,妳隱瞞得癌症的事實,直到我送妳進入癌症的加護病房,才知道妳患了癌末。
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猶記得是一個炎熱的下午,我正躺在床上,享受著冷氣的吹拂。
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「給我起床!你答應帶我去遊樂園的!」妳說著。
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我被她的眼淚與懇求鬧到不行,勉強起身,起來刷牙洗臉,想說只是隨意的挑件衣服。
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「不可以,今天你跟我要穿白色衣服與牛仔褲,一起當個情侶!今天是情人節!!」她一直說著,拿了一套從我的衣櫃中的白襯衫與牛仔褲出來!
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「可是妳今天要回醫院....」我回答。
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「那是下午的事,早上我們可以去空中花園玩。你答應過不可以虧負我的!」她嘟著嘴說!
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「要先吃藥物再去!」我決定要讓她不再進入加護病房,所以強迫她硬是服下醫師囑咐的標靶藥,才出發去空中花園。
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難得的,每次不去面對醫生,她總是最高興的。
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「醫生,檢查結果如何?」我問。
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「目前有些轉移狀態。你得知道,她經不起一個小意外!要不要安排她住院療養?或許可以好得更快?」醫生說。
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當我選擇到櫃檯辦住院手續,她像失去控制的病人,直說不要!
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很想強迫她,可是她的狀況又讓醫生差點要打鎮定劑!
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這樣的狀況不止一次,就只能每次陪她回診,最多狀況需要住院,一住就一個月。
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「就說了,我絕對是吉人天相,很快就好了!」她說著,似乎住院是不用的!?
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「好呦!真的很強,我的小公主。」我收起擔憂的神情,勉強笑了出來。
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「我要吃簡餐,你出錢?」她縮在我胸前,小聲的說。
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「好!等下醫院餐廳吃,我們得先拿藥?」我說。
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「又是拿藥?」她企圖鑽出我的擁抱,我卻摟著她,走去醫院的藥局。
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「說真的,可以不吃藥?」她企圖轉到這個話題,我沒有妥協。
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「我可不想比妳短命,妳說過要陪我一起度過後年的生日!」對於生日是四年一次的我,妳是如此重要。
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「知道啦!潤年生日,一次老四歲。」俏皮的說著,好像剛剛沒發生什麼事一樣。
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我無話可回,只知道自己已經被妳抓牢,再也離不開了!
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這天,妳的身體不適,我趕到妳上班的教室,還是學員長打電話給我。我開著自己的計程車,趕到幼兒園。
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「她不停冒汗,無法直起腰。我們不能處理。倒是打了119。之後才聯絡你。」學員長緊張的說完,我連忙感謝,趕往醫院。
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轉往原本處理妳的病症的醫院,醫生對我說了以下的話。
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「她的癌細胞已經轉移,要再次化療!」醫生說了,我的神情顯得無助。
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我在與醫生談完後,見到她的第一面,要告訴她必須化療時,她只是大笑。
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「只是住院吧!我可以再次休息一個月,然後⋯」看見妳那無所謂的神情,替你擔心。
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(妳難道不知道妳現在的癌細胞轉移了?或者只是為了不讓我擔心?)
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「你發呆了嗎?還是我依舊可愛?」妳說著。
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我只能搖頭,沒說什麼。
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我為了可以讓妳不覺得奇怪,特地把頭髮剃光,因為妳也沒了頭髮!
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「搞什麼?把我的頭髮剃光?」妳不滿的帶著毛帽,遮住沒有頭髮的頭頂。
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「小姐,我也陪妳一起剃光頭了呦!」我說著,可是好像她希望的不是這樣!
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「我不想失去頭髮!更不想失去你!」她壓抑不住的大哭,原本醫生要打鎮定劑,我阻止了醫生。
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「別哭了,無論如何我都陪妳。」我將她擁入懷中,她用著淚汪汪的眼神看著我!
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漸漸地,她用著極為緩慢的適應能力接受一次次的化療與標靶藥物治療!
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我會在她最需要我陪伴時盡力的在她身旁。
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日子過得很快,也很殘酷!
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她整整地瘦了一圈,無論吃喝什麼全吐出來。
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終於,醫生決定讓她離開加護病房,轉到普通病房!
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我帶著魚湯,至少聽老人家說對生病的人很好。
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「可以出院了嗎?」她邊喝邊問著我!
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「說好替我慶生的呦。」我說。
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「可以提前慶祝嗎?順道慶祝我出院?」她說著,似乎期待我肯定的回答。
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「醫生在沒有說可以之前不行出院。」我堅決地神情說。
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「可是真的很無聊!食物又不好吃!」她假意眼神飄到另外一個方向,眼尾卻瞄向我。
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「出院後保證陪妳吃好吃的!可是得將身體顧好!」我說。
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幾個月過去,她脫離了醫院的限制,醫生說她可以回家!
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我付了醫療費用,那麼龐大的一半筆錢,所幸之前她的保險撐了很多!
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我帶她到了醫院地下室餐廳吃了一份簡餐,那是她吃過最有味道的一份食物了。
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「你吃飽囉!?」她問我。
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「我眼前的不是嗎?」我指著我面前的空盤,咖哩飯的殘渣依稀可見!
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「看起來你比我還餓?」她似乎意有所指的說!?
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「妳專心吃好飯,我就心安了。」我說。
於是我們回到了家,她一躺在客廳的沙發,完全陷在沙發的柔軟,邊吵著要吃肯德基!
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「醫生有交代,妳的飲食要清淡!我決定自己下廚煮一頓晚餐,給妳接風!」我便開始找尋起冰箱內的食材。
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她打開電視,完全沒有想太多,轉開某台的愛情偶像劇,隨著哭笑。
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這樣的日子,直到那日,妳已經無力再抗衡病魔,躺在沙發上等著我從醫院帶標靶藥物時,妳已經死了。之後無人再想起妳。
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