三日後,她化着淡妝,穿上A字短裙,身上掛着個黑色chanel 斜肩袋的出現在大圍地鐵站前。515Please respect copyright.PENANAyBSE3vdMDi
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我爲了隆重其事,也不忘穿上襯衫加牛仔褲,打扮得斯文得體。 515Please respect copyright.PENANA5G75NNlRnG
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「冇見過你着恤衫嘅?」 515Please respect copyright.PENANAOMTulpNaHc
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「除咗去自修室之外,我都冇同過你出街!」說畢這句,我不禁苦笑。 515Please respect copyright.PENANAdgE4dvkioi
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「哦,係喎!咁我哋去邊呀?」515Please respect copyright.PENANA1QCnJPNXlF
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「誒......原本諗住踩單車, 但你着緊裙,都係最好唔好踩喇。喺呢到附近行吓啦。」 515Please respect copyright.PENANAqHCZUSFdXr
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「咁都係嘅,仲有呀,我其實唔識踩單車。」她尷尬的笑着,仿似一陣冷風吹來,使對話凝結到冰點。515Please respect copyright.PENANAN0uwEHXMWV
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「唔緊要!周圍都有唔少好嘢食嘅。可以行吓㗎!」 515Please respect copyright.PENANAfwjUgV40ZY
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「都得嘅,不過我好少食街邊嘢。」她也好像有點無奈。515Please respect copyright.PENANAtbSyPNz3Ha
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「咁你有冇邊度想去呀?」我實在不知道她的喜好。515Please respect copyright.PENANAwikXDKR8I2
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「不如去商場啦!我好熱呀!」原本我還計劃着和她在附近踏踏單車,再沿着大圍道走走,就到附近吃糖水,豈料她只是想到商場享受冷氣。515Please respect copyright.PENANAyXa0DZIm8a
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「但呢到冇咩商場好行喎。」大圍道本來就只有十幾層樓高的平房,有何來有大商場逛呢?515Please respect copyright.PENANAvaD8fEHZxD
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「咁呀......去又一城啦!都係搭一個站啫。」原來她也一早想好了目的地。515Please respect copyright.PENANAnn5MmSKk2s
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「好啊!」我們乘着地鐵到達又一城。515Please respect copyright.PENANAbOzLO5fVaC
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說真的,我可對這商場的商鋪不太了解,只見商場的最底層已全是名牌店,而我也跟她順着樓層在每一層悠閒地遊走。515Please respect copyright.PENANApcwDBIdBH2
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「嘩!呢個袋好靚呀!呢隻色好似係啱啱新出㗎咋!」她指着某名店櫥窗上的人形公仔叫嚷。515Please respect copyright.PENANAenMzhPY2r0
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縱使她不會要求我送名牌給她,但也沒理由看着她羨慕的樣子而不爲所動吧。爲免這種情形繼續下去,我提議了到無印買文具。 515Please respect copyright.PENANA0voFsn6V7N
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「你睇下,呢支筆隻色好靚呀!你覺得我買唔買好啊?」她在無印從琳琅滿目的貨品中取出一支淺黃色的原子筆在試紙上畫了個心。 515Please respect copyright.PENANApwNyyEG77Q
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「你鍾意咪買囉!」黃色既不顯色,又不實用,買來又是爲何? 515Please respect copyright.PENANAr7m80n0s0m
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「好呀!你隨便揀,我畀錢!」文具可算是我最有能力負擔的禮物了,現在不請客,恐怕反倒要她請客了。515Please respect copyright.PENANAATpoQfx34m
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「一件純棉恤衫,三支原子筆,一半活頁筆記簿,盛惠435蚊呀唔該!」我有點遲疑地掏出五百大元,想不到外表看似實而不華的貨品纔是最貴的。515Please respect copyright.PENANA8IKU17euXj
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「不如我哋食飯之前去溜冰呀!我好耐冇溜喇!」她捉緊我的手,興奮的把手上下搖曳。515Please respect copyright.PENANAsOkm20j6f9
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「我唔識溜冰喎,你教我呀!」我一次都末踏足過溜冰場,也不打算學溜冰,只是在她的份上才去嘗試一下。 515Please respect copyright.PENANA97xkYwxQS1
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「嘩!你啲平衡力咁差㗎!又話識踩單車嘅?你自己揸住條柱練習下行路先啦!」說罷她便走到空曠的溜冰場中心優雅地旋轉,徑自跳起曼妙的舞蹈。515Please respect copyright.PENANACVSbEPfqyU
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我自問天資愚笨,她放棄教導我也是應該的。 看着她在遠處自由自在地滑翔,我卻在原地爲學會走路而掙扎,仿似連上天也在諷刺我永遠也不能接近她。 515Please respect copyright.PENANA5L21VNP2Un
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好不容易,我捱過了在溜冰場的痛苦時光,接下來的晚餐又是一大考驗。515Please respect copyright.PENANAeXRkWW8cEF
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「要個mediterranean sea bass 呀, 唔該!」死得!這裏點餐要用英文的嗎?明明餐牌上就有中文名字呀!515Please respect copyright.PENANAwXEb5ff7iE
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「咁要個一號餐呀,唔該!」幸好自己有點小聰明,讀套餐的數字就可以避過說英文的情況了。515Please respect copyright.PENANA6Orgn7AhNJ
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看着豆腐樣般微型的菜式,她興高采烈地拍了不同角度的食物照片,就像比吃食物本身更滿足般。515Please respect copyright.PENANAzeYwQiVaqr
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「幾好食喎!」這間餐廳是她選的,不說好吃難道要批評它份量少,價錢高嗎? 515Please respect copyright.PENANAwAnK39PE4n
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「係咩?我覺得個魚有啲韌,同埋個醬有啲杰得濟,冇咗嗰種creamy嘅感覺囉!」真想不到原來她會批評食物質素。 515Please respect copyright.PENANAdAi78bosik
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「唔緊要啦!下次去第度食囉!我俾錢先!」515Please respect copyright.PENANARh2MorNdxf
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「吓!等陣,我哋分開比啦!」她連忙阻止了我,並慢吞吞的掏出錢包,可在此時,侍應已用不耐煩的神情盯着我。515Please respect copyright.PENANAHGbqwjwVOY
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「喂?媽眯?我喺又一城呀!你哋喺附近可以車埋我?好啊!」她獨自回覆電話。515Please respect copyright.PENANAWCcrIANlZM
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她再向我瞧了一眼,道:「可唔可以車埋我朋友呀?」515Please respect copyright.PENANA1bwBD1HWzS
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「好嘢!你有車搭喇!」她眯起眼睛笑,就像小孩子般可愛。515Please respect copyright.PENANAKSgKAzTeEK
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「唔係幾好意思㗎?」我爲免尷尬,便多番推搪。 515Please respect copyright.PENANAXVx2TBukwN
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最終,我也被她的熱情降服,上了她父母的七人車。實不相瞞,這是我第一次坐上私家車,感受着軟硬適中的皮椅上爲疲憊的身子帶來一點放鬆。 515Please respect copyright.PENANAkTv21oz019
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「呀女,佢喺你......朋友呀?」她皺起眉頭,把我身體每一部分都不放過的用眼睛掃描一遍。 515Please respect copyright.PENANAXKCZe5oOs0
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「係呀!佢叫呀謙!」 515Please respect copyright.PENANArY84COSfTM
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「男女之間唔好叫得咁親密啦!人地會尷尬㗎嘛!係咪呀同學仔?」她像是要警戒人般盯着我。 515Please respect copyright.PENANAS1XcJG3uv6
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「係......」 「同學仔,你想邊度落呀?」相比之下,她父親以更平易近人的態度向我說話。515Please respect copyright.PENANAhy052CFaqE
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「誒.......大圍地鐵站得㗎喇!」我才不會跟別人說自己住公屋。515Please respect copyright.PENANAPXY8dodpTq
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「唔喺屋企樓下落呀?咁咪要行好遠囉!」 515Please respect copyright.PENANAWKDSRIMgTe
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「真係唔使㗎喇!我有嘢要去地鐵站附近買!」我隨便亂編個藉口,試圖擺脫他咄咄逼人的話語。515Please respect copyright.PENANA2ELDOL0UCN
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「好喇!拜拜!」幸好車程只需幾分鐘,我不用多久就可以離開那寬敞但壓迫感異常地重的車廂。515Please respect copyright.PENANAut6heCsLvO
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我重回地面, 卻沒對彤彤有什麼不捨,反而更多了一份釋懷。515Please respect copyright.PENANAjzFOxChV3o
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與預期不同,這次與她的「約會」反而令我認清自己與彤彤根本是不一樣的人。從喜好,購物選擇,到物質上的待遇,我和她都是兩個截然不同的人,試問兩個生活南轅北轍的人要經過多少磨合和掙拗才能一起生活?515Please respect copyright.PENANA0YYQR7C12V
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性格和「feel」這些都一樣:勉強是不會有幸福的。我是否也要像這段關係放下? 515Please respect copyright.PENANAOENdG9QB6K
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可惜,我墮得太深,無法從陰霾中爬出。面對身邊的朋友,我總是激動的說她怎麼拜金,機會主義,把自身痛苦的來源推向她身上。在夜闌人靜的晚上,我何嘗想不到最錯的始終是自己?事情的因由不就是我單方面愛上了她嗎? 515Please respect copyright.PENANA6R5VoU8r0o
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縱使遇到她的反對,我仍然偏執的堅持,始終相信努力就有幸福,達到她的目標就能與她共枕而睡。我和她根本就不同:一個生活庸碌渾噩的人與一個機會主義者生活只會各自拖累雙方的生活。515Please respect copyright.PENANAq7aGYpYBpc
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說白了,她就是需要一個會肯爲自身而努力,或是要一個有將來的人來保護她,給予她安全感。我這種不思進取的廢柴,何嘗會真正做到這些事情?陳志豪在這方面顯然比我好得多吧。 515Please respect copyright.PENANAjuapA1MwHN
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或許,各自把這段關係放下,纔是對雙方最好的結果,使人從壓迫中放下,釋懷。 515Please respect copyright.PENANAo5NFp68oud
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在彤彤和陳志豪都離開這間學校之後,我了無牽掛,重新開展自己的新生活。不同的是,我不再爲別人而努力,而是爲自己而活,隨心所欲地生活下去。 515Please respect copyright.PENANAKJZaJww1Cj
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你說我放下了嗎?不。我每晚也會犯賤地想起她,但又會拒絕她久違的電話來電,任由自己浸淫在痛苦又矛盾的循環中。就算在熒幕上看着別的女人,或是瘋狂的在溫習,心裏總是有一個填補不了的深坑,時不時感到隱隱作痛。515Please respect copyright.PENANAkuyv7jHkYj
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我很想找到別人傾訴這段既無聊又多餘的情史,可自己偏偏就放不下面子,不忍心把那每晚就會出現的弱者呈現在衆人面前。515Please respect copyright.PENANAzcdGDVvAhl
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也許我就是一個如此懦弱自卑的人,連自己的真面目也不敢拿出來示人。515Please respect copyright.PENANANur9L2Dvgz
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「我真係得你一個可以傾訴咋!!」在結束這段冗長的獨白後,我積壓多年的愁緒隨着淚腺的活躍而爆發出來,第一次把自己隱藏多年的眼淚顯露於人前。 515Please respect copyright.PENANAeG0VapGCRR
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「你唔好喊啦!搞到我都好想喊呀!」她嗓子也顫抖起來,急速的呼吸夾雜着渾濁的聲音。515Please respect copyright.PENANAD3DUMFu5iy
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