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No Plagiarism!8tw9B7SxAETS51GycVhSposted on PENANA 康復後的第一天,她穿回了西裝,耳後別回紫陽花髮墜,依舊是那個一派從容、步伐穩定的湛霖。8964 copyright protection19PENANADBhhdJm1YE 維尼
只是今天,她一直不自覺地看向小佳的方向。8964 copyright protection19PENANANxvYw0ZQFg 維尼
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午休時,茶水間有點安靜,小佳正在拆宣宣偷偷給她的糖果,正準備開口又開始她一貫的調戲:8964 copyright protection19PENANAF35KZWB2Ko 維尼
「學姊今天氣色不錯喔~我可以給努力康復的妳獎……」8964 copyright protection19PENANAvviklLZhXO 維尼
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話說到一半,她像是突然意識到什麼,8964 copyright protection19PENANA4S6sOqRwZs 維尼
語氣像卡在喉頭,整個人定住一秒。8964 copyright protection19PENANANTsOzsafdB 維尼
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湛霖轉過頭,剛好看見小佳嘴角揚起一半的弧度突然斷裂。8964 copyright protection19PENANAkDsMMbN0cq 維尼
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她沒再說下去,只是若無其事地攤手一笑:8964 copyright protection19PENANA5yMCk5sDnH 維尼
「唔…我剛剛說什麼來著?啊!對啦,我說天氣不錯,學姊記得多喝水喔~」8964 copyright protection19PENANAjIb9ofW3zy 維尼
她迅速地拿了杯子,轉身離開,語調甚至還故意哼了哼。8964 copyright protection19PENANAUPYpIuCPJ8 維尼
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可那個轉身的動作太快,快得不像她平常調情之後會停留多看一眼的節奏。8964 copyright protection19PENANA6Llxo3I4Dd 維尼
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湛霖看著她的背影,眼神輕輕地落下。8964 copyright protection19PENANA6QBJ3MFTgK 維尼
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她記得。8964 copyright protection19PENANANxqwBltYRE 維尼
不是每一幕都清楚,但有幾件事深深刻著:8964 copyright protection19PENANAU7NhO2e6rn 維尼
她記得自己燒著身體,整個人像漂在夢裡一樣靠近小佳;8964 copyright protection19PENANACVamGoLEUb 維尼
她記得她曾貼在她身上,低聲說喜歡她;8964 copyright protection19PENANALAgqbZNNUH 維尼
她記得她幾乎就要咬上她的鎖骨,那是她「還沒還回去的咬痕」。8964 copyright protection19PENANAQbTd2J5cWb 維尼
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但最清楚的,是那雙眼睛——8964 copyright protection19PENANApgJ9qSlGbn 維尼
那雙,在她按下去的時候,不是驚喜、不是慌張,而是苦澀的眼睛。8964 copyright protection19PENANAjZXUfNj6uE 維尼
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她記得小佳輕聲說:8964 copyright protection19PENANAPgXTyBQCzy 維尼
「能不能在清醒的時候,再想想呢?」8964 copyright protection19PENANATgHuaTVjwA 維尼
「妳該撲倒的是……家瑜。」8964 copyright protection19PENANApUQG05hoYl 維尼
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湛霖低頭,指尖慢慢摩擦著手上的咖啡杯蓋。8964 copyright protection19PENANAsHvk00W2Tl 維尼
她明白:為什麼小佳總是用那種輕鬆到像玩笑的語氣撩她,卻從不真的越界。8964 copyright protection19PENANAIrVmXfBGMl 維尼
因為她一直都在守一條線,一條說好不打擾的界線。8964 copyright protection19PENANAmY2LjD4xnI 維尼
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她忽然覺得胸口有點悶。8964 copyright protection19PENANACFkOTzTbmY 維尼
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她不是因為小佳推開她而難受,8964 copyright protection19PENANA87E3VpbGKA 維尼
而是——那種「連妳受苦我都不能靠近」的孤單感,讓她心痛。8964 copyright protection19PENANABwf6s6WfbH 維尼
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這一次,是小佳守住了她。8964 copyright protection19PENANAhx9UNmecu2 維尼
而她卻幾乎傷了她。8964 copyright protection19PENANARwkXEv4EqC 維尼
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湛霖輕聲喃道:「對不起啊,小佳……那時候,我太想證明我不是被需要,而是能主動。」8964 copyright protection19PENANAzLlaKnfjDV 維尼
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「結果我還是……讓妳受傷了。」8964 copyright protection19PENANAO3Adrxs5Kb 維尼
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她站起身,望著茶水間的門口。8964 copyright protection19PENANAmFsCzhp1ZV 維尼
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那背影已經走遠,但她知道,8964 copyright protection19PENANAb0eZERCFlO 維尼
那個總是用玩笑偽裝真心的女孩,還在等一場她清醒的、慎重的選擇。8964 copyright protection19PENANA2LYSBYIzPq 維尼
那天下午,公文處理完後,湛霖走進小佳的辦公區。8964 copyright protection19PENANACR2NyvUWuP 維尼
她的腳步穩穩的,目光卻少有的柔和。8964 copyright protection19PENANAGifSD9y6qS 維尼
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「小佳。」她叫住了她。8964 copyright protection19PENANAv2QkBxfiRW 維尼
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小佳本來正對著電腦,聽到聲音抬起頭,笑得一貫沒心沒肺:「欸?學姊怎麼啦~需要我幫妳撰寫戀愛請求書嗎~還是需要人形抱枕服務?」8964 copyright protection19PENANAuJTcCmCIrJ 維尼
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語氣輕巧,眉毛甚至還挑了挑。8964 copyright protection19PENANA3C09DDZY6s 維尼
但湛霖看得出來,那是她說太快,來不及演得更自然的反應。8964 copyright protection19PENANAXs8CAkHxs7 維尼
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「小佳,」8964 copyright protection19PENANAeK5NIfR3lt 維尼
湛霖沒有笑,語氣卻前所未有地溫柔又認真:「那天的事……能不能再跟我說一次?」8964 copyright protection19PENANAvTB557E240 維尼
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「我……我那時候燒得很迷糊。但我記得,我說喜歡妳。」8964 copyright protection19PENANAIbjeVbRIx1 維尼
空氣突然停了一秒。8964 copyright protection19PENANAyX5TmEBo8C 維尼
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小佳愣住,原本拿著滑鼠的手僵了一下。8964 copyright protection19PENANAMuTzavSpPJ 維尼
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她彷彿一瞬間退回那天下午的保健室,那個滿身熱氣、貼在她身上的湛霖,那句像夢一樣甜、卻又像刀一樣重的:「我真的好喜歡妳」。8964 copyright protection19PENANAOCJgAdid86 維尼
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「學姊……」8964 copyright protection19PENANAOy7MC80sSV 維尼
小佳乾笑了兩聲:「妳該不會是來補刀的吧?我記得我要妳當作夢~妳怎麼還記得啊~」8964 copyright protection19PENANAfj9W2u6Eis 維尼
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湛霖走近兩步,輕聲說:「我當然要記得。雖然有點模糊,但我記得妳的眼神……還有妳的話。」8964 copyright protection19PENANAkCQ3QMe5nE 維尼
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「小佳,妳說:『能不能清醒的時候,再想想?』」8964 copyright protection19PENANA51ArIatisu 維尼
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「我現在很清醒了。」8964 copyright protection19PENANAoioCfEO3r7 維尼
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小佳愣愣地看著她,第一次發現湛霖的眼神竟然那麼…不帶防備,那麼赤裸地把對自己的歉意和感情擺在明處。8964 copyright protection19PENANAFYdRyVh60T 維尼
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「我想知道,妳那天,說的每一句……」8964 copyright protection19PENANAB7fEuOR7FE 維尼
湛霖頓了頓:「都是真的嗎?」8964 copyright protection19PENANAI9ZH3XtCJc 維尼
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小佳喉嚨一緊,她想笑著帶過,但眼眶卻先泛紅了。8964 copyright protection19PENANAjhg3O9XRcb 維尼
她低下頭,像在努力隱藏自己撐不住的模樣。8964 copyright protection19PENANAWgveuvqafy 維尼
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「我……我那天只是覺得,如果我不說清楚,妳會後悔;如果我靠近了,家瑜會受傷;如果我貪心了,我們三個都會…壞掉。」8964 copyright protection19PENANALTF8uWBSLP 維尼
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湛霖沒說話,只是站在她面前,像是等著她繼續說完。8964 copyright protection19PENANAnz4HzGHo3P 維尼
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「所以我選擇『不要』,選擇推開妳,選擇裝傻,選擇……當一個笑著的人。」8964 copyright protection19PENANAJWVAkWmlTY 維尼
她抬起頭,勉強擠出笑容:「但我沒想到,妳還記得啊,學姊。那一天,對我來說不是能當作夢輕輕帶過的現實。」8964 copyright protection19PENANArQeHdRAmp3 維尼
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「我記得妳說喜歡我,記得妳貼過來,記得妳幾乎就要……咬下來了。」8964 copyright protection19PENANAi85TdZdynm 維尼
她眼角含淚,卻笑得帶點自嘲:「我這輩子大概都不會忘吧。」8964 copyright protection19PENANArGpXFtGBkW 維尼
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湛霖伸出手,輕輕放在小佳肩上。8964 copyright protection19PENANAMmq3OieCQ9 維尼
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「對不起,小佳。我那時候,真的不清醒。8964 copyright protection19PENANAY1Q51EhG6w 維尼
不是說喜歡妳不是真的,而是……我不知道我那時的靠近,會讓妳那麼痛。」8964 copyright protection19PENANAwIVM1o8aFv 維尼
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「但現在,我想好好說一次——」8964 copyright protection19PENANAQMbt0q9frA 維尼
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她深吸了一口氣,語氣溫柔卻堅定:8964 copyright protection19PENANAFEDknq9hBo 維尼
「小佳,謝謝妳那天守住了我。」8964 copyright protection19PENANAM35l3nsWgx 維尼
「我沒給妳答案,但我想給妳道謝。」8964 copyright protection19PENANAq6RE3pyEp3 維尼
「也想給妳,應得的擁抱。」8964 copyright protection19PENANAc1MLFPKvdC 維尼
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說完,她張開雙手,不帶任何壓力,只是輕輕問:8964 copyright protection19PENANAieHGKjWYPH 維尼
「可以嗎?」8964 copyright protection19PENANAxa87VeIS0b 維尼
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小佳看著她,眼淚終於掉了下來。8964 copyright protection19PENANAInK5LWCBD7 維尼
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「……學姊怎麼這麼卑鄙啊……?」8964 copyright protection19PENANAGgZ4b7vAN7 維尼
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她輕輕撲進她懷裡,抱得緊緊的,終於讓自己不用再是哭著離開的人。8964 copyright protection19PENANA4PSr7Fp3df 維尼
——小佳——8964 copyright protection19PENANAN38VZdYHQz 維尼
頂樓,風好像大了一點,但我還是想留在這裡。8964 copyright protection19PENANAB2eGj5vFsT 維尼
這裡沒有屋頂,也沒有別人,只有天,有風,還有我。8964 copyright protection19PENANA6W2dAndBVe 維尼
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今天學姊問我——那天說的話,是不是真的。8964 copyright protection19PENANA9UsDF2K4Xy 維尼
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我沒有馬上回答。8964 copyright protection19PENANAjQ8QhI3rm2 維尼
不是因為我忘了,而是因為我怕,一說出來,我就會再一次掉進去。8964 copyright protection19PENANAv8yog71C6u 維尼
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那晚我推開她的時候,我從沒想過她會記得。8964 copyright protection19PENANAmpJPfrdVPl 維尼
我以為她會像過去每一次那樣,把那些不該越界的情緒都收進體內,整理、歸檔、丟進防火牆後面。8964 copyright protection19PENANAh9cpKy8Sm5 維尼
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結果她記得。她不但記得,還走過來問我。8964 copyright protection19PENANAuzkcVUfqgM 維尼
她說她現在清醒了,還想知道答案。8964 copyright protection19PENANAsrTmn13fFU 維尼
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我不知道該哭還是該笑。8964 copyright protection19PENANAkqUG66efMP 維尼
我笑著告訴她,我是因為不想傷害她跟家瑜,才選擇裝傻,才選擇當那個不認真說出:「我也喜歡妳。」的人。8964 copyright protection19PENANAhfa9fyM4le 維尼
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但其實啊,學姊。8964 copyright protection19PENANA2J87kqPDQo 維尼
那一秒妳說喜歡我的時候,我真的差點相信了——8964 copyright protection19PENANATTPBXGbaP8 維尼
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我差點相信,我不是一個替代品。8964 copyright protection19PENANAidfZUIx3Hw 維尼
我差點相信,我不是調皮插科打諢的角色,而是能被妳放進心上的人。8964 copyright protection19PENANAO35LCzYW4Y 維尼
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我差點把這份相信當作出口,說出我忍住的話。8964 copyright protection19PENANAjZfo4iCE0x 維尼
但我沒有說。8964 copyright protection19PENANAU1vD3uL4Sz 維尼
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因為我知道,這份喜歡來自妳發燒時的狀態,而不是日常的清醒。8964 copyright protection19PENANA9edl3n5ViD 維尼
那時候的妳太可愛,也太脆弱,像一隻拚命黏人的小貓,但我不能讓她誤以為自己想要的,是錯的。8964 copyright protection19PENANAcR0EqSVKAV 維尼
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所以我替妳守住了妳,也守住了我。8964 copyright protection19PENANAj0ngEoyLre 維尼
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可是今天,妳站在我面前,說謝謝,說想給我一個擁抱。8964 copyright protection19PENANAhlwd2LKaJ1 維尼
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我真的、真的,忍不住了。8964 copyright protection19PENANAK4tMuvsWq9 維尼
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我抱著妳的時候,眼淚根本止不住。8964 copyright protection19PENANAsdGFJPfBS7 維尼
不是因為委屈,是因為有人記得。8964 copyright protection19PENANAJQyZwhHdO2 維尼
因為妳記得我守住的夜,記得我苦撐的那句話,記得那個我連自己都不太敢直面面對的——「我愛妳」。8964 copyright protection19PENANABYkmsMtibQ 維尼
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所以我想把今天的這一刻,記下來。8964 copyright protection19PENANA78bSr7nSVn 維尼
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