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再醒來的時候。我坐在醫院冰涼的走廊長椅上。42Please respect copyright.PENANAr2vbzNy7p8
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「獄寺?你醒了?」42Please respect copyright.PENANAZpWhDmGiKQ
正依靠的肩膀瘦弱卻堅定,安心的氣息。42Please respect copyright.PENANACfw1pokF4K
我抬頭撞上十代首領滿是擔憂與憐憫的目光,他的臉蒼白至無血色。42Please respect copyright.PENANAbkrKmjEqku
「醒來就好醒來就好,哪裡還痛麼?」42Please respect copyright.PENANAjZDC5zLwSH
我機械的搖頭,喉嚨幹到吐不出完整句子。如往常時,我也許會馬上從他懷裏脫逃出來,用敬語不停對剛才自己的無理舉動道歉。然而現在,我想任性一下。因為我太過於需要,這個容我卸下防備,縱我袒露軟弱的避風港。42Please respect copyright.PENANAui44w3tYCz
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「下次不要再這麽莽撞了,知道嗎!」42Please respect copyright.PENANAU4w8g4dr5j
他手掌輕緩的,若有若無撫著我的背脊,上面附有母親的溫度。42Please respect copyright.PENANArBSb3aSVk6
走道裏三兩個人焦慮的走過,急診室的氣氛不如想像中那麽窒息,令人惶恐的死寂,偶爾傳來的幾聲哀號。黑夜有些冰冷,我們依賴在一起像是互相取暖。縱然我清楚自己幷不瞭解,也無從瞭解到十代目的私人生活。42Please respect copyright.PENANAeMyoyhOrli
他是否有在戀愛?或許也會因爲思念而焦慮,甚至是被傷害後的迷茫?42Please respect copyright.PENANAur7XgqKpjj
總能看透我的十代首領,無需我多言,也知道我在被什麽羈絆著動彈不得的十代首領…42Please respect copyright.PENANArySGEKA3kL
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「十代目……」 委屈,痛苦,這一刻被無形引力吸出開始瓦解我佯裝的堅强…42Please respect copyright.PENANAywHjfAy0CI
額頭粗略纏著惱人情緒的紗布,手臂的傷口還在隱隱作痛。我真窩囊,明明是要挑釁,卻被對方教訓得要首領幫我善後。現在還要一副孬種樣依賴在需要我保護的人懷中,思考那些有的沒的兒女情長。42Please respect copyright.PENANAJiGjRa4kEE
泄露單相思沒有收穫,但却很輕鬆。42Please respect copyright.PENANA5jesQKRi2c
罪惡感令山本會對我格外溫柔。42Please respect copyright.PENANAf1f8vjRXE7
而且一定不會再發生比這更糟糕的事情,不會再受更深的傷害。42Please respect copyright.PENANAo6viTzUuaz
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但是……42Please respect copyright.PENANAJgN0FnvTw1
嚼不爛的痛苦,理不清的哀傷。42Please respect copyright.PENANAY5bg6hpnx1
如果可以將它們藏在某處不被發現……42Please respect copyright.PENANAZh5GrF8pHf
鼻子好酸,眼睛發脹,下一秒我再無法控制自己。42Please respect copyright.PENANAVnsLZJ6vuX
「好啦,要是想哭的話……」42Please respect copyright.PENANAEFYd2ThaDs
「獄寺…我都明白的,明白。」42Please respect copyright.PENANADN0RpR0BIH
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再無法控制的…42Please respect copyright.PENANA2QpEvCCd7f
「…十…十代…唔……」 42Please respect copyright.PENANAGkDGC8WWBt
淚如雨下。42Please respect copyright.PENANAb3uO6MosWH
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請原諒我…不會太久…42Please respect copyright.PENANA9YDr7CXQBZ
就這一小會兒…馬上就會好了……42Please respect copyright.PENANAWbC1Qn7xag
等這些懦弱的液體流到幹了,就可以再拿起武器…42Please respect copyright.PENANAomujWI29Mx
再不會讓你操心…沒什麽再可以再阻攔我……42Please respect copyright.PENANAbOE3Q5lHmr
倒帶回曾經單一却安全的生活…不受束縛。42Please respect copyright.PENANA8yrMyZpBzB
眼裏只會追隨你一人,其餘不想過問…42Please respect copyright.PENANAS2K4ZKB6oO
即使是他……42Please respect copyright.PENANAQVUDGyzsit
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山本……你現在正在做什麽?42Please respect copyright.PENANAauHF9iDief
是不是正在心疼,被我狠心毆打挂彩的雲雀?42Please respect copyright.PENANADotOD3Wueb
正在爲他細心包扎傷口,用一貫的寵溺與深情語氣。42Please respect copyright.PENANA0sIoRh4Jun
那麼那個人映在山本瞳孔中的身影會是怎樣的?42Please respect copyright.PENANATWQeaI9qTS
是不是也在像我一般懷揣著一灌稠濃的漿液,42Please respect copyright.PENANASYl1SDQMBU
滿打滿撞撒在各處角落一灘灘,或粘膩得緊貼在身上甩不凈?42Please respect copyright.PENANArhlVaNXbMU
也會想要觸碰他寬廣的肩,還有他燦爛的臉麼。42Please respect copyright.PENANAmVpU8tljjR
那時,山本的心中會發出怎樣的聲響?42Please respect copyright.PENANAnIPANvulNZ
那個応接室裏充斥著怎樣的回憶?42Please respect copyright.PENANAvAZA8H6uOd
一直,一直……42Please respect copyright.PENANAYl2C4BVhS6
都只有兩個人的吧。42Please respect copyright.PENANAb0PXA5GxXi
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專門找藉口,多次經過可以裝作偶然相遇他的地方。42Please respect copyright.PENANAkXSG3SjZuQ
哪怕只能見一面,聽一次聲音也可以。42Please respect copyright.PENANAP6zLgXoQii
拼命地思念,使勁掙扎著。42Please respect copyright.PENANAhFyiuLblFS
但是我只明白這點,光是思念就令人快要心痛死。42Please respect copyright.PENANAQySvrIoED8
而無法離開你的理由,只要這心痛就够了。42Please respect copyright.PENANApNJh73LBfG
不過,放心吧,這算得了什麽大事。42Please respect copyright.PENANA6Nxj3FOPWl
哪怕會親眼見到這些,我也不會像易碎品斷裂,能夠繼續活下去。42Please respect copyright.PENANAk0NtT5T3ud
哪怕山本一直惦記著那個人,哪怕再看他同樣充滿不安的神情…42Please respect copyright.PENANAkMODnYXViH
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我的心也不會輕易崩潰。42Please respect copyright.PENANAJ5KORFDkIJ
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等傷好到連疤都看不到我才肯回學校上課,山本主動跑過來遞給我筆記。42Please respect copyright.PENANAOVkxao28qg
我才不相信,他上課能記到重點在紙上,只是翻開了看,了了草草的他的字迹,我讀得到滿滿的認真,還參雜著不應有的,心軟與愧疚。42Please respect copyright.PENANAU9J1uUUW6P
一抬頭,發現班裏大部分同學均向我這邊投來複雜目光。有些女生不顧山本此行目的,做作得走過來搭訕,一舉一動連我鶏皮疙瘩掉了一地。 42Please respect copyright.PENANAx5zqHX4XvF
「山本同學,你和獄寺同學認識?」42Please respect copyright.PENANA4ZFXeCBSlj
「獄寺同學爲什麽從來不說你們是國中同學?!」42Please respect copyright.PENANA8nAA3CFyPo
「山本同學,這是我自己做的點心,不介意的話就收下吧!」42Please respect copyright.PENANA0xhRsCMAbz
「山本同學的棒球聽說很厲害,有打算加入棒球社團麽?」42Please respect copyright.PENANATIGp5qCRVR
「山本同學……」42Please respect copyright.PENANA6eMzWeul8X
够了都給我滾!42Please respect copyright.PENANA3UtEruXt79
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人群聚集一堆嘰嘰喳喳,我完全沒了吃午餐的習慣,逃似的飛奔出教室。42Please respect copyright.PENANA2QXrqQcDoZ
任憑山本在後面怎樣喊我的名也顧不上絲毫的猶豫。42Please respect copyright.PENANAKfybzWQF8h
我真想馬上找個地洞鉆進去,永遠都不要出來。42Please respect copyright.PENANAokbQt4Sn4T
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「獄寺!等等我!」42Please respect copyright.PENANAjagrILFhOG
我已經記不住自己跑了多久,他竟然一直在後面窮追不捨。42Please respect copyright.PENANAJznVtCPfBf
沒辦法,根本沒有吃早餐的我肯定敵不過他運動神經發達,只好停下脚步找個地方猛喘大氣。他追上來,扶住靠著墻逐漸下滑的我死不放手,雖然我用眼神威脅他無數次。42Please respect copyright.PENANAkqZKY9CU5R
「你很煩……」 我和他上一次對話,好似已經是很久前了。42Please respect copyright.PENANAPtIdcWCyjF
他完全忽視了我一切反面的情緒。「一起去福利社買午飯吧!獄寺!」 沒等我反應,乾淨得笑著拽住我走。 醞釀好的拒絕也被他濕熱的掌溫融化。42Please respect copyright.PENANAAagJahhBX6
我要被你這樣牽著鼻子走到何時?42Please respect copyright.PENANAgX4pkuLDHi
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他肯定是看過雲雀才來這兒,我知道自己把雲雀傷的不輕。42Please respect copyright.PENANAbJTMTANLyz
若山本老媽子似的囑咐我幾句,我全當聽狗吠。然而他未多表現出一分异樣,只是將買好的套餐端到我面前,討好似的笑容。 42Please respect copyright.PENANAfLthQtRrAq
「還頭暈嗎?」42Please respect copyright.PENANA8nKKhqjCWC
我沒應他,只是側頭。42Please respect copyright.PENANAI3EdSXIinx
我也不知自己鬧什麽彆扭,但就是看不慣,這樣曖昧場景。42Please respect copyright.PENANAp51RdiQYNZ
對我狠點更好,我更容易恨你,然後我們就玩完。42Please respect copyright.PENANAzeK3N0KeK9
「獄寺?」 煩不煩啊你。42Please respect copyright.PENANAB8yJiRuR25
不要總是用這種語氣叫我的名字。42Please respect copyright.PENANAfqHTVaYUr9
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「獄寺怎麽不吃?是不喜歡人多麼…沒辦法,中午食堂就是這樣。」42Please respect copyright.PENANADiwa8u6g2H
「不過爲了吃美食,總是要犧牲點呢。」 42Please respect copyright.PENANAthNtQnuBH7
他把自己碗裏的蝦肉球都夾給我, 「獄寺喜歡吃這個吧?吶,都給你。」 42Please respect copyright.PENANAkADukQicd9
再沒力氣和他作對。我閉上眼睛,緩緩別過頭。42Please respect copyright.PENANAXnMDthPfmc
心裏絲絲縷縷的酸澀……42Please respect copyright.PENANAkS39yOWrmF
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山本……你可不可以試著,這樣講給我聽?42Please respect copyright.PENANARcv0r5FFa2
『都給你。你想要的,想從我這裡拿走的都可以給你。』42Please respect copyright.PENANA3CFnKqqWbO
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儘管我知道一切根本不可能如此發生。42Please respect copyright.PENANAFqyMsAqZOG
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「我不餓,你吃你的,不用管我。」42Please respect copyright.PENANA9vxjkvYKrI
既然無法回應我,那就不要再給我希望。42Please respect copyright.PENANAB2ikM2ijyg
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我乾脆放下筷子,將視線挪至走動的人群。42Please respect copyright.PENANAC772nPhPLp
能感覺到氣氛由盛至衰逐漸尷尬起來,他也只好低頭默默扒飯。42Please respect copyright.PENANAB5ApgGvdxb
幾個風紀委員估計是記住了我的長相,路過我身邊的時候能感覺到敵意。42Please respect copyright.PENANAtRPO6x0cZl
「說起來。雲雀沒怎麼樣吧。」 我沒頭沒腦竟然要問這個?!42Please respect copyright.PENANA9flDcNX36Y
他啞然。過了好一會兒才講, 「沒事了,傷……恢復得差不多了。」42Please respect copyright.PENANApndHv2p3RJ
有那麽嬌氣?!我記得自己下手很輕的,因為心有它顧。42Please respect copyright.PENANAovA7xT3HVW
看著山本一臉五官凝聚的苦惱狀,忍不住一笑。42Please respect copyright.PENANAGjHsnieN8o
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這個白癡,因為戀愛的事情開始會察言觀色了嗎?42Please respect copyright.PENANAjviA9WMUgw
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緊接著是更深的沉默。42Please respect copyright.PENANAUL7tmU2O44
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「我肋骨都好了呢!」 他突然轉移話題, 「你看,我又活動自如了!」42Please respect copyright.PENANAn3FqSsuI1a
「不要得意忘形啦混蛋快坐好。」42Please respect copyright.PENANA0DyWDSZHhk
「那次被雲雀修理的夠嗆啊!不過都是因為我吸煙的錯啦…」42Please respect copyright.PENANAPznOC0IOqM
吸煙?你已經開始吸烟了麼…42Please respect copyright.PENANAouObh4bUn3
靠!是誰天天雞婆似叫我戒煙的!42Please respect copyright.PENANACPpkL9CrFz
爲什麽你也吸煙了……你在煩惱些什麽?42Please respect copyright.PENANAqXGhKX9TpR
同時煙民,或許那幷不是因爲煙的味道有多麼誘惑。42Please respect copyright.PENANAAItwDWIXP9
只是人會空虛,需要一種習慣性動作填補這空白。42Please respect copyright.PENANAeow4QiaY7I
你這麼做,是因為空虛還是什麽?42Please respect copyright.PENANAUYXdZ3q9mX
你已經堅定決心,不再做棒球手了?42Please respect copyright.PENANAnIMIXVBRLK
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看他手舞足蹈滑稽的樣子想要逗我笑。42Please respect copyright.PENANArs9dqtRJm9
更是心酸似吃了一顆梅。42Please respect copyright.PENANAnjH6gO4T38
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我正思索著,突然迎面他的手撲上來。42Please respect copyright.PENANA93egbCfc7f
「獄寺,你傷好重。」42Please respect copyright.PENANANnnol0ESo7
我嚇得本想往後一撤,身體卻僵硬在原地。任憑他揉我沒搭理的亂髮。42Please respect copyright.PENANAh9U0BjgXqm
「雲雀手勁兒大,你小心被他傷到要害。」 42Please respect copyright.PENANAYCV2qbA0jJ
你這是放馬後炮吧,而且真正傷到要害的不是你麼?42Please respect copyright.PENANAzRFvblbLoP
「……你…背還疼麼?」 我故作冷漠的語調。42Please respect copyright.PENANAexOl3pIhAm
「獄寺終于肯說話啦,來吃飯吧!」 42Please respect copyright.PENANAU1HjvmAau7
他又將筷子遞到我面前。「我沒事噢!這幾天休息好著呢,大補了幾頓。現在十萬火急的想要運動啊唉!」 說著還不忘展示他肱二頭肌。42Please respect copyright.PENANA0TBP3JTXhB
「那就不要再在風紀混了,打棒球去。」42Please respect copyright.PENANAdmVLhYwL0t
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我不自主講出這句,事後才意識到不自然。42Please respect copyright.PENANAGyMZ1T7D5m
山本瞳孔一縮,結結巴巴支吾了一下, 「之前我問獄寺…」42Please respect copyright.PENANAiOwbB3CIph
「你根本早就自己决定好了吧!」 42Please respect copyright.PENANAOjQ23ysG2J
一股怒氣竄上心頭,我拍案而起。42Please respect copyright.PENANAKK2FOWByGm
我那些都是謊話!你根本就是爲了找個契機給自己一個正當理由而已!42Please respect copyright.PENANAv5TOnaSIG3
「根本就是你自己!抽煙喝酒!參加幫派!裝什麽受傷!」42Please respect copyright.PENANApjIbK4l8q9
「獄、獄寺?……冷靜啊……」 42Please respect copyright.PENANAHu9TGt1Dq7
他慌張的拉我,顯露出為難的樣子。42Please respect copyright.PENANAsVnYEA0Z74
周圍的人紛紛瞧向我們這邊,醜惡的嘴臉在看熱鬧。42Please respect copyright.PENANAslSX0OOUYd
包括掩藏在人群中的黑衣男人。42Please respect copyright.PENANAXuBBFajwXi
雲雀恭彌,你他媽個混蛋。42Please respect copyright.PENANApRr9RqJKgH
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打與不打,對我意義不大。42Please respect copyright.PENANAo8CxKePtzu
然而看不到你與棒球的結伴,我的心變得空蕩。42Please respect copyright.PENANAmkFAlrTHTz
縱使被他人鄙視,那些東西卻是我的寶貝。42Please respect copyright.PENANAyKJVnJ8YPR
山本武,你又一次成功逼迫我煩躁起來。42Please respect copyright.PENANAyu9eWzVTAt
頭皮撓出血肉,骨胳也吱吱喳喳跟著開始叫囂起來。42Please respect copyright.PENANAKUAwm8FWhz
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他體味到我怒氣,沒再講話。42Please respect copyright.PENANABDvsyxGfJ0
四目相對的時候,我好想擁緊他。42Please respect copyright.PENANAEvfKTQ4RWw
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他像是雨,倘若可以感受到這濕潤,自己也會像是草木在放晴後的生長,一夜間長大麼?不過也許他會忘記了吧,那時候的風那時候的雲,那時候的光影嘈雜。42Please respect copyright.PENANAoWXCb2uEpH
儘管那麼認真的生氣過迷茫過、隱忍過受傷過,隨著時間流逝笑著回想起來,也許在這個過程中連記憶也會漸漸消失吧。42Please respect copyright.PENANAHylwD8VLQl
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但是那時候,我的確是在那裡存在過的。42Please respect copyright.PENANAbTvR8Qpuho
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再醒來的時候。我坐在醫院冰涼的走廊長椅上。42Please respect copyright.PENANAr2vbzNy7p8
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「獄寺?你醒了?」42Please respect copyright.PENANAZpWhDmGiKQ
正依靠的肩膀瘦弱卻堅定,安心的氣息。42Please respect copyright.PENANACfw1pokF4K
我抬頭撞上十代首領滿是擔憂與憐憫的目光,他的臉蒼白至無血色。42Please respect copyright.PENANAbkrKmjEqku
「醒來就好醒來就好,哪裡還痛麼?」42Please respect copyright.PENANAjZDC5zLwSH
我機械的搖頭,喉嚨幹到吐不出完整句子。如往常時,我也許會馬上從他懷裏脫逃出來,用敬語不停對剛才自己的無理舉動道歉。然而現在,我想任性一下。因為我太過於需要,這個容我卸下防備,縱我袒露軟弱的避風港。42Please respect copyright.PENANAui44w3tYCz
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「下次不要再這麽莽撞了,知道嗎!」42Please respect copyright.PENANAU4w8g4dr5j
他手掌輕緩的,若有若無撫著我的背脊,上面附有母親的溫度。42Please respect copyright.PENANArBSb3aSVk6
走道裏三兩個人焦慮的走過,急診室的氣氛不如想像中那麽窒息,令人惶恐的死寂,偶爾傳來的幾聲哀號。黑夜有些冰冷,我們依賴在一起像是互相取暖。縱然我清楚自己幷不瞭解,也無從瞭解到十代目的私人生活。42Please respect copyright.PENANAeMyoyhOrli
他是否有在戀愛?或許也會因爲思念而焦慮,甚至是被傷害後的迷茫?42Please respect copyright.PENANAur7XgqKpjj
總能看透我的十代首領,無需我多言,也知道我在被什麽羈絆著動彈不得的十代首領…42Please respect copyright.PENANArySGEKA3kL
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「十代目……」 委屈,痛苦,這一刻被無形引力吸出開始瓦解我佯裝的堅强…42Please respect copyright.PENANAywHjfAy0CI
額頭粗略纏著惱人情緒的紗布,手臂的傷口還在隱隱作痛。我真窩囊,明明是要挑釁,卻被對方教訓得要首領幫我善後。現在還要一副孬種樣依賴在需要我保護的人懷中,思考那些有的沒的兒女情長。42Please respect copyright.PENANAJiGjRa4kEE
泄露單相思沒有收穫,但却很輕鬆。42Please respect copyright.PENANA5jesQKRi2c
罪惡感令山本會對我格外溫柔。42Please respect copyright.PENANAf1f8vjRXE7
而且一定不會再發生比這更糟糕的事情,不會再受更深的傷害。42Please respect copyright.PENANAo6viTzUuaz
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但是……42Please respect copyright.PENANAJgN0FnvTw1
嚼不爛的痛苦,理不清的哀傷。42Please respect copyright.PENANAY5bg6hpnx1
如果可以將它們藏在某處不被發現……42Please respect copyright.PENANAZh5GrF8pHf
鼻子好酸,眼睛發脹,下一秒我再無法控制自己。42Please respect copyright.PENANAVnsLZJ6vuX
「好啦,要是想哭的話……」42Please respect copyright.PENANAEFYd2ThaDs
「獄寺…我都明白的,明白。」42Please respect copyright.PENANADN0RpR0BIH
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再無法控制的…42Please respect copyright.PENANA2QpEvCCd7f
「…十…十代…唔……」 42Please respect copyright.PENANAGkDGC8WWBt
淚如雨下。42Please respect copyright.PENANAb3uO6MosWH
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請原諒我…不會太久…42Please respect copyright.PENANA9YDr7CXQBZ
就這一小會兒…馬上就會好了……42Please respect copyright.PENANAWbC1Qn7xag
等這些懦弱的液體流到幹了,就可以再拿起武器…42Please respect copyright.PENANAomujWI29Mx
再不會讓你操心…沒什麽再可以再阻攔我……42Please respect copyright.PENANAbOE3Q5lHmr
倒帶回曾經單一却安全的生活…不受束縛。42Please respect copyright.PENANA8yrMyZpBzB
眼裏只會追隨你一人,其餘不想過問…42Please respect copyright.PENANAS2K4ZKB6oO
即使是他……42Please respect copyright.PENANAQVUDGyzsit
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山本……你現在正在做什麽?42Please respect copyright.PENANAauHF9iDief
是不是正在心疼,被我狠心毆打挂彩的雲雀?42Please respect copyright.PENANADotOD3Wueb
正在爲他細心包扎傷口,用一貫的寵溺與深情語氣。42Please respect copyright.PENANA0sIoRh4Jun
那麼那個人映在山本瞳孔中的身影會是怎樣的?42Please respect copyright.PENANATWQeaI9qTS
是不是也在像我一般懷揣著一灌稠濃的漿液,42Please respect copyright.PENANASYl1SDQMBU
滿打滿撞撒在各處角落一灘灘,或粘膩得緊貼在身上甩不凈?42Please respect copyright.PENANArhlVaNXbMU
也會想要觸碰他寬廣的肩,還有他燦爛的臉麼。42Please respect copyright.PENANAmVpU8tljjR
那時,山本的心中會發出怎樣的聲響?42Please respect copyright.PENANAnIPANvulNZ
那個応接室裏充斥著怎樣的回憶?42Please respect copyright.PENANAvAZA8H6uOd
一直,一直……42Please respect copyright.PENANAYl2C4BVhS6
都只有兩個人的吧。42Please respect copyright.PENANAb0PXA5GxXi
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專門找藉口,多次經過可以裝作偶然相遇他的地方。42Please respect copyright.PENANAkXSG3SjZuQ
哪怕只能見一面,聽一次聲音也可以。42Please respect copyright.PENANAP6zLgXoQii
拼命地思念,使勁掙扎著。42Please respect copyright.PENANAhFyiuLblFS
但是我只明白這點,光是思念就令人快要心痛死。42Please respect copyright.PENANAQySvrIoED8
而無法離開你的理由,只要這心痛就够了。42Please respect copyright.PENANApNJh73LBfG
不過,放心吧,這算得了什麽大事。42Please respect copyright.PENANA6Nxj3FOPWl
哪怕會親眼見到這些,我也不會像易碎品斷裂,能夠繼續活下去。42Please respect copyright.PENANAk0NtT5T3ud
哪怕山本一直惦記著那個人,哪怕再看他同樣充滿不安的神情…42Please respect copyright.PENANAkMODnYXViH
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我的心也不會輕易崩潰。42Please respect copyright.PENANAJ5KORFDkIJ
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等傷好到連疤都看不到我才肯回學校上課,山本主動跑過來遞給我筆記。42Please respect copyright.PENANAOVkxao28qg
我才不相信,他上課能記到重點在紙上,只是翻開了看,了了草草的他的字迹,我讀得到滿滿的認真,還參雜著不應有的,心軟與愧疚。42Please respect copyright.PENANAU9J1uUUW6P
一抬頭,發現班裏大部分同學均向我這邊投來複雜目光。有些女生不顧山本此行目的,做作得走過來搭訕,一舉一動連我鶏皮疙瘩掉了一地。 42Please respect copyright.PENANAx5zqHX4XvF
「山本同學,你和獄寺同學認識?」42Please respect copyright.PENANA4ZFXeCBSlj
「獄寺同學爲什麽從來不說你們是國中同學?!」42Please respect copyright.PENANA8nAA3CFyPo
「山本同學,這是我自己做的點心,不介意的話就收下吧!」42Please respect copyright.PENANA0xhRsCMAbz
「山本同學的棒球聽說很厲害,有打算加入棒球社團麽?」42Please respect copyright.PENANATIGp5qCRVR
「山本同學……」42Please respect copyright.PENANA6eMzWeul8X
够了都給我滾!42Please respect copyright.PENANA3UtEruXt79
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人群聚集一堆嘰嘰喳喳,我完全沒了吃午餐的習慣,逃似的飛奔出教室。42Please respect copyright.PENANA2QXrqQcDoZ
任憑山本在後面怎樣喊我的名也顧不上絲毫的猶豫。42Please respect copyright.PENANAKfybzWQF8h
我真想馬上找個地洞鉆進去,永遠都不要出來。42Please respect copyright.PENANAokbQt4Sn4T
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「獄寺!等等我!」42Please respect copyright.PENANAjagrILFhOG
我已經記不住自己跑了多久,他竟然一直在後面窮追不捨。42Please respect copyright.PENANAJznVtCPfBf
沒辦法,根本沒有吃早餐的我肯定敵不過他運動神經發達,只好停下脚步找個地方猛喘大氣。他追上來,扶住靠著墻逐漸下滑的我死不放手,雖然我用眼神威脅他無數次。42Please respect copyright.PENANAkqZKY9CU5R
「你很煩……」 我和他上一次對話,好似已經是很久前了。42Please respect copyright.PENANAPtIdcWCyjF
他完全忽視了我一切反面的情緒。「一起去福利社買午飯吧!獄寺!」 沒等我反應,乾淨得笑著拽住我走。 醞釀好的拒絕也被他濕熱的掌溫融化。42Please respect copyright.PENANAAagJahhBX6
我要被你這樣牽著鼻子走到何時?42Please respect copyright.PENANAgX4pkuLDHi
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他肯定是看過雲雀才來這兒,我知道自己把雲雀傷的不輕。42Please respect copyright.PENANAbJTMTANLyz
若山本老媽子似的囑咐我幾句,我全當聽狗吠。然而他未多表現出一分异樣,只是將買好的套餐端到我面前,討好似的笑容。 42Please respect copyright.PENANAfLthQtRrAq
「還頭暈嗎?」42Please respect copyright.PENANA8nKKhqjCWC
我沒應他,只是側頭。42Please respect copyright.PENANAI3EdSXIinx
我也不知自己鬧什麽彆扭,但就是看不慣,這樣曖昧場景。42Please respect copyright.PENANAp51RdiQYNZ
對我狠點更好,我更容易恨你,然後我們就玩完。42Please respect copyright.PENANAzeK3N0KeK9
「獄寺?」 煩不煩啊你。42Please respect copyright.PENANAB8yJiRuR25
不要總是用這種語氣叫我的名字。42Please respect copyright.PENANAfqHTVaYUr9
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「獄寺怎麽不吃?是不喜歡人多麼…沒辦法,中午食堂就是這樣。」42Please respect copyright.PENANADiwa8u6g2H
「不過爲了吃美食,總是要犧牲點呢。」 42Please respect copyright.PENANAthNtQnuBH7
他把自己碗裏的蝦肉球都夾給我, 「獄寺喜歡吃這個吧?吶,都給你。」 42Please respect copyright.PENANAkADukQicd9
再沒力氣和他作對。我閉上眼睛,緩緩別過頭。42Please respect copyright.PENANAXnMDthPfmc
心裏絲絲縷縷的酸澀……42Please respect copyright.PENANAkS39yOWrmF
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山本……你可不可以試著,這樣講給我聽?42Please respect copyright.PENANARcv0r5FFa2
『都給你。你想要的,想從我這裡拿走的都可以給你。』42Please respect copyright.PENANA3CFnKqqWbO
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儘管我知道一切根本不可能如此發生。42Please respect copyright.PENANAFqyMsAqZOG
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「我不餓,你吃你的,不用管我。」42Please respect copyright.PENANA9vxjkvYKrI
既然無法回應我,那就不要再給我希望。42Please respect copyright.PENANAB2ikM2ijyg
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我乾脆放下筷子,將視線挪至走動的人群。42Please respect copyright.PENANAC772nPhPLp
能感覺到氣氛由盛至衰逐漸尷尬起來,他也只好低頭默默扒飯。42Please respect copyright.PENANAB5ApgGvdxb
幾個風紀委員估計是記住了我的長相,路過我身邊的時候能感覺到敵意。42Please respect copyright.PENANAtRPO6x0cZl
「說起來。雲雀沒怎麼樣吧。」 我沒頭沒腦竟然要問這個?!42Please respect copyright.PENANA9flDcNX36Y
他啞然。過了好一會兒才講, 「沒事了,傷……恢復得差不多了。」42Please respect copyright.PENANApndHv2p3RJ
有那麽嬌氣?!我記得自己下手很輕的,因為心有它顧。42Please respect copyright.PENANAovA7xT3HVW
看著山本一臉五官凝聚的苦惱狀,忍不住一笑。42Please respect copyright.PENANAGjHsnieN8o
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這個白癡,因為戀愛的事情開始會察言觀色了嗎?42Please respect copyright.PENANAjviA9WMUgw
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緊接著是更深的沉默。42Please respect copyright.PENANAUL7tmU2O44
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「我肋骨都好了呢!」 他突然轉移話題, 「你看,我又活動自如了!」42Please respect copyright.PENANAn3FqSsuI1a
「不要得意忘形啦混蛋快坐好。」42Please respect copyright.PENANA0DyWDSZHhk
「那次被雲雀修理的夠嗆啊!不過都是因為我吸煙的錯啦…」42Please respect copyright.PENANAPznOC0IOqM
吸煙?你已經開始吸烟了麼…42Please respect copyright.PENANAouObh4bUn3
靠!是誰天天雞婆似叫我戒煙的!42Please respect copyright.PENANACPpkL9CrFz
爲什麽你也吸煙了……你在煩惱些什麽?42Please respect copyright.PENANAqXGhKX9TpR
同時煙民,或許那幷不是因爲煙的味道有多麼誘惑。42Please respect copyright.PENANAAItwDWIXP9
只是人會空虛,需要一種習慣性動作填補這空白。42Please respect copyright.PENANAeow4QiaY7I
你這麼做,是因為空虛還是什麽?42Please respect copyright.PENANAUYXdZ3q9mX
你已經堅定決心,不再做棒球手了?42Please respect copyright.PENANAnIMIXVBRLK
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看他手舞足蹈滑稽的樣子想要逗我笑。42Please respect copyright.PENANArs9dqtRJm9
更是心酸似吃了一顆梅。42Please respect copyright.PENANAnjH6gO4T38
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我正思索著,突然迎面他的手撲上來。42Please respect copyright.PENANA93egbCfc7f
「獄寺,你傷好重。」42Please respect copyright.PENANANnnol0ESo7
我嚇得本想往後一撤,身體卻僵硬在原地。任憑他揉我沒搭理的亂髮。42Please respect copyright.PENANAh9U0BjgXqm
「雲雀手勁兒大,你小心被他傷到要害。」 42Please respect copyright.PENANAYCV2qbA0jJ
你這是放馬後炮吧,而且真正傷到要害的不是你麼?42Please respect copyright.PENANAzRFvblbLoP
「……你…背還疼麼?」 我故作冷漠的語調。42Please respect copyright.PENANAexOl3pIhAm
「獄寺終于肯說話啦,來吃飯吧!」 42Please respect copyright.PENANAU1HjvmAau7
他又將筷子遞到我面前。「我沒事噢!這幾天休息好著呢,大補了幾頓。現在十萬火急的想要運動啊唉!」 說著還不忘展示他肱二頭肌。42Please respect copyright.PENANA0TBP3JTXhB
「那就不要再在風紀混了,打棒球去。」42Please respect copyright.PENANAdmVLhYwL0t
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我不自主講出這句,事後才意識到不自然。42Please respect copyright.PENANAGyMZ1T7D5m
山本瞳孔一縮,結結巴巴支吾了一下, 「之前我問獄寺…」42Please respect copyright.PENANAiOwbB3CIph
「你根本早就自己决定好了吧!」 42Please respect copyright.PENANAOjQ23ysG2J
一股怒氣竄上心頭,我拍案而起。42Please respect copyright.PENANAKK2FOWByGm
我那些都是謊話!你根本就是爲了找個契機給自己一個正當理由而已!42Please respect copyright.PENANAv5TOnaSIG3
「根本就是你自己!抽煙喝酒!參加幫派!裝什麽受傷!」42Please respect copyright.PENANApjIbK4l8q9
「獄、獄寺?……冷靜啊……」 42Please respect copyright.PENANAHu9TGt1Dq7
他慌張的拉我,顯露出為難的樣子。42Please respect copyright.PENANAsVnYEA0Z74
周圍的人紛紛瞧向我們這邊,醜惡的嘴臉在看熱鬧。42Please respect copyright.PENANAslSX0OOUYd
包括掩藏在人群中的黑衣男人。42Please respect copyright.PENANAXuBBFajwXi
雲雀恭彌,你他媽個混蛋。42Please respect copyright.PENANApRr9RqJKgH
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打與不打,對我意義不大。42Please respect copyright.PENANAo8CxKePtzu
然而看不到你與棒球的結伴,我的心變得空蕩。42Please respect copyright.PENANAmkFAlrTHTz
縱使被他人鄙視,那些東西卻是我的寶貝。42Please respect copyright.PENANAyKJVnJ8YPR
山本武,你又一次成功逼迫我煩躁起來。42Please respect copyright.PENANAyu9eWzVTAt
頭皮撓出血肉,骨胳也吱吱喳喳跟著開始叫囂起來。42Please respect copyright.PENANAKUAwm8FWhz
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他體味到我怒氣,沒再講話。42Please respect copyright.PENANABDvsyxGfJ0
四目相對的時候,我好想擁緊他。42Please respect copyright.PENANAEvfKTQ4RWw
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他像是雨,倘若可以感受到這濕潤,自己也會像是草木在放晴後的生長,一夜間長大麼?不過也許他會忘記了吧,那時候的風那時候的雲,那時候的光影嘈雜。42Please respect copyright.PENANAoWXCb2uEpH
儘管那麼認真的生氣過迷茫過、隱忍過受傷過,隨著時間流逝笑著回想起來,也許在這個過程中連記憶也會漸漸消失吧。42Please respect copyright.PENANAHylwD8VLQl
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但是那時候,我的確是在那裡存在過的。42Please respect copyright.PENANAbTvR8Qpuho
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