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這是第二次了,知道他今天不在,因為我用了公司的名義給許教授的工作單位發了通知請公司的律師與他結算之前合作時的酬勞還有解約的後續問題,我也知道他肯定赴約了,因為剛才看見他從家裡開車出去,後來就接到了悦悦的訊息說許教授來了。649Please respect copyright.PENANAiJPzxRA0Xm
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我放心的走向熟悉的家,知道他至少會有一兩個小時的時間不會回來,也不過是請律師稍微煩煩他刻意把手續弄的繁雜點,也不是太過分吧。649Please respect copyright.PENANANNAT6tKCcG
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打開門,這次有備而來,大費周章也不過是想再回到這個和他相愛的地方,再留下一點什麼,即使知道是已經病態的想法,卻沒能阻止自己這麼做,上一次擅闖進來,留下的髮圈要是被他發現了,他的反應會是什麼呢?還是其實他後來帶了別人回來,自然也就不會認為出現髮圈有什麼奇怪?心裡萌生一股強烈的酸感,馬上打開背包開始今天的夢遊行動,是的,把一切推成是一場夢,想著只是夢遊就行了。649Please respect copyright.PENANACnLfff6W9x
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第一件事,把他浴室裡的肥皂換成了還住在這裡時我最喜歡的薰衣草香皂,第二件事從書櫃裡翻出幾本絕版的書,找到時候笑了,哭著笑了,雖然丟了很多東西,我送的絕版文學卻沒能丟掉,畢竟是絕版書,喜歡文學的人才不會幹這種事,我是知道的,兒時認真學習也只有書陪伴的他,這一點特質還是不會改變的吧?把這幾本小心謹慎的抽起來按造自己送的先後順序排列到顯眼的地方。649Please respect copyright.PENANAGZ8TLCSmVU
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我為什麼幹這樣的事,要是能回答上這個問題就好了,可是我沒辦法,心裡也許有那麼點恨意但更多的是無處宣洩的對許墨的愛,而這種愛壓抑著成了很多拳頭每天揍我,我想著也許身為Ares的他根本不在乎我,我的許墨像是消失在這個世界上一般他無情的抽離了我們所擁有的全部,而我卻不甘心的想創造一個期望會讓他也感到疼痛的空間,只有我痛著難道公平嗎?649Please respect copyright.PENANAE1IJKdpk2t
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這一次大概動的手腳多了些,心裡上其實特別希望被他發現,最好是讓他不愉悅的找上門也好,什麼都好,我不想再敲著永遠沒有回應的門,哪怕是一點點、一點點在乎也好。649Please respect copyright.PENANA9qdZ0IUZBu
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這一次帶了一件他的襯衫走,像帶走一件紀念品似的,什麼都好,有什麼能留在身邊就好。649Please respect copyright.PENANACy2YeemUeZ
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第三次,是那一天,那一天發生了點事,我有些失控了,一樣等意識到的時候我已經在那個家門前了。649Please respect copyright.PENANACvf34pc450
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那天因為節目的需求還是需要一個有研究權威的成員來上節目,娜姐他們找到了一個雖然沒有許墨這麼厲害卻也有不少成就的陳教授,那一日在攝影棚看見研究袍的身影,眼淚就不由自主的落下來。649Please respect copyright.PENANAdRHmrT1O2w
“妳是製作人吧?怎麼哭了?”649Please respect copyright.PENANA9Pn2Zl8O5A
對方出於善意的遞出了一小包面紙649Please respect copyright.PENANAtd5nQ8PwkN
“雖然不知道發生什麼事了,可是妳可以跟我說哦”當下心裡想著難道搞科研的都這樣說話的,649Please respect copyright.PENANAs10YofcBTl
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好像他。649Please respect copyright.PENANAIgpVIpchwz
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“沒什麼,只是最近狀況不怎麼好,抱歉工作中太不專業了”649Please respect copyright.PENANAVmItHXy2tP
“撫平情緒的方法有很多,但那些方法都不適合妳,也許有機會我可以給妳一些不錯的建議”649Please respect copyright.PENANAmYrLMdwbTS
對方笑臉迎人,我卻覺得惡意滿滿,我認為他正在說出一些讓我想起許墨的話,而這些話讓我感到一陣內心的混亂。649Please respect copyright.PENANASWDXTLnCZA
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陳教授其實一點也不像許墨,其實說的只是一般男子討好女性會說的話,他在節目上表現也蠻專業、人也確實不壞,弄的好像是自己心術不正才不斷想到許墨。649Please respect copyright.PENANAoHs2ukwEaw
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下了班後,我才發現我又晃到了許墨的家,一樣插入鑰匙轉開大門,所有之前更動過的物件都沒有被移動過,換過順序的書還是那樣擺著,浴室的肥皂還是我身上的香味也被正常使用著,這個房子像是沒有生活過的痕跡一般,更顯現了他也就不在乎、沒感覺,就算房裡四處都出現了我的蹤跡,他可是狠心的Ares,沒有任何讓他動搖的機會。649Please respect copyright.PENANApmJMYiZaLX
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跪坐在客廳裡,陳教授的言行舉止只是讓我更想念和許墨的過往,我已經不知道要如何才能夠讓他回到我身邊了,即使留下自己存在過的痕跡、偷走與他相關的物件,那些回憶和愛都像一個壞掉的罐頭,過期了也就沒有人要。649Please respect copyright.PENANAbHfwPlnBuf
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這一次我在他的廚房塞滿了我最喜歡的魚罐頭,他曾經在和我是還是鄰居的時候來看過生病的我。649Please respect copyright.PENANAEfVevyfw43
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“妳別吃這種罐頭,加工食品沒有新鮮的食物健康,妳要好好吃飯,感冒了就別吃這些東西。”649Please respect copyright.PENANAVTDQAybu6N
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“就是感冒了才想吃重口味的魚罐頭配粥啊,感冒的時候吃什麼都沒有味道難受啊,小時候我都是這麼過的”649Please respect copyright.PENANA7xZU0vGqni
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後來住在一起時他允許我可以在生病吃蔬菜粥的時候配一點點魚罐頭,我知道他不喜歡我吃,但他就是顧慮我的心情,想哄生病的我開心,捨不得我不開心。649Please respect copyright.PENANAlX4cYaDjcn
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如果記憶是一個罐頭的話,我希望這個罐頭永遠不會過期,可是我已經感覺自己是被遺棄的罐頭了。649Please respect copyright.PENANAtMk39pOYlN
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拆了一個罐頭哭著吃完,又哭著吐了出來,洗乾淨了罐頭、擦了乾淨。649Please respect copyright.PENANAqb2M3J7lMe
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沒有許墨的日子吃多少罐頭都可以,熬夜瘋狂工作也可以、喝醉也可以、甚至病倒了也不會有人理會,想自暴自棄卻又想起他說過“沒有我,妳也要活下去”649Please respect copyright.PENANAVV2qDEV0SS
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捨不得背棄他的期許。649Please respect copyright.PENANApRCSDrmcA9
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