餐廳入面啲客唔係情侶、一家人、就係一班Friend出嚟食飯,有啲一大班人傾計傾到興高采烈,有啲就兩個黐埋一齊睇電話傾密計。560Please respect copyright.PENANAiPBEZJo3Ft
惟獨我同楊悅盈坐嘅呢一枱,粒聲唔出,好似搭枱咁,同成間嘢個氣氛格格不入。560Please respect copyright.PENANAuPwJfuWXzu
我哋喺個卡位度各坐一邊,明明大家都無玩電話,但係就完全無話題。560Please respect copyright.PENANABwO9QdqpLI
無辦法,因為唔係好似之前同班咁日日都見到,我入咗U之後呢半年都已經好少搵佢,淨係知佢重讀緊中六諗住Re-take DSE…560Please respect copyright.PENANAlN6Pq3G4LW
有時我望下佢佢望下我,有時望下電視;好在楊悅盈似乎唔係好介意我哋之間嗰種Awkward Slience。560Please respect copyright.PENANAmXIFmAC7cI
同時直到而家我先發覺:原來之前同佢嘅相處,都係源於其他事,先至將我哋兩個連繫埋一齊。560Please respect copyright.PENANA4rmHKmRdiQ
我同佢好似真係無試過好Casual咁約出嚟見面。560Please respect copyright.PENANAjLU2RHfmva
如果隔離枱啲人望過嚟,會以為我哋係情侶吖,定還是兩個平安夜無街去約出嚟圍爐嘅人呢?560Please respect copyright.PENANASxSDXJTYsz
「你頭先問聖誕有咩值得快樂…」我決定求其講啲嘢打破沉默:「聖誕對某啲人、對大部份人嚟講Default就係要快樂,如果你感受唔到,就證明你唔係嗰種人。」560Please respect copyright.PENANAqhJMeMXAHl
楊悅盈聽到,皺起眉頭望住我,好似唔明我講乜嘢咁。560Please respect copyright.PENANAv69TgkFzUw
「呃…你有無聽過『聖誕綜合症』?」560Please respect copyright.PENANAs8AVYogmip
楊悅盈搖搖頭。560Please respect copyright.PENANAc3fIXfBRLH
「有次又係臨聖誕之前,我同家姐傾開計…」我諗番何晞媛同我講嗰次,好似係佢啱啱入大學嗰年:「佢話我聽每年十一月尾十二頭開始,就會有好多唔係太熟嘅朋友、甚至三唔識七嘅人會無端端想約佢聖誕出嚟玩。」560Please respect copyright.PENANAzBgUcqYCco
呢個時候伙記拎咗我哋叫嗰兩個常餐過嚟,呢啲天氣,楊悅盈竟然仲叫咗杯凍檸茶…560Please respect copyright.PENANAWEQE89ek1E
「我問佢啲人係咪想呃蝦條或者溝女,佢話唔一定,有啲人真係約出嚟去倒數、行下街、睇下戲咁,因為佢哋…」我拉咗自己杯熱奶茶過嚟落糖,繼續講:「…臨近聖誕受到個氣氛影響,覺得自己過節一定要有伴、有Party、有人交換禮物,諸如此類;如果無,就會失落、唔開心、週身都唔安樂咁,然後——」560Please respect copyright.PENANAvMripgmaQw
「然後就會千方百計搵個人,唔理係邊個,但求有人陪一陪自己。」楊悅盈拉開個櫃枱拎出兩隻叉,放咗落杯熱水度:「過後就唔會再見面?」560Please respect copyright.PENANA0xHtR8AG4X
「嗯,何晞媛話呢種人就係感染咗『聖誕綜合症』…」我拎隻叉開始捲起啲米粉:「叫做綜合症,其實只係一個情緒:有啲人會覺得聖誕就係Default要快樂,而佢哋又得唔到,所以一句『聖誕快樂』,或者有人陪住佢哋過節,對佢哋嚟講好有意義。」560Please respect copyright.PENANAdxzxJQ1iVT
——而且,我發現原來我真係感染咗呢個綜合症…因為唔想楊悅盈以為我係因為咁先搵佢,我唔敢講出呢個事實。560Please respect copyright.PENANAuZACUCM9UP
我講到呢度,楊悅盈瞇起眼望住我;佢係咪睇得出我有啲心虛?560Please respect copyright.PENANAvtkyuK9UtE
「唔怪得之…」佢好似真係識穿咗我咁講一句。560Please respect copyright.PENANAviJeGhPWVu
「吓?」我其實驚咗一驚,但係惟有詐傻扮懵。560Please respect copyright.PENANAlH7X3OshRF
楊悅盈無俾反應我,淨係除咗個眼鏡開始食嘢。560Please respect copyright.PENANAqnyBI4l8ps
——仆街喇,佢係咪嬲咗我?560Please respect copyright.PENANAxyRDabyL5o
「頭先臨收工嗰陣,有個客講咗件事俾我聽。」佢忽然間又抬起頭同我講:「本身有一點,我一直都諗唔通——」560Please respect copyright.PENANAzAeKLWyDhX
「啊?你而家番緊工咩?」560Please respect copyright.PENANAc4GO1vUYms
「呃…係呀…」無端端俾我差開咗個話題,佢有少少愕然。560Please respect copyright.PENANATJ8IVcPJSL
「番乜嘢?我以為你重讀緊中六。」560Please respect copyright.PENANAUk5aCdD6FE
「阿哥介紹咗我去佢朋友間髮型屋…」佢諗咗一諗:「做打雜、助理;因為反正我讀多一年中六,其實都唔會入到大學,不如——」560Please respect copyright.PENANALf3C9Miksj
「你今年…出年考DSE之前,我可以陪你溫書。」我諗都無諗就插咗一句。560Please respect copyright.PENANAyzD3wHCUj9
楊悅盈聳聳肩。560Please respect copyright.PENANADMcnaxB2N5
「不過大前提係你真係想入大學?」我又再問佢:「一路都覺得你讀書唔係好掂咁。」560Please respect copyright.PENANAwkX8m9vMzb
楊悅盈笑咗一聲。560Please respect copyright.PENANAV8WCQSFlUV
「哈哈…仆街啦你…」佢望住我,好似恥笑咁嘅語氣:「我中三之前成績好好架…」560Please respect copyright.PENANApUg7et2oDQ
——我中三之前…560Please respect copyright.PENANAPDjhuq02ym
「我中三之前都未轉過嚟。」我反駁番佢一句。560Please respect copyright.PENANAQeLtHLp7SG
忽然間。560Please respect copyright.PENANA2mlpIcdFwa
我同楊悅盈好似忽然間打開咗個話匣咁。560Please respect copyright.PENANAcWkHP0gwpo
至少,我哋唔再係兩個無街去約出嚟圍爐嘅毒友。560Please respect copyright.PENANATiurSQt13y