You stare out the window at the world outside, the lush green trees, the flowers beginning to bloom for spring, and the grass you have not touched for so long. The cult members walk through the mountain hideaway they call home, dressed in their long yellow robes and living inside small cottages. They all look so happy, and you wonder if any of them even know about you. You've been here for several weeks, living as a pet for their leader whom they call Father, and not once have you been happy during that time. You've mostly just been scared and homesick.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNyqyLyBprj
Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGm2vgJLJU5
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXzBsI7HUN
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZJQsSj577C
"I just want to go home," I say.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpztINftXbe
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3OhMD6vS4
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7DWmXacDC5
Father sighs.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLIjmwcRvQ
I say "I don't want to stay here!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHX1mZO83yT
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjEn0OBBpi
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhULsAYAdf9
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsEds5igfCA
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVaoBdN24I
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPfFgdz1uO
"Pet, come down from the tree."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRL1fNm5kiL
I stay silent.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVopDquHoq
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqx1SMgdt18
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWCifufTBE
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb9I1XR8RZV
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdmpwcMQPYl
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdf3RBYVoC
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj2nhmo2m7L
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCX0RwkcknJ
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyA9C15467U
I say, "Please don't hurt me."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxofLjvfX0m
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkH0VWg3Vo2
I say, "Please don't!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthEpIGYgEV
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXAJKOFUcd
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLSlzH8bA0k
"You'll find out soon enough, child."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdF0D5vV5B
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfquWNcRkQt
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIDdueaniQ
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I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv83gWWb1nH
"Are you ready, child?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHKyJdTDhJ
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrhsWRqKTj
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUwz2mGAD0N
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I say, "Okay.."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkvSr9YoB2d
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNXQlg27xl
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjh8qpVGSeM
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZeHE9KFdE
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mVlgefcmZ
Father says "Good. Stay there."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLX6PtMM2N3
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJ53ji8QyZ
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4nAWlTHlI
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoUdNiUWkqJ
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbF1HjrlnTN
"Please!" I whisper.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcr9lEVVYaG
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDUkKxpXHB
I scream loudly.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvVxkgEd4Q8
My scream echoes throughout the room.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUakGj1KEsZ
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2nV08PYmc
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CI229e15s
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfmTf03WdI
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7rXKPWl8p
I say "P-please s-stop.."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGspqYlRxnT
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxg6clWQ3HR
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJlrAh75kp
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9kgGGbzuoH
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJNpHS11zF
"Look at her," another says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgXCzcTMwp
I say "Please leave me alone."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdiPk16YDYn
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nRBtDCrds
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjdDAK5yWU
"We'll see. Let's see."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0RjUE8Z5VW
I say "No no no.." They laugh.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOOsBdaEcwu
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xlAi2M7Ct
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡunWnxM7xlK
They untie me.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlPfKR8BIyR
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡacwwCpPJZt
"Ah... you're up," Father says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5e5cD7PGd
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"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvHvkVw20S
"Where were you?" he asks,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhB9pzylLc3
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYLVNYVZLd
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTJgS41Uvs
Father smiles.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFM3C8PRi7p
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8D8zjFRXKe
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDWhRdA7mud
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9eOoJopak3
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡttm50166t0
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0eLUaV1wB
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRBXzUahx43
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6HveGHAWkI
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT9UmG9rgG9
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS6rmmTFFCk
I say, "Please let me go!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC3H5Mnbgo6
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwrrptXHa6
"You will," Father says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwcxBWYD1W
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡISDKX7EmLO
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVifPiIbJGl
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpo7pmg8Mg0
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4RqHC1naSG
"Stop crying," he says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAeVOAiiHaB
"I can't!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRyJNMHcWc
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPWyOdu68ra
"Stop it!" I cry.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwx5cuPAak
"I said stop it!" he yells,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk4Go5G5yFs
"I can't," I say.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3P4ltbpaG
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZS7IpVu406
"NO!" Father screams.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNOJgmePW6
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY9gZcOSTLX
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJw6h2F0zP5
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZkV6lGor9
"I would. I really would."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFOnVM0YqoO
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL4eSAWmhfu
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCX0j5J1R81
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcH1C5TYxEP
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf42hNES9jf
I say, "No I'm not!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLkdVtOyS1y
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbAr4HnSk5x
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGPDnORRIC
I say "No I won't!!!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjWSy9mWEy4
"You will!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYadoIRLr0g
"I said NO!!!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSZ1nHB126
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3wGvZDODh
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqhbEwtpGhi
"I know you will," Father says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRScHd3qy5b
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzHwRh97KMf
He says "One."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6JIsPsiXTc
I say, "I'll do anything.."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNSNN1PgChm
"Two."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxab53ajJFx
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GfMZVsokZ
"Three."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyARB1Tk2xE
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3B9xIPyeZ
"No, don't do it," Father says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5tffZhzt5e
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCablWcrmL
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5xX4beQQh
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRAtOy65av7
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCb97JB8fF
I say "Yes."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMekICuLQZ
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Fk37V2ECJ
"Yes," I say.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOGL3sQRz7
"Good girl," he says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdyyYOCpWrH
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUFnN0jvgk
"I won't," he says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIe49HenWut
I stay tied up.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Ff14z8Rij
"Now," he says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWVIY3na1Sg
"Kneel."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJx8isIdDO
"Please," I say.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOzATdGvIG
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6C963yF9F
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDFIz51kMG
I just know it.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQ0m2oYHxf
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoiCJfWboQc
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuB9toW8CIk
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMB08FjgiRr
I'm all alone in the room.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoOj5EGU8Um
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I hear the door open. I look up.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡARr4h66PW2
"Hello," a man says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡffZWL1voMM
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Oh4hxFNsj
"Hands behind your back," he says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHeRZ53ehK
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2mGZ4249t
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1UTOiEYWh
"Stay there," he says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6uAhFZImu1
I stay on my knees.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvNEhPmjt9t
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXGCVb3nz8
I say "No no no."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2Jg0I8CuK
"Do it," he says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDcIlYu5NJ3
I say no. He pushes harder.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoU8tMOFHnu
"Do it!" he says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2gVTKY6YR
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJB2o5ssqSO
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQqkjPHRIvQ
"Stay there," he says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGokmAPeNkF
I stay on my knees.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRpolOuDox
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL0NP6A1xYB
"Stop moving."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOx36azg0o4
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiNt6VTXaVM
He pulls it out of my throat.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqw1BzgfOEJ
"What's wrong?" he says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR535JOJfii
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4k2jD2b82
"What?" he says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiNoU0TKznK
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfiQRtGLsfW
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyundeUSFTH
"Is this too big for you?" he says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuaypOCjEzJ
I nod.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOToLCfvX05
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJWtEhzgUM
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzIizidi99O
He shoves it back in.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ44RO0ZEEaf
I decide that vomiting once is enough.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrC4PCHvkSC
He shoves it in deeper.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7zhh0905z
I struggle and fight.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHgSQSi32Fm
"Stop fighting me," he says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPCNM79b8hS
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTV2ijLoiL9
"Get dressed," he says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb9fGFckRs3
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBnTWk8NNW
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0TNORBOd59
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQmGhYGaL0H
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6uSzay4G2
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVK9UIFK1VY
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBINenR0O9g
I say, "Where's dad?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7gAXPOYt4
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTgWjshdAK
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡefcfSXBxvs
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ogYK1y0Sk
My father says, "Where have you been?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMpBToKAaTy
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Ap2eq6u4M
"Did they hurt you?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPIX2R64Fxu
"Yeah," I say.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4K7tFgwXu
"I'm sorry."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCTGfMrdj5
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOUgzJc92Ha
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡja0eIY5iAl
"Is Allie in here?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKLu59hmptl
My dad says, "Yes, why?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpqbtpvOTir
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5fY0QkoF0I
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9Xuaeyf0s
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgKAYpf5TGp
"No." I respond,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHOwgUprI8
"Can we come in?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu1pY9TLTxq
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBbQeBU1gcc
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhYzff6qKU
I say, "I don't know."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXPTcqIJcQ
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP7VdN5xg86
"No." I say,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjEgCV8fwFi
"Are you sure?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjp7JSIiRFi
"Yes."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljJ8jsUIX6
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡelGr4xFqnP
"Did he give you any food or water?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4xd3p3mWV1
"No." I respond.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwb5Xe7RvcX
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6z6IvrxiCn
"No."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12v5An519t
"What did he do to you?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTz1B2Z2jDD
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9tVOOhRkV
"Did you fight him?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6c46p28tD0
"I tried."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGPrQnds20n
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphaXN99VpC
"I think I blacked out."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9dZqpRNuAi
"I see."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNcs0rXf1O
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2PcPr6mDdq
"And how long were you with him?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyuVGvq7ovA
"I think about ten hours."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWtICFvJGU4
"And you only just managed to escape?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ExpSEhLI6
"Yeah."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyAvWvWMSCB
"Do you know where you were?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQdAoqUkrf3
I say "No."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwc5uA4BjQI
"What is the last thing you remember?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ue3m705Ud
"I remember walking down the road."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCj7UNOD8yc
"And then?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTT6y2UxSIk
"I don't remember."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2WKJJ4m18
"Do you know how you got away?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGPWg9kfpA
I say, "I just ran,"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXDzAS10tv
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS2bZBEaWRw
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrV4WOf0xY7
I say, "So that's how it all happened."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ448U3iNmo1
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsfgxx8u7j8
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1IeMOQTVf
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMY5Fk0D7BZ
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiD4WBPFBiO
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAIYPFHEMIz
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0AxjqIvwS
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbt9SvtktN
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLaUZlIlJFR
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWTC8IX3vEj
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt045ujYVDY
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYeABMMRfO2
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfoHtWyHrV
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbFpl6nTxoZ
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYxOrFfPzzY
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH6477NmJeW
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxls89bFrq
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At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJ8cZ9qNed
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0hkq3EkKn
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXSFx9rbTKk
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp1R0TU29yq
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDMWE4SH4hF
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2QCndqpxM
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETO8sr23fJ
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ07iru57zJm
"Get up." he says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNMFCyNggn
"Why am I here?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdaOtBemFnA
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5MIr9zOMbC
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDG03Z4mZBw
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkVHZDigSiz
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIbQYwzxt3N
I sit down.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBIPT2p7GW7
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKkZW2NHt7g
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cgVDUnU8v
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKsBubr2jEt
I say, "No."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OxylUJIZT
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWovgVlMEN
I respond, "Yes."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfSf9hebFOk
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwa0aWl6lj
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuygMCICh7Q
"Yes."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvG28nIqNGb
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFvKGspAw2
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52QNyLmPpG
I say, "Hi."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1QLw6URLO
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBHyPWvK7c2
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFUID9ogMc
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSCKCbnt9he
"Right away," says the woman.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZotRq4eHL
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8erK26UTsK
I say, "Okay."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSP4A63PNG
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvszVBsJZmj
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gvA3oxVZk
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUA6VM4k2n
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBmwgMJbcxv
"He kidnapped me."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLQPZhGD08S
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8V5hPQIwZY
I say, "He tried to stab me."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHt7Xxm0ukh
"Who was he?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBcMFh4Uhl
"I don't know."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgtdNRZLiYb
"Where did you get the knife?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCU3U5z9Fam
"He had it in his pocket."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFzRYsNaLc
"Did he threaten you in any way?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLpKz4SapB
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOM6GDQXr24
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWceO0h8Vff
"No."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaWtXqTZt8s
"You sure? Think hard."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7fnQfoutvr
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGEr11mUxbr
I say, "He killed my father."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6XsA5gwBm
"What?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyD1ffJrT3f
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qIIFQ0EbS
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTqtR9HHl6
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdIreOZerA
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4f1IUMHMOQ
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8Bb2CHC1D
I say, "Okay.."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMNfprQAy9i
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnE0Rc92QrC
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI9QE7q0wre
I follow him.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJWtQOpoMU
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqOKZ4KQWbh
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC3KWHojZhO
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOP8zf8jLWD
"Alright. Take a seat."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9CCdCMmMkb
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXBQZz7WgAC
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMAa4jfK3dZ
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6RqlcAzu7L
"Yes.."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgLuRjPHZW
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBx8okzeNr
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38WGDZuNE5
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lib9rkX6l
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXT4hT0dtk
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz5BaIOTxPp
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzzeibooU4
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEpgAzThpv
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNa01gtVEST
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXtkopGPqSR
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7EQrJ2TFDG
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMvOuuejbj
"What is it?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkegkWqT2bb
Doctor Kessel says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXXzQB53w9p
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2rGrAuBszi
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTrxyxdLRR
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeJ5X6MVsiw
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKVs3dt2NFU
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKdeYZIZmJ
The nurse shakes her head, and says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRcsve6cq1
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcEJN1VjtgN
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhrfQK4dhTL
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6RwuE7PXH
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡquSTuBH6LP
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡusCq2Yn12M
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC5C9IAYi4j
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡps96ko5bAh
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtczuOE9MtG
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡELi5v9B9cd
I say "Where am I?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrMdzeFuqJ
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6GGPzz4FY7
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTi3E2aJtWm
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Wl1XTtTDX
I say, "I want to see my mom..."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLo3ulnyXM
The nurse interrupts me and says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4xwrW8yDD2
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMZsY7EUWS
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrxNC2Lgc3
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A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCcINyc4az
"M-mom.."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT2y30flgw2
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZAvagzyOh
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcqUyM10vi
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgNrh1GSDj
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡecsg6mM91l
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykJR2TTZhu
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgVBvN7zMe
"Yes.." I say quietly.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1Ua9IApxm
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn7aakUbxic
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0kYjVcIV1L
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡABH3kis7xp
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYLj68xfIw
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHSq9hCtkX
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwEUpDB8S5N
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs89Kk2BWEf
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTAfNniiZ7
I say, "Okay.."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxE3tFfmMZf
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡppMYmqFoyq
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcl7apG2HP6
I wipe the tears off my face.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJnfwQA4Da
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeihsE7JBoD
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOa3QBmMH9
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWV3BTLns9
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiYqEtt8x1h
I say, "Tell me!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsmixHohPdL
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRdwlbtrWWi
My heart drops.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOU7s1mxLbP
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeS3S3MNM4M
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In the morning, I get my visitors.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0X0EvyCPML
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡinzgD4QRQz
I say, "Wait!" She stops.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡafKimK6efD
"What is it?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPrPGVwskIF
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOL8mZzg4nx
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8UY4qGKzU
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGuwaJsH6Zl
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVcR0HWGZ3c
I cry myself to sleep.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjdYYqyuUX
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvFkiYJkyP
"How are you doing, honey?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsvkJK0keru
I say, "Horrible.."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNqKAmE2f0
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk1pIk5Upd7
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgiclam2LA
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzFjARjr9v
"It's not your fault, honey."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvdpFr83ir
I start crying again.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavAa1DGeI5
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8AshdGd6Dv
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFMh6Apw1M
Maybe I'm dead after all.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvQYZUE2VHm
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3qtPfH6mY
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW8O1pdFmoc
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDgvwDD5sS4
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡURVyrGjFI8
I say, "I still want to win this."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgxaZnhPWo
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6TQMsyfs4D
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJRE1vCvmr
"Really?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35ghBqtS35
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPh9xGCb8C
I start crying, and I can't stop.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDa5F91WVO3
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9mdZGtc98t
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRUljWIXkm
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxaqiP1oEK
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqSM5jW8pQ
"I wanted to see the flowers."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDue4gzg3T
"Why are you out of your room?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQtaxrPhmZZ
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡde3YqkQE9o
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykqo7NvMId
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqTDGg98mNB
"Thank you for being you."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxvUAI1mouT
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHddOeXZH56
I make a decision.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxu9bkvspnm
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡib5Kj72OoM
"What's your name?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnnd9w69zn
"Allisa," I say, smiling.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifE8qlaIFJ
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8Vp523ER1
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYAIWfcD1m
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡulAYVeBNo8
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZzfF3Ky0d
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Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGm2vgJLJU5
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXzBsI7HUN
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZJQsSj577C
"I just want to go home," I say.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpztINftXbe
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3OhMD6vS4
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7DWmXacDC5
Father sighs.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLIjmwcRvQ
I say "I don't want to stay here!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHX1mZO83yT
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjEn0OBBpi
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhULsAYAdf9
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsEds5igfCA
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVaoBdN24I
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPfFgdz1uO
"Pet, come down from the tree."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRL1fNm5kiL
I stay silent.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVopDquHoq
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqx1SMgdt18
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWCifufTBE
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb9I1XR8RZV
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdmpwcMQPYl
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdf3RBYVoC
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj2nhmo2m7L
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCX0RwkcknJ
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyA9C15467U
I say, "Please don't hurt me."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxofLjvfX0m
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkH0VWg3Vo2
I say, "Please don't!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthEpIGYgEV
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXAJKOFUcd
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLSlzH8bA0k
"You'll find out soon enough, child."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdF0D5vV5B
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfquWNcRkQt
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIDdueaniQ
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281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrh0BEJ4B0I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv83gWWb1nH
"Are you ready, child?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHKyJdTDhJ
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrhsWRqKTj
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUwz2mGAD0N
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I say, "Okay.."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkvSr9YoB2d
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNXQlg27xl
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjh8qpVGSeM
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZeHE9KFdE
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mVlgefcmZ
Father says "Good. Stay there."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLX6PtMM2N3
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJ53ji8QyZ
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4nAWlTHlI
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoUdNiUWkqJ
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbF1HjrlnTN
"Please!" I whisper.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcr9lEVVYaG
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDUkKxpXHB
I scream loudly.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvVxkgEd4Q8
My scream echoes throughout the room.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUakGj1KEsZ
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2nV08PYmc
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CI229e15s
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfmTf03WdI
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7rXKPWl8p
I say "P-please s-stop.."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGspqYlRxnT
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxg6clWQ3HR
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJlrAh75kp
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9kgGGbzuoH
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJNpHS11zF
"Look at her," another says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgXCzcTMwp
I say "Please leave me alone."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdiPk16YDYn
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nRBtDCrds
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjdDAK5yWU
"We'll see. Let's see."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0RjUE8Z5VW
I say "No no no.." They laugh.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOOsBdaEcwu
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xlAi2M7Ct
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡunWnxM7xlK
They untie me.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlPfKR8BIyR
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡacwwCpPJZt
"Ah... you're up," Father says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5e5cD7PGd
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4
281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrgjDe9uRv5"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvHvkVw20S
"Where were you?" he asks,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhB9pzylLc3
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYLVNYVZLd
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTJgS41Uvs
Father smiles.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFM3C8PRi7p
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8D8zjFRXKe
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDWhRdA7mud
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9eOoJopak3
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡttm50166t0
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0eLUaV1wB
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRBXzUahx43
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6HveGHAWkI
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT9UmG9rgG9
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS6rmmTFFCk
I say, "Please let me go!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC3H5Mnbgo6
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwrrptXHa6
"You will," Father says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwcxBWYD1W
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡISDKX7EmLO
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVifPiIbJGl
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpo7pmg8Mg0
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4RqHC1naSG
"Stop crying," he says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAeVOAiiHaB
"I can't!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRyJNMHcWc
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPWyOdu68ra
"Stop it!" I cry.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwx5cuPAak
"I said stop it!" he yells,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk4Go5G5yFs
"I can't," I say.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3P4ltbpaG
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZS7IpVu406
"NO!" Father screams.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNOJgmePW6
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY9gZcOSTLX
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJw6h2F0zP5
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZkV6lGor9
"I would. I really would."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFOnVM0YqoO
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL4eSAWmhfu
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCX0j5J1R81
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcH1C5TYxEP
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf42hNES9jf
I say, "No I'm not!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLkdVtOyS1y
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbAr4HnSk5x
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGPDnORRIC
I say "No I won't!!!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjWSy9mWEy4
"You will!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYadoIRLr0g
"I said NO!!!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSZ1nHB126
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3wGvZDODh
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqhbEwtpGhi
"I know you will," Father says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRScHd3qy5b
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzHwRh97KMf
He says "One."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6JIsPsiXTc
I say, "I'll do anything.."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNSNN1PgChm
"Two."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxab53ajJFx
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GfMZVsokZ
"Three."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyARB1Tk2xE
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3B9xIPyeZ
"No, don't do it," Father says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5tffZhzt5e
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCablWcrmL
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5xX4beQQh
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRAtOy65av7
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCb97JB8fF
I say "Yes."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMekICuLQZ
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Fk37V2ECJ
"Yes," I say.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOGL3sQRz7
"Good girl," he says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdyyYOCpWrH
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUFnN0jvgk
"I won't," he says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIe49HenWut
I stay tied up.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Ff14z8Rij
"Now," he says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWVIY3na1Sg
"Kneel."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJx8isIdDO
"Please," I say.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOzATdGvIG
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6C963yF9F
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDFIz51kMG
I just know it.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQ0m2oYHxf
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoiCJfWboQc
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuB9toW8CIk
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMB08FjgiRr
I'm all alone in the room.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoOj5EGU8Um
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281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPdlgDSAMiLI hear the door open. I look up.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡARr4h66PW2
"Hello," a man says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡffZWL1voMM
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Oh4hxFNsj
"Hands behind your back," he says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHeRZ53ehK
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2mGZ4249t
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1UTOiEYWh
"Stay there," he says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6uAhFZImu1
I stay on my knees.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvNEhPmjt9t
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXGCVb3nz8
I say "No no no."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2Jg0I8CuK
"Do it," he says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDcIlYu5NJ3
I say no. He pushes harder.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoU8tMOFHnu
"Do it!" he says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2gVTKY6YR
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJB2o5ssqSO
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQqkjPHRIvQ
"Stay there," he says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGokmAPeNkF
I stay on my knees.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRpolOuDox
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL0NP6A1xYB
"Stop moving."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOx36azg0o4
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiNt6VTXaVM
He pulls it out of my throat.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqw1BzgfOEJ
"What's wrong?" he says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR535JOJfii
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4k2jD2b82
"What?" he says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiNoU0TKznK
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfiQRtGLsfW
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyundeUSFTH
"Is this too big for you?" he says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuaypOCjEzJ
I nod.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOToLCfvX05
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJWtEhzgUM
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzIizidi99O
He shoves it back in.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ44RO0ZEEaf
I decide that vomiting once is enough.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrC4PCHvkSC
He shoves it in deeper.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7zhh0905z
I struggle and fight.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHgSQSi32Fm
"Stop fighting me," he says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPCNM79b8hS
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTV2ijLoiL9
"Get dressed," he says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb9fGFckRs3
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBnTWk8NNW
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0TNORBOd59
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281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2o8IH1fkVG281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXz82ljdNBy
My mother comes running out of the kitchen.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQmGhYGaL0H
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6uSzay4G2
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVK9UIFK1VY
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBINenR0O9g
I say, "Where's dad?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7gAXPOYt4
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTgWjshdAK
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡefcfSXBxvs
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ogYK1y0Sk
My father says, "Where have you been?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMpBToKAaTy
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Ap2eq6u4M
"Did they hurt you?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPIX2R64Fxu
"Yeah," I say.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4K7tFgwXu
"I'm sorry."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCTGfMrdj5
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOUgzJc92Ha
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡja0eIY5iAl
"Is Allie in here?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKLu59hmptl
My dad says, "Yes, why?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpqbtpvOTir
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5fY0QkoF0I
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9Xuaeyf0s
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgKAYpf5TGp
"No." I respond,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHOwgUprI8
"Can we come in?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu1pY9TLTxq
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBbQeBU1gcc
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhYzff6qKU
I say, "I don't know."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXPTcqIJcQ
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP7VdN5xg86
"No." I say,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjEgCV8fwFi
"Are you sure?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjp7JSIiRFi
"Yes."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljJ8jsUIX6
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡelGr4xFqnP
"Did he give you any food or water?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4xd3p3mWV1
"No." I respond.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwb5Xe7RvcX
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6z6IvrxiCn
"No."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12v5An519t
"What did he do to you?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTz1B2Z2jDD
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9tVOOhRkV
"Did you fight him?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6c46p28tD0
"I tried."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGPrQnds20n
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphaXN99VpC
"I think I blacked out."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9dZqpRNuAi
"I see."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNcs0rXf1O
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2PcPr6mDdq
"And how long were you with him?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyuVGvq7ovA
"I think about ten hours."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWtICFvJGU4
"And you only just managed to escape?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ExpSEhLI6
"Yeah."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyAvWvWMSCB
"Do you know where you were?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQdAoqUkrf3
I say "No."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwc5uA4BjQI
"What is the last thing you remember?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ue3m705Ud
"I remember walking down the road."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCj7UNOD8yc
"And then?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTT6y2UxSIk
"I don't remember."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2WKJJ4m18
"Do you know how you got away?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGPWg9kfpA
I say, "I just ran,"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXDzAS10tv
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS2bZBEaWRw
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrV4WOf0xY7
I say, "So that's how it all happened."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ448U3iNmo1
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsfgxx8u7j8
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1IeMOQTVf
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMY5Fk0D7BZ
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiD4WBPFBiO
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAIYPFHEMIz
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0AxjqIvwS
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbt9SvtktN
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLaUZlIlJFR
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWTC8IX3vEj
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt045ujYVDY
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYeABMMRfO2
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfoHtWyHrV
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbFpl6nTxoZ
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYxOrFfPzzY
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH6477NmJeW
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxls89bFrq
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281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1F4saBTuVAt the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJ8cZ9qNed
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0hkq3EkKn
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXSFx9rbTKk
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp1R0TU29yq
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDMWE4SH4hF
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2QCndqpxM
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETO8sr23fJ
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ07iru57zJm
"Get up." he says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNMFCyNggn
"Why am I here?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdaOtBemFnA
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5MIr9zOMbC
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDG03Z4mZBw
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkVHZDigSiz
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIbQYwzxt3N
I sit down.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBIPT2p7GW7
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKkZW2NHt7g
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cgVDUnU8v
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKsBubr2jEt
I say, "No."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OxylUJIZT
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWovgVlMEN
I respond, "Yes."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfSf9hebFOk
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwa0aWl6lj
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuygMCICh7Q
"Yes."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvG28nIqNGb
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFvKGspAw2
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52QNyLmPpG
I say, "Hi."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1QLw6URLO
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBHyPWvK7c2
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFUID9ogMc
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSCKCbnt9he
"Right away," says the woman.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZotRq4eHL
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8erK26UTsK
I say, "Okay."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSP4A63PNG
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvszVBsJZmj
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gvA3oxVZk
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUA6VM4k2n
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBmwgMJbcxv
"He kidnapped me."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLQPZhGD08S
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8V5hPQIwZY
I say, "He tried to stab me."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHt7Xxm0ukh
"Who was he?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBcMFh4Uhl
"I don't know."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgtdNRZLiYb
"Where did you get the knife?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCU3U5z9Fam
"He had it in his pocket."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFzRYsNaLc
"Did he threaten you in any way?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLpKz4SapB
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOM6GDQXr24
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWceO0h8Vff
"No."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaWtXqTZt8s
"You sure? Think hard."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7fnQfoutvr
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGEr11mUxbr
I say, "He killed my father."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6XsA5gwBm
"What?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyD1ffJrT3f
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qIIFQ0EbS
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTqtR9HHl6
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdIreOZerA
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4f1IUMHMOQ
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8Bb2CHC1D
I say, "Okay.."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMNfprQAy9i
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnE0Rc92QrC
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI9QE7q0wre
I follow him.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJWtQOpoMU
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqOKZ4KQWbh
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC3KWHojZhO
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOP8zf8jLWD
"Alright. Take a seat."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9CCdCMmMkb
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXBQZz7WgAC
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMAa4jfK3dZ
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6RqlcAzu7L
"Yes.."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgLuRjPHZW
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBx8okzeNr
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38WGDZuNE5
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lib9rkX6l
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXT4hT0dtk
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz5BaIOTxPp
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzzeibooU4
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEpgAzThpv
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNa01gtVEST
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXtkopGPqSR
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7EQrJ2TFDG
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMvOuuejbj
"What is it?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkegkWqT2bb
Doctor Kessel says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXXzQB53w9p
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2rGrAuBszi
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTrxyxdLRR
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeJ5X6MVsiw
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKVs3dt2NFU
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKdeYZIZmJ
The nurse shakes her head, and says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRcsve6cq1
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcEJN1VjtgN
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhrfQK4dhTL
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6RwuE7PXH
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡquSTuBH6LP
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡusCq2Yn12M
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC5C9IAYi4j
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡps96ko5bAh
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtczuOE9MtG
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡELi5v9B9cd
I say "Where am I?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrMdzeFuqJ
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6GGPzz4FY7
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTi3E2aJtWm
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Wl1XTtTDX
I say, "I want to see my mom..."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLo3ulnyXM
The nurse interrupts me and says,281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4xwrW8yDD2
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMZsY7EUWS
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrxNC2Lgc3
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281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmlp9EujOJjA few hours later, my mom comes to visit.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCcINyc4az
"M-mom.."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT2y30flgw2
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZAvagzyOh
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcqUyM10vi
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgNrh1GSDj
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡecsg6mM91l
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykJR2TTZhu
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgVBvN7zMe
"Yes.." I say quietly.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1Ua9IApxm
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn7aakUbxic
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0kYjVcIV1L
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡABH3kis7xp
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYLj68xfIw
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHSq9hCtkX
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwEUpDB8S5N
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs89Kk2BWEf
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTAfNniiZ7
I say, "Okay.."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxE3tFfmMZf
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡppMYmqFoyq
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcl7apG2HP6
I wipe the tears off my face.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJnfwQA4Da
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeihsE7JBoD
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOa3QBmMH9
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWV3BTLns9
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiYqEtt8x1h
I say, "Tell me!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsmixHohPdL
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRdwlbtrWWi
My heart drops.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOU7s1mxLbP
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeS3S3MNM4M
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281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNLUVlIyDqLIn the morning, I get my visitors.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0X0EvyCPML
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡinzgD4QRQz
I say, "Wait!" She stops.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡafKimK6efD
"What is it?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPrPGVwskIF
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOL8mZzg4nx
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8UY4qGKzU
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGuwaJsH6Zl
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVcR0HWGZ3c
I cry myself to sleep.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjdYYqyuUX
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvFkiYJkyP
"How are you doing, honey?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsvkJK0keru
I say, "Horrible.."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNqKAmE2f0
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk1pIk5Upd7
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgiclam2LA
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzFjARjr9v
"It's not your fault, honey."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvdpFr83ir
I start crying again.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavAa1DGeI5
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8AshdGd6Dv
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFMh6Apw1M
Maybe I'm dead after all.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvQYZUE2VHm
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3qtPfH6mY
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW8O1pdFmoc
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDgvwDD5sS4
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡURVyrGjFI8
I say, "I still want to win this."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgxaZnhPWo
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6TQMsyfs4D
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJRE1vCvmr
"Really?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35ghBqtS35
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPh9xGCb8C
I start crying, and I can't stop.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDa5F91WVO3
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9mdZGtc98t
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRUljWIXkm
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxaqiP1oEK
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqSM5jW8pQ
"I wanted to see the flowers."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDue4gzg3T
"Why are you out of your room?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQtaxrPhmZZ
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡde3YqkQE9o
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykqo7NvMId
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqTDGg98mNB
"Thank you for being you."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxvUAI1mouT
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHddOeXZH56
I make a decision.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxu9bkvspnm
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡib5Kj72OoM
"What's your name?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnnd9w69zn
"Allisa," I say, smiling.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifE8qlaIFJ
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8Vp523ER1
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYAIWfcD1m
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡulAYVeBNo8
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.281Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZzfF3Ky0d
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