You stare out the window at the world outside, the lush green trees, the flowers beginning to bloom for spring, and the grass you have not touched for so long. The cult members walk through the mountain hideaway they call home, dressed in their long yellow robes and living inside small cottages. They all look so happy, and you wonder if any of them even know about you. You've been here for several weeks, living as a pet for their leader whom they call Father, and not once have you been happy during that time. You've mostly just been scared and homesick.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFnwQBWitm
Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35dKWZIINW
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTrmZK80Q0N
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7iNd2Vw8p9
"I just want to go home," I say.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuUM4EfdcyE
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡriIYWcSNCl
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIb0e8fuyxO
Father sighs.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZScil0TRT
I say "I don't want to stay here!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHIr5MouMy
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDxZA22Zqpy
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1tw4koTqM4
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yl2aWbijx
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡocKPdUhfSb
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQCbo1fSf4
"Pet, come down from the tree."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcB7aV5rLgV
I stay silent.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3L3M9YP7r
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEy8mcA3kNM
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGluypNklxS
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaVTYYTSHj
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUEHu65DfAp
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZunyktyoz
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5MdMH20OX
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsw6d8RLBgr
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEE010qOnXc
I say, "Please don't hurt me."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIBPBcECtu
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6EOJXqW7x0
I say, "Please don't!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3W9xagGoqf
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5u12GLIKX
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZ99tBGMhi
"You'll find out soon enough, child."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7IX57vKJpS
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoKZaeM5L0t
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡplFDcJp1oX
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I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeNCqHvooKT
"Are you ready, child?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9WtAmLJP4S
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFcE2FMeX9
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKoaKhZkbKd
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I say, "Okay.."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZuVNHrEr3
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtsmPdRfE8y
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNiGpZ2W3g
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3vYD9nsdF
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSL4oTky66S
Father says "Good. Stay there."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMa98Z0K6Xp
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdc1Xs1pn4
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaTy8dLJnKL
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpIHemjCp7A
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwX9RNree1b
"Please!" I whisper.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjx9RfHGOo0
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZAq6JbXtJH
I scream loudly.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZX5IlPwZRP
My scream echoes throughout the room.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2MtDGo4ST
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2rAqNdDF4
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDv5vDw0jUq
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsL89rGvDcR
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83RCiv0KIt
I say "P-please s-stop.."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiggXIzE0vU
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0guNKcdcvR
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSteXwBgct
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHNQPe0Fpq
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqe1mslzlhV
"Look at her," another says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ApvWtNGnz
I say "Please leave me alone."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs9k6HzQIYF
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIoqfuu7wz
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfQkRVgYDgq
"We'll see. Let's see."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLjhT936QP6
I say "No no no.." They laugh.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYGVHzWSkl
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwhXAFguSQb
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDudlAimB0t
They untie me.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXzTeT8beF
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46DPoeO7zc
"Ah... you're up," Father says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4862GjN8Xu
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"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUG2KYvhm3
"Where were you?" he asks,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKWlzj3yfm
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGrTsFT7TU5
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYJTOcH1eR
Father smiles.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvOZfqSkzD
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKWzfSgdtg
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpcowQJEdV
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGRaPiawoSG
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfM5j6chsv7
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx30oIHCvgj
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPcehvRqwQu
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHvZwulXl6f
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBCfIAN2yX
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUrEURMYxpN
I say, "Please let me go!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc0XvHJRmoQ
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMeBMtOFaNZ
"You will," Father says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCefkWiN1Y
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2djBMWcsSX
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSvcld0BaNK
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeEwsPK52Y7
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Dzj0kU2j9
"Stop crying," he says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVXSkbUaq9
"I can't!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdooijdhPkE
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcp6OkVlps
"Stop it!" I cry.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCddS0adjw
"I said stop it!" he yells,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh9sQRdIc8s
"I can't," I say.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2XSHERpXik
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4KsfnTuWl
"NO!" Father screams.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8hKyBDAgB
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtyD95sLpYg
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6nBwJiccT
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iIcywhjCA
"I would. I really would."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkFOHH9pWg
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7qr2J5Hq0m
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZ3R4daCIq
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1KIEGr0GH
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwkLPnWEx9
I say, "No I'm not!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcXaqHlL3xV
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6tijrfG7sz
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡziqg3ChOBH
I say "No I won't!!!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkoYa1PJJy2
"You will!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIoRciE7XjB
"I said NO!!!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0lM7fDYe7
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZeqq6cwe7z
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3HDdQdeaY
"I know you will," Father says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CCl7PlDVu
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmBtUjhcph
He says "One."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAgEeE5aIZ
I say, "I'll do anything.."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa194gozcqJ
"Two."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdHEtJNOghx
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt69aPRgZ6j
"Three."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgsQpsxNn8M
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡViXjaLeGlt
"No, don't do it," Father says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbiP9kbfcpc
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrC6EmRrEqc
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3BzfbbN7mU
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzuhoXPM3Vf
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxD93Wr5gF0
I say "Yes."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUAZxoUj5F
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhq1z7nqR1B
"Yes," I say.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJoMnwslnr
"Good girl," he says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXjf0Y9YCh
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOt5KPwIkih
"I won't," he says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6htWPN2PfA
I stay tied up.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9E9slWXpn
"Now," he says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡezeDYwhveM
"Kneel."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmtMWttH5A
"Please," I say.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwU9zC3WwF
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLsJb2t3pJ
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdBjMDbYSL
I just know it.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9PYC1q2dV
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡotU6e14jaV
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbRIOiGxtI
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQR6UnrnGB
I'm all alone in the room.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOvmpXYrL5Z
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I hear the door open. I look up.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs18WlwUNwg
"Hello," a man says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡav6znH4vg5
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGslo1geIqU
"Hands behind your back," he says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLuv15XOwHV
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8eUdbvqlq
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxfEXZMYHbm
"Stay there," he says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmxXgecOAl
I stay on my knees.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWFLA9mIQD
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SS0m2SUMm
I say "No no no."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoV0gB46dKn
"Do it," he says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnU8E81Hr4N
I say no. He pushes harder.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVKncmpnsd
"Do it!" he says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDCBZDl6w4
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡriPlh4syLi
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7EA8d1bFH
"Stay there," he says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ709K9F9YB
I stay on my knees.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc62O6puVZg
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYxrdlMJuhK
"Stop moving."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5vKdJR8qtl
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh6O0OKSuk1
He pulls it out of my throat.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTdYq51O8yA
"What's wrong?" he says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2SJ0FQSDW
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboqgJcOomS
"What?" he says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIvfFxR7wqq
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDjZlv8SrR
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJ5Y5WNG8f
"Is this too big for you?" he says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQ4ohepb8b
I nod.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfwif2oy6f
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4O83RZy3Ux
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkI8AoZxoWw
He shoves it back in.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGqjCPxScp
I decide that vomiting once is enough.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Kfk32SR8X
He shoves it in deeper.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaojMZeJcx3
I struggle and fight.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFX5SyTSK2
"Stop fighting me," he says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFbyonLzI4
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxKIW1RpgQ4
"Get dressed," he says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5OoXG3WuXa
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjlvaxJ2Km
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAG5HrugPbV
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3o8RIbiohZ
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylTkrz56Fc
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzPrZ7GEs0
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2B8TIViqQ
I say, "Where's dad?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2roVUG8NZ
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCVQMOZseJu
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjbprDgrBwU
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfriEni9mXi
My father says, "Where have you been?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjprzvcdizE
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbU1aWE7Egm
"Did they hurt you?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXxWE7KF8AR
"Yeah," I say.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCIEErCBngv
"I'm sorry."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY450OAHTfh
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIPoAg8nzK
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6DkK9Yoql9
"Is Allie in here?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfyXeOeFod1
My dad says, "Yes, why?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUMMUNm9Iox
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBxYDc27cx
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ICL2AcNIq
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqoI8vjeZHs
"No." I respond,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeExSfYWlIE
"Can we come in?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3fmEfA7Jd
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4cMiGUPdh
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgFyV4XFOu0
I say, "I don't know."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2TuvOseXNN
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbgBSVCqSO
"No." I say,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmspWKi4gwB
"Are you sure?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb08L48Xju9
"Yes."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFK4NngPGE
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡna6fVk85WW
"Did he give you any food or water?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0DnlJT12C5
"No." I respond.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi4HdSzcw3I
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZm3ML4JdPk
"No."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5jPjqXk4m
"What did he do to you?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0SGG10k0TR
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdsF99JAhd
"Did you fight him?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu8VBBICQfN
"I tried."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHnWrbDi9g1
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxDWnvYIXRX
"I think I blacked out."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡidypcmYPHb
"I see."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZlWCNpgC3
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoboqifEefo
"And how long were you with him?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRoOai6gSzD
"I think about ten hours."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEuCu5Q2Y9
"And you only just managed to escape?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmGkrX21iS
"Yeah."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQDXX2KKSVL
"Do you know where you were?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7nXd8EptOF
I say "No."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZcgQ5GuL57
"What is the last thing you remember?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ65PKzg1GE0
"I remember walking down the road."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡneStcMnep2
"And then?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkq6rfX28du
"I don't remember."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFtZ1hBZ8T
"Do you know how you got away?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkGdYLLw7P
I say, "I just ran,"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Eu8j73P6p
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡICV40U0EXg
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRNiUFUZ2z
I say, "So that's how it all happened."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQpBWejOCK
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrTRbqpfE8i
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMve4Bbrwv6
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZl9LhPmudS
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtRn9ASa7rR
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4nfUx7MjC
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySjzltvZjj
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHR7fynf7U
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3dbGbxVT5N
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvQcIiUbOOa
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtuLv57Honf
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCU7z8JZz8
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDd00wrsZo
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4WNSQtxDf1
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡce4gjN036R
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmtGqoU9b1x
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtanlMGXqtA
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At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9q6C1kMdk
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54zmZOKsRX
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBeNZjmUBG0
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8EidPgK0W4
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaLXLIEagmu
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgpZpAFR2h
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxnXacyDJu
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZSjNNFfWR
"Get up." he says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaA05NzqWrj
"Why am I here?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfYjFd0mmJ2
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFVhD1LlUQ
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PH4OoALhh
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2V1JHm33O
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYEeLf6HWc
I sit down.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwoi2afO3Rx
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqY7MIP5pNQ
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDrGnzelcji
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBy4yfRCSUl
I say, "No."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFDzY8Aj4E9
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0hmWKPXxwA
I respond, "Yes."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0IJFb5DeG
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFnt5RZrR0d
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp7YA159G7d
"Yes."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7CwRpLus7
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlUzpzoWIpR
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXOwYr6yxkI
I say, "Hi."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1pyzNn6TGF
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVaH04ih7S
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4i6EOkZ4b7
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMGhGNzXKj
"Right away," says the woman.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl27RkIAbpO
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjB3kwRD0W0
I say, "Okay."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt0OlYLc3aO
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShs3W6qadJ
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc3UiiiG91a
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXrzUN1CVrD
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsqoblbMBS5
"He kidnapped me."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSF5SsZs1I
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgYWnxHHDJM
I say, "He tried to stab me."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYUdrj1JvP
"Who was he?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJtmiGc6GcZ
"I don't know."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3YK5pvpKZk
"Where did you get the knife?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh69dI0MLBE
"He had it in his pocket."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLSL6HZquVf
"Did he threaten you in any way?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJJKAdsAUpJ
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlc7BOESxlz
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1gNzUGKJSX
"No."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23tueBP0jL
"You sure? Think hard."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEViMPpiKjN
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13BjIGkX5M
I say, "He killed my father."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKNnaZNgt1
"What?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3MmIMkWZ5n
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoIbtPaKmSB
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5CeMHROHnw
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoA4Yvi8zJA
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4djPaCbE5
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIy8oTnzKD1
I say, "Okay.."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCKCDNAnGIW
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaonWTmvlPp
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0n8sOXNtHw
I follow him.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVUIk3QS4l
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHfSOuSQWYA
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSOdEuMoi0
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQwIQRbE49
"Alright. Take a seat."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkcK4GnQUI1
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ37Hg0kosu
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCBZUgOcof
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJoW7mUXh1
"Yes.."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ10iW2xbP4a
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzF4CZzPA9S
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkAqIpJISC
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTyG3xQ41G
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2wLIDVYQn3
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCR0kacPRE
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmAhhP1BWkV
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfELytKpI1j
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoMk7zOdFae
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaOrZSmgPXy
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8wf3kIOs8
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHeM8cIHPZa
"What is it?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4dCmBSzTb
Doctor Kessel says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJheTuoftj
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9LBxEndbQ
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgE0OioQr2
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdDqe7Ykwfi
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJzGYoCKWzG
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qok17Grbb
The nurse shakes her head, and says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9IUcRz3YdB
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjrFCEd6B2
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB47qMot6HZ
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVIyv5RhPlC
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSJ3Khab6S
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBVn9MdxzRc
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhMiE4JtTr
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVAOPtbFzLL
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2bO39HMXL
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC85B5fk9rS
I say "Where am I?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIaF6mNIF34
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2bwLY9R4i
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7ntX1NSYm
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkkIHQf9ynZ
I say, "I want to see my mom..."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7MamcS5H4
The nurse interrupts me and says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBSFJ5XfHCR
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZYeUli9e0
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Q4VBehb6h
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A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwH37x1u7kj
"M-mom.."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmrhRkIrFv
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZOK0vwLroQ
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXn5tDfK3G5
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡacpzRqdEk3
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZ8MfN7w2Z
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1iM22Y5jK
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGAe8Tgqqs
"Yes.." I say quietly.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgDrMHvbpGG
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0Tt0RzrJt
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfCBBilzyzV
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYozjHJ9TfO
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Wkj4rdvHN
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYNL2JOJVS
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL06jK4Irtb
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Corg2wXA5
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfC789XvNAe
I say, "Okay.."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1w0ztTnJSg
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjc2ZS7la6d
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNKOlifKEv
I wipe the tears off my face.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG13AolhOWA
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMyiDlMyiFk
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjMmN3YkEFC
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWpUCz3eRQ
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxbLFZ8B8tt
I say, "Tell me!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo67sqke7JK
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0QmLO6L25Q
My heart drops.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWI47YmgbWx
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWANxc2lxz
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In the morning, I get my visitors.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ajKELmpOX
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIz6yu2egh
I say, "Wait!" She stops.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFbHt0kQBJ7
"What is it?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGd0oeWpad
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9HyGV2YnVj
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2ggJAH9pj
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTooGPuDERX
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhOmNI5AfYw
I cry myself to sleep.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfEqSxOmxUx
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDNBJPeVZdH
"How are you doing, honey?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmagZ1SfiSC
I say, "Horrible.."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7vpcNiclQ
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMPP1WOdMsj
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOTq3T0qDmj
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhA9GvKNEky
"It's not your fault, honey."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPV1ljnoXov
I start crying again.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ222HpIH9YN
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxc9neBdtwb
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1uKsceaZrN
Maybe I'm dead after all.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWaMrOhisp
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNGUuNx1FY
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp3waNrebjV
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzN31cHlu3
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9gHRssLgT5
I say, "I still want to win this."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡviVaIXr0Gn
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVorlyStyqJ
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCghXps4Ivh
"Really?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUlfcutQ7Th
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzr6y4ggVqb
I start crying, and I can't stop.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2gec8fmnGb
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXyB9mQyXl
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZERVHrWe6u
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpc5VVgTkV
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojihWw5kqV
"I wanted to see the flowers."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7HsFfi8Ff0
"Why are you out of your room?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVhzm1tqgNe
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96unwvt9D9
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHXRS6LEsL
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKtiXsOPOun
"Thank you for being you."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5SUYlhVYDA
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xM3eotAzt
I make a decision.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3hihj7UMPG
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡghTo7n3N5Q
"What's your name?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkV4V9aj09H
"Allisa," I say, smiling.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53MO1alqXk
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKjbSyksjZD
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4R7n4vA9jG
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1FbX91g2WF
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHIjnOexv56
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Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35dKWZIINW
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTrmZK80Q0N
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7iNd2Vw8p9
"I just want to go home," I say.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuUM4EfdcyE
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡriIYWcSNCl
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIb0e8fuyxO
Father sighs.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZScil0TRT
I say "I don't want to stay here!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHIr5MouMy
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDxZA22Zqpy
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1tw4koTqM4
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yl2aWbijx
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡocKPdUhfSb
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQCbo1fSf4
"Pet, come down from the tree."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcB7aV5rLgV
I stay silent.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3L3M9YP7r
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEy8mcA3kNM
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGluypNklxS
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaVTYYTSHj
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUEHu65DfAp
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZunyktyoz
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5MdMH20OX
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsw6d8RLBgr
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEE010qOnXc
I say, "Please don't hurt me."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIBPBcECtu
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6EOJXqW7x0
I say, "Please don't!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3W9xagGoqf
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5u12GLIKX
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZ99tBGMhi
"You'll find out soon enough, child."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7IX57vKJpS
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoKZaeM5L0t
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡplFDcJp1oX
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225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUOi2nX2djLI wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeNCqHvooKT
"Are you ready, child?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9WtAmLJP4S
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFcE2FMeX9
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKoaKhZkbKd
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I say, "Okay.."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZuVNHrEr3
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtsmPdRfE8y
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNiGpZ2W3g
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3vYD9nsdF
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSL4oTky66S
Father says "Good. Stay there."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMa98Z0K6Xp
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdc1Xs1pn4
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaTy8dLJnKL
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpIHemjCp7A
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwX9RNree1b
"Please!" I whisper.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjx9RfHGOo0
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZAq6JbXtJH
I scream loudly.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZX5IlPwZRP
My scream echoes throughout the room.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2MtDGo4ST
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2rAqNdDF4
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDv5vDw0jUq
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsL89rGvDcR
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83RCiv0KIt
I say "P-please s-stop.."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiggXIzE0vU
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0guNKcdcvR
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSteXwBgct
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHNQPe0Fpq
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqe1mslzlhV
"Look at her," another says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ApvWtNGnz
I say "Please leave me alone."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs9k6HzQIYF
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIoqfuu7wz
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfQkRVgYDgq
"We'll see. Let's see."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLjhT936QP6
I say "No no no.." They laugh.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYGVHzWSkl
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwhXAFguSQb
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDudlAimB0t
They untie me.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXzTeT8beF
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46DPoeO7zc
"Ah... you're up," Father says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4862GjN8Xu
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225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡead3WiJ4P1"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUG2KYvhm3
"Where were you?" he asks,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKWlzj3yfm
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGrTsFT7TU5
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYJTOcH1eR
Father smiles.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvOZfqSkzD
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKWzfSgdtg
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpcowQJEdV
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGRaPiawoSG
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfM5j6chsv7
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx30oIHCvgj
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPcehvRqwQu
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHvZwulXl6f
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBCfIAN2yX
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUrEURMYxpN
I say, "Please let me go!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc0XvHJRmoQ
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMeBMtOFaNZ
"You will," Father says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCefkWiN1Y
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2djBMWcsSX
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSvcld0BaNK
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeEwsPK52Y7
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Dzj0kU2j9
"Stop crying," he says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVXSkbUaq9
"I can't!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdooijdhPkE
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcp6OkVlps
"Stop it!" I cry.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCddS0adjw
"I said stop it!" he yells,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh9sQRdIc8s
"I can't," I say.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2XSHERpXik
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4KsfnTuWl
"NO!" Father screams.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8hKyBDAgB
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtyD95sLpYg
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6nBwJiccT
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iIcywhjCA
"I would. I really would."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkFOHH9pWg
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7qr2J5Hq0m
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZ3R4daCIq
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1KIEGr0GH
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwkLPnWEx9
I say, "No I'm not!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcXaqHlL3xV
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6tijrfG7sz
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡziqg3ChOBH
I say "No I won't!!!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkoYa1PJJy2
"You will!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIoRciE7XjB
"I said NO!!!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0lM7fDYe7
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZeqq6cwe7z
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3HDdQdeaY
"I know you will," Father says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CCl7PlDVu
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmBtUjhcph
He says "One."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAgEeE5aIZ
I say, "I'll do anything.."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa194gozcqJ
"Two."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdHEtJNOghx
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt69aPRgZ6j
"Three."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgsQpsxNn8M
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡViXjaLeGlt
"No, don't do it," Father says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbiP9kbfcpc
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrC6EmRrEqc
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3BzfbbN7mU
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzuhoXPM3Vf
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxD93Wr5gF0
I say "Yes."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUAZxoUj5F
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhq1z7nqR1B
"Yes," I say.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJoMnwslnr
"Good girl," he says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXjf0Y9YCh
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOt5KPwIkih
"I won't," he says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6htWPN2PfA
I stay tied up.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9E9slWXpn
"Now," he says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡezeDYwhveM
"Kneel."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmtMWttH5A
"Please," I say.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwU9zC3WwF
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLsJb2t3pJ
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdBjMDbYSL
I just know it.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9PYC1q2dV
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡotU6e14jaV
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbRIOiGxtI
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQR6UnrnGB
I'm all alone in the room.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOvmpXYrL5Z
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225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGhOcLPEwHI hear the door open. I look up.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs18WlwUNwg
"Hello," a man says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡav6znH4vg5
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGslo1geIqU
"Hands behind your back," he says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLuv15XOwHV
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8eUdbvqlq
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxfEXZMYHbm
"Stay there," he says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmxXgecOAl
I stay on my knees.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWFLA9mIQD
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SS0m2SUMm
I say "No no no."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoV0gB46dKn
"Do it," he says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnU8E81Hr4N
I say no. He pushes harder.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVKncmpnsd
"Do it!" he says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDCBZDl6w4
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡriPlh4syLi
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7EA8d1bFH
"Stay there," he says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ709K9F9YB
I stay on my knees.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc62O6puVZg
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYxrdlMJuhK
"Stop moving."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5vKdJR8qtl
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh6O0OKSuk1
He pulls it out of my throat.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTdYq51O8yA
"What's wrong?" he says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2SJ0FQSDW
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboqgJcOomS
"What?" he says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIvfFxR7wqq
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDjZlv8SrR
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJ5Y5WNG8f
"Is this too big for you?" he says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQ4ohepb8b
I nod.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfwif2oy6f
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4O83RZy3Ux
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkI8AoZxoWw
He shoves it back in.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGqjCPxScp
I decide that vomiting once is enough.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Kfk32SR8X
He shoves it in deeper.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaojMZeJcx3
I struggle and fight.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFX5SyTSK2
"Stop fighting me," he says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFbyonLzI4
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxKIW1RpgQ4
"Get dressed," he says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5OoXG3WuXa
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjlvaxJ2Km
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAG5HrugPbV
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225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSyBDFXQdI225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡehDROCsGeU
My mother comes running out of the kitchen.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3o8RIbiohZ
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylTkrz56Fc
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzPrZ7GEs0
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2B8TIViqQ
I say, "Where's dad?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2roVUG8NZ
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCVQMOZseJu
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjbprDgrBwU
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfriEni9mXi
My father says, "Where have you been?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjprzvcdizE
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbU1aWE7Egm
"Did they hurt you?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXxWE7KF8AR
"Yeah," I say.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCIEErCBngv
"I'm sorry."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY450OAHTfh
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIPoAg8nzK
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6DkK9Yoql9
"Is Allie in here?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfyXeOeFod1
My dad says, "Yes, why?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUMMUNm9Iox
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBxYDc27cx
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ICL2AcNIq
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqoI8vjeZHs
"No." I respond,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeExSfYWlIE
"Can we come in?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3fmEfA7Jd
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4cMiGUPdh
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgFyV4XFOu0
I say, "I don't know."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2TuvOseXNN
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbgBSVCqSO
"No." I say,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmspWKi4gwB
"Are you sure?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb08L48Xju9
"Yes."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFK4NngPGE
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡna6fVk85WW
"Did he give you any food or water?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0DnlJT12C5
"No." I respond.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi4HdSzcw3I
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZm3ML4JdPk
"No."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5jPjqXk4m
"What did he do to you?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0SGG10k0TR
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdsF99JAhd
"Did you fight him?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu8VBBICQfN
"I tried."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHnWrbDi9g1
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxDWnvYIXRX
"I think I blacked out."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡidypcmYPHb
"I see."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZlWCNpgC3
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoboqifEefo
"And how long were you with him?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRoOai6gSzD
"I think about ten hours."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEuCu5Q2Y9
"And you only just managed to escape?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmGkrX21iS
"Yeah."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQDXX2KKSVL
"Do you know where you were?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7nXd8EptOF
I say "No."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZcgQ5GuL57
"What is the last thing you remember?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ65PKzg1GE0
"I remember walking down the road."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡneStcMnep2
"And then?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkq6rfX28du
"I don't remember."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFtZ1hBZ8T
"Do you know how you got away?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkGdYLLw7P
I say, "I just ran,"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Eu8j73P6p
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡICV40U0EXg
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRNiUFUZ2z
I say, "So that's how it all happened."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQpBWejOCK
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrTRbqpfE8i
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMve4Bbrwv6
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZl9LhPmudS
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtRn9ASa7rR
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4nfUx7MjC
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySjzltvZjj
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHR7fynf7U
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3dbGbxVT5N
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvQcIiUbOOa
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtuLv57Honf
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCU7z8JZz8
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDd00wrsZo
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4WNSQtxDf1
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡce4gjN036R
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmtGqoU9b1x
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtanlMGXqtA
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225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8afhTJ9OXAt the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9q6C1kMdk
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54zmZOKsRX
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBeNZjmUBG0
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8EidPgK0W4
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaLXLIEagmu
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgpZpAFR2h
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxnXacyDJu
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZSjNNFfWR
"Get up." he says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaA05NzqWrj
"Why am I here?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfYjFd0mmJ2
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFVhD1LlUQ
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PH4OoALhh
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2V1JHm33O
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYEeLf6HWc
I sit down.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwoi2afO3Rx
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqY7MIP5pNQ
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDrGnzelcji
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBy4yfRCSUl
I say, "No."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFDzY8Aj4E9
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0hmWKPXxwA
I respond, "Yes."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0IJFb5DeG
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFnt5RZrR0d
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp7YA159G7d
"Yes."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7CwRpLus7
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlUzpzoWIpR
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXOwYr6yxkI
I say, "Hi."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1pyzNn6TGF
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVaH04ih7S
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4i6EOkZ4b7
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMGhGNzXKj
"Right away," says the woman.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl27RkIAbpO
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjB3kwRD0W0
I say, "Okay."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt0OlYLc3aO
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShs3W6qadJ
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc3UiiiG91a
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXrzUN1CVrD
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsqoblbMBS5
"He kidnapped me."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSF5SsZs1I
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgYWnxHHDJM
I say, "He tried to stab me."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYUdrj1JvP
"Who was he?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJtmiGc6GcZ
"I don't know."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3YK5pvpKZk
"Where did you get the knife?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh69dI0MLBE
"He had it in his pocket."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLSL6HZquVf
"Did he threaten you in any way?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJJKAdsAUpJ
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlc7BOESxlz
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1gNzUGKJSX
"No."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23tueBP0jL
"You sure? Think hard."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEViMPpiKjN
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13BjIGkX5M
I say, "He killed my father."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKNnaZNgt1
"What?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3MmIMkWZ5n
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoIbtPaKmSB
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5CeMHROHnw
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoA4Yvi8zJA
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4djPaCbE5
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIy8oTnzKD1
I say, "Okay.."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCKCDNAnGIW
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaonWTmvlPp
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0n8sOXNtHw
I follow him.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVUIk3QS4l
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHfSOuSQWYA
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSOdEuMoi0
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQwIQRbE49
"Alright. Take a seat."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkcK4GnQUI1
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ37Hg0kosu
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCBZUgOcof
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJoW7mUXh1
"Yes.."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ10iW2xbP4a
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzF4CZzPA9S
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkAqIpJISC
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTyG3xQ41G
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2wLIDVYQn3
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCR0kacPRE
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmAhhP1BWkV
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfELytKpI1j
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoMk7zOdFae
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaOrZSmgPXy
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8wf3kIOs8
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHeM8cIHPZa
"What is it?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4dCmBSzTb
Doctor Kessel says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJheTuoftj
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9LBxEndbQ
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgE0OioQr2
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdDqe7Ykwfi
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJzGYoCKWzG
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qok17Grbb
The nurse shakes her head, and says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9IUcRz3YdB
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjrFCEd6B2
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB47qMot6HZ
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVIyv5RhPlC
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSJ3Khab6S
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBVn9MdxzRc
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhMiE4JtTr
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVAOPtbFzLL
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2bO39HMXL
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC85B5fk9rS
I say "Where am I?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIaF6mNIF34
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2bwLY9R4i
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7ntX1NSYm
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkkIHQf9ynZ
I say, "I want to see my mom..."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7MamcS5H4
The nurse interrupts me and says,225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBSFJ5XfHCR
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZYeUli9e0
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Q4VBehb6h
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225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7TvviFrk0A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwH37x1u7kj
"M-mom.."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmrhRkIrFv
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZOK0vwLroQ
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXn5tDfK3G5
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡacpzRqdEk3
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZ8MfN7w2Z
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1iM22Y5jK
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGAe8Tgqqs
"Yes.." I say quietly.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgDrMHvbpGG
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0Tt0RzrJt
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfCBBilzyzV
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYozjHJ9TfO
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Wkj4rdvHN
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYNL2JOJVS
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL06jK4Irtb
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Corg2wXA5
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfC789XvNAe
I say, "Okay.."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1w0ztTnJSg
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjc2ZS7la6d
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNKOlifKEv
I wipe the tears off my face.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG13AolhOWA
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMyiDlMyiFk
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjMmN3YkEFC
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWpUCz3eRQ
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxbLFZ8B8tt
I say, "Tell me!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo67sqke7JK
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0QmLO6L25Q
My heart drops.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWI47YmgbWx
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWANxc2lxz
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225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEERQCt3ZElIn the morning, I get my visitors.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ajKELmpOX
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIz6yu2egh
I say, "Wait!" She stops.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFbHt0kQBJ7
"What is it?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGd0oeWpad
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9HyGV2YnVj
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2ggJAH9pj
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTooGPuDERX
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhOmNI5AfYw
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The next day, I get another visit from my mom.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDNBJPeVZdH
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I say, "Horrible.."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7vpcNiclQ
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMPP1WOdMsj
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOTq3T0qDmj
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhA9GvKNEky
"It's not your fault, honey."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPV1ljnoXov
I start crying again.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ222HpIH9YN
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxc9neBdtwb
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1uKsceaZrN
Maybe I'm dead after all.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWaMrOhisp
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNGUuNx1FY
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp3waNrebjV
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzN31cHlu3
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9gHRssLgT5
I say, "I still want to win this."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡviVaIXr0Gn
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVorlyStyqJ
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCghXps4Ivh
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"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzr6y4ggVqb
I start crying, and I can't stop.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2gec8fmnGb
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXyB9mQyXl
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZERVHrWe6u
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpc5VVgTkV
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojihWw5kqV
"I wanted to see the flowers."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7HsFfi8Ff0
"Why are you out of your room?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVhzm1tqgNe
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96unwvt9D9
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHXRS6LEsL
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKtiXsOPOun
"Thank you for being you."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5SUYlhVYDA
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xM3eotAzt
I make a decision.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3hihj7UMPG
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡghTo7n3N5Q
"What's your name?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkV4V9aj09H
"Allisa," I say, smiling.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53MO1alqXk
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKjbSyksjZD
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4R7n4vA9jG
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1FbX91g2WF
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.225Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHIjnOexv56
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